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mc111
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domdaddy85
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dominateblkman
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HngBlkDom09
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| Submissive Looking for a Good True Dom
I have always known in one way or another that I have been submissive whether it be in the bed or out.
I listen. I learn. I obey. I am loyal to the one I serve if He is loyal in return.
Looking for others like me to chat with and possibly become good friends. I barely get on this site, so if you want to get a faster respond, look me up on ya hoo.com. Am sure those smart and really have true intentions can figure out my screen name on there ~smiles~ Here's a hint: Starts with Twisted.
~kisses~
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My heart rate speeds up every time I see your picture...and memories come back of the times we did share. How stupid I was to leave and end something that was so good. But I have not forgotten what You have taught me. I have not forgotten You. I hope one day we may speak again and that You have forgiven me for being a stupid lil girl. |
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Punishment
(I felt I needed to post this)
Started of with small touches…fingers roaming over my body. Took off my shirt…then my bra…and the fingers continued to explore my body. I was told to take off my pants…leave the panties and boots on. Observed by curious and hungry eyes like a piece of meat. He sat down on the edge of the bed and beckoned me to Him. Panties pulled down, bent over His knee…we began the punishment with spanking. As my ass began to heat up…my mind processing the pain…crying out a few times and each blow became heavier. I was pulled up and made to stand…legs spread and hands behind my head. He bound me…couldn’t move…barely stand. My breathing became heavy…not knowing what was going to happen next…too afraid to look around as He moved around the room. He moves the chair and makes me bend over the back of it…legs spread. SWAT! The first blow lands. I groan…blows continue to land on my ass…tears began to fall…the pain…the heat I felt…my body feeling hot and tingly. I cry out “Red1”. He stops for a few moments…rubbing my ass gently…whispering in my ear “we have only just begun” I shudder slightly as I try to gather my wits about me…He moves and stands me up…moves the bounds…I stand there helpless…but excited. He makes me bend over on the bed and begins spanking me again with the strap….I cry out as every blow lands on my now tender ass. He makes me move positions…on the bed now…on all fours…hands between my legs as I am made to hold the heels of my boots. The punishment continues and I begin to cry…no longer feeling the pain but still the stings…He stops and coaxes me back down from my sub-space…I feel there but not there….no longer bound…from a distance I hear “ we are still not done”…I cannot respond….my pussy so very wet…I know I need to be punished more…I crave the pain…want it like never before…I then recall being on all fours and being spanked with a belt….groaning…pushing my ass out for more….tears falling but not wanting the stinging pain to stop…but once more I use my safe word…”Red!….please…” He continues….grabbing my hair and spanking my ass with the belt….until I find my self crying uncontrollably…numb from the pain…feeling the heat from my ass….the wetness of my pussy…wanting to cum…and with permission…I do…Several times I found myself asking Him to spank me…not scared…knowing it was going to hurt….but didn’t care…It was something I needed…something I wanted so very much……I’ve gone to my sub-space several times…not feeling the pain…feeling the stings but not caring…it didn’t bother me….Nikki needed to be punished…I needed help standing…I went to the bathroom….I looked into the mirror…not recognizing the person staring back…He came up behind me as I lowered my eyes…He made me look at myself once more…”see that…you are so beautiful…a well punished lil girl…you have a glow…” I stared into the mirror more after He left my side….I looked so damn sexy (giggles to myself)…didn’t know being punished could do this to a person…my eyes seem to have a lust look in them…so sexy…so beautiful….
After the punishment we got ready to leave…was difficult to put my pants back on…my ass swollen…welds already had formed…and I felt the heat…I smiled to myself…When dropped off to my car to go home….I kept saying…”even though I knew it was gonna hurt…I don’t know what kept possessing me to keep asking for more.”…He smiled and laughed a little and replied “Ever hear of a pain slut?”….I giggled…
I have learned that having a smart ass mouth…(giggles)…gets a girl in trouble quickly. Hurts to sit right now…hurts to even move….Nikki has learned her lesson…I learned I cried because it was a form of release for me from the stressed I am going through…I learned I love the pain…and maybe I am a pain slut…I learned not to test my Sir….and I know I will make mistakes again…we all do…but for now…I’ve got a swollen ass to remind me of what will happen if I do overstep my boundaries again…it that it could be worst next time…
Thank you for putting this lil girl back in her place…
~Nikki~
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A good girl with bad girl dreams...
I have dreamed the last few nights of my Sir and I. My dreams have left me restless...have left me wanting...have left me to feel empty in a way...
~I am siting in the middle of a dark room in a straight-back chair, legs crossed and hands resting on my knee waiting. Dressed in a short jean skirt with tight white panties underneath, cute shirt black shirt that hugged my breast, knee-highs, and mary jane's. My hair pulled back in a pony-tail held with a ribbon.
I look up as I hear foot steps...my Sir approaching. He stops just in front of me smiling...eyeing me up and down...I could see a hint of hunger in his eyes. I smile slightly as I know he is very happy with what he sees. His demenor changes and without him having to say I get uncross my legs and slowly get up.
He moves around me slowly..inspecting what is his...I feel as though he might devour me at any minute and it makes me giggle. He comes full circle and sits in the chair I vacated. He pulls my arm, turns me around and places me over his knee.
I feel my skirt go up and my panties being ripped off my ass. Seconds later...the first slap lands...my body bucks forward as I let out a moan...then another after another altering between each ass cheek...heat spreads and pussy get wetter....~
This is the dream that I have had....It does not scare me....It excites me...
I yearn so much to be in the presence of my Sir...
Most would say "Good Girl" for having such dreams...-smirks- I would say I am so good at being bad...
That's the one thing about the lifestyle...being bad is so very good hehehe
~Nikki~
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Each sound of a motorcycle gets her excited,
Anticipation weighing heavily,
She finds herself looking out the window every few seconds,
Only to be rewarded with disappointment,
Anxiety running high,
Hands and body shaking,
Breathing seems to become difficult,
"Damn" she says to herself as another motorcycle zooms by,
Tries to calm herself but to no avail,
His words, His threats, His promises running through her head,
Shutters with more excitement,
Pussy dripping wet,
No one has ever effected her like this,
"Get a hold of yourself" she says to herself,
The phone rings,
She jumps,
The phone rings again,
She picks it up,
"Let me in lil girl" she hears,
Her heart jumps into her throat as she can barley answer,
"Yes Sir" she says, barely a whisper, voice so shaky,
Hears the line go dead before she hangs the phone up,
Turns to the door and walks to it,
Legs shaking the way there,
Turns the handle and opens the door,
She nearly faints,
His presence screams Dominance,
She can barely breathe,
Barely move,
Barely think,
She finds herself moving backwards as he moves forwards,
A devilish smile she can see,
Without looking behind Him,
He closes the door,
No way out,
No where to go,
No escaping Him,
No escaping herself........
~Nikki~
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I go through everyday trying to be happy. Striving to please not just myself but my Sir. I go insane just a little when I do not get to talk to my Sir.....(sighs)
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Nikki:
You Are Dreamy and Distracted
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.
You Have a Passionate First Name
You are a loving, emotional person. You think and act from the heart, and that sometimes gets you in trouble.
You are very intense and impulsive. You go with your intuition, even if your intuition is telling you to make a very bold move.
You tend to feel strongly about everything in life. You have big emotions that sometimes conflict one another.
You have a wild streak, and you're known to be unpredictable. You chase your dreams.
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Today was the first day I went without a task to complete. Or is this a task itself...to test my knowledge...to test my strength...to test to see if i can be a good lil girl...
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I was playing solitaire today and random thoughts started running through my head. Well not random but specific thoughts around a specific subject. I was thinking about my current situation in the vanilla world. Thinking about how hard it is...how sometimes things seem pointless...what's the point of trying anymore when it gets you nowhere. The more I tried to block these thoughts out the stronger they got....so strong that I started to tear up. I realized that i will not be able to continue to function in this world until I get into my training as a submissive and learn who and what I am...to do what I was born into this world to do......
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I have not began training just yet but have disappointed my friend...my soon to be trainer...I feel ashamed...I feel scared....not of the punishment I shall receive...but of myself.......
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| Age: 30 |
| North Carolina,
North Carolina |
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