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You really learn the makeup of a person the moment you bring up the idea of getting tested. It's 2017. Yes Virginia sexually transmitted diseases do exist. I have learned from experience sadly that there are people out there who have no emotional substance and decide that their only reason for living is injuring and harming others. I think it's despicable. Personally not like have the idea of judging people. Some people think that's weird for a dominant to say. But I really believe in the code. I believe that people on both sides should come away from all experiences happy and content not afraid to try them again. At minimum this way should be a learning curve.
As a dominant even if you are mistress or switch I believe it is not your mission to hurt someone else. Even in my background of loving Gor and all its interesting philosophies I wouldnt intentionally hurt someone unless they specially wanted me to and convinced me to do so. It's an emotional turn off to see someone not enjoying this. So think wisely. Dont think i wont use a crop or cuffs or a cat of nine tails. Believe me i will. But you must ask me to in a way that shows you mean it
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The thing that I like about the Unrated Version of Fifty Shades of Grey is that it actually talks about R.A.C.K. and S.S.C. its refreshing to see it on a public screen being discussed openly. Most times I watched movies or read books in this genre the submissives truthful point of view is lost. When explaining to my partner recently my narrative on that movie it was how easily the main character just submitted without thought. It made you wonder did she know him from before? Was she a stalker? A long suffering admirer? Someone waiting for him to notice her? It blew my mind. It was too easy. Where is the challenge?? The actual fun in it?? Now I know a detailed movie would take days (hehe) but the character lacked depth and had something missing that explained the why. When talking to a submissive , kajira in gor or switch or even a friend you wanna learn what makes them tick. What got them into this in the first place. What makes them think this is them? Thats the teeth I look for tobwet my desires |
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I as a dominant male I respect all who message me or check me out. That might be surprising to some. But it's my real life personality. No message is boring to me. Every submissive is on a different level and starting point. What would of happened if at a young age people had been strong enough to say no to my voyeuristic advances and my intelligent and savy curiousity? That those dungeons in my area opened their doors to me took guts. I was young and naive. I had read so many books and gotten my hands on so many things just by paying attention. But I needed those doors open. The ability to learn what an actual whip feels like. The exhilaration of pain play. Or humiliation play.
When you have almost a 200 iq in a world where it's best to be dumb it takes walking a fine line. Maybe you have to be intoxicated or so called high to get that door open. And here's another thought that I learned early. It took me learning at a young age what being in someone else's power and the responsibility of that means. It took me admitting that I needed to find mentors and experience the other side of the shop before it would be right for me to use those same tools.
Just my opinion. Call me a switch or whatever. But it made me a better master and a better dominant. And taught me internally what I wanted all along
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While being a Dominant I've become a parent to of all things a little girl. Knowing my genetic background I'll raise her to be a strong minded mistress that dont take shit from anyone. Just find it funny that God would have my first child be a female. Lol |
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the one thing I figured out a long time ago is that the only people that matter are the ones that you can count on in the worst of times. My profile on here is just that. a profile. I don't need anyone's permission to be what i am. A strong confident in myself male. Now understand that I don't have to justify myself to anyone and I mean anyone. Last time I checked the my fellow Collarme.com residents didn't give birth to me and aren't blood related. From my time down south to overseas to where I'm at now I learned the most important lesson is about respect. I respect you as into how I want to be treated. Once you break that trust your cut off. end of story. I don't have time for the little nuances. I simply don't. the people around me are the ones that matter to me. And if I let you into my life feel blessed and fortunate that I did because trust is something that does not come easy to me. little vent. it's over. now back to the basics |
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I started this lifestyle at an early age. Even then I knew I was different. Even at five years I could see that I was intellectually superior to those around me of my age range.I started reading early and was declared mentally gifted even before I knew what it was. I learned about unfairness of this existence. That while my mind was superior my body simply couldn't keep up. So I turned towards the only logical thing to me. Helping others. If my body wouldn't react the way I wanted voyueristically I could experience it through lower beings to my eyes that could be improved completely under my tutelage. |
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May 2012- I find it increasingly difficult in American society to fit in. While in the life my ideals are considered normal outside of it especially in the working environment its becoming increasing harder to listen or even respect those that are beneath me. Especially those who I don't feel earned their current position of power in the workplace. I need as a Libra to be able to find more balance in this lest my temper get the best of me. |
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Being my dominant self. Im a very very very open minded male. I do prefer bi sexual females to limit jealousy in the bedroom. Im a straight male so i always find it interesting who views me. Just because part of me is gorean does not mean a bdsm slave doesnt have a chance to be collared by me. I like my slaves to be open minded and serious so all are welcome. Also like friends so u can be my friend |
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Can't sleep as normal. Lots on my mind. Lots to teach the female population, but looking for that willing student. migraines and ear aches certainly do not help the thought process. Wondering if there are eager young females out there still looking for that serious daddy figure in their lives. The biggest thing a dominant is supposed to do imo is help that slave or submissive female grow. A good suggested reading for any beginner is the slaves bill of rights. well im off to bed as I need to sleep sometime. Goodnight and be well. Sincerely Master Sean B. aka Vana'she Rask |
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The hell with it. This site says that these type of journal entries never get any contact. I like that. Means whoever reads this has to work for it. A lazy slave is not a very interesting one. A very boring and average vanilla Saturday watching someone else kids (My youngest brothers). Going through stress is supposed to weaken the mind. But it has kept my mind flourishing. Too those who don't read this.. Too f'n bad. Your loss. Time with this domme is valuable and will never ever in life be wasted on the insufferable. I make my pictures simple, because the vanilla world is anything but. I STAND OUT!!! I SCREAM AT THE WRONG TIMES!! I crack jokes at funerals. I like spanking women in public. I like making moves, and saying things that tick people off. I like women's behinds (dumb site wont let me swear). I f'n hate rules, and authority even though I am a authority figure. I have a temper towards those who deserve it :D I tell people my opinion. I date more than one woman at a time. I'm poly in relationships, but my girls better not try to bring a guy into it, unless your married to him, or he's paying me to domme him. I do nothing for free except kind acts to those who deserve it. If my energy is spent, there is gonna be a reward for me or why bother? I want. I have needs. I'm selfish. Greedy at times. Horny a lot. Insatiable sexual appetite. Like being told I'm the most important thing in your life. All in all I'm real. And yes a lot of times I'm poor. It's cause I'm also generous to a fault. I like being called a woman's man, and a sexist pig at the same damn time!!! I'm gorean, and BDSM all at the same time!!! I'm me. Don't like it? Bite me. Then again don't bite me, cause biting is one of my turn ons and if your a woman, you might actually enjoy my reaction to it! |
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Honesty. that's number one to me. If you cant be honest with yourself, how can you be honest to me. I'm what I say I am, and I am unapologetic about it. Don't expect an apology cause I don't believe in them. I am rarely wrong, because when I speak I believe in what I say. If I apologize, its to protect your feelings. I don't make mistakes. Corrections are learning process that make me a better man, and a better master. I want to help every woman on this planet. That's my personality, and belief system. I believe if I could be cloned all women would be happy. Cocky? Yes I am, but again, its just me being honest to me about my own beliefs |
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frustration is todays word for the day submissive/slaves. Open-minded. Trust. Respect. Ownership. Faith. These are BDSM principles. Yet do I see them carried out in profiles? Hell to the no. Very few submissive profile are actually submissive in nature. If you claim to be sub, but don't act it, why are you claiming to be it. Grr (angry face). Again my sadist side reminds me I must ignore these simpletons, but the human side must point out their obvious flaws. Maybe tomorrow is another day |
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Takes a deep breath as i write this knowing that there are more important things in life than helping a chat person grow but I am frustrated none the less. I like to think that Philadelphia is one of the more open minded communities in my country. We set the bar and standards long ago now being followed all over the world. When you give someone advice you hope with a grain of salt, they might actually learn from it and grow as a person. Alas people still have a long ways to go. as a sadist i probably should just follow my instincts and ignore em. themsimplminded and closed minded |
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Takes a deep breath as i write this knowing that there are more important things in life than helping a chat person grow but I am frustrated none the less. I like to think that Philadelphia is one of the more open minded communities in my country. We set the bar and standards long ago now being followed all over the world. When you give someone advice you hope with a grain of salt, they might actually learn from it and grow as a person. Alas people still have a long ways to go. as a sadist i probably should just follow my instincts and ignore em. themsimplminded and closed minded |
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Takes a deep breath as i write this knowing that there are more important things in life than helping a chat person grow but I am frustrated none the less. I like to think that Philadelphia is one of the more open minded communities in my country. We set the bar and standards long ago now being followed all over the world. When you give someone advice you hope with a grain of salt, they might actually learn from it and grow as a person. Alas people still have a long ways to go. as a sadist i probably should just follow my instincts and ignore em. themsimplminded and closed minded |
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Posting again because quite frankly I believe its needed. I guess its just my nature to feel that a BDSM or Gorean by nature should be more open minded about things than the typical citizen or average Joe. In opposite whether its because the ones I'm seeing are new or just not comfortable in this, they tend to come off as arrogant, or in actuality completely opposites of the submissive they say they are. I find this to be sad. I truly do welcome the new and explorers. I even welcome the role players because some of them show eagerness in their pursuits. I guess I'm just asking for a little more listening and open minded thinking out of individuals. Guess thats asking too much when you got gangs of kids in Philadelphia (my town) attacking people for no reason. We should set the bar. Not lower it. |
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Here it is. Mach 21st, and March 16th seems like weeks ago. Been sick the past week, and dealing with strep throat. It sucks but as a man, your supposed to deal with pain without complaining so i limit it. I don't see anything wrong with feeling lonely. its natural to want to cuddle up next to someone. its normal. and while im not considered normal by any stretch i do enjoy cuddling with my girls. Im poly so im always looking. whether to train, to cojole, to help, to guide, to learn, to enjoy, to listen, to get frustrated, whatever the reason I just do. Hope this goes noticed, but if not oh well. I have my employees and my girls to vent to. laughs. be well all. |
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Cant believe its March 16th already. Its been a interesrting couple of months to say the least. My first girls youngest is having a baby. Cant believe that. And I have collared a girl from Ohio on the basis of training her, and its another mistress to boot! wow. I sure do collar a lot of mistresses these days it seems. Re-collared my Atiya over the weekend with strict rules to obey. soemtimes its tiresome owning married couples but someone has to do it i guess. The hardest thing about bein poly is you have to realize you can only help so many without expanding. guess its that time again. who knew? laughs. but all in all minus the occasional death in family or three its been ok this year. Here's praying this year increases financially cause god knows my girls do need their new bells, and chains if ya know what i mean. peace out. and be well. till next time.
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ITS BEEN A BIT BUT I HAVE BEEN BUSY DOMINATING MY REAL LIFE SLAVES. BEING GOREAN MEANS BEING POLY. WHICH MEANS YOU BVECOME A BUSY BUSY MAN. AND HARD TO REACH. LAUGHS |
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Its been a while fellow lifestylers but I am back!!! Been extremely busy with my real time slave Halika, and on the phone and online with my Atiya. It's been a trying time but im surviving. Still looking to add to my poly household as always but am glad i have survived to tell the tale. Be well until my next post all you subs and slaves and fellow dominants.
ja kar jama ja lin'a halika atiya daima. |
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Another week towards my birthday has ended. A half month so far spent and still looking. The best replies have been friends and submissives I already know in real. Yes my first girl comes first as she should and always have, but we both are seeking someone to join the fun! Preferably local in nature. But if the submissive or slave is willing to travel here thats even better! Been doing this for years. Yet it still bothers me how many cyber only and fakes I still run into after all these years. Is there any real women out there that can really handle poly anymore?? I am starting to wonder |
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Day 5 seems to be the same. No serious inquiries. Nobody seems serious enough to actually get up the courage and mail me. Maybe its the poly thing but im deadly serious when in comes to this lifestyle.
It gets frustrating but the one thing a Master has is patience. The real ones wil show themselves soon enough. Then i will have a interesting decision to make |
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Day 3 of my journey saw a boring day. It was not meaningless because any day that im me means that its a good day. Still suffering from phone withdrawl but all in all it was boring. No real time to be my usual dominant self other than the workplace and around Halika. Though im not getting the time I want with Halika that im seeking. Saving up money, and still looking for a new dungeon. Definitely a work in progress |
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Day two of my two weeks of hell. Ever since the robbery i have been suffering from something anyone who has ever lost a phone a can call cell phone withdrawl. I feel totally disconnected from the world. Of course Halika has been there supporting me the entire way. Hali stayed on the phone the enitre time i was waiting for the police to arrive. waited up until i got home. and has been by my side constantly checking up on me. I feel really lucky to have found her. and anyone that joins our circle will feel the same way. much props to anyone that has sent me words of encouragement. jashi va to all!
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Just this weekend i went through something im not used to. I was robbed at gunpoint by two so called gangster thugs that thought i would consider them worth it to die over. I survived my ordeal and the only thing these worthless individuals got off me was a pre paid cell phone and anger that i did not just end their miserable lives. A life has to be worth something to take it serious. Those individuals are souless creatures that god will deal with. I am however allowing the local authorites a certain amount of time to deal with them. then i will probably seek them out in another manner befitting the city that hates you back. |
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