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So. . . all that is left is the final legal parts and, due to where I was born, that should be quite simple. I would like to note (for those of you who are intelligent enough to read the journal entries) that I no longer qualify myself as trans for websites like this. With the surgery complete and the fact that I dress as a girl all the time, I think that it would be inaccurate to call myself trans. I really am no longer transitioning, I HAVE transitioned. But my body parts match the rest of me. It's not like I am going to undress from my skirt and blouse and something pointy is going to start sticking up (well, except for my nipples *giggle*). So, I am marking my website stuff as female. If that is an issue for you, well, you are the one with the issues and not me, nor anyone that has me collared, so, if this bothers you, then move along. If this doesn't bother you, than you are more than welcome to message me. :-) |
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SOOOOOOOOOOOO, the transition is nearing the end. I have everything done on my end, I'm just waiting to hear about my second letter and then my surgery date. AND, I found out via Equality and Justice Day, that yeah, I am pretty good at being a Leather Girl. *giggle*
And, I have reopened my blog: http://thevinylprincess.blogspot.com It's about the transition and life and stuff that will (hopefully some day) be in my biography. I'm just hoping the biography is written before I'm too senile to read it! *giggle* |
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So, for those of you wondering, I am mostly on here to help my Miss find a suitable FEMALE submissive that can: 1)help with house work; 2)help us to teach Miss how to do different rope ties and things along those lines; 3)help ME with building AND testing bondage toys/devices; and 4)MAYBE playing with me as well (she has hinted at that a couple of times, but i think it was more fantasy than reality, cause she gets defensive of her girl REALLY quickly). Yes, the new submissive will be played with, but not in a directly sexual way. Any questions, feel free to ask them (though the previous rules apply so do not be expecting me to message first. . .as much as some of the profiles pique my interest) |
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Let me tell you, kittie nuzzling is AWESOME!!!! Until you have nipple clamps on. . .then not so much!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!! |
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Okay, so, it has been decided that I will no longer, on my own, initiate a messaged conversation on this site. I can and will reply to messages (under direction of Miss) and those of you that I message on a semi-regular basis are not included in this. However, if you are checking my profile and you have a question or something piques your interest, please feel free to message me, as I will not be messaging you UNTIL you send me a message. Remember, my Miss will be seeing all these messages, so please be polite. |
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Details details. . .I am asking what may be seen as a really small favor, but some people's choices of wording is really really really really bothering me. Please do not ask to be trained as a TV or TS. It is not something that you are trained as, it's what you actually are. If you are asking to be trained as one, the only thing you are doing is showing that you do not understand what we go through and/or who we are. While there are aspects of the transition/lifestyle that are taught/learned, it is not the same as training to be one. You can be trained as a sissy, you can ask about doing feminine training or something of that sort, but please don't ask a girl that's transitioning to train you to be like her. It really simplifies what we have gone through and you show no understanding of what we have experienced and/or will experience.
If you are TS/TV and care to discuss this, please feel free, I am open to your ideas/opinions. If you are not admitted to being one of those two groups, then a negative opinion on my thoughts really doesn't matter. |
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So, in talking with my Beloved/Girlfriend/Mistress, we have realized that since my old computer kicked the crap heap and most of my pictures went with it, is is about time for me to get some new pics. Of course, my Beloved is still in school at the moment, so it will not be occuring until semester break at the earliest. I'm just curious what poses and situations that She comes up with for the photo shoot. . .any ideas???? |
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So, in interesting news, I am back to Roller Derby with the fabulous Hellions of Troy!!!! I am one of the practice coaches and will probably be staying with just that until AFTER the big surgery. It's all about time and not having enough of it. But my schedule fit very well with what they needed the most help with, so once I week, I get to teach girls the basics of roller derby!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!! (and yes, my Beloved is okay with it! <Giggle>) |
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So, things are interesting, unfortunately, time is too quick in it's pace. But I am still my Beloved's best girl, so I am still happy and I am still making my Beloved happy and that is what matters most!!!!
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So, we had an interesting "session" this weekend. She actually tried to pull a humiliation session with me. I definitely have to give my Beloved much credit. She dressed me in very few clothes that sorta matched and had me wear opera length vinyl gloves which DID NOT go with the outfit. I definitely felt foolishly silly in the outfit. But it was very nice because she didn't dress me extremely feminine and make fun of me for dressing like a girl. IF she were to do that, it would end right there and her and I would have had to have a long talk. But she understood that end of things already. She knows not to pick on me for dressing or looking like a girl. Someone that wants to get picked on or humiliated for looking like a girl doesn't really want to transition. Anyway, I have the BEST girlfriend/lover/friend/Mistress EVER!!!!!!!
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Time is a major pain right now. I don't really have a lot of it and I still have things that I need to get done. I feel bad for a potential sub I almost had, but our schedules just could not mesh.
I also made the silly mistake of trying to top my girlfriend/Beloved/Mistress. Now, I know everyone reading this is going to think that I was just being a naughty sub, HOWEVER, what I was trying to do was get her to get her homework done. So my heart was really in the right place. I just am starting to feel bad, cause she's not doing as well in school and I'm starting to wonder if I am a burden to her concentrating.
But the other side of me knows that she would not be getting food (nevermind healthy food) or clean clothes or anything done around the house and she still might not be getting school work done. So, I'm going to keep on trying and do the best I can for her. We'll see what happens.
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So, since life is a journey, I have decided to switch paths that I am traveling down. Since I am (and have no problems being) submissive to my Beloved, I have decided that to make life simpler to the rest of the Kink Community, I am labeling myself as submissive. Obviously, my Beloved and I already have our arrangements figured out and they work for us and since she is the one that I am collared to (and Daddy and Mama Bear have no issues with it), it's what we're going to go with.
The irony of this is that I am still willing to have my online sissies as well as a real time submissive for the household. If that does work out and we actually end up with one, it could be very interesting (and I will probably be getting myself in trouble with that <giggle>)
Anyway, I do still feel like an Alpha as well when the need arises, so I have been toying with the idea of mentoring submissives (as well as Dominants, but we know how some of them are about taking ideas from a submissive that isn't even theirs <Giggle>).
Granted, it will be a LONG time before I have the actual time to actively do that in my local BDSM community, but, I figure there are still others (even beyond this site) that may be looking to talk to some one or needing insight.
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So, in odd news, I am finding that with my Beloved, I am not as dominant as I thought I had to be in life. It is really relaxing when you find someone that you can actually trust and rely on to finally become who you are. Yes there are times when I just really want to smack someone's a$$ (and I MAY be getting my own submissive soon, so I can actually do that). But I will still be following the orders/wishes of my Beloved. She is such a beautiful person, I wish she could actually see how beautiful she really is.
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Evidently, Mistress has learned how to actually PUNISH Her girl. Let me tell you, I did NOT enjoy it (though it would be nice if I could tell the difference of Her meaning PUNISHMENT and "punishment <wink>"
I have to give Her credit though, She learned very well (and my @$$ can definitely tell you that She has)
In good news, though, She has decided to start me with anal training. It's been interesting so far. Again, though, She is back at school, so there won't always be time for us to do stuff together.
For myself, though, I am down to less than 180 pounds, so She is taking me for a mani/pedi (yes, She also knows how to reward Her girl as well)
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So far things are going well. It is actually quite interesting with my Mistress/Beloved and I. She has learned that Her girl loves Her very very very much and that I have no problems doing things like loading the dishwasher and laundry and such. It sort of reminds me of medieval Europe. When the boys left the castle/village/manor to go play with their big sticks, the woman took over and made sure that the castle/village/manor still ran correctly. So, my current duties will include making sure She doesn't get upset about how dirty the house is, and as long as She still cuddles with me at night and holds me while we sleep, I can say that I am a very happy girl!
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Life is always about learning. I strive to do my best for Mistress and get her to understand that she deserves it. And that I love her and that is only part of the reason that she deserves it.
But her starting her last year for her certificate will be interesting. There are two questions that will be answered. . .1)Can I do enough to let her be able to do her classes and get through everything? And 2)Will she be willing to let me have SOME of the responsibilities to do that?
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So, Mistress and I had a BLAST at the Ren Faire. We even got our own corsets!!!! She is such a sweetheart. . .I had an informative conversation about corset training. Now the question is, can I convince/education my Beloved that she can safely do this with me.
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So, I have learned several things about topping my mistress A)Do NOT repeatedly hit the nipples. B)Do NOT bite her nipples off, she will return the favor! C)Do NOT repeatedly use the water spray bottle (similar to what they use on hair) on her va-jay-jay when she gets a question wrong. D)ALWAYS expect pay backs. E)When in doubt, RUN (or get her Boston Creme Donuts)
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So our new couple profile is up. I'm listed as a dominant (along with her) on it (it's under the name mpvp). I am only submissive to her (and Daddy and MammaBear). So if you are looking to me to be your dominant check us out on that profile. If you're looking to chat, then feel free to message me here, but know that she does watch over this profile and she does demand respect for all of us.
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So, my beautiful partner/lover/Mistress and I have been talking and pretty soon we will be having a new couple profile!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!! (not that I'm excited or anything <giggle>)
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So, we returned from vacation with an extra kitty. Her name is Jewels and she is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO adorable! Course the heat hasn't helped us with anything. We did get one of the A/C's installed, but it only helps the bedroom. I'm just hoping not to pass out from the heat and I PRAY that the A/C is working at my part time job this weekend.
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IT'S OFFICIAL!!!!!
I have officially been collared by my Mistress. And then She actually bought me a pair of leather flats!!! How awesome is She?? This really makes my week (course the fact that I get to go on my last vacation for maybe a year helps But not that much, She really is THAT awesome!!!!!!!!!!!
Her name is Mistress Pounce and yes She really is THAT GORGEOUS
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So, things are getting more and more interesting. I have yet to actually get a collar from Mistress, but I still have Daddy's collar (and we are not looking to oust Daddy's authority, at all). But Mistress, MIGHT have gotten a little upset at me for things that MIGHT have occurred with me on this site. Well, now that I can sit down, finally, I do have to say, lesson learned.
And I should warn all, Mistress has every right to read any messages that you send to me.
Also DO NOT mistake the fact that I have a Mistress as me being submissive to ANYONE other than Her, MommaBear and Daddy. That's it.
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I think life gets interesting if your mistress knows you are a mistress for others but she gets to still play and taunt you anyway (and yet you still get to dominate others <giggle>)
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Well, I finally have a working computer again, after almost a month of having to use my girlfriends. She is AWESOME!!!!!!!!
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I find it completely amazing that some of the submissives on here do not understand that being on collarme (for many of us) is not about sex. If I needed a submissive for sex, I would have mentioned that a LONG time ago. So, if that is all you are wanting to be from me, do not get all insulted and resort to name calling when I explain to you (again) what I am actually looking for. Especially since all that does is show your own maturity level. |
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We have also decided to make a slightly different change in our life today (it is so much fun using the royal "We" <giggle>). I will now be accepting applications for an online submissive. Realize that my time is valuable (as most of ours is) and it is slightly fleeting. So I will not be sending assignments more than once a week. This is for someone that can be calm and could work eventually into more than an on-line collaring. UNDERSTAND, that I do have a very serious girlfriend that I love VERY MUCH and this on line relationship will not interfere with the one between my girlfriend and I. This may mean that you might be shared between us (but that will be negotiated when the time comes). If you are interested in this send me ONE message (more than one message will mean you will not be considered). In the message include the phrase, " I will not be a dung hole."
Let the fun begin!!!
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Alright, so we are a week into the RLT (real life test). It has gone pretty well, generally. Emotions wise, I only was on the verge of ONE breakdown. After the second day of doing full pancake and covering my entire face, I was frickin sick of it. All I could think is that I was giving up one mask for another and that was the exact opposite reason for the transition in the first place. I was seriously debating stopping the RLT until the electrolysis was finished.
Then I had a chat with someone and that really calmed me down. I realized that all I had/have to do it try different make-up combinations and re-learn how to hide the little bit of facial hair that is still there. Soon it will be gone and then I won't have to worry that much about make-up at all (well, except for the FUN part of it <giggle>).
For work, all I have changed (appearance-wise) is the make-up. In another week, I'll start to wear nice blouses to work and then a couple weeks after that, I'll occasionally wear nice slacks (though, if I can find warm winter skirts, they may get added in). |
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So, it has been decided that the 4th of January, my new life will begin. The main job has been VERY supportive and we have the details almost completely worked out. Things will definitely be interesting in just a few short weeks. Wow. Luckily, I have been amassing a wardrobe for a decade and a half and am now amassing a pattern collection so that I can make anything that I want. Life is definitely what you make of it!!
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I have begun to have the idea that waiting for the electrolysis to be finished will take forever. I am thinking about going "full time" as of the beginning of the year. Any one have any thoughts?
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So, I have decided that now is the correct timing to explain to those who wish to converse with me, how they need to do it.
A)As mention in a previous entry, use the correct pronouns and titles (and the correct title is: ANY of the female Dom ones).
B)Have a profile that actually has some information (aka more than where you are from)
C)When you write, please say something more than ONLY complimenting me. Yes, compliments help and are appreciated, but if you do not mention why you are writing, it will be ignored until you do.
I think that covers everything for the moment. Now I'm off to play with a really hot woman.
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So, I just have a thought. Those of you looking for a Trans Dom, maybe you need to look at the gender of their name or which one the Dom uses to describe themselves. Calling an MtF by male titles and pronouns just shows that you really aren't there for their sake or really desire to put in any time or effort. If the Dom is FtM, then use the male titles and pronouns. If they are anything like many trans people that I know, using the wrong ones is a HUGE insult and won't get you anywhere (except in the trash bin)
P.S. Playtime with a switch girlfriend is REALLY REALLY nice!!! <giggle>
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So, in the world of irony, it seems that some nice little submissive boy has contacted me and I really do not have the proper time (at the moment) to have devoted to a new play thing. My ROOMATES, however, have. Sometimes, things are just meant to work out <giggle><giggle>
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SOOOOOOO, after a nice vacation and some interesting conversations with my girlfriend, it seems that she is interested in BDSM. Hmmmmmm this makes things particularlily interesting.
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So I am currently dating someone that has decided to help me build some of my bondage toys. This person is NOT my (or anyone's) submissive, so, if you happen to engage the two of us, do not assume anything. Politely ask and it will be responded to in kind. Those who are looking to be owned by me, realize that this relationship is still kinda new and we are figuring out what we are comfortable with. But be assured, that BDSM will still continue in my life and I will need someone to serve me (or us)
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I find it amazing that some one who deems them selves submissive decide to not listen to others who have a different idea. Not everyone on this site is looking for the same thing in a marriage. If you do not have the same ideas as me, that is cool and I would love to hear them and discuss them, because that is how I learn, but please do not get all huffy because I am not looking for the same thing as you
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If you are a submissive looking for my favor, feel free to contact me. I will definitely need an outgoing sub/slave.
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so, the lay off worry is no longer. This is nice because I can now concentrate on more important things. The electrolysis is going alright and I am hoping to have a nice little submissive kneeling before me.
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So, through some really great people in the area, it is still possible that I will be living full time as a female by the end of the summer. Of course, that is if I do not get laid off!!! DAMN GOVERNMENT!!
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Sometimes life is too busy. I have received several emails that I will not be looking at until tomorrow (sorry, but the thrill of the roller derby rink is calling and I need a nap before I go)
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So, I know that I cannot speak for the entire dominant community, so, realize that I am speaking for myself when I say, please be a sub that has something to offer. If all you want to do is whatever pleases me, then realize that such a relationship will get very boring for me VERY quickly. Please have something to offer.
Thank you.
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So, after much thought and decision making in all of life, I am no longer considering myself as a submissive at all. Be on the look out for profile updates coming soon.
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So, even though I have myself listed as a switch, I think I should better explain where I am right now. Due to life situations (that's the polite way of saying "the shit I've been going through lately"), I think that I am more interested in taking in a submissive at this point. REALIZE, I am a lifestyler so I am not looking for every girl or boy who wants to play, to just come over and play. I am looking for the right addition to my own personal leather family. T
This does not mean that I am NOT open to the possibility that I could fall for someone that is a natural top and we get together as well, just realize that I am very much in top mode right now and have no problems with that role in the lifestyle.
If you are interested, feel free to contact me, BUT REALIZE, I do "other" things in life, so I don't get to the computer every day.
Also, if you're not within an hours drive of the Capital Region, then it may not work well since I am looking for a lifestyler.
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It is official, I can now actually use PMSing as an actual excuse. I began hormones this morning!! YEAH!! So, far they seem fine with me and they aren't causing undue side effects. It's a low dose, which will be brought up in a few months (I hope). YEAH!!!
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So is it a bad thing to want to be a ski bunny? and is it called the same thing if you want to snowboard instead?
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So, this past week, things have been a little strange. Well, actually, not going the way I had hoped. I know what I want, but I want to be able to release that as well. I want to be okay with giving power over to a dom(me), but I need to be comfortable with the dom(me) first. Do dom(mes) understand that giving them power over us is a gift and a privilege and not a right? You know, I put something about that on my journal earlier, but it took me until now to truely understand it. Control is a funny thing. It only makes life more difficult and brings on added responsibities. Make sure you are ready for it, because if you are not, there are subs/slaves/bottoms out there that can sense it and we won't wait for you to catch up.
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I'm so proud of my girls!!!! They had their first Roller Derby bout as the Hellions of Troy and they did an awesome job. Yes, they lost, but the bout was down to the last jam. The score was really tight and they did a remarkable job!! I had fun being the penalty box keeper (paddle and riding crops included) and found out that I have a great reputation as penalty box keeper!! Anyway, hell-ya Hellions!!!!
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In an effort to write my autobiography (which I don't plan on publishing until I have actually completely transitioned), I have started a blog. You can find it at http://thevinylprincess.blogspot.com/. You are more than welcome to leave comments there as far as the writing goes. I still will be checking in here for everything else.
Kisses
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I have returned to the online world!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!
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I should be back online tuesday night. Uuuugggghhhhh. |
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My computer is in the shop, so if I don't get back to you for a little while, that's why. I'll take this message down (or put a new one up) once I am back on line. |
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It is time. . .
After much thought and debate, and deciding on priorites in life. I beleive that I am ready to submit myself to a local(ish) dom for training. I will be keeping up on some of my activities (ROLLER DERBY), but I feel that I am ready for the next part of my journey of life. Which brings the question, who is adventurous enough to tame me :)
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And in the category of REALLY AWESOME QUOTES:
"Remember Submission is a gift NOT a birthright"
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So, life gets interesting when you find a BDSM type of activity outside of the typical BDSM world. I am working on becoming referee for WFTD (Woman's Flat Track Roller Derby). These girls are brutal. They kick ass and the game can get kinda violent. Luckily it's not to the point where I'll be breaking up fist fights, but it's interesting how much similarity there is. They are brutal, yet they try to stay consious of the other skates (very similar to the "hurt not harm" mottos that I've heard).
So, if you are into female empowerment (or girls kicking ass), I suggest you head out to the nearest derby and enjoy the game/bout!
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Just so that people know, anyone that I have listed here as a friend is someone that I have played with in realtime and I can vouch for their ability (at least in topping me). If you do not fall under that, then get to know me and maybe it can happen later on. I have no problem meeting with new people and seeing if we are compatible for short term or long term play/relationships.
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So I just updated my profile (and added a bunch of things to it). I just wanted to let people know that my one hard limit is NOT something that can be broken. I do NOT do electrical play because I had a seizure, concussion and subdermal hematoma, which should have killed me. The Great Creator willing, I haven't died yet, but because of the seizure, it could kill me if I did electrical play and something didn't happen right. ANYTHING else, someone might be able to talk me into. Kisses, y'all
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Wow, I haven't entered anything in a while. I think I have learned two really important things tonight. 1) Don't sit on your foot, cause it will then fall asleep and be a pain when you realize what you did. And 2)I'm mostly submissive-ish in the BDSM world, but I'm more of a switch when it comes to the whole dating thing. DO NOT CONFUSE ME FOR BEING A SISSY!!! EVER!!! I like sissies! They are great people and I LOVE going shopping with them, but that's not my personality. I have no embarrassement from dressing the way I do (and I can top most sissies as far as outlandish looks go) But don't think that I'm some docile girl when it comes to dating. If I like you and trust you, then we can work the relationship however it falls, but I am becoming a woman, not a sissy. (okay I'm done venting)
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June is busy as H#LL and we're not even half way through. I had a blast at the party that I previously mentioned!! British girls ROCK!!! Marching with Daddy was fun and interesting. Many people in Queens ended up with pictures of Daddy and I (like that's a surprise).
Pride here in Albany was a LOT of fun too. Did the parade and marched with Mama Bear (Daddy's cute wife) and Stars MC. It was a lot of fun. At the Festival I got to see a friend get proposed to (they are both women so it was really great to watch cause I knew it was coming, but the one getting proposed to did not!!!) Congrats to the both of them!!!
Now we're gearing up for Leather Pride in NYC as well as general Pride in NYC for the next two weekend. If you go to the Pride Parade on the 25th I'm with the Albany group and I'll be on roller skates!!!! |
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Can't wait until the party this weekend, and getting to see daddy this weekend too!!! YEAH!!!! (not that I'm excited or anything) |
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Oh my have I missed some updates. Well, the Washington DC thing went well, except that I am now $1500 poorer, but it went to a good cause and I got to open my big mouth, and OOOOOOOOOOOO Man did I open it. Of course, I didn't realize the importance of what I said. Once I did learn all this background information that I didn't have before, I was even MORE proud of myself. How was I supposed to know that Leather girls aren't taken seriously? Or that there title is only three years old and all the other titles are decades old. I don't care, I'm going to stick to what I said. If you want to hear the whole story, just send me a note, I'll send you the whole story, cause it's really REALLY interesting. |
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So, I am beginning my attempt at being a bondage model as well as continuing my career as a Drag Queen performer. My next show is the first weekend of May. It is being hosted by Lucy Bottoms.
I will also be performing in Washington DC at the American Brotherhood of Leather Weekend where my best friend will be competing.
For the FIRST TIME I will be hosting a drag show on May 20th at 8PM at Billy Jack's in Albany NY. It is being called Tiffany Jean's Coming Out Show There are lots of surprises for the show. It is being put on by LostAngel Productions in associtation with Albany Boys and Girls of Leather. |
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