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It's hard for an educated woman to turn her head off. That's part of the joy of being a submissive. None of the decisions are yours. When you can't refuse anything and can't even move, those voices in your head go silent.
All you can do, and all you are permitted to do, is feel.
Someone once likened me to a cicada, no, not because I?m crunchy and it?s fun to pull my wings off. Like a cicada, this little girl went dormant, locking away and hiding the realities and truths of who she was for several years before a change in the season or a cosmic shift in the universe woke her back up. I found myself awake one eventful day and realized how much I missed this influence in my life. I'm continuing to shake the dust off my wings as I spread them and laugh with my growth since re-emerging back into this world.
It is important and vital for me to continue to grow, learn and develop myself not only in my submission, but as an individual as well. It is apparent as time goes on I've started back at Square One, the want, desire, and drive is there, but I still flounder and blunder at times. As much as I'd like to pretend, I am?not?a mind-reader and being the Cancer that I am, I have to remember to not just shut up and shut down on those around me.
So those who decide they may want to interact with me, please be patient and remember I'm relearning myself and all the glorious parts of this life as I progress.
About me, I tend to be a type A personality with extremely high self-expectations. Although I may not be perfect, I try very hard to achieve nothing but the best of what I expect from myself.(Gotta get that A-prus prus!)
I can only hope that it in turn I will meet the potential and investment put into me by those who decide to interact with me. Sometimes I joke that I'm an extroverted introvert, or perhaps an ambivert is the better term. I also?SQUIRREL!?hard.
I really wish there was an ?All of the above? option for what you can identify as, and damn this whole labeling business. First and foremost, despite my personality type, I do identify as a submissive. Let me pause a moment here, I?am?submissive, I know that may be hard to believe, but take the time to discover it for yourself.
Of course, I?m going to refrain from writing a novella and taking away the fun, excitement and mystery of taking the time to actually get to know me. I will say that there have been times where I have also filled and enjoyed the roles of brat, pet, slave, masochist and even the occasional baby-girl.
I am also happy to note that I am in an awesome triad.?I love them both dearly. They are an important aspect of my life and one I am more than happy to have. They have cleared me to look for friends and possible playmates if things develop to that point.
Other more benign self-facts to share, I?m an avid reader so if you have something you think I should read, please feel free to share. Nature, animals, and outdoors all carry an important significance to me and they are things I enjoy in great abundance. My musical tastes are a bit all over the place, but I do lean a bit more heavily towards the alternative rock genre. Concert going with good company is always a fun adventure.
I am a spiritual, but not religious person and believe strongly in karma.
Those that know me sometimes call me sunshine, as the majority of the time I strive to be a fun, happy person who tries to find the humor in things.. with a tendency to laugh a lot (especially when nervous)...
I know I'm a bit weird/odd/unique/(insert other appropriate synonym here), but that?s what make me a limited edition. (Just sayin? ;) )
I'm always open to meeting and getting to know new people, even in only a conversational and benign format.. I don't bite..Too hard.. and besides, strangers are only friends we haven't made yet.. :)
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