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Enjoying being in Frankfurt... |
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In this,hole that is me, the dead are rolling over. In this hole thickening, dirt shoveled over shoulders.
I feel it in me so overwhelmed
Oh this pressured center rising
My life overturned unfair the despair
All these scars keep ripping open.
Pell me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now
Tear me from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now.
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I'd like to touch your tattoos in complete darkness, even though I can't seem them I'm sure of where they are. I want to pull you to me |
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"I will destroy this life in my own world of desire." |
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So may rules, so many times, so may chances.... I won't speak to you unless there is a reason for me to speak. Games are so much fun but understanding is true bliss but at times I feel as if I'm asking to much of he. So if you have something to say then say it! But if the words don't come to you then... What am I to do. |
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I'd love say that I've found my way but most days I feel stand still, almost if I close my eyes I can fall right into it. Most can't understand this but I know he will..... |
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I adore great conversation.... |
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I've missed writing on here so I've decided to come back... |
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J is leaving for work today...todAY TODAy todAY i hate t day! J tellys me stop pouting you will be fine but .....im not going to be fine but what iam going to be is sitting in every corner trying to catch a hint of his smell. I tell him i drive myself crazy when your gone i beg him to tie me to the bed, keep me from moving" Ugh".. he does get it i m... J just looks at me and smiles then he turns and leaves..
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J wants me to start writing again, he says Its been to long since ive had a chance to bloom. I find myself wondering can i truly be open with risking the chance ofv him being angry with me...Im not afraid of being punished just scared of the hurting J..
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A new start.... a new path to walk on... not behind but beside Him, |
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A mask of plastic happiness often covers her sadness
her beliefs hidden from most
Afraid of, but willing to face the unknown
wondering where her place is in this life
She has come close to sharing herself
never completely revealing anything to anyone
Feelings of invisbible chains corner her
When she dreams, reality shatters before her very eyes
Accomplishments she strives for just at hands grasp
She feels lost sometimes, not yet finding her notch in this world
At times glimmer in her calm eyes slowly disappears
but within her heart a slient flame burns her inside and out
Strength unknowingly resides in her
History repeats its self once again
The translucent veil she so proudly wears
Little be little answers will come, pushing it aside
One day there will be no nore mask for her to hide behind
One day her beliefs will be known
one day shewill share herself
will finish later |
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I feel like i need you to breath into me, my hunger grows but yet im in a stand still position. All my scars are open.....
i started to write this poem but cant find the words |
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words are words to most people.... Not his words!! there like food, they give me life , they feed my desire.. without them i'am starve....empty without you. |
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I am lost... Havnt spoken to you in days, can't seem to find you... Find me please |
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I play for keeps.... I feel myself drawing in... No time to breath |
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Everyday I fall into you, even when I fear you and try to run....you pull me back right where I need to be. This can't be normal!!!! But I'm not normal... This is just right for me!
I could live like this forever
Trapted in this moment
So many colors
So many feelings
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I'm growing these days.... I look in the mirror and see myself changing, |
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Ok I feeling deep down inside me that says " He is the one" and it won't go away . Oh my lord this feeling in the pit of my stomach, this is real but yet I keep looking for it to end. No! That won't happend I've come too far this time. You know... There are times Iate night I can't sleep cause all I can do is wonder what I will say to him next. ..... |
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I never knew your name yet you were always so familiar...I could have sketched you from memory..if only my hand cooperated with my heart. I always knew the sound of your voice long before I heard you laugh.. You'd force the pen in my hand once again if only to make me scribble words that didn't make me cry. I knew it would be you who discovered the little girl who lived to please.! Long knew your face... I had painted you.. O had loved you from afar.
It was always you! |
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Can you fell my fever and help me burn? Time disappears when we connect a scream of worship In a natural lust. Make me your willing women, your love sick girl... Sweetly flowering for you in here,,, in darkness |
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You haunt me every where I go...
I'm going crazy..starting to see shadows, your pulling me down. Go ahead and whisper i hang on your every word cause in the end..., you know what...?
I'm not scared |
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I'm a time bomb right now...I can squeeze my thighs and close my eyes and hope he visits me in my dreams. |
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On my knees today I sat.... For no reason other then I like it... I need another piece to my puzzle |
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I can't help but love the monster I've become.... Perversions I've ran from all my life I now welcome with open arms!!!! |
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Woke myself up last night... I felt like I couldn't remember how to breath, I'm so frustrated with trying to get what I want. Sometimes I get so close I can taste him but then it's gone and he's gone and he was never real and I'm left again searching......you know the wreck is the first time I felt something real! Is that a wired thing to say? |
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I don't feel like the same girl before the wreck... Honestly I don't remember slot of things but I feel like I'm walking with a stranger. It will get better I know plus the doc said so too.... Just I feel like there was something I was supposed to do and I just can't seem to remember ! Hit my head harder then I remember!!! :) |
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Hey all my friends! I was in a bad car wreck and have not respond to my messages... Sorry will try my best! Kisses to all! |
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Life is what you make it, At least that what they say. Well I think I'm gonna make it fufill my dreams one day
I feel this fire growin deep inside of me I'm so inspired know that it's my destiny.
I breath like a champion
I dream like a champion
I'am a champion it's meant to be.
My wills getting stronger can't wait any longer
I sing this song inside of me
Cause I'm a believer I know I'm going to make it no matter what they say. |
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I kneel supplicant before you
My will offered up in quiet acquiescence
Awaiting your approval or reproach
The fine line between pain and pleasure
Becomes even sweeter in your control
With every touch, kiss,word smoldering
embers are kindled tormenting desires are awaken. I quiver |
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( The air is thickening around me)
Someone told me that I smile like I have a secret that I want to share.?? Honestly I feel like there is a secret I want to get out but i don't know exactly what is. my true love is my perversion |
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Whisper slowly to me, finding what keep you here
Hunting you, I can smell you- alive
Your heart pounding in my head
Watching me,wanting me I can feel you pull me down. |
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Sometimes I don't want to be better....
Sometimes I can't be put back together.....
Sometimes I find it hard to believe there's someone else just as messed up as Me.....!! |
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I'm holding my last breath, safe inside myself.. |
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When my faith is getting weak and I feel like giving in, you breath into me again
I'm awake I'm alive
now I know what I believe inside now it's my Time I'll do what I want'cause it's my time
here right now
I'll stand m ground and never back down I know what I believe inside
I'm awake I'm alive. |
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First day ever I'm lost without words |
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I'm falling forever, should I break through? I will calm myself, I'm sweating now moving slow..... I m scared but I'm not moving gotta pass this test! |
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Here I will wait, on my knees, hands tied, eyes starting to tear up but here I still wait. |
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Haunted I feel everyday, like a memory's stalking me I'm my dreams. I see the light at the end of the tunnel on my knees I scream. |
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I write and i write but sometimes i dont think, anyone understands me!!! Am i asking for too much or is it just need to wait for the answer?? |
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There's something about Kneeling quietly beside Him Your body bruised, reddened, coated, tired Your mind silent, for once ~ for a time Your head bowed, your eyes closed Your lips quivering as His fingers touch you Your submission, unquestioned Your Peace at Hand There's something about Being slapped across the face Not backhanded, but smacked to bring about A change in behavior A change in attitude To make that lovely wail come from deep in your chest You long to make it, as He longs to hear it |
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Take a breath, Take it deep. 'Calm yourself', He says to me If you play, you play for keeps. Take the gun and count to three. Im sweating now, Moving slow, No time to think. My turn to go
[Hook] And you can see my heart beating You can see it through my chest. Said I'm terrified but I'm not leaving I know that I must pass this test So, just pull the trigger
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The shades are drawn my choices gone The night, begun churning Alone for now i don't know how i've come to this yearning
The room is dark And furnished stark A cross in the corner The chains that clink The ropes that sink Into skin with fervor
i cannot see my eyes will be Covered most relentless Without a gap The blindfold wraps i won't see my Tempest
my wrists are bound No freedom found Drawn high up above me The cuffs that bite Steel tempered might Hold secure their duty |
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lost and forsaken, I was floating swallowed and spit out over and over again, tumbling head over heels, heart full of stories, wanting to shout! but silence, not a word, now . . . roaring waves open their mouth, longing pushing down, greedily awaiting me, in the abyss of their hunger, no! out of Neptune's reach by chance carried away on foaming horses with haste my story to tell at last to the first warm hand touching my cold smooth skin unfold my wings. on a shore, under the sun salty tears streaming down my face unravel my secret. yours now to bear. |
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I really enjoy getting to know myself better, its so crazy how i never knew who i truely was... |
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got some new pics to share...please enjoy |
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i cannot see my eyes will be Covered most relentless Without a gap The blindfold wraps i won't see my Tempest |
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my mind is going i need to understand what it is im doing... |
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For some reason i cant get enough of what i want... I crave it every wakeing hour.
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love this song....
Long lost words whisper slowly to me Still cant find what keeps me here When all this time ive been so hollow inside (I know your still there)
Watching me , wanting me I can feel you pull me down Fearing you Loving you I won't let you pull me down
Hunting you I can smell you - alive Your heart pounding in my head Wanting me , killing me I can feel you pull me down Saving me, raping me watching me ..
x2 Watching me, wanting me I can feel you pull me down Fearing you Loving you I wont let you pull me down |
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"All Around Me" My hands are searching for you My arms are outstretched towards you I feel you on my fingertips My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire rising through my being Burning I'm not used to seeing you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing
My hands float up above me And you whisper you love me And I begin to fade Into our secret place
The music makes me sway The angels singing say we are alone with you I am alone and they are too with you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing
And so I cry The light is white And I see you
I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing
Take my hand I give it to you Now you own me All I am You said you would never leave me I believe you I believe
I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healed
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Are you ready to read this....cause im so ready to say it!!!! After all this time ive found my place in this caos of a world. Ive found my way Home. I wandered helpless through this life As lovers came and went A need within i could not name A chance i had not spent
There i was, alone and cold A witness with no truth But i knew then what i know now Upon the sight of You
For some are born as You, my Master Showing us our path As we are born to beg and serve Lest we incur your wrath
"On your knees, slave."
When first i sank to that stone floor The tears rolled down my face Of one, who after many years, Has finally found her place
To You i freely give my heart And all that it contains For when i disobey i find My solace in the pain
i have no power here before You, Held within Your thrall For now You own my heart and soul And body, most of all
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The shades are drawn my choices gone The night, begun churning Alone for now i don't know how i've come to this yearning
The room is dark And furnished stark A cross in the corner The chains that clink The ropes that sink Into skin with fervor
i cannot see my eyes will be Covered most relentless Without a gap The blindfold wraps i won't see my Tempest
my wrists are bound No freedom found Drawn high up above me The cuffs that bite Steel tempered might Hold secure their duty
Thick leather bound my ankles round The bar spreading widely But still held more Secured to floor i hang stretching idly
i make no sound Silence surrounds Soft whimpers and groaning my jaw held tight Against all fight Gag leaves only moaning
Beyond closed door Past miles of floor Soft voices discussing As night gets late Terms of my fate my pulse swiftly rushing
Though i can't see Objects that be Hanging ore' the room round The tools of pain That come to rain On my skin with sharp sounds
The waiting hard For any shard Of leather that bites me How long i've hung From ceiling's rung The time has escaped me
The door unlocks The sound sends shocks Of anticipation Things to be felt That raise the welts Lustful pain sensations
Footfalls explore Across the floor No word has been spoken Throughout the room The lurking doom The silence unbroken
i hear the sound Of objects found For pain - tools of passion Then back near me Time come to be Her toy, Her possession
Lust being fed Skin turning red Sweet pain rushing through me Gag-muffled screams Fulfilling dreams Beg for Her to use me
Welts rising high Bruise-colored thighs The session exquisite Deep redness wins Heat from my skin Such a scalding visit
i hang there spent my strength all lent To whip, crop and flogger The session run my will be gone my body is for Her
i am helped down my limbs unbound i lay on the cold floor She leaves me there To others' care Tonight there is no more
Once on my feet She speaks to me A good pet i have been Sent on my way til the next day Chance comes to serve Her whim
submissive life That blossoms ripe Wishing pain and hurting The life i lead i have been freed By rope, chains and serving..... now you have seen through my eyes, but do understand me? can you say who iam? |
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Inhale me like the finest of wine passing from your silken lips to mine entwining in French connections of the most exquisite kind.
Draw me in with the gentle persuasion of feathered strokes and velvet whispers running along my skin alighting me with deep desire.
Awaken my every sense to the tracing of my body with your hot and fevered tongue of anticipatory passion.
Press gently against me where skin upon skin we meld in a mounting crescendo of pleasure ascending heavens heights.
Instill your love within me in a depth that surpasses all letting yourself go completely as we climax together in sensual beauty. |
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Passions revealed, desires sedated, never once believed, such pleasures awaited.
Romance claimed lost, desire now greed, no estatic long nights, just fullfilling a need.
But with lingering glances, on satin smooth skin, through the night we languish, in the erotica of skin.
A candle lit dinner, alone to test our will, champaine on ice , inhibitions to chill.
A fire in the hearth, our only light, yet hold back the urges, as passion fills the night.
Caressing your hair, a masage designed to please, your breathing grows soft, a sensual tease.
Lips finally meet, so tender and hoping, tounges intertwine, searching not groping.
Finger tips trace, from your neck down your spine, awakening nerves the pleasure , devine.
Cloths whisper as they fall to the floor, bringing pleasure in the skin they show, no rush no hurry all night, to take it slow.
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There is a place for us that no one else can enter. It is a place that holds no secrets, only beauty, peace, understanding.
A place that we come to, thinking we are one, only to have our souls fused together for a moment.
And in that moment, I know you; every pore, every pulse, every thought, every fear. And I love you more.
I feel myself laid bare before you, and I feel content . . . joyous that you are with me, loving me in my nakedness.
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Because i realized i got Me myself and i That's all i got in the end That's what i found out And it ain't no need to cry I took a vow that from now on I'm gonna be my own best friend
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I feel so good inside...can you say that you have had a taste of true happiness??? Well I have! and i plan on holding on tight and never letting go. |
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So hold me when I'm here Right me when I'm wrong Hold me when I'm scared And love me when I'm gone Everything I am And everything in me Wants to be the one You wanted me to be I'll never let you down Even if I could I'd give up everything If only for your good So hold me when I'm here Right me when I'm wrong You can hold me when I'm scared You won't always be there So love me when I'm gone
Love me when I'm gone...
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~=FLAVOR OF THE APPLE=~
Without light there can be no vision but without vision there is still the light
Born with or without eyes the experience of life is enlightening
The flavor of the apple is electric in its nature taste is now flavor is forever
We consume the flavor of life digestion of its colors is at times a lifetime process of revealing its truth
Social power is gained by we times truth shared justified truth is harmonious
The holy spirit of humanity creates our souls its "the truth"
Tread softly upon this grass for you are the caretaker |
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Wow... what can i say? all i can do is sit back and take it all in!!!!Hmmmm |
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There's something about Kneeling quietly beside Him Your body bruised, reddened, coated, tired Your mind silent, for once ~ for a time Your head bowed, your eyes closed Your lips quivering as His fingers touch you Your submission, unquestioned Your Peace at Hand There's something about Being slapped across the face Not backhanded, but smacked to bring about A change in behavior A change in attitude To make that lovely wail come from deep in your chest You long to make it, as He longs to hear it |
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Unmasked evil thoughts Harmony in finest intimacy Grooving scent is now in silence Love finally forgotten its sense
Turn, twist and spin Hear my voice Dance with the rhythm Fly with the wind
Hungry heart beats In the arms of the lost Hold on to the beat Forget the world
Thirst shroud our fears Dwelling underneath the sun Just the three of us Dashing the night In the heavenly ground... I wanted to show how the two of you touched me and brought life to a dream! Thank you.mauh..
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Im afraid to look up........ dont know whats up there, so i keep my eyes down till you say so. I know im a little girl trying to grow up in this world......you going to help me? There can be no sense of mourning without having gained that first touch of beauty.These magnificent moments & memories will never truly be lessened by their loss.I shall never claim to understand, although I have wept at my own emptiness upon losing something so precious,far too many times.Possessions are sacred only when imbued with sentiment ~ their presence will not be undone by their absence,for each remains safely within your heart that needs no locks,where fresh air freely roams,whose radiant rhythms remember them all... |
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You want to get to know me....? then just read my thoughts go down the rabbit hole. hey you might just like it down there! |
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I am skin on wood on leather on metal I am rough smooth hard soft thrust hit pound inhale exhale
I am not here there I am not weelz not cath not me
I am sub empty I am filled full fullfilled I am not mine give offer take accept allow
I am not free I am free I am sharp gasp past last first I am yes I am not no
I am breath I am scream I am scream inhale
I am stroke count count count count lose count I am scream exhale I am scream
I am fingers onside inside I am wait wait I am not now wait wait
I am - yes - now i am not ending forever never ever for
I am I am I am
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to glow at your praise cower on command and cater to your needs.
You take control, to make me your slave an angel on demand to love and to hold.
What else could exist that can touch what we share? A dangerous bliss for all those who dare.
I chain you with love, to help set our stage floggers on hand for my glorious sub.
You might close your eyes, to help you be brave moans on reprimand turning to sighs.
Others don't know the switches of love. But here we're both always both Master and sub.
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Even now I can see the future I can feel you sense you draw you in with every moment every movement as it should be as it will be. Your steady heartbeat speeding and changing
With you so close I'll tell you things that will make your mind reel and your body ache things that will invade your dreams for weeks to come-- I will leave you sweating and alive. And when you are ready I'll show you what you've never seen and I'll enjoy it more than you might believe. I can feel you, yearning to come for me alone. Your denials and refusals are merely foreplay. |
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Im strong enough to walk behind you....... |
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I have a dark side she calls herself Shadow She's me, whom I've wanted to be for some time.
Her hunger for revenge can inspire, such consequences later on yet, you don't think of it when the time is then all you want is the hurt, the betrayl, the pain to stop.
I tremble at my anger, my hands shake uncontrollably my heart speeds sweat beads on my head She says, "Go ahead,you know you want to." I start, then stop Cause I say, 'No...I can't.' She's angry, "You insolent fool, you're weak" Instead I cry, till' the night is dawn lying in myself, forever lost.
She looks at me, rare mercy in her eyes, "I know...it isn't your fault." Tears fall from me,I wipe them sleep overtakes me, my soul as I dream their blood, smeared all over our hands, I smile in disturbed contentment. |
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Always without desire we must be found, If its deep mystery we would sound; But if desire always within us be, Its outer fringe is all that we shall see. |
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Hair a toss ‘round crimson cheeks
The gag, moist on trembling lips
A small bird’s rapid breath
snubs back her weeping
Red-raised welts brand gentle flesh
caressing nipple, thigh and crease
Pale blue eyes once cool, aloof
now burn with new found flame
Her molten gaze struggles up
and stokes the fire within me
then drops in desperation
with passion’s goal denied
Two muffled words I hear
bring joy to my heart,
“Please, more |
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like a hurt lost and blinded by love..... consider this picked up in a century brought to my knees.... I thought i heard you scream, thats me in the corner. |
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Well here i am in a new city a whole different state. I feel like a fish out of water but i also feel this new skin is good for me. I know getting closer to him..... i feel him near me everyday.....Im coming to you.... |
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Ive shed a thousand tears, but none have burn like the ones ive shed for thee...... I feel closer to you and to myself; does that make any sense??.... |
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i get alot of people who ask me ( who are you talking about in your journal??? well the answer is my fantasy,my master in my mind, the one i crave for...... Does that make sense?? No i dont have a master but in my head i do...... These writings are a veiw to my soul, a chance to see inside me........ enjoy!!!!!!! |
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You see I cannot be forsaken Because I'm not the only one We walk amongst you feeding, raping Must we hide from everyone?
I'm over it Why can't we be together embrace it? Sleeping so long taking off the mask At last I see
My fear is fading, I can't speak it Or else you will dig my grave You feel them finding, always whining Take my hand now be alive |
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Is there anyone out there?? cause its getting harder,harder to breath...! |
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how can you see into my eyes like open doors leading you down into my core where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold until you find it there and lead it back home now that I know what I’m without you can't just leave me breathe into me and make me real bring me to life
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I get so hopeful but i cant now.... i wont let another bring me to a place, then take the feeling away.... oh how i want to be beneath him.... |
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am overwhelmed with a burning desire A desire locked down deep inside One that cannot be concealed anymore.
I long for one sweet kiss to quench my thirst I long for one tender touch that will last a lifetime
At the end of it all you are my deepest desire |
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My hands are searcing for you My arms are outstretched towards you I feel you on my fingertips My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire rising through my being Burning I'm not used to seeing you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing
My hands float up above me And you whisper you love me And I begin to fade Into our secret place
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Sleeping is getting hard for me to do....i sit and my mind wonders off to him, wanting,craving,needing, what is wrong with me?? my mind is so clouded by my thoughts cant seem to fit life in with it. |
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Desires born, growing within spirit and soul… Unknown cravings, nurtured daily, expression awaits… innocence remains intact, as stories…await to be told.
Buried within, within each whom breathe… Some forgotten, busy lives, altered plans… and so our lives continue, while our future…it does weave.
Others hidden, lurking beneath the surface… safely sheltered, from fear and rejection… we tuck them away, while only ourselves…we deceive.
Awaiting discovery, within a tomb of safety, fire continues to grow… anticipation building, as the moment arrives… craving the surface to reach, desires quenched…as finally ourselves…we let go!
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The world is going so fast but yet i stand still with my eyes opend but my world is half asleep. |
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Why do i dream of being a slut of being used by others But not having my own need satisfied. Why does the thought of being unworthy fill me with such pride longing to feel pain givin for anothers pleasure Received with grace. Why do i dream of being tied down Not able to move a limb bneing control at the mercy of another why does it appeal freeing my mind? |
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Baby this a new age, you like my new craze Let's get together maybe we can start a new phase The smokes got the club all hazy, spotlights don't do you justice baby Why don't you come over here, you got me saying
Aayooh I'm tired of using technology, why don't you sit down on top of me
Aayooh I'm tired of using technology, I need you right in front of me
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Lust being fed Skin turning red Sweet pain rushing through me Gag-muffled screams Fulfilling dreams Beg for His to use me
Welts rising high Bruise-colored thighs The session exquisite |
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Do you really think you can break me?? My will and drive craves inside you, dont afraid of my will.......looking in your eyes while your on the other side. Damn! |
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Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
You're sick of feeling numb You're not the only one I'll take you by the hand And I'll show you a world that you can understand This life is filled with hurt When happiness doesn't work Trust me and take my hand When the lights go out you will understand
Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Anger and agony Are better than misery Trust me I've got a plan When the lights go off you will understand
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Feeling the night crawling up my skin craving the dark and pain yearning the passion of sin because the Dark calls my name
There you are dark stranger demons whisper desire taste my blood and heal my pain I feel I yearn I want to be your everything all because the darkness calls my name
In the night I can't resist the heartbeat of fire strap me down and bleed me dry take my life I'm willing to fly the dark calls my name
Come satify me before dawn and cure your hunger and despair take my hand turn me into your every desire The light hurts my eyes beacause the dark calls my name. |
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Dont think my heart can take another beating...... Im awake but my world is half asleep..... |
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Ever get that feeling of being incomplete??? That you just cant seem to shake off...... sometimes the feeling is so strong i cant breath, i feel like im choking and i need to be let go! |
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wow.... life is what you make it.....cant say i didnt try with it, gave it my all...... ive loved so hard and ive played even harder...... Now its time to move into another zone.... im ready now... Are you? |
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It seems latly im not shy anymore, i feel myself being pulled towards someone... I feel his hand at night around my neck so tight but yet with the softest touch, am i going crazy?... I stalk at night looking for him, i wear outfits i would never wear during the day,i have a sense of who he is....hmmmm i can taste him in the air...... |
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Tie me up, tie me down (make me moan real loud) Make me moan real loud (take off my clothes) Take off my clothes No one has to know Whisperin I wanna feel a soft rope burn (no one has to know) Wanna feel a Rope burn Can you feel the warmth of the fire Candlelight embrace your body Im feelin the hot candle wax drippin down the small of my back Can you feel the warmth of the fire Candlelight embrace your body Im feelin the hot candle wax drippin down the small of my back
You wanna know what my tongue feels like? Mmhmm You like that?
You wanna know what my tongue feels like? Mmhmm You like that?
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Wow latly i feel like im in heat........ i cant cool down for nouthing ive tryed so hard but the heat is very overwhelming. It catchs me while im alone in my room or just sitting in a class, i have to try my best not to reach down.... whats wrong with me?(I dream in darkness I sleep to die, Erase the silence, Erase my life, Our burning ashes Blacken the day, A world of nothingness, Blow me away.)
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Touch my body Put me on the floor Wrestle me around Play with me some more Touch my body Throw me on the bed I just wanna make you feel Like you never did. Touch my body Let me wrap my thighs All around your waist Just a little taste Touch my body Know you love my curves Come on and give me what I deserve And touch my body.
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WEll here iam after a very short relationship with a Dom that let me go after he said he couldt do it any more. He has no clue how much of a head trip he gave me. After i thought i finaley got what i wanted he said he diodnt think this was a life for him. well im glad he found himself but now im left alone on my knees without no one to guide me. He has no clue how scary that its to walk amog this life and cant figure witch way to go........ I just want to find that one who can help bring life to my eyes...... were are you? |
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Oh how i crave him so much....... isee him when i close my eyes i feel his breath on my neck......... i want his hand around my neck, but he wont.... |
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Hello to all my friends......... miss me much??? ive been ill latly but im doing much better and im ready to serve him....... you have no clue what lies behind this girl.......... come see... kisses to all |
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Have to say this is the way i feel everyday in my world......have such a dark craving
I sit here alone, with my mind in a cage. I look to the world a prison in its on right. I want to find a small chance for escapeI know where my feelings are free.I close my eyes.rope binds my arms straps embarrass my chest. As the collar goes around my neck, i feel my freedom....I open my eyes to the cold world. I know theres no one there! | |
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Cant seem to find my place outside this world,maybe its eazy for me to be myself here then out there. I know i feel like i wear a mask every time i walk outside the house, i have to be what they want me to be. "I hate it" I want to be the real me 24/7 not just in front of the right people. What do i fear? Not being accepted by everyone. |
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Had a dream last night. Oh how it was just what i needed to see...... I woke up in sweat and tears, i loved it all every second of the dark. I Loved it..... Now i want to close my eyes and wish it would come back to me. |
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I dont know when,and i dont know how but i do know this i will be apart of this world... |
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It's so hard to express who you are inside; It's so hard to let everyone know what you're all about.
Where ever you go they stare and they point, But you really don't know why.
Everyone says do not judge others By what they look like or from where they come.
Unless you know, truly know, them, Don't make it seem Like you know their deepest feelings Or the fears they hold inside.
They say don't judge, yet we all know What they're thinking as we walk by.
It's sad and unfair that you have to hide And be judged by those who you don't know.
How long can you fear? How long can you wait? Till they see you for who you are.… | |
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Im afraid to look up........ dont know whats up there, so i keep my eyes down till you say so. I know im a little girl trying to grow up in this world......you going to help me?
There can be no sense of mourning
without having gained
that first touch of beauty.
These magnificent moments
& memories
will never truly be lessened
by their loss.
I shall never claim
to understand,
although I have wept
at my own emptiness
upon losing something so precious, far too many times.
Possessions are sacred
only when imbued with sentiment ~
their presence
will not be undone
by their absence,
for each remains
safely within your heart
that needs no locks,
where fresh air
freely roams,
whose radiant rhythms
remember them all... |
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For the first time I felt something.....not just a emotion but a warmth that came over me in waves. It didnt last long but now i crave that warmth, you gave it to me and took it aways as fast as it came. I open myself to you......are you brave enough to see what lies beneath me??? Or will you turn your back to my hand....please dont run away..... |
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She was mysteriously drawn to his unquestionably passion that lashed at her trembling heart
Whispering conversation became the language of desire that burns like a blazing meadow fire that was tearing them apart
Raw intriging winds become dangerous that consume the breath of feverish words that blanket with thick blinding love in hot summer gasping air
Jousting emotion with hint of longing was demanding their mind with suffering conclusion of empty despair
To dream of joy and awake to the sorrow of life
and yet smiles with shivered fragments of longing
Are we just spirit slaves who cries out to our hearts
it become just blowing dust to drift among
the timeless glass of of time. |
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back and fourth, up and down....you see me through the glass reaching out to you with both hands.... This life is filled with hurt but trust me,take my hand when the lights go off i will show you a world you can undersatand.. |
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well here iam again..... opening up to people i hardly know..... Im not scared anymore!!!!! Im ready to take that step out towards him, to reach out for his hand. I want him to see the little girl that is trying with all her heart to grow up just a bit more....will he see this?? I hope so. |
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Passion so consuming that only a whisper Can express the emotions Boiling over inside a body filled With longing to release The bonds of earth and take silent flight.
Desire so wanton that only moans Can utter the ancient craving Locked so tightly in a prison of flesh That cries for freedom To sail over dungeon walls in silent flight.
Love so devoted that only a touch From the hand of the keeper of all it's secrets Can give it reason to continue to exist And a heart reason to soar Like wings of angels in silent flight.
Across the breadth and depth of all that's known Above the things that shadowed dreams And shattered hopes of past tomorrows Your love and guidance have raised me up To places never known by mortal man And I've touched them all in silent flight. |
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Under your spell again. I can't say no to you. Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand. I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly. Now I can't let go of this dream. I can't breathe but I feel...
Good enough, I feel good enough for you.
Drink up sweet decadence. I can't say no to you, And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind. I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't let you conquer me completely. Now I can't let go of this dream. Can't believe that I feel...
Good enough, I feel good enough. It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good. |
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Life is what you make it
At least that's what they say
Well I think I'm gonna make it
Fulfill my dreams one day
I feel this fire growin' deep inside of me
I'm so inspired knowin' that it's my destiny
Everyday I'm waitin'
Tryin' to find the patience
So close I can taste it
But sometimes it's so hard
But I'ma keep on pushin'
And I'ma keep on fightin'
And I'ma keep on tryin' because I've come too far |
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Please notice me....im on my knees waiting for you to say those words..I know you feel me haunting you...waiting and wanting i sit here, you cloud my mind...It kills me but i wait.
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I think ive found him... The one i will shout out for. My breath is tookin by his words, please let him see me. |
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Dancing towards your fire the
energy engulfs me
Begin to intrigue me
Know me, for no one knows me
Beg me for I beg you
Possess me
let me
I beg
to possess you
Power let it over take me
Let it swallow me
Let it hurt me
for the moans that I gasp are for your eyes only
My soul screams your name as exctasy controls it.
Perverse
Controlled Obsession
of me
below me
above me
for me
within me. |
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I miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollowed tree (come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
Holding my last breathe
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight |
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I sit here alone, with my mind in a cage. I look to the world a prison in its on right. I want to find a small chance for escapeI know where my feelings are free. I close my eyes. rope binds my arms straps embarrass my chest. As the collar goes around my neck, i feel my freedom.... I open my eyes to the cold world. I know theres no one there!
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all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life |
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I feel so closed tight.! I want all this i feel deep inside to come up to the surface. I cant seem to focus on what iam without him, and without him im nothing. I wait on my knees with my eyes closed tight and i sense him..... do you sense me Sir |
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My mind is going crazy... i want him!! i see him in my dreams but he yet he never speaks. Will i wait here on my knees forever? or will he say those words i so want to hear? I quess i wait to find out.. II know that in my dreams your nothing but a shadow of a thought i want it to become a reality for me...I do. |
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