Being ignored is cruel and inhumane punishment.

I hate, hate, hate it.

Hate is a terribe word to use...but I think in case, it is appropriate.

haha....whining about whiners....

FFS

Having Fun In The Summer Time.

 Who remembers the great song by that title?

 I sure the hell thought I did....

Since that is what I am experiencing now..

(you know who I am talking about)...hehe...thanks for inspiring me to write this....

 I thought it was a Beach Boys song...but hell to the no...

SLY AND THE FAMILY STONE!!!

 YEAH FOR THEM....I fondly remember Stand...what a classic...

 It really struck home recently as I have some really really HOT things going on right now.

It really is fun in the summer time right

Dommes are really SO much better than sliced bread.....

REALLY? You blocked me?

I heard these words recently:

 Rich

Bitter

Dark

I wasnt sure if she was talking about chocolate or her thoughts.

Perhaps coincidently, BOTH!!!

This actually happened to me:

 I was engaged with an extremely beautiful Dominant female and we were doing the hippidy dippity.She said to me quite forcefully “Pound My Ass”. Loud and demanding.Who am I to deny such a person what they want?I proceed to curl my right hand in a fist and strike them on the ass.These humiliating words forever ring in my ears:

You Idiot! I Mean Fuck Me Harder!

I did something tonight I regret now and will regret for a long time.

But it had to be done.

In my mind it was for the best.

It just wasnt "adding up"

In my head, it was the right thing.

I will toss and turn tonight over it.

Just got word from AT&T. They plan on shipping my iPhone5 I preorder last Friday so that it arrives to me on Sept 21.

 Hurray for me.....who wants to be the first to get a phone call? Or better yet, I can call and text at the same time.....

 And HELL YES, I got the 64gbiter......black....in case you wanted to know.

I cant wait to throw that POS Blackberry Torch that AT&T crammed down my throat 18 months ago at thier brick wall. I would throw it through thier window, but I really, really dont want to go to jail and have Mrs Warden take my phone and give to someone from here.....

Finally got around to watching Snow White and The Huntsman last night after having it rented for 2 nights. 

I will be returning it so, if you hurry, you may get your hands on it. 

For the beeawtch that called me a Jackass, here is a spoiler: No one gets married in the end.

*wink wink nod nod*

Going to go pick my reserved copy of Snow White and The Huntsman.

I know, I know.....lucky me.

I am SO glad I have a skirt on here to chase. She waves it at me occasionally and off I go.

Now, I don’t have to (or have at least reduced) chasing the inane Females here advertising their ways of sin.....it is tempting...but fortunately for me, I have fallen into her trap (ok...so it wasn’t a trap, I just like to think that) of someone truly special

Many things can ruin a good cup of coffee.

Poor service, a loud neighbor, too much cream, not enough sugar, a companion's burnt tongue, being inside instead of outside.

I experienced all of these this morning but there was a facet present during the coffee break that actually made this the best damn cup of coffee in a paper cup that I have had in a long long time.

Something Wicked This Way Comes

I love it when I go to the "Whos Viewing Me" section to recall some past viewers and I see that new people have viewed me but the button wasn't even red.

It is like Christmas or my birthday.  

I wonder if that indicates I am self centered?

I dont think so. But the thought did cross my mind. There is no room for self centerednes in a submissive.

UGH...perhaps I need some counseling?

I read this today:

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PAYPIGGIES

Sometimes I feel like I owe, and I ignore the constant voices in my head saying..."Its worth it...Its worth it".

Then something wicked this way comes and its a win-win situation.

Is there payment involved? Of course. Mental, physical to be sure

...but financial...maybe...maybe not....

Only my hair remover knows for sure.

Oh..if you need a reference to the best "from the waist down" waxer in my area...I have it.

Madame Jael,

Please make them (HollDoll and KissitNOWBitch) stop.

Whats with these so called Female Supremacist (Expert) that act more like Asswipes (Expert).

You are supposed to act like a Leader, not a douchebag....Good Grief

bombshell,

That is the same crap you said last night and the night before that.

Find some new friends.

You call that jerkable???

I would say the chances of getting your journal post read that is any longer than three short paragraphs is slim to none.
I think most people prefer just a short note of interest.

If you HAVE to go into detail....get a room (aka a blog).

Please...do make me rant on this issue again. I just about wore my fingertips commenting on the FinDommes

GOD! What a humilitating BITCH You are!!

DIO STILL ROCKS!

Devil Horns to you all!

The Amanda,

Would the Owner get her hand delivered by the grace of Your hand?

That would be worth it alone. Then off to pimp her off to someone else....

~t

I have a rant about looooooooong journal posts. Bad enough that one is posted...this isnt your library for War and Peace epics. Good grief...post a link to it.

I dont rant when I come across one. But when THREE get posted almost back to back...and Lord knows how many are yet to come in next few minutes...I gotta say SOMETHING.....

I know I am going to be severely punished for this. That isn’t why I am posting this. I am posting this because this is what I feel to say at this moment.

I so very much want to feel a Woman grind Her cunt on my face. To twist and turn it around my nose, lips, and chin. Much like an orange has it juices extracted on a juicer.

I want to feel the hot wet flesh, I want to smell the aroma of sex, I want to feel the warm cum and saliva dripping down my cheek and forehead.

I miss this.

I know this sounds self serving, and indeed I will be punished. But please understand, it does bring the Woman pleasure to, so I am not all THAT bad…am I?

I will undoubted remove this post once I come to my senses. I cannot leave it journalized for too long.

Thats what they all say Megan

Is it no longer possible to include pictures with a journal entry?

I had SUCH an awesome one to share.....

Ahem Msxx....we certainly dont need anymore "funny ideas" to keep us line.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmph!!!!!

DAMN!!....sometimes You women get me SO excited and interested.....

then...POOOOOF......nada...zilch.....zippo.....

Must be collusion......"lets fuck with tan" or sumfin

Here I am Ms Athena!!

Some of the shit posted here puts me to sleep faster than counting sheep.

But on the other hand, some of the shit posted here is exciting as walking on the moon.

I get it that not everyone has a prefernce, like, or appreciation for a guy that enjoys putting on a pair of pantyhose.

What I dont get is when I view a profile and I get an email stating:

Why did you look at my profile? Cant you read that I dont like cross dressers!!

I dont respond...but sheeesh....how am I supposed to know this before I read it?

SOME profiles state this up front and I can see it without opening it up...but mostly, that information is like at the very bottom of the profile. And I do look if it is listed in a like or dislike category.

I dont contact the ones that dislike it..and I respect that.....

but to flame me (pun intended) right off the bat is a bit much.....

:P

Why do people take pictures of themselves holding a camera?
Dont most cameras have a timer feature?

Even my phone's camera has that feature.....

oh...and another FYI....please...for goodness sake..

clean up dirty things behind you before you take your picture..

who wants to see a half eaten plate of pizza with a dirty napkin on it?

You know it was one hell of a good time when after everything is said and done with, the seams of your stockings run up and down the front of your leg instead of the back.

I really dont care for socks.....

I do believe I will be replacing them with "something more comfortable"

oh yeah...and the replacement will even look much more appealing...

I feel like a butterfly....

After a life of being growing and a brief spell in a cocoon, I have emerged into beautiful  being.

It took a much higher power to draw me out, but I am here in all Her glory.

There is much training ahead in order for me to spread my wings and fly gloriously as She intends.

I want Her to be proud of Her creation.

How does that Wizard of Oz song go?
Somewhere, over the rainbow.....etc.....

I feel as if I made it on to the rainbow...and eagerly working toward the pot of gold that is surely on the other side...
Problem is, the dang thing is slippery and I am not quite as far along as I was two days ago....

aaaargh

The music that had been playing in my life has stopped. 

It will be hard to meet another that wound my music box so eloquently.

When I look at a profile, I quickly go to the "hates it" and "dislike it" section. This tells me more than the "likes it" or "loves it" etc. section.

Moving to a more intimate location this evening....

Came as a request, but I know better....

We will be sharing naughty things about each other....I think, I hope, I fear

I got into just a teeny tiny bit o trouble on here last night .

I asked a Fin Domme "How many pennies is that" when She informed me of Her going rate. I guess She thought I was making fun and implying I was going to compensate Her with a bag full of them....would have been a BIG bag...LOL...but then She thought right..that is EXACTLY what I was thinking......

I am now on Her shit list….funny thing is …we BOTH hate scat

Does the whole Financial slave/sub thing work for guys too?

I am wondering if I should quit my day job and find out....

Just because I am a sub...doesnt mean I cant have some meek wealthy submissive chick that has nothing better to do with her money than to buy me "things"...huh?....does it?

But then.....my mom would KILL ME for not using my education to carve out a quality life for myself.....

Actually, this is pretty educating itself.....

I have learned there are lots of interesting (and by interesting I mean...cool, awesome, facinating, wierd, phony, pathetic, etc) people using this site for a variety of reasons...

Gets me to thinking.... "What  am I using this site for?"....

Does the end justify the means?.....hmmmm....I wonder......

My plates pretty full right now...but here is my dilema....

I have been "chasing" a certain Domme for several...well...alright....perhaps just a few weeks now.

In the meantime, something else came up that provides what I want/need.

Do I just give up on the chase?...I LOVE the chase.......

The chase has been cat and mouseish....I email ALOT..(not overwhelming so tho), she responds a little...LOL....what a cruel method of Dominantion and control...I hate it when that happens.......

Now, just when it seems it looks like I broke through the ice, re:she asked to "know some more about me"....(the ultimate question...RIGHT??)....LOL......I go on and on...

Bless Her heart...but the response pretains to nada, zip, zilch to what I said...not even.."oooh ick, gross"...or heaven forbid..."I LIKE TOO"...HAHA...

THE AGONY OF IT ALL~!!!!!!!

I am living proof of the term "Slick as a Whistle"...at least from the waist down.

Thank You.....:D

FYI....Walmart has cheap sexy girlie stuff....

loaded up the cart for less than $50

They could care less at cash register too...LOL

You oughta see what I got...

Someone will tonight

Going incognito today.

Outside clothes look..well...manly....

Inside wear.....whatelse?...girlie

Why am I doing this?

Because the Woman I am going to meet asked me to.....

Is it just me? Or do some of these journal entries rival blogs as to thier content and length.

I wonder if some blogs are more appropriate to be posted here...and vice versa...

Is $300 per hour just a tad too high to pay for a Mistress?

Hmmm...let think.....

Yep....its about $300 per hour too high.....

I WAS thinking of getting off this merry-go-round.

Or is it like a roller coaster?...up, down...up, down......speeding......coasting....

I was obviously coasting and on the back side of the wheel....

Things go GOOD...and then they dont go at all....

UGH.....I want a new playground...

now..dammit all to hell.....I am on the upswing and this three ring circus is well worth the price of admission....

Talk to me in a week and I bet ya I have a different story.....

OK....a journal is a journal....although I have to admit to write entries that are on public display may prompt one to post an entry somewhat embellished upon but then again restricted....

 Today's entry from yours truely is this......

 I was asked to remove the hair from my waist down.....

full circle from waist to toe.....

 I admit....been there...done that....

but since it is going to happen today...thought you all would like to know....

 ps...this post is neither embellished upon nor restricted....

 HAGD

~t

Who knew.....there ARE local (to me) female Dominants my age that really do exist.

I was beginning to think that they disappear once they reach the age of 30.

Not that I would mind serving the RIGHT youngster female Dominant, but apparently they dont know they need me.....(hehe...tongue in cheek there)

I wonder..........

Do the Women that state on thier profile that they Live For//Like/Tolerate "Foot Worship" that they REALLY like a person to worship thier foot...or is it that they know some men (like me) have a unique weakness for Woman's foot and it is a simple, yet very effective way to control the guy? 

And what is it about a Woman's foot? I dunno why it makes me weak in my knees to kiss and tickle a Woman's foot.

BUT...just as a well shaped, manicured, painted toed Woman's foot melts me....a dry skinned, broken nailed, cracked heel, smelly, warped foot has the complete opposite effect. It is perhaps the most disgustuing thing there is on the planet. Yes...even more so than doggie do. Does make me a hypocrite? If I am a true foot soilder, should I adore all regardless of imperfections?

And what is about a Woman's foot that I crave to be pushed and prodded with it?

It is like a Woman's foot can do wrong....

Kind of like a kid of mine robbing a bank. I would protect and serve the punishment for him as I would a Woman's foot that killed an ant. I would go to Hell for the killing so the foot may go to Heaven.

Just wondering......that is all....now going back to work........

I just shake my head that there may be such a thing as a "pay pig".

I know, I know...to each thier own.......but seriously???

If Women are soliciting for these type of people...whether it be a male or a female, I suppose they are out there...they (the pigs) get what they deserve and want I guess....

Full steam ahead!!!

Apparently if you want to remove an Admirer from your list...you have to block them.

So today is a day of Firsts....

First time I got "Admirered".....

First time I "Blocked" somebody....

Good Grief......I need a cocktail.........

Someone FINALLY "Admired" me today.

I was SO excited.

From my phone, I saw that the "Admirers" tab was red indicating something new happened on that tab. I raced to a PC so I could open up the tab and see in full what was going on......

I was SO sure it was one of the Woman I adored from a afar but perhaps wanted to show friendship.........Which one would be it? I rolled through the few I assumed had befriended me......oh boy...oh boy....oh boy.....

I opened the tab and smiled......

It wasnt anyone I knew...although that dismayed somewhat....I am eager to meet knew friends...

Someone must have liked my good looks (haha), sleek physique (nyuk, nyuk), or creative kink (mmhmmm.....), or forgot to look at my age..(hardy har har).....

Then I got a sinking low feeling...what if...what if....this is one of the "dime a dozen",  "hit everyone up",  "money grubbing" bots......oh no...dont say its so....

It didnt take me long.......

UGH.....

Now how do I remove "IT"......

I cant figure it out.....WTF??