Looking for a REAL human woman in Manhattan who is available. I can't do 24/7. But I work from home and have a lot of time during the day and at night to enjoy our lives together. 

Pictures are available upon request or when we have introduced ourselves 


I am looking for a D/s relationship with a woman based on mutual respect, admiration, trust, love. The relationship I require must have a deep emotional connection. For me is not about how badly I can beat you (but don't worry, there will be times when I do). It is much more about an intimate mental connection that we act out with our bodies and our lives. I am looking for a relationship where every time we are together our connection gets deeper, we go further with our bodies, we go deeper into each others mind. The more balanced we are with each other, the more intimate our connection will be. I deeply cherish your submission. I deeply crave it. Please understand, I do not want a doormat, I want a partner. Someone who has opinions, principles, beliefs. This is a 50/50 as a relationship gets. It just has a more truthful dynamic without any games, utter brutal honesty of mind and body. I think it takes great courage from both of us. I do think as the sub you have to trust more, and I have to earn that trust. Anyone who thinks you should just give it and see what someone might do with you and it, doesn't come close to deserving your submission. I want to earn it, and keep earning it, everyday on this earth. 

There will be times when I need to hurt you, and times when you need to be hurt. There will be other times when I need to have my hand firmly around your throat...for hours, keeping you next to me. There will be times when you just need to be chained to the bed and wait for me while I... There will be times when I put you up against a wall and slowly and gently kiss every inch of your body, while punishing you nipples every time you forget your role and try to move your body or otherwise try to control me, because when you do we lose our connection. Every time you feel that pain you will remember you were told not to move. 

As much as I will make you cry when you are handcuffed, blindfolded and gagged beneath em, I will also make you laugh and feel great about life when you are not. 

For me the relationship that I am looking for is the most intimate relationship life has to offer. It is the most deeply loving concept that I can possibly describe.

It is an absolute bonding of two minds and body. My role is dominant, your role is submissive. They are equal. We both must give it all. We are a yin and yang. We must understand and accept all of each other. We must cherish each other all the way from the outside of our skin to the deepest darkest depths of our souls. We must work them out, and control them together. It is, at least I hope, what sets my soul free. and will lead me to the greatest heights of love and experience that I can imagine. It's also way cheaper than therapy, and after all, I don't think there is anything wrong with me. Anymore. It's just who I am. I accept it. I will accept you too. I will tell you all of my truths down to the deepest darkest ones, and you will tell me all of yours.

I don't know what your demons are. I do know what mine are and I have begun to deeply understand how they affect me, and what I need to do to enjoy them, control them, and hopefully with the passage of time and the absolute ironclad love of the right woman moderate and manage them. I will do the same for same for you. The only thing you have to do is be perfectly honest and don't hide even one bit of your true self. It will take a lot of courage and effort. I am ready and willing to bring my half.

I am a normal plain vanilla person on the outside. No one in a million years would believe that I am as twisted as I am. I am not looking to be saved. I don't need the love of someone to bring me back to humanity. I actually feel totally relaxed when I am in that zone of total emotional disconnection. 

I am not manic, I am not bipolar, I don't take any drugs or drink. I like wine once in a while and as I get older I think I should drink it a little more consistently. I am 420 friendly but not during working, or family time.

There are obviously many gradients to both of these aspects of me, and the writing is new and raw, so bear with me as I work on expanding it.

My vanilla side...charming, eager to please, happy, warm, friendly, can easily work a room of strangers if we go somewhere and it's just with your people. I buy flowers and give them to you. I go to get us breakfast on Sundays. I will bring back the paper. If your not in your cage, you can have the girl sections. Fashion, Style, The Magazine, I forget the others. Don't ever touch the business or sport sections.

My dark side...there are times when I just disconnect from my 'normal' behavior. It just happens, it is nearly impossible for anyone else to ever notice, unless I am stuck in traffic. I start thinking sick sadistic thoughts. My mind violates socially accepted patterns of behavior. I need to act them out. With you. 

Can you handle it? I am real. I live in Manhattan. I am absolutely ready to go down that dark path with you. I want to go over the edge, just to see what is on the other side. I truly believe that in our dance of danger we will both be free. I want you to tremble when you hear my footsteps coming towards you.

I want to love you like you have never experienced before. It's the only way I can.

If you think you can measure up and want to see what is on the other side, let me know. If you just have something rude to say, don't bother, do I seem like I would care? I know what I am looking for, I know what I want. I know it is out there. I know I will find it. I am after all, sadistically patient.

As I am not a finished product, neither is this profile. It will be changed over time, and be kept in line with my evolving understanding of myself.

No interest in scat, fire, guns, knives or needles. I am not actually looking for anything illegal.

If you have questions ask them. This isn't the relationship to be shy about them.

I have a young son, he will always be in my life. This is a private relationship. It will not spill into the rest of our lives.