I realized today I'm a kid at heart. I fear I'll be this way forever. How does one grow up.. I'm just speculating but I would have to say through experiences. I've not had much of those. Whats more I realized the way I'm completely insecure about who I am and my own thoughts prevents me from really understanding what real relationships are like. I can't see past myself and i fear asking about another. I feel it's impossible to communicate with such limited experience in life. All I can say to everything is I don't know. I can't pretend I do because that is just a lie to those I meet and to myself. |