|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| Young submissive female who has already found her match. I am mostly here to chit-chat with like minded people, and maybe meet sometime for a cup of coffee. No expectations, no propositions. I am taken, after all.
|
|
|
|
|
Well, I broached the idea to Jim... Actually, over the past few days I've brought it up multiple times... Jim just didn't seem to know what the hell I was talking about. So finally, I sat down with him and told him of my submissive tendencies and of my desire to serve him all day, every day. He wants to 'give it a try', but I believe he is confused as to what being a Dominant actually means. Time to pick up some new reading material... *sigh* Well... at least he didn't call me a freak or anything. |
|
|
|
|
Okay. It's one thing to know that Jim has no desire to take D/s beyond the bedroom, however it is another thing entirely to be flooded with emails from would be Doms. I AM NOT LOOKING ELSEWHERE! I don't know how to say this more clearly and I will no longer even answer any email regarding such things. I am, as ever, faithful to James and do not intend to change that. Just because one thing doesn't go my way DOES NOT mean that I'm out on the market! I can only hope that random people, to whom I have never even previously spoken, will stop trying to be my new "Master". I have never, nor will ever want a "Master". I am a submissive, not a slave. Beyond that, I am taken... NOT AVAILABLE. Please, everyone that reads this, take what I say to heart and do not be offended if your emails go unanswered. |
|
|
|
|
*sigh* I have truly come to believe that he is, in fact, Vanilla. This is sad for me to say, but I would rather know this honestly than allow him to keep pretending he enjoys something just for my pleasure. He has no desire to dominate me outside of the bedroom, and has expressed this to me verbally. His belief in 'everyone being his/her own God' naturally conflicts with submission. Willing submission, regardless, still places one will below another, and he has a natural aversion to this. Thus, as I had planned before, I will quietly speak to like minds and continue to serve him in my own unseen ways. |
|
|
|
|
Since my last entry, I have explained the D/s lifestyle to Jim in every way I know how. We had 15 minutes of really great sex as a result but *sigh* he's just not getting what I'm asking. I printed a list of activities I would agree to allow him to do to me or force me to do on a whim, with no need for permission, but he hasn't reacted to that either. I am beginning to lose the last few sparks of hope.  |
|
|
|
|
Well, I broached the idea to Jim... Actually, over the past few days I've brought it up multiple times... Jim just didn't seem to know what the hell I was talking about. So finally, I sat down with him and told him of my submissive tendencies and of my desire to serve him all day, every day. He wants to 'give it a try', but I believe he is confused as to what being a Dominant actually means. Time to pick up some new reading material... *sigh* Well... at least he didn't call me a freak or anything. |
|
|
|
|
I suppose I should write a bit on why I joined this site in the first place. I'm by no means new at submissiveness or D/s, but for a very long time it was a part of me that I chose to hide away. I locked it up inside my head and tried to forget about what I thought (at the time) was an unnatural obsession I had somehow come across. All was going exceedingly well with my darling James, and still is... except for the other night. Skipping back for a moment, Jimmy and I are both into our sex a little on the rough side, so spanking, hot wax, etc. are old hat to the both of us. Recently a friend of ours gave us a bottle of black liquid latex he wasn't using and so we decided to give it a try. Here's where things get a little difficult. Kink, rough sex, whatever... neither of us is new to it. But when it comes to D/s, Jimmy doesn't know a whole lot about it. He's intrigued, though I don't know how he would react if he knew I was a little more than interested in the whole thing. We've been together going on 2 years and tend to speak openly to eachother. He's not worried about hurting me... as I have more piercings and tattoos than I care to count at this juncture. My only worry is how he would react to my desire to wear a collar for him 24/7. I've had my eye on a darling little dress collar, but it's not the physical object that would worry him... but my commitment to live a submissive's life for him... for as long as he chooses to keep me.
I need some time alone with him... time I can sit him down n' talk things over.
Let's hope I can find that time... *sigh* |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
|
|
| |
| Age: 38 |
| Northern Ill,
Illinois |
|
|
|
|
