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I am a little whore. I deserve to be punished . Tell me what you would do to me if you had me. OMG they hurt. Please, please, Sir take them off. I'm begging you.

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4/18/2018 8:15:50 PM
she jumped
free falling
into nothing
wind whipping 
hair back
heart beating 
faster faster faster
as she falls
pounding in her ears
the ground racing towards her
as she passes out
 

3/3/2018 6:59:43 PM
 
walking up the stairs to the second floor in her heels. she was wearing and the sound of the clicking made her pant and get excited
she lightly runs her hand on the banister as she goes up
the gets to the room and takes her key from her pocket locking the door behind her she slowly takes off her coat and walks to the mirror.
as she stands in front of it she licks her lips does a half turn and admires her scanty boy shorts of purple lace and her naked breasts. she holds them lightly and pulls on the nipples
she hears a knock on the door...she checks herself one more time and goes to the door... as the man came in he was smiling with approval and made his approval known by giving her a kiss a long passionate kiss. sliding his hands into the back of her neck and hair pulling her closer and forceful to him
he locks the door with out letting her go and walks her backwards towards the bed, where he shoves her down. as she lay there looking up at him she smiles and licks her swollen lips, he takes off his jacket and loosens his tie and toe slips his shoes off  then he climbs over her and kisses her again before he trails down ward to her neck, chest, nipples and belly...he bites licks and savors her body.   she lays there biting her lower lips trying to be still while he loves her body she turns her head whispers more and can barely restrain herself at the wonderful amazing sensations that he stirs in her. he kisses her neck her back and the indentation before her ass he lightly runs his tongues down her ass crack over her boy shorts.
she moans into the bed. he tells her to slowly push up on her knees with her arms above her head 
face down her ass in the air he ties her hands to the headboard and puts a ball gag in her mouth.he takes his time nibbling and sucking hidden places and untouched ones
as he does he contemplates on saving her panties and decides to rip them off of her instead she is surprised and excited at the same time, as he removes the shreds of her lace boy shorts he could see how wet and glistening her pussy is she moans over the ball gag he touches her ass with both hands and lightly fingers her pussy, just enough to slip a finger and taste her off of it  he leans in and spreads her ass and licks it  she practically jumps and he spanks her two sharp blows for moving  as she moans from the blows he takes a min and takes off his belt and shirt
taking the belt he delivers a short but stinging blow right above the back of her knees leaving a red line   then he sets the belt down and caresses the angry red welts with his hands and tongue
moves back to her pussy and slides a finger and coats it with her own juices takes the ball gag off and she tastes herself he goes back to her pussy and begins to finger fuck her and lick her juices he tastes her and enjoys her pussy meanwhile his cock is to hard just the slightest pressure makes it more sensitive  she is close he could tell by how she pants and begs for release  he stands up and slides his cock into her wet hole  he grabs her hips and shoves his cock all the way into her pussy till he is in to the hilt his balls slapping her clit he does it over and over and she cries out as he  goes in  he fucks her relentlessly til shes begging for more  he takes her to the edge but doesnt allow her to tumble over it he pulls out and unties her. tells her to turn over with her head over the edge of the bed looking up at him there he tells her to suck on his cock and make it clean as she sucks on his cock he squeezes and pulls on her breasts and touches her pussy 
he enjoys her tongue, her wet hot mouth how deep he can go into her mouth the very thought of her lips and mouth engorged with his cock makes him harder  he loves looking down on her and her feasting on him makes him smile.  knowing that he could and has that power over her of her trust she loves the heaviness of his cock in her mouth of his taste the way he looks at her when she sucks him off  she tries her damnedest to give him the best head as she could she wanted to make him happy to have his approval   she sucks as far as she could go and gags a little he smiled and pulls out of her mouth he moves to her pussy and touches her clit for a few seconds making sure she is wet enough he lifts her legs and puts them on his chest her red heels near his face as he slides his cock into her pussy  she cries out he looks down on her chest and sees her breasts bounce with the force of his cock in and out of her wet heat.  the generous orbs bouncing has his eyes following she takes her hands and holds them squeezes them and pinching the nipples he watches tells her to lick her nipples  she does he tells her to bite them   she does as she does he slaps the underside of her thighs   she moans and her muscles tighten he can feel the sensations and his begins to feel his cock harden even more  they are both soo close  he pulls out and lays on the bed tells her to ride him backwards cowgirl  she straddles him and he caresses her ass as she slowly slides down his cock  she moans and arches her back  he takes the opportunity and invitattion and smacks her ass and grabs a handful of her hair and pulls hard enough to let her know he allows the moves  she moves her body as he wants her to  fast slow playing with her clit when he says  she rubs his balls when he says  then when he is close and she as well he tells her to lean forward as far as she can and he slowly inserts a finger into her ass smacks it a couple of times to transfer the sting and tells her to sit back up and ride his cock all the way home  she is stunned and is a little intimidated but tries and finding out she likes it she tries to please him once again  she moves on him he smacks her ass she moans she is so fucking close she uses one hand to rub her clit and balls alternatively and the other to play with her breasts the complete sensations is absolutely overpowering she cums on his cock her muscles tightening griping his cock  he could feel the signs of her cumming and pulls a little tighter on her ass hole smacks her ass a couple of times and can feel her gripping cunt on his cock  he looses his battle and shoots his cum into her pussy  he could feel his and her juices on his cock on balls and slaps her hip and ass again then slowly he takes his finger out she gets off of him and he tells her to lick up the cum off his cock she obeys and he watches as her tongue darts out and laps at his cock on his balls sitting back thinking that those fucking red heels do look damn good on her
 
 

3/2/2018 10:12:25 AM
Trust There is so many places where a person gets lost beneath the cracks Too easy for lost souls to slip through and never get back Humanity paces above them treading easily where they could not Dwelling in the shadows of the proud that cannot need them Becoming invisible and insignificant so as nearly impossible to spot It was in such a place where I heard you crying with such anguish Too long alone with your fears that had become too strong to vanquish You spoke of terrible giants, that unfeeling had cast you into banishment Taking all you chose to give, all you possessed much to your embarrassment You could no longer trust in such a world that was your final denouement The place of the shunned unseen had become your natural element. So long too bad I been dwelling in the place of anonymity Unable to hurdle life's pitfalls, I too early in a place of the uncertainty A self imposed exile, who had become a prisoner in growing enmity I caught a glimpse of your crestfallen form and suddenly knew certainty Ours is not a Hell where devils must torment is for this world's eternity You, my delivering Angel have shown me we belong with no uncertainty Seeing for the first time that we were greater than small people snares, Whose treacherous means to trip is up and catch us unawares The need to cut us down was too great because of our characters too great Their only way to feel self important and try to vindicate Wanting characters who tried every means to diminish in order to expiate Take my hand and open your eyes to the truth i can show you You are a great person, and if you trust in me you will know true That together we can transcend this world we both once did rue From lofty places that seem like Heaven, our two souls dwelling above from beneath the cracks Growing stronger Falling into love

2/26/2018 8:46:14 PM
i knew that we had seen each other before but never touched or talked today was different. You came behind me and i could feel the power and hunger that you gave off. You herded me through the airport as if I was the most important thing in the world. It seemed that we ended at the hotel in a matter of minutes. we took the elevator up the sixth floor and ultimately our room. As soon as the door closed you spun me around and i raised up on my toes to kiss you. you held back just in time to say that i smell good before you swooped down and took my breath away. tremors raced down my spine, to my pussy and down my toes with intense pleasure that i felt super wet for you. My clit pulsed and throbbed as you kissed and nibbled down my neck and to my collarbone where you began to unbutton my blouse. you could see that my nipples were hard and pebbled at your merest touch. i put my hands on your shoulders to steady myself as the room spun in dizzying pleasure. you were murmuring words that took too much effort to understand because all i felt was you and the intense power you had. head fell back against the wall as you took my nipple into your mouth and sucked hard on them one at a time. each time you pulled i felt like you were teasing my pussy making it hotter and wetter. as you were sucking you began to inch up my skirt higher and higher in rhythm to your mouth. you stopped when you reached my pussy and moaned in pleasure when you realized that there was nothing underneath my skirt. you slid one finger into my pussy and began to play and pulse my clit and pussy. you started to move down my body to drop to your knees. as you were doing that i was struggling to get out of my blouse and let go of my hair. when you blew a puff of air on my pussy i was lost and when you licked me i knew that i came in a rush that my legs did not hold me up. you got up and took me the bed and it was my turn. i took off your shirt and lightly nipped your nipples and kissed my way down to your jeans and undid them. your cock sprung out long and hard and looked delicious. my mouth watered as i put your crown around my lips. you let a rush of air escape and i felt you shudder. i worked your cock deeper in my mouth and could taste you. one little drop and i was anxious for more i began to work you with my mouth and could hear you telling me to suck you harder, deeper. feel your hands grip my hair and hold my head in place as you practically fuck my mouth. finally you let go and tell me to get on the bed. i was beginning to take off my shoes and you commanded that i leave those on but to take off my skirt and get on my knees facing away from you. there i was on the bed with my stocking and heels on my knees when you thrust your huge cock into my pussy with a hard edge. in and out as you began to spank me with one hand and pull my hair with the other i could barely hear you as my clit and pussy throbbed with each thrust that you gave me. on and on it went spank thrust and pull till i came and began to milk your cock with each tremor that you started. you barely had enough restraint to pull out and tell me to suck you off. the moment that i put my lips on your cock you pulled my hair and kept me place as my tongue worked you and you thrust your hips til you came in hot spurts into my mouth five six mouthfuls later you let go of me and we both collapsed on the bed, exhausted. breathing heavily.

2/23/2018 8:34:13 AM
I look at my phone yet again, smile. I know he has to be going up the wall.  I haven't answered his texts emails and calls.  I smile again as I feel my phone vibrate.  I let it.  I take it out tell my husband that my phone is dying and turning it off to charge.  I spend the next few hours working talking with people and yes, flirting with the occasional guy.  I was so busy behaving as if there was no one trying to contact me.  I knew what would be next.  He would show up.  His powerful presence would invade me every single time.  His alpha personality would one day conquer me, but at the moment I had the upper hand.  I continue to work and I smile knowing that it would happen.  Fifteen  minutes later I get a phone call..
Hello this is Vivie what can I help you with?
WHY THE FUCK HAVENT YOU ANSWERED ANY OF MY MESSAGES?
That voice makes me drip..instantly.  I smile. " I am busy working I can't talk with you at the moment.  Ill text you later"
YOU WILL DO NO SUCH THING.. YOU WILL GO TO THE BATHROOM AND SLAP YOURSELF THREE TIMES AND THEN YOU WILL CALL ME..I WILL GIVE YOU ONE MINUTE AND IF MY PHONE DOES NOT RING I WILL CALL YOU AGAIN. UNDERSTOOD LITTLE GIRL?
sheepishly I say "yes daddy" but I was dripping in my panties.  With heavy shallow breaths I walk to the back as quickly as I can making sure that I turn my phone back on. My smile broadens and I get wetter.  The anticipation of His voice again makes my pussy quiver yet again.  I check my phone..oh crap I'm not going to make it... I get another phone call.
YOU HAVE DISPLEASED ME VIVIE..I HOPE THAT YOU ARE READY TO FACE THE CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR ACTIONS..
yes Sir I am ready
GOOD YOU WILL MEET ME TOMORROW AT THE APARTMENT. .  FOR NOW I WILL EXPECT A TEXT EVERY FIFTEEN MINUTES AND FOR EACH ONE YOU MISS YOU WILL PAY FOR TOMORROW I DONT CARE THAT YOU ARE WORKING AND I DONT CARE WHAT THE EXCUSE IS..YOU HOWEVER WILL BE PUNISHED MY LITTLE WHORE.
He hangs up...I smile and then get wetter. Ohh this is going to be good..
 
The next day I get up early take my husband to work and get kids ready for school.  Thinking that I should be afraid and I should not feel so damn happy that I'm going to see Him.  With the kids off at school the husband at work, I jump in the shower and shave and wash.  Getting out I semi dry my hair, putting it in curlers and cream.  I begin to clean house and drink my last cup of coffee. Fifteen minutes later I apply my makeup and get dressed.   My phone rings...
"Good morning daddy"
"Bitch...I am leaving work..I hope you get there  before I do. Understand? "
Yes daddy I reply
He hangs up.
I grab my purse my bag and my keys and out the door I go..my hair still in curlers I don't care I wrap a scarf around it and drive down the interstate. . I get to the apartment twenty minutes later and see a note on the door.. make some drinks and be naked waiting for your master
I smile and unlock the door.  I put up my things undo my hair and my curls stay pretty. I take off my clothes.  With two drinks on the tray kneeling naked in front of the door I wait.
Keys jingle in the lock
I look downcast trying to hide my smile but its no use he sees it and he knows what I've done.
"So I see my little disobedient whore has a special knack for making daddy mad?..I see I will have to punish you for your actions"
"Yes daddy..I was a bad girl"
He takes his for finger and raises my chin till we make eye contact..
The he takes his finger and dips it into the amber liquid and rubs it on my lips.
I look up at him my pussy quivering with every second that he looks at me
[]I breathe uneasy..i am slightly scared but more excited than ever 
[]He looks at me longer than usual and the His eyes change from seeing right through me to dark and harsh taskmaster  my pussy drips some more.  He takes his drink and sits on the sofa. Vivie come here. Crawl to me. Yes Daddy as I set the tray aside I crawl to him locking eyes with as he likes it. Kneeling at his feet I await his next command. 
[]Take my shoes off Vivie and then I want to to show Daddy some pleasure 
[]I take off his shoes then undo his pants and take out his hard cock. I lick my lips and lick the head swirling it before I slide it down my throat. In and out his cock goes out I can see his pleasure his hands tremble he downs his drink and sets the glass down. I don’t stop. Wrapping his hands in my hair he begins to dictate my speed fast then slow and slower still. Eyes locked he pushes me further down his cock till I gag over and over. Tell Daddy why you were misbehaving Vivie. With a mouthful I begin to form some semblance of words but then he says I don’t want excuses Vivie suck me off and swallow all of Daddy’s cum. 
[]I keep my eyes locked on him as I renew my ministrations slow then fast then slower and deep. Over and over till he explodes in my mouth as I swallow him whole. When he’s done he pulls me off of his cock by the hair and drags me over the back of the couch. Don’t move Vivie. He walks away. Face down to one side ass in the air I close my eyes.  The rustling I hear was him stripping down then I could feel his hands on my ass one second before his belt makes contact.  One Two Three Four Five Six...Twelve....eyes sting and tears flow...twenty.  Then he stops his hands again on my skin. Giving me a breather.  It’s ok baby daddy still loves you. You’re just being a bad girl and need to be disciplined. Yes Daddy. I say between tears and hiccups. I can feel some welts beginning to form but he touches them lovingly  the without warning he slams his cock into my dripping wet pussy. Pounding me making me forget my tears.  Wraps his hand into my hair and pulls me back.  Slamming his cock home every single time till I cry out Daddy I’m close.  He then wraps his other hand around my throat. Daddy didn’t say you could cum Vivie so don’t be a bad girl.  I bite my lips and think of the belt so I don’t cum but oh god I want too soo bad. He continues to fuck me hard and raises me on my tippy toes the he lets go of my throat and pulls my leg up the sofa    He slows down but barely then he stops pulls out and smacks my ass with his hand. I know he left his handprint there. Grabs me by the hair and drags me to the bedroom. There he tosses me in the bed and begins to tie me up. Hands to the headboard and ankles to the footboard face down.  Slowly I breathe cause it could be anything next.  Then I feel the bed dip near my side and he applies lotion to my welts. 
[]Babydoll you need to obey Daddy doesn’t like leaving welts on this beautiful skin. You understand me? 
[]Yes Daddy. I reply but I love the feeling of his hands and I smile cuase it’s definitely not the last time I misbehave. 
[]Do I see you smiling little girl? 
[]Yes Daddy. I love your hands and your discipline Daddy 
[]I know you do babydoll but Daddy hurts having to spank you or even putting you in time out. Daddy wants to not have to worry about your behavior all the time. 
[]Daddy I know you don’t
[]Tell me what do you want for lunch today

little girl so I can order it. 
[]Daddy can we have Chinese today 
[]Yes baby. I’ll be right back
[]As he walks out of the room leaving me tied to the bed I know he has good plans today. A few minutes later he comes in and laughs. 
[]So babydoll today you have earned a special treat. I’ll give it to you when we eat for now I want to use you. 
[]Yes Daddy. 
[]He runs his hand from my ankle to my back and smacks my ass again and I start a bit. Takes the ball gag out of the drawer and places it in my mouth and securely sets in place.  Then he takes the vibe wand and turns it on and places it on my clit. My body instantly drips.  Taking his time he climbs on the bed. Straddling me I can feel his hard cock at my ass. He bends down and whispers he loves me as he slowly slides his cock in my pussy. Slowly he fucks me slowly methodically he rides me just when I am close he pulls out and slowly enters my ass. Once he is he rides home slow.  Making me moan around the ball gag. Pussy dripping   He then ups the rythym  my hands flex and feet point out. 
[]Don’t cum babydoll till Daddy says so understand?  
[]I nod my head. And grit my teeth on the ball gag. Trying to breathe slowly. 
[]He leans over me   
[]Daddy’s little whore was bad yesterday and you need to know that Daddy s word is law. Will you disobey again little girl?  Will his whore be bad girl?  Come on baby tell the truth. 
[]Yes I say around the gag. As best I could
[]I know you will and for that you too will pay when that happens. Daddy’s cockwhore aren’t you. 
[]My eyes roll to the back of my head and say yes again. He fucks my ass harder with each word. He can feel I’m so damn close. But he continues with the questions he knows the answers to. As I fight my orgasm he pushes harder and harder the headboard bangs the wall with each thrust. 
[]You can cum baby girl cum for Daddy  show Daddy what a good fucking whore you are show him.  
[]As I begin to cum he pounds harder.  My ass suddenly get his hot cum as I let loose my orgasm.  As I’m cumin I can feel his cum dripping onto my pussy he pulls out and slams my pussy making me cum yet again.   As I’m floating down he slowly pulls out and climbs off of me   Leaves me there and goes into the bathroom taking a shower.  As I await him my eyes close. At last I’m safe and protected by Daddy 
[]As soon as he gets out I can hear knocking. He goes to door and I’m sure that’s lunch. He comes to bedroom and unties me. Taking the ball gag he says
[]Go clean up babydoll I’ll wait for you 
[]Yes Daddy I walk into the bathroom and step into the shower. I clean up putting my hair up I dry off and walk out into living room preparing to serve him.  He has the table set up already but I see a black box on the table. 
[]Come sit babydoll and eat your food. 
[]As I sit my eyes turn to the black box itching to ask about it but I bite my tongue. He’ll share the contents when he is ready.  As we eat he talks about work and asks me how school is going.  We talk about everything in our lives we share everything. He demands it that way. As we finish up he says 
[]I think it’s time that we take our relationship to yet another level babydoll. This gift is something I only want you to take if you agree. 

1/15/2018 6:32:16 PM
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94% Submissive
79% Boy/Girl
68% Masochist
65% Degradee
54% Primal (Prey)
53% Non-monogamist
53% Ageplayer
51% Slave
48% Experimentalist
46% Vanilla
41% Voyeur
40% Pet
40% Exhibitionist
19% Daddy/Mommy
4% Primal (Hunter)
2% Rigger
1% Dominant
1% Sadist
1% Switch
0% Degrader
0% Owner
0% Master/Mistress

1/15/2018 6:31:36 PM
With shaky hands she drove to his hotel.  It was a first meet and she was excited and scared. She had a bag of tricks unsure what he's choose but she would welcome them all. She parked and checked herself one last time. This was it months of playing and chatting on the phone this was actually going to happen. She walked up to his hotel room and knocked. He opened the door and she smiled. He pulled her in and kisses her roughly like a man  starved. She relinquished control of her body instantly. Her pussy wet.  He shoved her against the closed hotel room door and feels up her leg slowly lifting her skirt in the process. She deliberately forgot the panties. Sensing his smile she knew it was the right choice. With his fingers touching her core she sucks in her breath. She loves his rough hard hands. Already claiming what's his. She spreads open a little more and he pushes in he sopping wet pussy. Pulls his fingers out and tastes her desire for him. She moans. He kisses her again. Pulls her into the room and sets her on the bed. Makes them both a drink and begins a brief conversation with her small talk really because he wants her to feel safe.  She takes a deep breath and let's herself feel his presence around her. He overwhelmingly surround the room he is strong and feral and she loves it.   He sits on the bed with her and slowly starts to undress her. Showing care for her when she just wants to rip off her clothes and beg. She waits semi patiently to his breathing his movement his aura his nearness.  Off her too goes and she exhaled shakily her breath. Does he approve she care not look. He lifts her face to his and smile. He reassured her and kept going with her bra. She looks into his eyes and he smiles back. Slowly touches each of her breasts and the tattoo she wore. The he stands her up and hugs her and slowly runs his hands down and up on her back. And back down to slide off the skirt. Naked she stood before him and he placed her hand on his hardness and said even more encouraging words. She smiled tentatively and he kissed her again. Not savagely but strong and steady. Stepping away from her he pulls out the blindfold and places it over her eyes. With her sense gone she can only trust and she surrender herself to him. He then cuffs her hands behind her back and places her face down on the bed As s in the air and tied her legs with something soft yet firm. 
Taking the flogger from her bag he slowly traces of up and down her body. Making sure he lets her feel safe yet excited. Goosebumps form on her skin.  Her mind racing a thousand times over but never fear.  He brings the flogger down and her ass.  She jumps a bit at the new sensation and moans. He brings it down again and again. Each time she moans and gets wet. After the seventh time he touches her soaking pussy. He paused and takes off his shirt. Places it near her face. She can smell his cologne and it's heady. She moans again. He pulls out his hard throbbing cock and slightly pushes it her pussy. Just enough for the head to get wet and so she can feel him bare   takes the flogger and brings it down just as he pushes into her pussy bare and hard. She moans and feels full he pulls out and brings the flogger down as he pushes in harder this time. Each stroke is harder and harder. She moans. Panting. Crying out his name. He pulls out and find on her ass cheeks. He liked seeing his seed on her slightly red globes. Still hard he goes for the lube. As of sensing what he was upto her heart sped up. She was really about to lose her virginity to him. And she would let him take her in the ass. She has waited for the right one for a while and this was happening now to him. His new toy was going to be her asshole. 
Lubing her ass he spoke to her encouraging words words of endearment and words of naughtiness. She took it all as his hands did the work. She breathed in as he slowly and caringinly took his time to slide his huge cock in her ass. She moaned every inch of the way. He went in bare she could feel him as if he was riding her throat. Long deep and hard. She breathed again. He slowly started moving in and out. Sliding out he pushed himself away needing a second. She was so darn tight he was about to him again. He wanted to prolong the moment make it right for her. He goes into the bag and brings out the vibe. Turning it on he picks up the remote for it and slides it in her waiting pussy  He the lubes up again and slides back into her ass. She feels so darn full she moans and her legs tremble  he takes deep breath. Slowly he begins moving and used the remote control on her vibe. She moans and pants. He stops. Letting the vibe continue he takes the flogger and brings it down on her back. Her mind a whirl she is close to cumming. He begins moving knowing she's close he wants to cum with her. He outlandish the flogger and grabs hold of her hair. Pulls on it and she tells but not in pain in pleasure. He rides her hard.  She loves it and he knows it. Letting go on her hair he takes off his belt and places it around her neck nd pulls as he tucks her harder.  She can't breath but she won't stop him. Just when she thought she'd pass out she cums and he does too. Hot spurts of his fun till her ass. Seconds to by and he slowly pulls out. Cum leaking down to her pussy. He pulls the vibe out. She collapsed on the bed. Mind blown she lay panting.  He takes off his pants and walks back to the bed offering her a drink. Her pulled her face close to his and whispered drink up the night just got started. 

12/1/2017 8:45:55 PM
It’s painful waking each morning 
This ache so deep down inside of me
The realization that I’ll not be part of your world tears my heart apart
With heavy red eyes I start the day
My excuse...allergies 
I pass the day in a fog
Checking my phone, emails for your messages 
None come
The seconds turn into long minutes and even longer hours but I keep checking wishful thinking 
It’s painful knowing that you’ve moved on
Knowing that you never gave a shit
Knowing that by now you’ve forgotten about the memories of us
Moments that I st still hold near
It’s heartbreaking that I still carry this idolization of you 
That you are what I measure all the men too
That I fear I’ll not find one even close to you and I’ll be all alone scared lost helpless in this place
It’s painful that I need to sleep but you keep messing with my mind. Popping more pills just sleep three hours. It’s painful that I cry myself to oblivion every night replaying memories of you. 
It’s a painful...

9/15/2017 7:58:22 PM
Chrysalism 

Before I open my eyes I could feel the rumbling of the storm
It came in the dark quiet and angry
The dark dark grey clouds tumbling in over each other
Lightning so quiet and distant it  seemed so close 
As I moved around following my morning routine the house so dark that when lightning struck, the house would light up
I pulled open the blinds in all the windows
opening the door I could feel the tension of the storm 
Air so thick and heavy ready for destruction
I sat in the porch coffee in hand and waited...

11/4/2016 11:02:13 AM
Today was a long drawn out process. I wanted to cry...to lay in bed and feel you surrounding me..I wanted to do your bidding...to look at you for guidance, love, approval...but most of all I wanted your time Today I sat in my car and cried. I cried because I was alone, scared, and helpless. I cried for the days that we used to share. I cried for sanity and my heart. Today I felt completely eviscerated. Nothing held me down. Nothing made me float. Nothing mattered. Nothing, not even myself could lift me up wake me from this stupor. Tomorrow Tomorrow is yet another day where I'll be lost and struggling to find my footing on this steep mountain and try to breathe in this hell...tomorrow tomorrow Will be another day where .....

10/19/2016 4:49:58 PM
This passion consumes me... What was perceived as a delicate situation Has evolved into an endless fantasy... Why?... I'm still craving your touch Your breath on my cheek as you close your fist around my throat Your bruises, a sign of your attention; Dare I say your love, more than likely Your mark... This endless dream fantasy...

10/10/2015 8:58:26 PM
Everyday I wonder What happened to us Where did I fuck up Why did you leave me How can I get over you Everyday my mind plays memories Hearing your voice Feeling your hands on my skin Sensing your mood when we'd meet Why can I not get over you Everyday my heart yearns for you My ears hope to hear your voice My skin begging to be bruised My mind screaming for new memories Why can I not get over you Everyday I stare at your photo My body hyperaware of your image My breath hitches making me pant My feverish body responding Tears flowing and still I want you Why can I not get over you Everyday I try to live my life Every second I wonder Every breath I think of you Passing the bridge I look for you Everyday I want to go to you Every night I cry Every day I get up Everyday I hope Everyday....

9/28/2015 5:28:35 PM
It hurt The pain seared her soul The reality The simple daily reality of life The daily routine was an impossible task for her The movements to fill the day were like capturing air with a butterfly net...impossible... She wore that facade well... Those daily routines were what kept her together...one slip...one wrong thought or word and she would shatter The reality was she was more than broken She was dust scattered amongst the stars She was nothing and her facade knew it

7/30/2015 8:23:30 PM
Sweet Punishment It's a rush!! Knowing that I'm doing something that will displease you... I smile-secretly My blood rushes my nerves tingle-excitement! My smile broadens...I bite my lip I think of the punishment I think of my last punishment! My pussy gets wet... I chew on my lip and slide my hand from my neck to my wet pussy My eyes sparkle with sheer unadulterated happiness! My mind wanders... I smile. A million and one thoughts race through my mind. Knowing that I'll be on my knees for you. My ass in the air, bare waiting to be raw: red: and bruised Waiting to be marked as yours...to please my Daddy Blind to what you do...I wait Sound is the only connection at the moment. I feel your hand in my hair wrapping it around your fist Pulling back my neck I feel your heat, your body soo close You surround me...completely My mind is a mess... But the minute that your hand connects with my ass....I know I know that I'm safe, needed and protected. It's not about love for me it's about pleasure, control My thoughts scatter and all I'm left with is one Him He doesn't love me, my mind screams, he needs me My purpose is to bring him pleasure My purpose is to obey but I'm difficult.. I want to please him I want... His pleasure-His toy-His pain whore His hand connects..3, 4, 5 I smile not letting him see, I want to please him to make him happy 6, 7, 8, I'm so very wet, my pussy glistens I feel his hand gripping my hair tighter "have you nothing to say about your behaviour little girl?" 9, 10, 11...""no Daddy. I deserve this" 12, 13, 14....he rests his hand on my red ass..lets go of my hair Spreads open my legs so that he can see his pussy dripping wet He touches me makes me taste myself He touches me lovingly-a farce- he slaps me- truth He pulls me towards him and kisses my lips He gets comfortable.."now show Daddy how you will make it up to him" I lick my lips and look up at him I gently slide his cock in between my lips and into my mouth Sweet Heaven he tastes delicious!! My tongue slides and teases but i try to restrain myself..he likes it slow My mouth sucks and teases...I hear his pleasure He grips my hair again and slows me down He likes to see his cock disappear in my mouth He gags me...he loves it His hand lands on my ass 15, 16,17...I dare not stop He is close...I'm close 18, 19, 20 he cums in my mouth I swallow every drop 21, 22, 23, 24, 25...he looks down on me I'm still cock worshiping...I love his cock He smiles... 26, 27.."baby girl cum for daddy" 28, 29, 30 I cum He smiles and touches my dripping pussy He smears my juices on his cock and i continue to suck and lick He pulls me off of him He touches my face lovingly...then slaps me Making him happy is the best I smile...my mind wanders... How can I misbehave? I smile....

7/6/2015 8:39:27 PM
Riven I scream silently into the night Tears stream down my face Pillow wet Hands fisted into the sheets Body bowing in pain My mind searching for words to soothe myself My heart seizes painfully Realistically afraid to go on without you I hold on to the few memories we shared, quite possibly I am sure I treasure Alone Amanacer approaches Heartache fades Routines begin An invisible chain drags my days longer Wanting just a glimpse of answers Dusk descends and my pain attacks in waves never letting up I cry myself to exhaustion Waiting for the darkness to claim me Amanacer approaches and I am Riven

7/5/2015 8:34:51 PM
Supermoon Just saw it shrouded in mist, the star crossed love a moon that thinks its a star because the suns rays make the moon feel radiant, reflective; but always a day away, never together chasing dreams, fresh cream tasted by fantasies of more innocent times, the cows bounding, houndless leap, theirs the milky way, combing the galaxy, searching, seeking, the honey just out of reach, the hive hanging in lofty branches, ringed in a halo of a moonlight, the moon veiled by clouds the face inscrutable There in a heap near the edge I await..barely reflecting the pain I feel the emptiness you left..the soft light can hide the blemishes but I cannot hide from it...from You

7/4/2015 11:07:17 AM
I don?t love you as if you were a rose of salt, topaz, or arrow of carnations that propagate fire: I love you as one loves certain obscure things, secretly, between the shadow and the soul. I love you as the plant that doesn?t bloom but carries the light of those flowers, hidden, within itself, and thanks to your love the tight aroma that arose from the earth lives dimly in my body. I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where, I love you directly without problems or pride: I love you like this because I don?t know any other way to love, except in this form in which I am not nor are you, so close that your hand upon my chest is mine, so close that your eyes close with my dreams.

7/4/2015 3:32:56 AM
I'm alone My veneer is slowly fading...peeling at the edges making it seem painted on...and truth be told it is.... I am alone I walk through out the day with pained eyes and a smile on my face I lie to myself when I'm asked how I'm doing I lie to them...it's become natural I am so alone When I'm alone I breakdown Tears cloud my eyes and roll off my face as if I was standing in a drizzling rain...my heart already broken shatters yet again...how many times have I put it together? That fragile piece of me is supposed to be the strongest muscle and yet it has missing edges and holes that it seems it made of lace. When I am not alone I hide behind myself..projecting a show that I can live with this and yet...yet be strong..I'm a fucking liar!!! I have hidden so far that my outside is just a shell an organic decomposing facade I'm lost and alone in a world where you didn't want me..where you found me...made me feel alive...loved...wanted...and now...now...now I am alone....left discarded and thrown away.. Can I survive alone?????

7/3/2015 10:31:14 PM
Time passes and still it hurts My mind wanders back to you My heart yearns to hear your voice Time passes and still I die everyday The phone beeps I think it's you I open my email and I hope too much Time passes and still I want you The heat of your hands on my skin The gentle reminders that I belong to you Solely yours Times passes and still nothing Minutes pass and I can't breathe Hours pass and I hold on to your memory Memories of us Time passes and they fade except for me wanting you...

7/1/2015 8:06:30 PM
I Remember That Day Well I remember that day well.... I was so nervous driving, all the while gripping the steering wheel wondering if I should or even if I can actually go thru with it. Trying to keep calm, my leg shaking my palms sweating, even though the excitement was building. Keeping an eye on the road and the other on the mirror checking my make-up. With each minute passing so would the miles and my thoughts even faster than the speed I was going. I remember that day... I remember the look in your eyes the first time we met. I could swim in them for forever. The way they lit up when you looked at me, how excited you were. It was as if you could see inside of me to my soul. I remember that day... I remember the first touch of your hands; how warm and rough they felt as you hugged me. Your embrace was gentle and reassuring. How patient you were with me on our first meeting. I remember how you felt against me; it was as if you were branding me -YOURS- I remember that day... I remember how strong and possessive you were with me. Your hand at my back made me feel so very special. It was like sending a message to anyone who looked on and yet I felt as if you were afraid and insecure as I was, that first time. I remember that day... I remember your kiss. The first time our lips touched, the shivers down my spine and the butterflies in my belly. I remember how your tongue probed my mouth as if you were searching for secrets yet unspoken. How our tongues danced and fought each one wanting more and more. I remember that day... I remember how our breathes mixed. You breathing in me and I you. I remember the light headed sensation through my body. It was as if you placed me in a cloud of pure happiness. I remember that day... I remember the resonating sound of your voice; echoing throughout my body. Each syllable throbbing with my beating heart. I remember still the vibrations pulsing in my soul. I remember that day... I remember sitting at a table like teenage lovers. Playing footsie and the shy smiles all the while people looked on with envied glances. I remember thinking "if they only knew..we are forbidden." Oh yes! I remember that day well. I remember sitting in your car- The forbidden touches, stolen yet freely given kisses the wanting and yearning I remember your smell your hand on my ass I remember your taste in my mouth Your hand in my hair I remember that day well...*

7/1/2015 8:04:59 PM
Fired Up I need You I want You do you crave me like i do? do you want me like i do? When we are together we burn our lust is feral, consuming us like fire we only have each other there is nothing else just us we burn out of control you set my skin on fire your touch is everything to me i breathe for you my thought is only you the way you look at me the way that you touch me the way that you command me the way that you direct me your smell, your taste it consumes me i burn when you spank me each time leaving an invisible mark owning me until we sizzle our embers lay hot waiting for our next flare up

7/1/2015 8:03:31 PM
Submit My soul was buried deep in sad thoughts.. I met you and you helped me out You told me to be free and I flew I fell in love with you You told me to submit You taught me how You were ther once for me And now? I wander lost alone afraid I'm a little girl in a man's world Without you I'm a mess My heart broken My soul ripped to shreds You told me to submit and I did

6/30/2015 2:27:28 PM
Seduction she awoke in his arms strong arms that held her safe slowly she looked into his eyes she recognized him as her Master Seduction smiling tentatively submissively silently she allows his aurora to envelope her she looks at him salaciously sauciness that He loves in her Seduction savagely He kisses her satin lips meet His securely He slides His body over hers sculpting His little slave to His liking scarlet plump lips smile back as the kiss ends Seduction shining eyes adore searing heat passes from her body to His scorching a path on every inch of skin she gives Him her very essence souls making love to each other Seduction screaming out in ecstasy searching out pure pleasure seemingly matched souls Seduction

6/29/2015 4:27:50 PM
Things happen in one's life and I can't help but want things that are hidden.... Hidden lust, hidden touches, hidden kisses, secrets and even more secrets. Wanting something that should have never happen but did. I find myself lost walking this path without you to guide. Realizing that I was wandering before searching for you...having found you I had that guidance... Embracing what I knew was hidden inside me you let me free... Too bad that I was too stupid to realize that you just wanted space I was smothered in your forbidden escape it was too late to go back I miss you so very much that to this day I search for you hoping that one day I'll come across you again For now I'm alone lost soulless and scared...dying without you

6/28/2015 8:41:45 PM
I believe that when you begin your journey there will always be obstacles...fears...frustrations...nervousness. ...excitement. ..that little bit of you that get so damn excited your wet/hard and your mind just starts thinking up all the ways and things you want to do or want from them...remember trust is a two way street and always be safe... today..I got to have the opportunity to chat with a gentleman who seemed a good fit...he scared me in a good way and I felt that little fire...will I touch it and get burned or will I let it fan itself and feel the warmth?

6/28/2015 8:37:07 PM
I look back at wonder why I was so sad to lose you...why did I mourn the loss of you.. I used to stay up all night writing about things I had no business writing....until you Then I'd lay in bed imagining all those things that you would say you would do...just you For long hours into the night I'd twist my hands in my hair, I'd rub my nipples, I'd skim my hands over my pussy, I'd close my eyes and imagine you....your touch I'd pretend that that you'd whisper sweet nothings and harsh demands at my ear...your voice I'd close my eyes and learn that I must feel your presence even if it was just in my mind...you surround me I'd lay there and dream about us, the things you said you wanted to do me, the sensations you made me feel...my world was you Now I lay in bed and cry silent rivers and wonder why Now I constantly play music to drown out your voice just so I can forget the emptiness of your words Now I surround myself with exhaustion, pills, liquor, and blankets to unfeel the loneliness you have left Even now months and months I still crave you, I still hope, I still want and need you... Even now the despair of losing you grips my soul and leaves me ravenous for a glimmer of hope..for you

6/27/2015 9:35:44 PM
I always knew that all kinds of people walked this Earth...it makes for a colorful and vibrant world...but the one thing that never occurred to me was how many people just are JERKS..so all I can tell myself is that it is a world of all walks of life, humor, depravity, kinks, fetishes, and love...my view or wit is not for everyone but for my peace of mind...

6/27/2015 9:31:04 PM
An Artist's Loving Strokes I would scoop out my insides with a pallette knife mixing my visceral oils to render faithful to you, wearing my heart on my sleeve since meeting,our union a transcendent masterpiece a rich colorful canvas stretched taut with your essence, every act of creating you uses up vibrant otherworldly tones enabling me to hear the sound your colors make as I brush you into being with every stroke, every hard thrust brings you into sharper focus, splattering you with my lover's sweat like creation's first rainfall, filling in the blank space of where your eyes should be, focused on the heaving slopes of your graceful lines,breathing life into you, you pant with the force of desire for completion, to experience joy at knowing you are coming into the gallery arrayed in the splendor befitting first woman, a natural exhibition showcasing style your stark truth unapologetic nor bashful, tempting all who gaze upon your form to worship at the feet of your sublime mysterious self. I love the word play and how he sees me through his eyes..its as if i'm something precious...I just love how he described me..

6/27/2015 8:44:45 PM
You haunt me Your voice....a constant whisper in the recesses of my mind. Your hands. ...a fleeting caress on my face, a forceful tug in my hair, a firm but tight grip around my neck, or a stinging slap on my ass. Your taste...whether on the tip of my tongue or a deliciously scorching path down my throat. Your heat near me or just merely your words as you would address me as babydoll You haunt me still....

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CurveyGoddess
 
 Age: 34
  California