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| Some would call it a switch, but i believe a kinkster is a better term to describe me.
Basically i am into kinky sex, wax play and inflicting pain. I am open, willing and want to try new things out of my norm.
What I seek is very very simple.. a man who knows how to obey orders and serves with a smile.
How I want, When I want & EXACTLY the way I want!
his pleasure or desires mean very little
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I'm not a submissive, Not a slave nor do I ever aspire to be & I do not seek long term relationship as such.
I find no attraction to anyone under the age of 35 years old, Shorter than 6ft, no matter how handsome or skilled.
There is no valid reason in my humble opinion for anyone to go out of a committed relationship to satisfy a kink.
Having said that; I hope now that no one's time gets wasted in futile messaging. |
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Heatheranddean, thank you for your "classy" message :)
Spoken like a true lady! |
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I have quite the appetite and craving for inflicting pain. Lately I became more interested in meeting a suitable sub/slave or a masochist for ongoing play. Someone who is open to extended sessions of bondage, impact and wax play but most importantly someone with high pain threshold.OP |
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It seems this nickname is confusing to most.
It is use me please as a joke as we all use each other one way or another.
Hope that stops the flood of ill informed messages |
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At this point, it would be easier to move!!! |
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It still fascinates me how different people are.
One would think that some things are simply self explanatory, but that seems to be subjective as well
EVERYTHING needs to be spelled out...
Shame how plain some are!!
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i don't know when my life took THE turn.
But, I know i have never thought i will end up here, this way or this content.
i now believe, one must hit rock bottom before soaring to realizing the fantasy.
Nothing could have predicted this bliss , certainly not here of with Him
Important thing is that i'm here and with Him :) |
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WOW
some are just gutter snipers for real!!
YIKES!
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This world is full of pain and misery. When you see how others are suffering you wonder how come you are so lucky.
One tries to help,, sometime we can,, but most we just watch in pain as they wither in despair
life is so unjust
i wish those who whine , bitch and complain can see what i see so they shut the fuck up and count their blessings
the worst curse is that when one is ungrateful.
Count your blessings each minute you can... you do not know what you got till you see what others don't! |
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Fascinating what can be found on the net................
International Day of Mourning for Workers Killed or Injured on the Job
hmmmm poor those people who were hurt! |
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once upon a time....there was a nasty woman.....she was stupid and cannot take a hint ..she was warned and warned multiple times thereafter..she just kept pushing and pushing her luck testing my patience...
well guess what??? i have reached my limit..tonight!
Sorry gramma...your time is up!
you have only yourself to blame!!!
ohhhh.... you'll enjoy your mornings :)
HAHAHAHAHAHA..stupid indeed,, He was right,,,(((too stupid!))) fits you well
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i'm so tired
last week was a long..long..long week, weekend included
then this week seems even longer...
i'm like sleep walking now
poor staff and volunteers....but hey..someone gotta suffer for this!
if i'm happy , everyone is happy
if i'm not happy,,, no one is!!  |
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Some of us have a life that extends beyond BDSM and love... like social life, family and work...unfortunately some cannot comprehend that
wonder why???
maybe because they have no life...but to prey and watch others
so sad
yet it's very tempting to wipe them off...
and soon as well
you have been warned.....!
BTW
DRAG ME TO HELL
was an awsome movie |
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Sometimes, it's just so overwhelming that it becomes a struggle to breath.
Yesterday is done and gone. Today is dusting off the pains of yesterday. Tomorrow is heart wrenching to imagine.
A cloud of dispair hovers and lingers...........leaving blinding fog of surrender.
Sometimes it is just pointless
Ashes to ashes , and we all resume the paths we were damned
Darkness begins from within...... every single one of us is the devil inside.
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tick tock ....tick tock
monday is just brutal! |
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Bored out of witts!
Master is away..i'm out of things to amuze myself with,, the lil bastards are just a pain...why do people have them?? it beats me!
Sometimes,, shopping is not as entertaining as it always is!
cuz at some point you gotaa wash, fold or iron the stuff!!
oh well,, guess that's why women love shoe shopping!
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No words can describe how great Master is.. espcially to me.
When i see how other relations are , i cannot help but wonder " why am i so lucky to be with Master ??"
i would walk around the globe.. on broken glass to please Master........Happily
His hug is my home and will always cherish that
i love you beyond words Master
thank You for coming into my life.
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Sometimes life takes you to places you never knew you can visit, and you smile when you walk out of it ...you will never be the same again. Last night was one of those times.
Last night was just another affirmation to why I am a lucky woman!
Just sitting there in that passenger seat talking to Master about the daily grind, listening to His day,, then lingering at the parking lot as W/we go deeper at the core of what W/we believe and how is the best way to get the best final product,, TV and dinner in bed was just what I have always wished for in who I will spend the rest of my life with, it’s even better.
One I can talk to in those depths, those dreams, those little details of what, when and why of O/our day.. then submit to His will in that intoxicating desire knowing it brings Him pleasure,,, yet laugh out loud with Him sitting in his warmth watching one of the most wicked shows in history,,, to condense that overwhelming desire racing the clock to just land in sweet exhaustion,,, to stop in the hallway to catch a breath after a silly coincidence sends U/us hysterically laughing…………….to be with One like that is THE fantasy realized.
That smooth switch between those facets of who W/we are to each other is as fascinatingly appealing to me as the facets themselves.
This is what i have always wished for ever since i knew what wishes are!
I love you Master
btw , Pizza Hut SUX!!!!
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Monday is crazy.. so hectic.. ugh!
Yet, the joy of Saturday with Master is just filling me with joy.
Lovely lil party it was. Some interesting poeple and very new faces to me, But with Master to hold on to His arm,, it was just so enjoyable.
Meeting a couple of His friends was so cool.
But the whole day was a neat day, from the arrangement of it, to getting ready and the trip ,, till that artsy party.
To Master ,i'm His precious one. i could see it in His eyes, and feel it in His touch,, His smiles as His gazeat me when i talked filled my heart with enourmous joy.
The whole thing was simply another step towards affiriming who W/we are to each other.
It worked so smoothly fitting O/our hectic schedules to make it work in that lil slot of time. i loved His walking into my office , and how He handled my nosey coworker.. His image as He walked in and His laughter as He listend to her telling Him about me just makes me smile every time i remember it.
( this is love, girl).. my coworker said
and it truly is
i love You Master |
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What a sweet day!
i had the luxury of being with Master today.
At the mall i just get SUPER excited,, i walk like a kid in a candy store,, grinning till my wisdom teeth show, and when it's with Master i just feel on top of the world,,, a kid in Disney land,,,hahaha,, i just love Master's company.
Everything with Him is just amplified joy. He totally gets it. A simple remark, by some passing by girl agreeing to our conversation about the audacity of some woman's outfit just hit THE cord.... Master and i rock!
It is this natural draw we have, and combined it just is intoxicatingly joyful and draws people in. i love that. It affirms who i know U/us to be..... An awesome entity
í had exceptional joy picking the dress today. It's Master's fav color, and He just loved the fit. i could not contain myself, so i just kissed Him in public... and to my surprise, my unbearable anxiety about public display of affection just disappeared!!
At that moment the world died.......... i knew then, that He is The One i wished for
"The world dies when i'm with You"
Part of a poem
The words i wrote when single and hoping to meet the One, were realized to an ecstasy in Him.
Master is a man who makes it worth doing,,, the laughter, the smiles, the courtesy,, and the "i am in good hands” certainty.
Picking the briefcase for Him gave me pleasure thinking of Him liking it and using it. i wondered standing alone in the store which one would Master like, and those moments made my waiting for Him this morning pleasurable,, i did not know that would be just the start of the day.
Him knowing which dress of the two would work better on me even before i tried them on,,i doubted it on the hanger,, He just went: "nope, this One zee"... and He was. As always, right!
Everything is set, and i love my nail polish color,, totally works
i love my dress. Cannot wait to wear it and walk holding on to His arm, walking in the luxury of His existence
God, i love You, Master.... |
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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Epinephrine
i have something to confess;
i am an obsessive compulsive girl
i just cannot let some things go :(
it is just painful to watch some serious words slaughtered in front of my eyes... especially when it is related to my field
on a smiliar note... or actually it is the main point
well.. Master is just the best, sometimes i just get ticked off with one word that reminds me of a person i have hard time tolerating ,, at work,,, it used to take me a couple of days to get over it, and not even fully,, now with Master's help, i found myself to be totally forgetting those things as soon as He talks me through the logic of my concerns
But...
what have i done to deserve such a great man to be my Master and to see me as the love of His life????
i don't know,, all i know is that i am one blessed woman to have been the one for Him
He lights up my day when He smiles
i remember talking to Him last year and thinking : WOW what a great man! how awsome would it be to be His one.. that is one lucky woman who would capture His heart,,
i layed in bed night after night after He hung up, thinking of Him and His words,, His laughters,, but most of all i just wished i could know how His hug feels
Now, i look forward to seeing Him,, dream of His smile,, His laughter echoing in my world,, and litrally dream of His hug
i would trade the world for that hug,, in a heart beat
Master, You are the best thing that has happened to me
i love You , Master |
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This summer seems to be a very busy one. Many projects, many ideas , and many new prospects are finally fromulating into reality.
i have never loved my job more, and i have never came to be in peace with the variety of people around me like now.
Thanks to Master , i now do not obsess over the minor details as before,, True i still spend insane amount of time analysing stuff compared to an average person...But i am drastically improving now.
my analyitical brain seems to be on always and for the most part it is one of my greatest strengths,, yet at times that seem to be very tiring.. exhausting to be accurate.
But having Master around and His exceptional patience with me and my obsessive comuplsive tendency, i have been able to contorl most of it and i think in time it will build a new way for me.
Now i look at some stuff and just shrug,, when i see how pathetic and weak some are,,,, to not be able to stop hating and referrencing me or Him,,,, i just feel sad for those who have no life but to follow others' and comment cowrdly on it..
But,, i guess some are just born pathetic!!
And W/we move on leaving all on ignore as i think this is best way to deal with parasites.
Each morning i wake up to a sunny day and a beautiful weather now i ponder not going to work, but instead,, going east..to Him.
Life is just more meaningful with You Master...
Nothing will stop this warmth i feel surronding me since i met You....
You are the best Master  |
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It is such a shame when one is poetic,,, yet cannot spell
lol
we must petition a spell check application to Collarme... but even with that , some would not know which word to chose,,,
oh well, such are all stupid ones,,,,and they wonder why they have not been chosen..
That if we have overlooked the shape, stink and attitude...
tsk tsk tsk
some people are just ,,well,,,,, stupid!
and i wish i would read one more snooty comment .. a single one...so i can watch a real collapse of a life!
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i love my Master beyond words
i cannot stop the butterflies i get when i think of His kisses and the words He whispers into my ear as He lay His hands on me
This is a life W/we are sharing, nothing to rush..W/we have a life time to live and evolve
Master, You light up my world with Your smile |
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tsk tsk tsk... it is really sad!
Must have been a hell of a life that turns someone that bitter and jealous
Rejection must be so hard to swallow for those with no self confidence or self esteem
Must be even worse to live with someone that bitter and envious,, i would totally think of killing myself if i had to live with such a poisionous person in my life
my condolences to those who have to live around such a person |
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some have that gorgeous tan , that glow that they go to Hawaii to get it...some are just born with it...........
i'm just saying!!
hahaha ;) |
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i have known few people through this website, and i'm sorry to say,, most are not worth remembering.. yet some are a treasure to know. Not because they are perfect, not because they had it all figured out ,, and certainly not because of the visible to the naked eye
it is because of who they really are and how well they know themselves and their inhibitions, their flaws and their quirks,, but most of all because they are real.. they do not hide anything ,, they show you their true colors,, and in that sincerety lies the wonder and the value
it makes me wonder, why would anyone not see that? why would no one realize the treasures in that? how come they are not in a realtionship???
but then i know why.... it takes courage to face that reality and takes bravery to tackle it.. but first and foremost ,, strength
no one is worth that gift of truth, and it dies inside with frustratiuons.. no one is worth lying to yourself for
wasting a life on the ones who you can parade to the world seems so very stupid now, i know how heart breaks evolve, i know how tears run inside until they suffocate your soul,, it takes strength to say
(no i want a real potential and a real person, and i'm not gonna settle)
i know it may seem silly and wishful only to be certain it WILL happen,, just hang in there
but i know it will, because it happened to me!
i have sat days after days, staring at the screen thinking (wtf??? no one is out there?? why can i not make myself happy with what is infront of me?what is wrong with me????)
i ignored the truth, and tried to make do with what i got ,, but then NO this is fucked up!,, i am not gonna sit and take this,, yes i for once was true to myself first
i know how dark and cold being alone is,,, and especially when you can settle, you almost start doubting yourself and your reality sense,,,but NO it either is it or no it is NOT
To the ones who know what imean, it WILL happen,, don't chase it, your O/one will come to you
and it will be great :)
Love, Laughter.. . and peace comes with seeing His Smile... and warmth traces His touch,, i am lucky to be chosen by Him, with each passing night i know it is the truth
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Tick Tock, Tick Tock, Tick Tock......
i'm bored , will 5 o'clock come already?????? |
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i'm a lil tired... i just cannot stand still. i'm swamped, nothing is getting done to the fullest
i need a long walk,, in a nice weather!!!! |
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Sometimes, i go to hell and back.. on my own. As it turns out,, much easier to make that trip with someone
Now.. i find my way to hell on my own,, but He brings me back ,, and into His hug
Thank You for being there for me Always |
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i go through my day as it comes at me. when it's slow and low key i get sluggish and whiney.. when it is fast , challanging and feirce, i just find new hidden levels of ability and resilience.
i live for that thrill
i know i can.. question is ..do i want to???? |
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The cat was just as charming as feline can ever be
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Cat is out of the bag!!!
it will either be a cuddly warm one,,, or it'll scar my face for ever
Till then,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,i await |
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How many times does it take for one to see the reality of the matter?
It took me few rounds of pain and misery to able to stand up for myself and say enough is enough,,
Once i did that i felt lighter and at ease, yet my anxious nature plaqued me to build castles and conciperacies,, all in my head.
i am tired and want all this to go away. i have listend to one after the other give me their heart felt advice ..on what i should and should not do,, how i should think and how i should precieve life and its events..
as always i listened , nodded and gave it a try,even if it did not make sense
Now what?? i asked Master if this will go on for ever..He gave me what i think is worthwhile advice.
i'm scared and wish it will work, wish i can find what He described to be able to finally have inner peace.
i lay in bed now,, watching same movie i have watched 3 times before..and yeah! still sucks!
Till He is around, i will wait |
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i am a lil too.........well, aren't we all???? |
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Today, i'm just in bed....thinking of nothing
didn't go to work,, i did not yesterday as well
i knew that Master is very good to me, but i did not realize how precious i am to Him until i yesterday,as He was dropping me off at work.Since monday He was here spending time with me through my day...but it was time for Him to go back,,,
After a nice breakfast in our fav cafe' by my work, i sat in His car not wanting to go to work,, i stalled and talked about this and that and touching on my anxious nature about life , then in my head i just wanted to NOT go anywhere, esp not to work.i just said ( i don't want to go to work , please) He nodded.. by the time i went up to talk to my boss to take the day off, He had emptied His jammed already schedule to be with me. i just thought cpl of hours late to go back then i will sit at the movies till they close when He goes back.
it was not an option for Him( you are My girl, and you need Me around.. ) i cannot recall anyone being so supportive and true with me in ages.
i looked at Him in the pool,, thinking ( WOW..i'm really lucky, no reason to surrender to despair, with Him nothing is impossible)
i wake up every morning to His voice and go to sleep to His voice,,He is the One
i look in His eyes and know in His heart is my place and that He 's serious,, no games no BS
One of the best was the dinner at spring rolls..looking at the tables on either sides of us and running commentary about what is going on with them, and laughing at the irony of the ability of humans to fake happiness for the world, i just wanted to kneel and kiss His sandels saying ( Thank You for being my Master, Master)
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Just sorting through my paper work, it just hit me. Everything in my life is falling into place now.. All thanks to Master 
Anywhere i turn i see Master's print on my serenity and bliss. i have always imagined the prefect Master , and He is exactly that.
I can just close my eyes and imagine Him laughing out loud and my heart warms up.
At no point have i felt so safe and protected with anoyone i have been with, and i have been with really nice people before who have made every effort to meet the complexity of a Master's role in my life ,, but unfortunately none could do it to its fullest.. none could cruise through a realtionship with me without me having to accomidate and mind his feelings and issues.. without me having to over look a need i have to meet a need he had.. Only Master InvisibleTies made it so effortless that i can not see myself at any point having to carry the weight of the realtionship and tip toe around issues to accomidate His needs. i just am PURELY me when i'm with Him.
Even when He's not around, He spares no effort to ensure i am well taken care of, that i'm comfortable, safe and happy.. that i'm moving ahead,, i MUST not lack anything i should have.. that i laugh always without that tainted echo.. He takes care of me and loves me uncondtionally.
Without Him life is a lil confusing.. but with Him it is a bliss to be alive .
Thank You for coming into my life , Master
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today, i realized that i am in fact a naiive woman. i have huge faith in people and the good in them.. i only see the positive and never anticipate the ugly.
that is a weakness i have within me, i tend to go the extra mile to ttry to make everyone's life simpler,, help them function,, make it easier for them to overcome hurdles...
But as Master said.. Dysfunctional people are simply Dysfunctional !
it never ceases to shock me to tears how rude and ungreatful humans are...
what hurts the most is that i now have to go admit to the pisimistic one that she was right and that there is no good in all humans.. |
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nothing in this world is better than being with Master |
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i don't particularlly like rain...in fact i hate rain. But, today seems like a good day.
Having wandered in that mall yesterday, i realized i really do not live to shop! i loved shopping because it was a bitter sweet activity.. i enjoy it to an ecstasy.. then regred it to sorrow
As if it was a part of a ritual.. self flagilation one. i mean seriously.. how many skirts do i need? i actually counted them the other day.. 21 skirts!!! i kinda had an AHA moment then...
Retail therapy does exsit!!!
Hence the 21 skirts, 8 pairs of boots, 7 coats,,,and frankly i dozzed off before finishing counting the tops!!
i cannot see myself that girl again.. some reason and logic was instilled in me that made sense
ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT COLD DAY IN JANUARY WHEN YOU HIT TD!!!
it simply cannot leave me |
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Jealousy is an ugly ugly thing!!! |
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Starngest things happen when one cannot sleep!
As it turns out, journals can be used as an assertive mean to strengthen the walls of lonliness, stir up the bitterness within and enforce the delusions of indulgance.... i did not know you can do that!!!
Yet again, i'm not a stewing pot of misery and contempt!!
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i can't sleep! my whole sleep cycle is messed up.
i hate this, i should be heading to work in few hours and i just cannot sleep
i smoked half a pack, ate half a bag of toast Master got me, drank 3 apple juice packs, munched on 2 cheetos and a big bag of m&m's, had two srvings of icecream...at this point i'm working on multi color twizlers..i gotta say, doesn't taste half as fun as it looks!!
hmmmm ... i am truly restless
sucky part is my tooth is killing me
oh well... i better stop whining and get to sleep, must look fresh for Master's visit tomorrow...
i so miss Him, i want to call Him , but He 's sleeping now,,, don't want to cut into His sleep
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well, it was really worth it..
the new addition to the office is fantastic!
hmmmm what a delima...which office should i pick?? or should i even leave the cubicle area?? frankly i like the company
oh well let's see how things progress , maybe i will just push towards moving all the annoying losers to the new addition and lock the connecting door after all!!
BTW,,, Fashooms are TOTALLY hot,,hottt hottt hotttt
i will go shopping for more soon |
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why does it matter what , who ,why and when???
what really matters is that it's O/our business
and no one else's!!
and if you don't like U/us oh well, get on with your life,, and if you have none..well,, simple..GET A LIFE!
i just dunno how hard it can be to ignore someone... i do it all the time
i pause for a minute, take a deep breath, tell myself( meh,,this goes under -ignore-) and TA DA .. it is under ignore
i'm really sorry some people cannot do that, it makes me sad!!
oh well that's why there are people who hate highschool....coz they were told their truth there!!
we used to call them ((Emo Losers ))then, dunno what the kids call them now adays?!?!? any ideas??
anyway
the day has just started and frankly i hate these renovations at my office!! |
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hmmmm
why is everything so complicated????
everything takes for ever and almost all of it aimed at pissing me off!
:(
Master.... they are making me pissed !!! |
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YUP!
It's official..................people are nuts!
most , i should say
oh well
what can one do?!?!
,,happens! ;) |
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What the F**k is wrong with everyone??
or maybe it is me.. it might very well be me..
watching TV has been my entire life..i hear, i see , i know , i understand,, i even some times talk back ..but hey i am INVISIBLE
or mybe just in another dimention or sepaking an out of space language.. i just cannot effect it
fucked up part is that i get effected by it,
resistance is futile
life is a TV show, always was always will be
Time to turn off and go to sleep |
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How can explain how i feel ??
well.. i guess saying:
( whoopppppppppppppy) i'm happy
should do!
i think my Master is the best..he is the best man i have ever known
yup! i'm lucky :) |
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Time and distance seems very crule,my need for Him grows daily and rapidly. i see the world through the sun's reflection in his eyes.my home is His hug. Never lose sight , Never entertain stranger's thoughts, Never let go of who made me happy at last.
i really miss Him |
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How lucky am i to be His??
i know that i was blessed to be chosen by Him.
And that is all what matters now |
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The day starts with Him,,He is all around during the day..and the day ends with Him
He is the life i want ,,and strive to deserve
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I don't think it can get any better....oh wait, maybe it can :D |
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There are few rights of passage for everyone of us in whichever path we chose to take.
i chose the unconventional, the one which contradicted all the unwritten rules that have been fed to me, as to every girl no exceptions, from the " the girl's survival manual" all through the years i spent in the dorm in boarding school and years to follow.
Be aloaf,be coy, laugh faintly, never act without calculations, on your birthday never ask but always prep him for it...blah blah blah
That code every girl and woman operates by without even fully realizing it..it is excellent when she choses to disconnect!
i played by that manual for years , even though i saw glimpses of hope with few..yet always went back to the manual,,then eventually to the (how to dump him with HIM feeling most guilty about it) chapter
and i turnn the page and he goes to archive as a name, age, hight, degree,,and degree of loserness and/or jerkiness depending on each individual case
but always he ends up as a phone number and an email address in my contact list
i mastered that art.. day after day, the glorious art work amazes me ...i passed every test life threw at me.. i earned my place as a woman,, and i enjoyed the games...if i am faced with distancing.. he is faced with emotional sadism.. and it felt cathartic..always
i just grew bored with that
but the manual still applies
till ..
He walked into my life and that manual seemed very .. pointless
He laughs ..and the world lights up
i have never laughed from my heart since i was five like i do with Him
He is not what the rules i set for myself dictated.. nor the rules in that cold manual applied
i threw the manual out
and embraced His rules
(just bring me your truth)
and i did
Valentine's at Hooter it is ... it was only the start of that day
a day like no other.. and i can safely say.. totally O/ours
i am His and it just makes sense
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HAPPY VALENTINE'S
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Sometimes it just makes more sense to step back and take a better look. If you still see it as great as you once saw it then dive in!
when He is happy the world is sunshine and sparkles, when He is pissy..well , the world is meaningless.....
He is the world for me, and the world dies when i'm with Him
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well
today is a nice day indeed, i just remembered why i feel so blessed not to be looking any more
geez, ppl are so tense, no one can handle a joke....
any howwwwwwwww
whatever, i never mean to insult anyone
not in a passive aggressive way for sure, eventhough a sub i have enough guts to insult you frankly and to your face!
no one is worth me getting pissed for, i simply will smile and say it again
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What is the point??
it's the fact that it matters only when it matters to Him. Lots that used to be a big deal before seems insignificant now, and the reality of the matter is, i only noticed that i really did not care when it hit me today, it is about Him first and foremost...rest is just complimentary,,should He chose to consider it. |
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Coming here used to be a daily task, it mattered what was going on in this world...now it really does not matter, so what?
unless He said check your msgs zee,
when you know what i know, you will know what ( there is no mountain high enough) really means |
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wow
somethings are just magical and it makes real sense when it happens...it feels damn great!!
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it's snowing, it's white, and it's depressing!
well....two more nights of sleep and TA DAAAA
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Hi.......
i feel happy happy happy
YAY me! |
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just so we are clear on that, i am NOT 420 friendly!
so please people,stop telling me about how good the shit you got and want to share!
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It's a lil chilly outside.....ummm speaking of chillie, i have a strange craving for chillie shrimp on rice all of a sudden, great place to get that yummi dish on elizabeth and dundas,,hmmm will go get some later
or maybe make do with a sea food sensation sub from subway
will see
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OMG!
Now this is a man who loves tattoos for real!!!
http://people.tribe.net/f8c15364-805f-4cb2-8be9-1220d9ebbe96/photos/38f2bae1-1db2-49f7-af77-26eaa009399b |
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A new year has began, hummmm so far so good
i can safely say now, that there will be no more need for juice or pop in my life ,,,,
hahahaha,, and it feels great!!
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 Gooooooooooooood morning world!
Lovely day today :) |
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I think I have reached my destination, and a new era begins |
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A dear One told me to slow down , stop beating myself trying to challange fate into finding what i yearn for,,, and to sort through within
i think i will do just that
it isn't time ...YET
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YES YES OH YESSSSSSSSSSS
i won mahjongtitans ,, AGAIN!!!
YAY me!!!!!
Special thanks to my Santa for the amazing bondage He did.. among other things ;) |
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UGH... this is just stupid, damn it!
How hard is it to win a game of solitaire????????????? |
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Love dude
you do not like it??? ,, just ignore it! i do!!
see how i am doing it???? not very complicated!!
oh i forgot... it is not as easy when you do not have a life!!
well .. get a life ya loser! |
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Really, i don't know if i have false unattaniable grandiose image of what a Master should be. Maybe it is me who is expecting a human to be above the ordinary and live up to that pure form of what a Master should be. Might be that we are all just part of a grand screen play and the more we immerse ourselves in it the faker it gets.
It is a really dangerous though! |
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ummm a lil note
when a guy old is enough to be my dad, i think i have the right to think it IS creepy!!
and i feel as creepy when the guy is younger!!
Seriously people, grow up! and be a little more self assured not to fly of the handle at any reality check! |
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As it turns out....
There is no such thing as Dominant male any more
so let us all assume our roles and begin to play! |
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 Merry Christmas and Happy New Year |
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ONLY
Exprienced Dominant Males
Think you can understand that?????? |
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 Dear female subs/slaves,
if you ever wondered if the person emailing you is real or fake, you might want to check with me .... i have kept notes :D |
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For the last freaking time...
i am NOT interested in submissives, switches, females or younger people!!!!! |
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Well, seems that i need to spell out every single thing on here
So, here it goes:
i am seeking a male, exprienced Dom, taller than me, older than me but not old enough to be my dad, single , local to Toronto and looking for the whole package not just play!
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Now... i think i know
will give it all i got, one try, one last shot
it will either work and be fantastic
OR
this whole thing is shut....for ever
and then on to plan B
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Well, i guess now is a good time to just let it happen
snow is coming and nothing will stop it
and so it would be for fate!
Happy Snow Strom to all ! :( |
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when would one say: this is too much for me ,in this lifestyle??? or is the only taboo here is that one believes that something is taboo??
really, it amazes me how many people think that such arrogance and ignorance can be accepted as Domination or even submission.
must be really sweet to be stupid! |
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Seriously!!
Dominant, taller and older , local to Toronto MALE is what i'm looking for!
pls stop emailing me asking retarded questions and telling me your prefernces , and how ill you think of my profile.. you don't like.. move along.. i do it all the time... not complicated!!!!! |
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ok so the profile is .. negative, offensive,,lousy, and what else??.. oh yea worst sub ever!
Well this is who i am, good, bad and ugly.....
Just so one knows what he is getting, not gonna sugar coat my flaws to trick someone into anything
Sorry that some feel i'm horrible, but this who i am
seems like this is the part that ticked off most ppl:
i'm not a walk in the park to be with
i'm beyond difficult to control
,beyond shrewd, hard headed, stubborn,hard to read,and exceptionally manipulative.
i am cold, emotionally sadistic and distant, when i chose to be and you would not even know it.
This is the side i can show you if you show me irresponsible you, when you show me, dishonesty, indiferrence, disrespect and ill intentions.
oh well.....it IS true!!! |
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OK!
So ... i revised the profile, now we wait!
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Just because i answered few emails you sent me , does not mean i am interested in you.
unless bluntly stated and replied then it is SIMPLY answering your email!
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This is beyond frustrating. Cannot deal with this insanity any longer.
So be it, and back to where it all started.
Ashes to ashes
and today we face who we really are. |
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When you see it, you know it!...
sad part is , i don't think what i'm looking for actually exits!
i wonder if all this world of BDSM is just an illusion, or is it just too dreamy of an idea to be true ...for me anyway.
there must be someone , somewhere in some dimension who is capable and true..i think i just missed him, or he missed me ...on puropse.
will wait a lil longer , then go
pointless to try to dress pessants as knights! |
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just realized there were mistakes on my info,, but minor anyway.. corrected |
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i'm serious
READ the profile please
getting pissy here!!!!!! i keep getting msgs from people who look at the pic and just email!
if you are younger than me do NOT email me for heaven's sake,, the answer will always be NO even if you are Brad Pit!
if you are married or attached,, do NOT email me, please
if you want me to be a step towards a threesum,, then for sure NEVER email me!
if you are more than ten years older than me do NOT email me, please
You MUST be:
34-44 yo, SINGLE, live in Toronto, taller than 5'10
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i loooooooooooooooove shopping |
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ummmmm
what is with North Carolina???
very strange indeed! |
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YUPPIIIIIIIIII
i won 5$ in lotto super7
..that is really sad that i got so excited over this ! |
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somethings just turn me off.. it takes a split of a second to happen, but once it does... that is it
DONE!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand NEXT! |
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seriously......
if you are married, attached of any sort for that matter..please do NOT contact me and waste my time! |
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i smoke
i love it
and i will never quit
so ,i guess that's out there, now ! |
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And we are done!
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YESSSSSS
i won Mahjong Titans,
YAY me...finally!
yupppi
i rock!! |
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i love South Park,
Last India Jones DID suck!
Cartman and butters are my heros
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Nothing is going to make me happy as i once was.Futile to even try.
i now know why i used to drink every morning , coffee break, lunch and dinner..... drunk is cheerful..sober is aware of reality.
and reality SUX!
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I understand why people get angry and frustrated with constant rejection. Yet, it amazes me how many are just nasty when they hear the truth. First line in my profile says: if you cannot handle the truth, please do not contact me.
How much more clearer should i be????
Fakers,liars, much older people are a definate NO.
OH and again i am not into pain!
It means i cannot get off on pain,,, cuz alot of ppl ask if i were a pain slut, which i am not..... but will endure pain to please and willing to be trained to get off on it if that is what will please.
Breaking me down is not an easy thing to do at all.. as i have a very well justified high sense of self, after all i am an amazing girl in everything i am and anything i do,even being a slave.Even excelling as a slave has inferorated Masters before.
To me this is not a game, or desire,,it is a need
i seek an exceptional man who can be my Master and at the same time can remain caring. Any man can barge in and bark orders calling himself a Master, yet only few can actually have what it takes to be my Master
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