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UPDATE (10/28): I have found a collar! Super excited for this new chapter and journey in my life. Appreciate all the kind words that I've gotten over the past 2 years on CM/CS; wish everyone the best of luck in finding their future connection.
TL:DR -- for the folks who have a similar attention span as mine, here is a shorter profile overview. Additional information can be obtained :-)
(Also, photos are NOT me. I can/will provide proof of myself as a true connection is made.)
What I am seeking:
- My next (ideally final) significant collar (ultimately - 24/7, TPE, live-in enslavement)
- An extremely open-minded, liberated Master who's abilities span into transforming me to my next 'iteration' as a slave (think my personal 'pD')
- Seeking to provide my mind, body, and soul to this Master
- He will push me to my perceived limits and guide me past them
- Seeking someone that desires everything and will utilized all tools/tactics to help train me to provide that via freeing myself from currently mental/physical perspectives (limits)
- Ideally has a similar perverse, vile mindset as mine -- and truly wishing to push the bounds and live within the taboo world with me :-)
- Keywords:
- Object, brutal, extreme, taboo, bondage, no limits, use, service, worship, poly, sex slave, cage, stockholm syndrome, gangbang, etc.
About me:
- Height/weight proportional; hetro-flexible
- Been active in the lifestyle for the past 10 years (two previous collars)
- College educated -- my lust for BDSM and the cognitive/intellectual needs behind it
- My inspirations:
- "The Story of O"
- Sasha Gray, Annette Schwarz, Skin Diamond, Tia Ling. Kelly Wells, etc.
- Kink.com; Insex.com
- Pretty vile/filthy mind with some truly deep desires -- though view those desires as TOOLS to release my inner slave and overcome any mental obstacles that have been formed
- Whole-heartly believes that the depth of this journey is mental/spiritual with physically a necessary to unleash one's inner abilities and bounds
- Willing to relocate -- my belief is that BDSM/lifestyle/Future Master is far more important due the sheer fulfillment and happiness this brings to me, thus location is not something that binds me when seeking that ultimate collar.
REQUEST -- when messaging me, please provide the following:
- What caught Your attention about my profile?
- Your personal limits/taboos?
- What are Your needs/goals/hopes within the BDSM aspect of Your life?
- Review my journal links. Send me Your thoughts. Extra points for individuals who know what Insex is :-)
QUOTES:
“I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot.
I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated.”
~ Anais Nin
“No woman, it is said, truly knows what she is until she has worn the collar.”
~ John Norman, Raiders of Gor
“I want to put myself absolutely at your mercy for good or evil without any condition, without any limit to your power.”
~ Leopold von Sacher-Masoch
“I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.”
~ Anais Nin
“Ordinary life does not interest me. I seek only the high moments. I am in accord with the surrealists, searching for the marvelous.”
~ Anais Nin
“Power is the ultimate aphrodisiac.”
~ Henry Kissinger
“One must do violence to the object of one’s desire; when it surrenders, the pleasure is greater.”
~ Marquis De Sade
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Enthralled
by Alfred Bryan
Teach me to sin—
In love’s forbidden ways,
For you can make all passion pure;
The magic lure of your sweet eyes
Each shape of sin makes virtue praise.
Teach me to sin—
Enslave me to your wanton charms,
Crush me in your velvet arms
And make me, make me love you.
Make me fire your blood with new desire,
And make me kiss you—lip and limb,
Till sense reel and pulses swim.
Aye! even if you hate me,
Teach me to sin. |
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Abstract thoughts on Devotion
The devotion of a submissive/slave toward her Sir is a powerful and beautiful thing and this image depicts it perfectly. The love and loyalty that she offers is real and is intently felt because it comes from her soul. Her offering of such a gift is because she is deeply compelled to do so, not because of the superficial things that she gets in return. It is because of a profound depth of fulfillment that He gives her, a feeling beyond just existing in a relationship or a temporary fix for a lonely heart, but because he has taken the time to reach beyond what most of the world sees in her. He understands her submissive soul so well and values the fact that her gift is unique and genuine, because He knows there is nothing more priceless. A submissive heart is something that money can’t buy, but what love, time, trust, attention and patience can. It is not because of what she does for him, her exterior beauty, whether she can endure the brutal sting of His whip or how well she performs in the bedroom, but because for the first time in her life she has One who sees her for who she is in her core. For the first time in her life she is valued and praised for the depths of her being, and for doing what pleases her most… serving and pleasing those around her. Allowing herself to let her guard down and to act without question in response to His commands, because she has that much trust and confidence in the fact that HE knows what’s best for her and how truly special she is. Additionally, He is One who cherishes her for all of the things that people took for granted her whole life and expected her to be. In return, He is honored as if he were her King, and One she could fall to her knees for and worship intently, because He gave her a place that her heart never had…… a place to call home. That is devotion to me.
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Her goal (in my mind) is to be singularly focused on doing everything in her ability to provide, please, and serve Him. The cascade of HOW that is done is immense; but principally everything should stem from there. |
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http://www.5280.com/girlsnextdoor/?src=longreads&mc_cid=54948c4afe&mc_eid=99af5e345c
Love to hear everyone's thoughts on this. Obviously not proposing child prostitution, but the aspects of training, mental bondage, etc. does intrigue me. |
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http://www.examiner.com/article/human-barbie-doll-subject-of-new-documentary?cid=taboola_inbound
Fascinating example of bimbofication. |
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http://ordinaryevil.wordpress.com/2012/02/22/the-horror-of-the-girl-in-the-box-helps-us-understand-attachment-behavior/
*stockholm* Stunning training scenario. |
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A phenomenal piece that provides insights into Stockholm Syndrome and Prisoner's affect -- both aspects I seek to explore via BDSM enslavement.
https://medium.com/mother-jones/4e7657ff4838
Would love any and all thoughts. |
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Slave vs. Submissive:
A slave:
A person owned by another -- without rights, without choices, without the ability to drive their own lives and directions. A person whose very existence is at the whim and desire of another. Property. Cherished and loved, but still given over to another to make all decisions for this person. The slave makes one choice, and one choice only. To become a slave. After that, they accept, without question, every decision the dominant makes. The only out is if the Owner tires of or otherwise decides to release the slave back into the wild. There is no negotiation after the initial guidelines have been set up, and the slave must accept everything the dominant decrees. Including being traded or accepting new people into their lives.
A submissive:
One who gives over their own personal power and control to another voluntarily. One who accepts the guidance of a dominant and gives the right of their own decisions/directions/growth to another in most aspects of their relationship. An exchange of power occurs, with both the submissive and the dominant giving equally of their time and emotions. A choice, or gift, that can be withdrawn at any time by either the dominant or the submissive. A submissive has many rights. Including: the right to be respected; the right to negotiate; the right to have levels of control over aspects mutually agreed upon in everyday life; the right to say no; the right to feel equal as a person. |
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http://www.nailedhard.com/ |
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A post that I found via Tumblr -- would love Your reaction:
- I advocate for the complete and utter submission of all human females to all human Males, regardless of other factors.
- I believe that Men are superior beings, and that females are little more than animals or livestock; a commodity and nothing more.
- I believe that Western Feminism is one of the most harmful and backwards doctrines next to religion, and that it should be vehemently opposed.
- I believe that a woman’s worth should be defined solely by how skillfully she is able to please the Men around her and that women who resist or deny their role as inferior beings should be severely punished for their insolence.
- I believe that women should compete against other women for Male approval and that women should even participate in the degradation, humiliation, and subjugation of other women.
- I believe that any Man who treats a woman as His equal is a traitor and a disgrace. There is no room for weak, submissive Men in this world.
- I believe that raping women should not only be legal but that it should be encouraged. Rape is a positive experience for all involved, and it should be welcomed as both instructive and corrective.
- Lastly, all women secretly desire these things, and it is out duty as Men to give it to them.
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Please note: currently my inbox is filled with a tremendous amount of messages/noise. As a whole, the signal vs. noise ratio is something difficult to manage on CM.
Please be patient with me and my response time. Thanks :-) |
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| Age: 18 |
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Arizona |
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