Please read my journal:
I have been allowed to return to my Masters protection. I am not totaly controlled. I am allowed out on the days I have to work but must be back home when finished. I may not do anything without permission. Master watches me at all times on his cam and I must also keep in constant communication, even while at work through test messages. I have no reason to stray again, I am totaly controlled. Master has made my life complete again.

Where do I start.

My mind has been obsessed. My urges are now too great to ignore. The things that fill my thoughts are too extreme to bear alone. I am lost. I have no limits. I need guidance, training and attention to the needs I can no longer control. I am tired of trying to live with these feelings alone. Take me and use me. Do as you wish. I will serve with no complaint, no thought of myself. I am your to use as you see fit in any way. I am listing some things I hope my new Mistress or Master will not command me to do but having no limits, I am theirs to command. I crave the release of total servitude. Making no decisions of my own. Always doing as told regardless of what is commanded.
I am looking first for a Mistress. I prefer the touch of a female. I crave serving her in all ways. Using me in ways too extreme to mention. I will be her pet, her whipping post, her toilet.
Perhaps a Master would take pity on my needs. I also dream of his use.
throbbing use of my throat and my body.
All my holes are there for use by whom ever will except me, my body, my mind, my life.