I am not really sure what to post here…
Just starting college at Stevens Henager, it’s the campus on Vine Street, so if you go there hit me up. ^^
Anyway I found out I was a submissive a while ago when in my first relationship. She was something of a sub as well and with no one to take hold of the ropes and lead the other we broke up. Since then I have pretty much just floated along in my short life finding it hard to make new friends due to my lack of self confidence. This is even harder when it comes to females, where my mind wants them to just tell me what to do to make them happy… needless to say I don’t have many friends. Once I have talked to someone a little bit however it is really easy for me to open up, but once again there is a problem, I become too open and usual upset the other person. V.v
Anyway my vanilla interests are…
Computers, programming mostly.
I play a lot of videos games, but it definitely isn’t what I want to be doing all the time.
Clubbing is fun, but I don’t get to do much of it at the moment.
Driving too fast on the highway...
Anything nerd related I really like, anime, fantasy… you know.
Right now I have a pretty dull life… I am just trying to be honest. However with school starting I am looking forward to things picking up in the next little while.
The only thing I really know about myself in this lifestyle is that I look to please woman in any way I can. I wouldn’t call myself a sub yet however, simply due to the fact that if the girl wants me to be the Dom, I think I could do that if it made her happy. The only problem is that all of my experiences have been online in chat rooms, so I have no idea how I might act in the real world situation.
Needless to say I am a bit confused over this whole thing. I just need help figuring myself out you know? I would like to get into the community here in Utah, but every time I plan to go to a munch or something, life conspires against me and I end up not being able to go. GAAAA So I’ll just have to try harder.
Update: Well I managed to get to a Munch… only problem… It was scheduled 3:00 to 5:00. So I race there after my lunch with a family member and get there at 4:30 there are still some people there that I could tell where from the munch. So I go get a coffee and sat down ACROSS THE ROOM FROM THEM! I was too scared to even go and say hello… v.v I DON’T EVEN LIKE COFFEE…. I was too chicken to go say hello and introduce myself, how pathetic. So I waited for them to leave, then I simply threw away my barely drank coffee and headed home. Better luck next time.
1/5/2013 3:07:00 AM
Why are all of the real Female Doms Lesbian? I am a sad panda today...
