Why is it even on my day off I can't sleep late?! Ugh...then I spend the rest of the day and week exhausted. I need a vacation!
3/11/2015 7:24:14 PM
I know what it's like to be ignored and be alone when you're surrounded by someone you love. I also know what it feels like to not ever be enough for someone. You find that person you like and want to serve but what you do for them is never enough. I also feel like just another number. Fuck it.
2/19/2015 7:36:43 PM
Last weekend I went to see Fifty Shades. I went with vanilla friends and while I read the books I didn't expect to be surprised. I've been in the lifestyle awhile and for most of the audience it was shocking and many said he was abusing her, controlling, etc. I don't agree at all with the abusive comments. I agree bdsm is not for everyone but I think we deserve respect in our community and don't need books written to make us look like they portrayed Christian Grey. Yes he had some issues but not every Dom does! The book was way too fantasy for me. I don't need a bazilionaire Dom with fifteen sports cars and a high rise. I just need someone I can trust mind body and soul. I need someone who can laugh and also be flexible with me. I'm in a relationship but also its an open one. I'm poly. Like it or not, take it or leave me. Fifty shades does not leave a good mark on the vanilla community. I think with the wrong person I would've ran a long time ago. I enjoy a good spanking, hard fuck, gagged and happy. But these things come with time and trust. Just my thoughts..
2/19/2015 6:27:55 PM
Bored tonight. No one can make real conversation anymore!
5/10/2014 3:20:54 PM
It's one of those listening to good music nights. Anyone wanting to discuss and recommend great music send me a message. I'm a music addict. It feeds the soul, wounds my heart, and gets me through all the rough times. I'm a classic rock/rock girl to the end. Daddy raised me right ;)
5/10/2014 2:31:22 PM
*Sigh* I really feel like I'm starting over here. Don't know where to begin. I just don't know if I can relax enough to let go and trust someone to touch me, use me, and put all my faith in them. I want this, but not sure how to submit.
