Random thoughts .........I'm missing that person who takes control tonight ........I've met 3 on here that have made impressions ......The first a man with a wonderful imagination for transformation , who kept me inspired but requested that I do things . That need for control wasn't satisfied ........The 2nd a TS woman who totally captured me but I ran from her vision of me . Classy ,stylish attractive an almost 50ish style that I could do but I'm nastier then that and I like being a bit dirty .......The 3rd and honestly the only one I met real time is a TS woman who was neither domme nor sub but just a wondeful person .........as I said random thoughts ........I'd love a task and no I can't do anything that'll cost me my job .....but....I can do things privately for someone with a creative mind .........I love taking pictures and adore turning myself into the image in your mind .......Lets play , kick the tires ,take me for a spin around the block , make me an offer ..........Be well

   Just a comment ......Summer and crossdresssing for those of us who require a lot of paint do not go together lol . Hard to do one's face as it melts down your chin !

Remembering and thanking our vets for their service today and everyday . Peace and happiness to all !

Happy Sunday everybody . It was a beauitful day here in Baltimore . Managed to get some guy work done but not nearly what I should . Had a friend over for a bit . She left so I cleaned up showered ,shaved my pubes and now sit very comfy in my nightie . Just a bit of a face ...... mascara bit of liner and pale lipstick . And it was just automatic . Didn't really even think about not dressing . It was time so I did it . Her time or better my time as her . Feels good .

Stay well

Hi from Baltimore . Been a long time since I've written anything but I need a place to put into words what's going on with me . Been really struggling with this male / female thing . The femme side is really getting stronger . He still does his work and the things that he is obliged to do but more and more the thought of just wanting to be her  creeps into the picture . Almost like an internal battle . He finds himself hurrying the time so that she can come out . Tonight was a perfect example . He had dinner with a friend more because the friend needed it more then him . A drink before hand and chat . To our table and conversation flows . Nice . And then a thought ......if we finish before 9 we'll have time ........ and that push stayed with me all night . By 9:30 hair on , breast forms , waist nipper  , a bit of lipstick ..... And now it's 9:52 and she wants to write . And I am more comfortable then I've been this entire day . It scares me how comfortable it is . The guy clothes never feel this "right."

So , how does one live like this ? I use to feel guilt about dressing but no longer do . My short cotton nightie perfect for a night like this . I would love the chance to be her for a longer period of time . Partly because somewhere deep inside I hope the daily , this is no longer play or sex  , job of maintaining the female role I desire would make it lose some of its shine . It is much harder to be a woman , more work and I may be too lazy for that . But the other side would very much like the chance to see just what it would feel like . To catch a glimspe of her life ............So each night I dress . I practice my walk while doing the chores . Mostly in heels . I just moved up to 3" as a my daily walk around shoe . And yes , they do hurt my feet but they look good and I want to walk in them like I own them . I like it more when my make up looks good and clothes lay well . Eventually in bed I play with my .......you know I want to write clit  ......while I suck on a dildo and imagine it's a real cock . Sometimes I lick it up, covering my lips . Tasting it . Loving it really . ...............Up at 4:30 so that she can have a bit of time before he needs to go to work . Odd way to live I think .

Be well

Beware ,mental vomit to follow ........I am looking for a woman .......a kinky woman who has a real life ........a woman who thinks it's a hoot that her partner looks good in that "little black dress" .........and also loves that he opens doors for her .........enjoys ordering his femmie little ass around as foreplay ...........and also that he is strong and steady and always has her back .......a woman who knows he listens to her and rates her needs equal or higher then his own ........ she likes that he is fit while walking hand in hand on a beach all the while knowing he is wearing a cute landing strip pubic patch under his suit .......... she likes that both laugh at each others quirks and then tries to make them real .........she adores being kissed ,everywhere ........... cooking together while sipping wine .........music and laughter ........singing out loud ........ ending evenings in a sweaty heap .......spooning in bed ..........

Yes , I am a crossdresser .........I like to be submissive and love makeup and hair ....... I want you to hold the reins and use your feminine wiles to challenge me to be more ........I will be your bitch .........and if you desire you will be mine .........variations , the spice of life ........but a whole life ,a real life , full and satisfying...........this is my desire