trainableone on Collarspace

5/26/2006 8:43:51 AM

i have talked with many fine dominants and submissives. In my time here i found that so many people told me things which i believed and told me all about the others in the local scene. i took the time to trust in what i was told and then met a couple of dominants. This is what i found

none of the dominants i met in person were what they claimed to be. They only told me what i wanted to hear

the submissive that knew everything and wanted to make bring me in and met all the great local people and was the best there was told me all about her 'dangerous' ex master. i beleived her and confronted him after finding out i was about to meet him in real life and repeated the horrible things she told me. What i later found was that he was so honorable and in talking to others that know him here and what he actually did for her in the years they were together. Her story changed and when she figured out i was talking to him. She found out i told him what she said and then she turned on me. i really don't think that she is really submissive at all just mean and i wish he could believe how sorry i am i didn't give him the chance he deserved to tell his side. He gave her money, cared for her, protected and loved her even to the last days.

i am very sorry Sir of all of my actions and hope that someday you would accept this girl's deepest appology. i know that you don't wish to talk with me anymore and can understand after how i hurt you. i know our time has past but someday i would like to be your friend and beg forgiveness. You deserve so very much more and You have many true friends that truely respect You and know the truth

The people i trusted were the ones i shouldn't have and the ones i didn't believe were the true ones.

i don't want to be a part of something like this and want to learn to trust again. i just don't think i can trust anyone else here. i'm going focus on school now and not this.