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8/28/2013 11:17:35 PM
Enjoying being in Frankfurt...

8/26/2013 11:49:23 AM
In this,hole that is me, the dead are rolling over. In this hole thickening, dirt shoveled over shoulders. I feel it in me so overwhelmed Oh this pressured center rising My life overturned unfair the despair All these scars keep ripping open. Pell me from the skin Tear me from the rind Does it make you happy now Tear me from the bone Tear me from myself Are you feeling happy now.

8/26/2013 1:00:24 AM
I'd like to touch your tattoos in complete darkness, even though I can't seem them I'm sure of where they are. I want to pull you to me

8/23/2013 9:33:56 PM
"I will destroy this life in my own world of desire."

8/21/2013 12:30:54 AM
So may rules, so many times, so may chances.... I won't speak to you unless there is a reason for me to speak. Games are so much fun but understanding is true bliss but at times I feel as if I'm asking to much of he. So if you have something to say then say it! But if the words don't come to you then... What am I to do.

8/20/2013 10:08:59 PM
I'd love say that I've found my way but most days I feel stand still, almost if I close my eyes I can fall right into it. Most can't understand this but I know he will.....

8/19/2013 4:31:53 PM
I adore great conversation....

8/3/2013 11:15:19 PM
I've missed writing on here so I've decided to come back...

8/4/2012 2:47:43 PM

J is leaving for work today...todAY TODAy todAY i hate t day! J tellys me stop pouting you will be fine but .....im not going to be fine but what iam  going to be is sitting in every corner trying to catch a hint of his smell. I tell him i drive myself crazy when your gone i beg  him to tie me to the bed, keep me from moving" Ugh"..  he does get it i m... J just looks at me and smiles then he turns and leaves..

why does  he do that?


8/3/2012 4:25:32 PM

J wants me to start writing again, he says Its been to long since ive had a chance to bloom. I find myself wondering can i truly be open with risking the chance ofv him being angry with me...Im not afraid of being punished just scared of the hurting J..

 

 


11/14/2011 3:16:23 PM

A new start.... a new path to walk on... not behind but beside Him,


12/1/2010 10:28:37 AM

A mask of plastic happiness often covers her sadness

her beliefs hidden from most

Afraid of, but willing to face the unknown

wondering where her place is in this life

She has come close to sharing herself

never completely revealing anything to anyone

Feelings of invisbible chains corner her

When she dreams, reality shatters before her very eyes

Accomplishments she strives for just at hands grasp

She feels lost sometimes, not yet finding her notch in this world

At times glimmer in her calm eyes slowly disappears

 but within her heart a slient flame burns her inside and out

Strength unknowingly resides in her

History repeats its self once again

The translucent veil she so proudly wears

Little be little answers will come, pushing it aside

One day there will be no nore mask for her to hide behind

One day her beliefs will be known

one day shewill share herself

 

will finish later


9/21/2010 7:30:14 PM
I feel like i need you to breath into me, my hunger grows but yet im in a stand still position. All my scars are open..... i started to write this poem but cant find the words

9/20/2010 1:17:38 AM
words are words to most people.... Not his words!! there like food, they give me life , they feed my desire.. without them i'am starve....empty without you.

9/19/2010 4:16:07 PM
I am lost... Havnt spoken to you in days, can't seem to find you... Find me please

9/12/2010 2:06:05 PM
I play for keeps.... I feel myself drawing in... No time to breath

9/1/2010 7:53:45 AM
Everyday I fall into you, even when I fear you and try to run....you pull me back right where I need to be. This can't be normal!!!! But I'm not normal... This is just right for me! I could live like this forever Trapted in this moment So many colors So many feelings

8/31/2010 11:48:13 PM
I'm growing these days.... I look in the mirror and see myself changing,

8/29/2010 11:53:47 PM
Ok I feeling deep down inside me that says " He is the one" and it won't go away . Oh my lord this feeling in the pit of my stomach, this is real but yet I keep looking for it to end. No! That won't happend I've come too far this time. You know... There are times Iate night I can't sleep cause all I can do is wonder what I will say to him next. .....

8/27/2010 11:04:50 PM
I never knew your name yet you were always so familiar...I could have sketched you from memory..if only my hand cooperated with my heart. I always knew the sound of your voice long before I heard you laugh.. You'd force the pen in my hand once again if only to make me scribble words that didn't make me cry. I knew it would be you who discovered the little girl who lived to please.! Long knew your face... I had painted you.. O had loved you from afar. It was always you!

8/25/2010 10:40:15 AM
Can you fell my fever and help me burn? Time disappears when we connect a scream of worship In a natural lust. Make me your willing women, your love sick girl... Sweetly flowering for you in here,,, in darkness

8/24/2010 7:32:15 AM
You haunt me every where I go... I'm going crazy..starting to see shadows, your pulling me down. Go ahead and whisper i hang on your every word cause in the end..., you know what...? I'm not scared

8/23/2010 10:55:27 PM
I'm a time bomb right now...I can squeeze my thighs and close my eyes and hope he visits me in my dreams.

8/22/2010 8:15:26 AM
On my knees today I sat.... For no reason other then I like it... I need another piece to my puzzle

8/20/2010 12:10:35 AM
I can't help but love the monster I've become.... Perversions I've ran from all my life I now welcome with open arms!!!!

8/16/2010 8:11:02 AM
Woke myself up last night... I felt like I couldn't remember how to breath, I'm so frustrated with trying to get what I want. Sometimes I get so close I can taste him but then it's gone and he's gone and he was never real and I'm left again searching......you know the wreck is the first time I felt something real! Is that a wired thing to say?

8/12/2010 8:11:30 AM
I don't feel like the same girl before the wreck... Honestly I don't remember slot of things but I feel like I'm walking with a stranger. It will get better I know plus the doc said so too.... Just I feel like there was something I was supposed to do and I just can't seem to remember ! Hit my head harder then I remember!!! :)

8/12/2010 8:01:22 AM
Hey all my friends! I was in a bad car wreck and have not respond to my messages... Sorry will try my best! Kisses to all!

7/24/2010 8:07:47 AM
Life is what you make it, At least that what they say. Well I think I'm gonna make it fufill my dreams one day I feel this fire growin deep inside of me I'm so inspired know that it's my destiny. I breath like a champion I dream like a champion I'am a champion it's meant to be. My wills getting stronger can't wait any longer I sing this song inside of me Cause I'm a believer I know I'm going to make it no matter what they say.

7/14/2010 12:01:23 AM
I kneel supplicant before you My will offered up in quiet acquiescence Awaiting your approval or reproach The fine line between pain and pleasure Becomes even sweeter in your control With every touch, kiss,word smoldering embers are kindled tormenting desires are awaken. I quiver

7/6/2010 11:29:40 PM
( The air is thickening around me) Someone told me that I smile like I have a secret that I want to share.?? Honestly I feel like there is a secret I want to get out but i don't know exactly what is. my true love is my perversion

7/5/2010 12:21:33 AM
Whisper slowly to me, finding what keep you here Hunting you, I can smell you- alive Your heart pounding in my head Watching me,wanting me I can feel you pull me down.

6/24/2010 10:19:10 PM
Sometimes I don't want to be better.... Sometimes I can't be put back together..... Sometimes I find it hard to believe there's someone else just as messed up as Me.....!!

6/24/2010 2:23:00 PM
I'm holding my last breath, safe inside myself..

6/14/2010 1:07:16 PM
When my faith is getting weak and I feel like giving in, you breath into me again I'm awake I'm alive now I know what I believe inside now it's my Time I'll do what I want'cause it's my time here right now I'll stand m ground and never back down I know what I believe inside I'm awake I'm alive.

6/14/2010 10:04:10 AM
First day ever I'm lost without words

6/12/2010 12:32:37 AM
I'm falling forever, should I break through? I will calm myself, I'm sweating now moving slow..... I m scared but I'm not moving gotta pass this test!

6/9/2010 12:13:43 AM
Here I will wait, on my knees, hands tied, eyes starting to tear up but here I still wait.

6/7/2010 3:42:57 PM
I wait...

6/6/2010 4:04:53 AM
Haunted I feel everyday, like a memory's stalking me I'm my dreams. I see the light at the end of the tunnel on my knees I scream.

5/18/2010 12:10:43 PM
I write and i write but sometimes i dont think, anyone understands me!!! Am i asking for too much or is it just need to wait for the answer??

5/18/2010 11:46:51 AM

There's something about
Kneeling quietly beside Him
Your body bruised, reddened, coated, tired
Your mind silent, for once ~ for a time
Your head bowed, your eyes closed
Your lips quivering as His fingers touch you
Your submission, unquestioned
Your Peace at Hand There's something about
Being slapped across the face
Not backhanded, but smacked to bring about
A change in behavior
A change in attitude
To make that lovely wail come from deep in your chest
You long to make it, as He longs to hear it


5/15/2010 10:46:31 AM
Take a breath,
Take it deep.
'Calm yourself', He says to me
If you play, you play for keeps.
Take the gun and count to three.
Im sweating now,
Moving slow,
No time to think. My turn to go

[Hook]
And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest.
Said I'm terrified but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So, just pull the trigger

4/19/2010 12:37:02 PM

The shades are drawn
my choices gone
The night, begun churning
Alone for now
i don't know how
i've come to this yearning

 
 
 
The room is dark
And furnished stark
A cross in the corner
The chains that clink
The ropes that sink
Into skin with fervor
 
 
 
i cannot see
my eyes will be
Covered most relentless
Without a gap
The blindfold wraps
i won't see my Tempest
 
 
 
my wrists are bound
No freedom found
Drawn high up above me
The cuffs that bite
Steel tempered might
Hold secure their duty

4/14/2010 11:08:05 AM
what to do???

7/12/2009 9:18:41 PM
lost and forsaken, I was floating
swallowed and spit out
  over and over again, tumbling
  head over heels, heart full of stories,
wanting to shout!
  but silence, not a word, now . . .
roaring waves open their mouth, longing
  pushing down, greedily awaiting me,
in the abyss of their hunger, no!
out of Neptune's reach by chance
  carried away on foaming horses
with haste my story to tell at last
  to the first warm hand
  touching my cold smooth skin
unfold my wings.
  on a shore, under the sun
  salty tears streaming down my face
unravel my secret. yours now to bear.

7/9/2009 9:48:30 AM
I really enjoy getting to know myself better, its so crazy how i never knew who i truely was...

7/1/2009 8:44:13 AM
got some new pics to share...please enjoy

7/1/2009 7:56:26 AM

i cannot see
my eyes will be
Covered most relentless
Without a gap
The blindfold wraps
i won't see my Tempest


7/1/2009 7:54:27 AM
my mind is going i need to understand what it is im doing...

9/30/2008 11:21:18 AM
For some reason i cant get enough of what i want... I crave it every wakeing hour.

9/28/2008 2:44:19 PM

love this song....

Long lost words whisper slowly to me
Still cant find what keeps me here
When all this time ive been so hollow inside
(I know your still there)

Watching me , wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Fearing you Loving you
I won't let you pull me down

Hunting you I can smell you - alive
Your heart pounding in my head
Wanting me , killing me
I can feel you pull me down
Saving me, raping me
watching me ..

x2 Watching me, wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Fearing you Loving you
I wont let you pull me down


9/28/2008 2:23:37 PM

"All Around Me"
My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed


9/22/2008 1:31:54 PM
Are you ready to read this....cause im so ready to say it!!!! After all this time ive found my place in this caos of a world. Ive found my way Home.  I wandered helpless through this life
As lovers came and went
A need within i could not name
A chance i had not spent

There i was, alone and cold
A witness with no truth
But i knew then what i know now
Upon the sight of You

For some are born as You, my Master
Showing us our path
As we are born to beg and serve
Lest we incur your wrath

"On your knees, slave."

When first i sank to that stone floor
The tears rolled down my face
Of one, who after many years,
Has finally found her place

To You i freely give my heart
And all that it contains
For when i disobey i find
My solace in the pain

i have no power here before You,
Held within Your thrall
For now You own my heart and soul
And body, most of all


9/21/2008 11:47:02 AM

The shades are drawn
my choices gone
The night, begun churning
Alone for now
i don't know how
i've come to this yearning

 
The room is dark
And furnished stark
A cross in the corner
The chains that clink
The ropes that sink
Into skin with fervor
 
i cannot see
my eyes will be
Covered most relentless
Without a gap
The blindfold wraps
i won't see my Tempest
 
my wrists are bound
No freedom found
Drawn high up above me
The cuffs that bite
Steel tempered might
Hold secure their duty
 
Thick leather bound
my ankles round
The bar spreading widely
But still held more
Secured to floor
i hang stretching idly
 
i make no sound
Silence surrounds
Soft whimpers and groaning
my jaw held tight
Against all fight
Gag leaves only moaning
 
Beyond closed door
Past miles of floor
Soft voices discussing
As night gets late
Terms of my fate
my pulse swiftly rushing
 
Though i can't see
Objects that be
Hanging ore' the room round
The tools of pain
That come to rain
On my skin with sharp sounds
 
The waiting hard
For any shard
Of leather that bites me
How long i've hung
From ceiling's rung
The time has escaped me
 
The door unlocks
The sound sends shocks
Of anticipation
Things to be felt
That raise the welts
Lustful pain sensations
 
Footfalls explore
Across the floor
No word has been spoken
Throughout the room
The lurking doom
The silence unbroken
 
i hear the sound
Of objects found
For pain - tools of passion
Then back near me
Time come to be
Her toy, Her possession
 
Lust being fed
Skin turning red
Sweet pain rushing through me
Gag-muffled screams
Fulfilling dreams
Beg for Her to use me
 
Welts rising high
Bruise-colored thighs
The session exquisite
Deep redness wins
Heat from my skin
Such a scalding visit
 
i hang there spent
my strength all lent
To whip, crop and flogger
The session run
my will be gone
my body is for Her
 
i am helped down
my limbs unbound
i lay on the cold floor
She leaves me there
To others' care
Tonight there is no more
 
Once on my feet
She speaks to me
A good pet i have been
Sent on my way
til the next day
Chance comes to serve Her whim
 
submissive life
That blossoms ripe
Wishing pain and hurting
The life i lead
i have been freed
By rope, chains and serving..... now you have seen through my eyes, but do understand me? can you say who iam?

9/21/2008 11:37:32 AM

Inhale me like the finest of wine
passing from your silken lips to mine
entwining in French connections
of the most exquisite kind.

Draw me in with the gentle persuasion
of feathered strokes and velvet whispers
running along my skin
alighting me with deep desire.

Awaken my every sense
to the tracing of my body
with your hot and fevered tongue
of anticipatory passion.

Press gently against me
where skin upon skin we meld
in a mounting crescendo of pleasure
ascending heavens heights.

Instill your love within me
in a depth that surpasses all
letting yourself go completely
as we climax together in sensual beauty.


9/15/2008 4:09:42 PM

 

Passions revealed,
desires sedated,
never once believed,
such pleasures awaited.

Romance claimed lost,
desire now greed,
no estatic long nights,
just fullfilling a need.

But with lingering glances,
on satin smooth skin,
through the night we languish,
in the erotica of skin.

A candle lit dinner,
alone to test our will,
champaine on ice ,
inhibitions to chill.

A fire in the hearth,
our only light,
yet hold back the urges,
as passion fills the night.

Caressing your hair,
a masage designed to please,
your breathing grows soft,
a sensual tease.

Lips finally meet,
so tender and hoping,
tounges intertwine,
searching not groping.

Finger tips trace,
from your neck down your spine,
awakening nerves the pleasure ,
devine.

Cloths whisper as they fall to the floor,
bringing pleasure in the skin they show,
no rush no hurry all night,
to take it slow.


9/15/2008 3:57:13 PM

Rapture

There is a place for us
that no one else can enter.
It is a place that holds no secrets,
only beauty, peace, understanding.

A place that we come to,
thinking we are one,
only to have our souls
fused together for a moment.

And in that moment, I know you;
every pore, every pulse,
every thought, every fear.
And I love you more.

I feel myself laid bare before you,
and I feel content . . .
joyous that you are with me,
loving me in my nakedness.


9/14/2008 11:01:25 AM


Because i realized i got
Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out
And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best frien
d


9/11/2008 3:04:45 PM

 I feel so good inside...can you say that you have had a taste of true happiness??? Well I have! and i plan on holding on tight and never letting go.


9/9/2008 3:23:20 PM

So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone

Love me when I'm gone...


9/4/2008 10:17:50 AM

~=FLAVOR OF THE APPLE=~

Without light there can be no vision
but without vision there
is still the light

Born with or without eyes
the experience of life
is enlightening

The flavor of the apple
is electric in its nature
taste is now flavor is forever

We consume the flavor of life
digestion of its colors is at times
a lifetime process of revealing its truth

Social power is gained
by we times truth shared
justified truth is harmonious

The holy spirit of humanity
creates our souls
its "the truth"

Tread softly
upon this grass
for you are the caretaker


9/2/2008 5:25:12 PM

Wow... what can i say? all i can do is sit back and take it all in!!!!Hmmmm


9/2/2008 9:01:43 AM

There's something about
Kneeling quietly beside Him
Your body bruised, reddened, coated, tired
Your mind silent, for once ~ for a time
Your head bowed, your eyes closed
Your lips quivering as His fingers touch you
Your submission, unquestioned
Your Peace at Hand There's something about
Being slapped across the face
Not backhanded, but smacked to bring about
A change in behavior
A change in attitude
To make that lovely wail come from deep in your chest
You long to make it, as He longs to hear it


9/1/2008 6:58:19 PM

Unmasked evil thoughts
Harmony in finest intimacy
Grooving scent is now in silence
Love finally forgotten its sense

Turn, twist and spin
Hear my voice
Dance with the rhythm
Fly with the wind

Hungry heart beats
In the arms of the lost
Hold on to the beat
Forget the world

Thirst shroud our fears
Dwelling underneath the sun
Just the three of us
Dashing the night
In the heavenly ground...
I wanted to show how the two of you touched me and brought life to a dream! Thank you.mauh..


8/30/2008 2:35:01 PM

 Im afraid to look up........ dont know whats up there, so i keep my eyes down till you say so. I know im a little girl trying to grow up in this world......you going to help me?  
There can be no sense of mourning  
without having gained  
that first touch of beauty.These magnificent moments  
& memories  
will never truly be lessened  
by their loss.I shall never claim  
to understand,  
although I have wept  
at my own emptiness  
upon losing something so precious,far too many times.Possessions are sacred  
only when imbued with sentiment ~  
their presence  
will not be undone  
by their absence,for each remains  
safely within your heart  
that needs no locks,where fresh air  
freely roams,whose radiant rhythms  
remember them all...


8/28/2008 7:29:29 PM
 You want to get to know me....? then just read my thoughts go down the rabbit hole. hey you might just like it down there!

8/28/2008 11:55:42 AM


I am skin
on wood
on leather
on metal
I am rough smooth hard soft
thrust hit pound
inhale
exhale

I am not here
there
I am not weelz
not cath
not me

I am sub empty
I am filled
full
fullfilled
I am not mine
give offer
take accept allow

I am not free
I am free
I am sharp gasp past
last
first
I am yes
I am not no

I am breath
I am scream
I am scream
inhale

I am stroke count count count
count
lose count
I am scream
exhale
I am scream

I am fingers onside inside
I am wait
wait
I am not now
wait
wait

I am - yes - now
i am not ending
forever never
ever for

I am
I am
I am


8/28/2008 11:05:42 AM


to glow at your praise
cower on command
and cater to your needs.

You take control,
to make me your slave
an angel on demand
to love and to hold.

What else could exist
that can touch what we share?
A dangerous bliss
for all those who dare.

I chain you with love,
to help set our stage
floggers on hand
for my glorious sub.

You might close your eyes,
to help you be brave
moans on reprimand
turning to sighs.

Others don't know
the switches of love.
But here we're both always
both Master and sub.


8/28/2008 10:59:18 AM

Even now I can see the future
I can feel you
sense you
draw you in with every moment
every movement
as it should be
as it will be.
Your steady heartbeat
speeding
and changing

With you so close
I'll tell you things
that will make your mind reel
and your body ache
things that will invade your dreams
for weeks to come--
I will leave you sweating
and alive.
And when you are ready
I'll show you what you've never seen
and I'll enjoy it
more than you might believe.
I can feel you,
yearning to come
for me alone.
Your denials and refusals
are merely foreplay.


8/27/2008 2:08:35 PM

Im strong enough to walk behind you.......


8/19/2008 12:19:07 PM

I have a dark side
she calls herself Shadow
She's me,
whom I've wanted to be
for some time.

Her hunger for revenge
can inspire,
such consequences later on
yet, you don't think of it
when the time is then
all you want
is the hurt,
the betrayl,
the pain to stop.

I tremble at my anger,
my hands shake uncontrollably
my heart speeds
sweat beads on my head
She says, "Go ahead,you know you want to."
I start, then stop
Cause I say, 'No...I can't.'
She's angry, "You insolent fool, you're weak"
Instead I cry, till' the night is dawn
lying in myself, forever lost.

She looks at me,
rare mercy in her eyes,
"I know...it isn't your fault."
Tears fall from me,I wipe them
sleep overtakes me, my soul
as I dream their blood,
smeared all over our hands,
I smile in disturbed contentment.


8/10/2008 6:11:08 PM

Always without desire we must be found,
If its deep mystery we would sound;
But if desire always within us be,
Its outer fringe is all that we shall see.


7/20/2008 4:53:43 PM

Hair a toss ‘round crimson cheeks

The gag, moist on trembling lips

A small bird’s rapid breath

snubs back her weeping

Red-raised welts brand gentle flesh

caressing nipple, thigh and crease

Pale blue eyes once cool, aloof

now burn with new found flame

Her molten gaze struggles up

and stokes the fire within me

then drops in desperation

with passion’s goal denied

Two muffled words I hear

bring joy to my heart,

“Please, more


7/18/2008 6:41:18 PM
like a hurt lost and blinded by love..... consider this picked up in a century brought to my knees.... I thought i heard you scream, thats me in the corner.

7/17/2008 5:36:53 PM
Well here i am in a new city a whole different state. I feel like a fish out of water but i also feel this new skin is good for me. I know getting closer to him..... i feel him near me everyday.....Im coming to you....

5/5/2008 9:01:24 AM
   Ive shed a thousand tears, but none have burn like the ones ive shed for thee...... I feel closer to you and to myself; does that make any sense??....

5/2/2008 10:13:31 AM
i get alot of  people who ask me ( who are you talking about in your journal??? well the answer is my fantasy,my master in my mind, the one i crave for...... Does that make sense?? No i dont have a master but in my head i do...... These writings are a veiw to my soul, a chance to see inside me........ enjoy!!!!!!!

5/2/2008 9:30:17 AM

You see I cannot be forsaken
Because I'm not the only one
We walk amongst you feeding, raping
Must we hide from everyone?

I'm over it
Why can't we be together embrace it?
Sleeping so long taking off the mask
At last I see

My fear is fading, I can't speak it
Or else you will dig my grave
You feel them finding, always whining
Take my hand now be alive


5/1/2008 2:53:02 PM

Is there anyone out there?? cause its getting harder,harder  to breath...!


5/1/2008 2:32:02 PM
how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home
now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life


5/1/2008 2:21:24 PM
I get so hopeful but i cant now.... i wont let another bring me to a place, then take the feeling away.... oh how i want to be beneath him....

5/1/2008 2:20:24 PM

am overwhelmed with a burning desire
A desire locked down deep inside
One that cannot be concealed anymore.

I long for one sweet kiss to quench my thirst
I long for one tender touch that will last a lifetime

At the end of it all you are my deepest desire


4/30/2008 12:28:16 PM

  My hands are searcing for you My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place


4/29/2008 3:14:51 PM
Sleeping is getting hard for me to do....i sit and my mind wonders off to him, wanting,craving,needing, what is wrong with me?? my mind is so clouded by my thoughts cant seem to fit life in with it.

4/29/2008 3:06:32 PM

Desires born,
growing within spirit and soul…
Unknown cravings,
nurtured daily, expression awaits…
innocence remains intact,
as stories…await to be told.
 


Buried within,
within each whom breathe…
Some forgotten,
busy lives, altered plans…
and so our lives continue,
while our future…it does weave.


 

Others hidden,
lurking beneath the surface…
safely sheltered,
from fear and rejection…
we tuck them away,
while only ourselves…we deceive.


 

Awaiting discovery,
within a tomb of safety, fire continues to grow…
anticipation building,
as the moment arrives…
craving the surface to reach,
 desires quenched…as finally ourselves…we let go!


4/29/2008 10:15:08 AM

 The world is going so fast but yet i stand still with my eyes opend but my world is half asleep.


4/24/2008 9:43:55 AM

Why do i dream of being a slut of being used by others But not having my own need satisfied. Why does the thought of being unworthy fill me with such pride longing to feel pain givin for anothers pleasure Received with grace.
Why do i dream of being tied down Not able to move a limb bneing control at the mercy of another why does it appeal freeing my mind?


4/22/2008 10:22:04 AM

Baby this a new age, you like my new craze
Let's get together maybe we can start a new phase
The smokes got the club all hazy, spotlights don't do you justice baby
Why don't you come over here, you got me saying

Aayooh
I'm tired of using technology, why don't you sit down on top of me

Aayooh
I'm tired of using technology, I need you right in front of me


4/22/2008 9:41:39 AM
 
Lust being fed
Skin turning red
Sweet pain rushing through me
Gag-muffled screams
Fulfilling dreams
Beg for His to use me
 
Welts rising high
Bruise-colored thighs
The session exquisite

4/22/2008 9:30:36 AM
Do you really think you can break me?? My will and drive craves inside you, dont afraid of my will.......looking in your eyes while your on the other side. Damn!

4/18/2008 12:53:27 PM
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

4/18/2008 11:40:50 AM

Feeling the night crawling up my skin
craving the dark and pain
yearning the passion of sin
because the Dark calls my name

There you are dark stranger
demons whisper desire
taste my blood and heal my pain
I feel I yearn I want
to be your everything
all because the darkness calls my name

In the night I can't resist
the heartbeat of fire
strap me down and bleed me dry
take my life I'm willing to fly
the dark calls my name

Come satify me before dawn
and cure your hunger and despair
take my hand
turn me into your every desire
The light hurts my eyes
beacause the dark calls my name.


4/17/2008 8:48:23 AM
Dont think my heart can take another beating...... Im awake but my world is half asleep.....

4/16/2008 12:31:56 PM
Ever get that feeling of being incomplete??? That you just cant seem to shake off...... sometimes the feeling is so strong i cant breath, i feel like im choking and i need to be let go!

4/15/2008 3:10:51 PM
wow.... life is what you make it.....cant say i didnt try with it, gave it my all...... ive loved so hard and ive played even harder...... Now its time to move into another zone.... im ready now... Are you?

3/21/2008 11:01:02 AM
It seems latly im not shy anymore, i feel myself being pulled towards someone... I feel his hand at night around my neck so tight but yet with the softest touch, am i going crazy?... I stalk at night looking for him, i wear outfits i would never wear during the day,i have a sense of who he is....hmmmm i can taste him in the air......

3/5/2008 10:08:38 AM
Tie me up, tie me down
(make me moan real loud)
Make me moan real loud
(take off my clothes)
Take off my clothes
No one has to know
Whisperin I wanna feel a soft rope burn
(no one has to know)
Wanna feel a
Rope burn
Can you feel the warmth of the fire
Candlelight embrace your body
Im feelin the hot candle wax drippin down the small of my back
Can you feel the warmth of the fire
Candlelight embrace your body
Im feelin the hot candle wax drippin down the small of my back

You wanna know what my tongue feels like?
Mmhmm
You like that?

You wanna know what my tongue feels like?
Mmhmm
You like that?

3/5/2008 9:10:14 AM
Wow latly i feel like im in heat........ i cant cool down for nouthing ive tryed so hard but the heat is very overwhelming. It catchs me while im alone in my room or just sitting in a class, i have to try my best not to reach down.... whats wrong with me?(I dream in darkness
I sleep to die,
Erase the silence,
Erase my life,
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day,
A world of nothingness,
Blow me away.)



3/5/2008 8:56:01 AM
Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

2/29/2008 9:28:45 AM
WEll here iam after a very short relationship with a Dom that let me go after he said he couldt do it any more. He has  no clue how much of a head trip he gave me. After i thought i finaley got what i wanted he said he diodnt think this was a life for him. well im glad he found himself but now im left alone  on my knees without no one to guide me.  He has no clue how scary that its to walk amog this life and cant figure witch way to go........ I just want to find that one who can help bring life to my eyes......  were are you?

1/7/2008 10:35:57 AM
Oh how i crave him so much....... isee him when i close my eyes i feel his breath on my neck......... i want his hand around my neck, but he wont....

1/7/2008 10:27:17 AM
Hello to all my friends......... miss me much??? ive been ill latly but im doing much better and im ready to serve him....... you have no clue what lies behind this girl.......... come see... kisses to all

12/6/2007 9:47:01 AM

Have to say this is the way i feel everyday in my world......have such a dark craving

I sit here alone, with my mind in a cage. I look to the world a prison in its on right. I want to find a small chance for escapeI know where my feelings are free.I close my eyes.rope binds my arms straps embarrass my chest. As the collar goes around my neck, i feel my freedom....I open my eyes to the cold world. I know theres no one there!


12/6/2007 9:22:41 AM
Cant seem to find my place outside this world,maybe its eazy for me to be myself here then out there. I know i feel like i wear a mask every time i walk outside the house, i have to be what they want me to be. "I hate it" I want to be the real me 24/7 not just in front of the right people. What do i fear? Not being accepted by everyone.

12/4/2007 11:33:23 AM

Had a dream last night. Oh how it was just what i needed to see...... I woke up in sweat and tears, i loved it all every second of the dark. I Loved it..... Now i want to close my eyes and wish it would come back to me.


12/3/2007 9:22:02 AM

I dont know when,and i dont know how but i do know this i will be  apart of this world...


11/29/2007 10:07:27 AM

 

It's so hard to express who you are inside;
It's so hard to let everyone know what you're all about.

Where ever you go they stare and they point,
But you really don't know why.

Everyone says do not judge others
By what they look like or from where they come.

Unless you know, truly know, them,
Don't make it seem
Like you know their deepest feelings
Or the fears they hold inside.

They say don't judge, yet we all know
What they're thinking as we walk by.

It's sad and unfair that you have to hide
And be judged by those who you don't know.

How long can you fear?
How long can you wait?
Till they see you for who you are.…

11/28/2007 11:54:18 AM
  Im afraid to look up........ dont know whats up there, so i keep my eyes down till you say so. I know im a little girl trying to grow up in this world......you going to help me?

There can be no sense of mourning

without having gained

that first touch of beauty.

These magnificent moments

& memories

will never truly be lessened

by their loss.

I shall never claim

to understand,


although I have wept

at my own emptiness

upon losing something so precious,
far too many times.

Possessions are sacred

only when imbued with sentiment ~


their presence

will not be undone

by their absence,

for each remains


safely within your heart

that needs no locks,

where fresh air

freely roams,

whose radiant rhythms

remember them all...


11/24/2007 1:40:22 PM

For the first time I felt something.....not just a emotion but a warmth that came over me in waves. It didnt last long but now i crave that warmth, you gave it to me and took it aways as fast as it came. I open myself to you......are you brave enough to see what lies beneath me??? Or will you turn your back to my hand....please dont run away.....


11/24/2007 1:28:14 PM
She was mysteriously drawn to his unquestionably passion
that lashed at her trembling heart

Whispering conversation became the language of desire
that burns like a blazing meadow  fire 
that was tearing them apart

Raw intriging winds become dangerous that consume
the breath of feverish words that blanket with thick
blinding love in hot summer gasping  air

Jousting emotion with hint of longing was demanding
their mind with suffering conclusion of empty despair


To dream of joy and awake to the sorrow of life

and yet smiles with shivered fragments of longing


Are we just spirit slaves who cries out to our hearts

it become just blowing dust to drift among

the timeless  glass of of time.


11/19/2007 9:42:13 AM
back and fourth, up and down....you see me through the glass reaching out to you with both hands.... This life is filled with hurt but trust me,take my hand when the lights go off i will show you a world you can undersatand..

11/13/2007 12:11:52 PM
well here iam again..... opening up to people i hardly know..... Im not scared anymore!!!!! Im ready to take that step out towards him, to reach out for his hand. I want him to see the little girl that is trying with all her heart to grow up just a bit more....will he see this?? I hope so.

10/14/2007 8:50:20 PM

Passion so consuming that only a whisper
Can express the emotions
Boiling over inside a body filled
With longing to release
The bonds of earth and take silent flight.

Desire so wanton that only moans
Can utter the ancient craving
Locked so tightly in a prison of flesh
That cries for freedom
To sail over dungeon walls in silent flight.

Love so devoted that only a touch
From the hand of the keeper of all it's secrets
Can give it reason to continue to exist
And a heart reason to soar
Like wings of angels in silent flight.

Across the breadth and depth of all that's known
Above the things that shadowed dreams
And shattered hopes of past tomorrows
Your love and guidance have raised me up
To places never known by mortal man
And I've touched them all in silent flight.


9/20/2007 12:55:03 PM

Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.

Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.

Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.

Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.


9/10/2007 1:30:07 PM
Life is what you make it At least that's what they say Well I think I'm gonna make it Fulfill my dreams one day I feel this fire growin' deep inside of me I'm so inspired knowin' that it's my destiny Everyday I'm waitin' Tryin' to find the patience So close I can taste it But sometimes it's so hard But I'ma keep on pushin' And I'ma keep on fightin' And I'ma keep on tryin' because I've come too far

9/4/2007 11:30:49 AM

Please notice me....im on my knees waiting for you to say those words..I know you feel me haunting you...waiting and wanting i sit here, you cloud my mind...It kills me but i wait.


8/23/2007 9:25:53 AM

I think ive found him... The one i will shout out for. My breath is tookin by his words, please let him see me.


7/23/2007 10:01:16 AM
Dancing towards your fire the energy engulfs me Begin to intrigue me Know me, for no one knows me Beg me for I beg you Possess me let me I beg to possess you Power let it over take me Let it swallow me Let it hurt me for the moans that I gasp are for your eyes only My soul screams your name as exctasy controls it. Perverse Controlled Obsession of me below me above me for me within me.

7/11/2007 10:19:52 AM
I miss the winter A world of fragile things Look for me in the white forest Hiding in a hollowed tree (come find me) I know you hear me I can taste it in your tears Holding my last breathe Safe inside myself Are all my thoughts of you Sweet raptured light It ends here tonight

7/11/2007 5:20:00 AM

I sit here alone, with my mind in a cage. I look to the world a prison in its on right.
I want to find a small chance for escapeI know where my feelings are free.
I close my eyes.
rope binds my arms straps embarrass my chest. As the collar goes around my neck, i feel my freedom....
I open my eyes
to the cold world.
I know theres no one there!




6/28/2007 9:21:28 AM
all this time I can't believe I couldn't see kept in the dark but you were there in front of me I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems got to open my eyes to everything without a thought without a voice without a soul don't let me die here there must be something more bring me to life

6/22/2007 9:09:39 AM

I feel so closed  tight.! I want all this i feel deep inside to come up to the surface. I cant seem to focus on what iam without him, and without him im nothing. I wait on my knees with my eyes closed tight and i sense him..... do you sense me Sir


6/16/2007 7:19:49 AM
My mind is going crazy... i want him!! i see him in my dreams but he yet he never speaks. Will i wait here on my knees forever? or will he say those words i so want to hear? I quess i wait to find out..
II know that in my dreams your nothing but a shadow of a thought i want it to become a reality for me...I do.

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 Age: 43
 Darlington Area, South Carolina