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| I knew when I was a little girl that this was the lifestyle that I desired (Believe me, this is not admitted without thinking of myself as broken or twisted). As an 8 year old I fantasized about having someone direct me on how to behave sexually...(see what I mean about wanting to say that I am broken?) I will admit that I had an unusual childhood. NO, I was not molested or bullshit like that...I just had a different childhood. I grew up with parents that had an open marriage. NO, it was not in my face. I was very aware and intuitive of my environment. I would act like I was asleep so I could see what was going on around me and it just amazed me ....This laid the ground work for the woman that I am now. I have always know, never admitted, that we are not meant to spend our lives with one and only one person. Carnal desires drive us...makes us tick.
I have spent years hiding a certain side of me, a side that I allowed to come out on very, very rare occasions. I loved this person, she was everything that I have always wanted to be. She could always please those around here and most of all herself. The trouble was that there was not a place for her in the daylight hours, at least that is what I thought. I craved her, I ached for her. I looked for every outlet to allow her to be free, every outlet but BDSM. I am so glad that I have found this world and all that it has to offer to show her/me that there is a world for her/me to thrive and grow. (Also, with my darling Master... I have someone with a strong (mmm...wonderfully strong I might say) hand and understanding heart to tame my feisty soul. This has been essential for my journey into this lifestyle and I look forward to everything that he has to give to me. He is everything that I have been craving. We have so much to experience together, I am his, only his, to enjoy and will not allow anyone to touch what is his property without his knowledge or permission. Cumfort owns me and I make it known to those that message me. My body is his and all I need at this moment.)
Honestly, prior to this I used men like they were tissue....just looking for that satisfaction, like a nicotine patch to curve the craving...it would work for a short (and I mean short time). I loved the chase, the tease of making the men want me...beg to have me. After awhile I became very, very bored with it as the scene repeated itself over and over again...You know the lines..."You know you want my thick cock" (you wish!)..."are you horny for me?" (you might make me cum, so okay, I guess)...those lame ass lines. I am a girl that follows her desires...those of you who know me know that this can last for awhile or can be a fleeting moment in time....I can decide in a heartbeat that I no longer want you to play in my little game. (Oh no my wonderful Master, you are not part of this you are my focus and my desire....I want nothing but to please you and bring you all that we both crave.)
Okay.....Let me say right here and now, I am a safe girl...I have people that depend on me and I have to take care of myself, so by me saying that I love to fuck does not mean I put my life or anyone else in danger, sex simply is my happy place, my secret escape. Only a very, very, very select few people know my true self...my family believe that I am the biggest prude in the world and honestly that is the way that I like it.
I hope to meet more people in this wonderful lifestyle and learn all that I have been hoping to discover. I am very open to all of this lifestyle, even if I choose not to participate in a certain part of it. I enjoy how free this makes me feel and I want to experience everything that I can.
Okay, I guess I am done with my rambling...this may be posted for a few hours or a few days. It really depends on what I feel...as you can tell it all is about what by flights of fancy decide.....xxx...I am all yours my wonderful Cumfort...xxx.
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