Calm and comfortable. Not in a position to belong to anyone at the moment.
10/29/2009 3:56:47 PM
Not sure if the profile is communicating exactly where my life has landed.
No, not collared. Yes, was collared. No, not available for collaring. Yes, perhaps available to certain ones to continue training and exploring. No, not in my 20's. Yes, have my own transportation. No, no resources to travel.
Current reasons I have no room for a full-time master or someone who requires someone on demand: *Men's demands have upset my college plans for over 20 years and this time no demands will override my need to study or be in class on time, every time. It's my turn. *A close family member is in the hospital at the moment and a close friend living nearby has multiple medical issues and may not be around much longer. I don't want to invest my time in someone that might not work out and miss out on the time I can spend with those that mean the most to me in this life. *My last master/slave arrangements ended with me owning almost nothing of my own. In order to take care of myself and bring some stability into my life; I am not in a position to trust someone else to do so, as I see how that's worked out oh so well so far... *Currently I am living on the kindness of others to whom I am an inconvenience. But if I offend them, go somewhere without permission or spend money on things they think I shouldn't have, my next bed may be on a street corner (and yes, I've been there). Bad choices of companions got me here and I'm tired of being told what a loser I am because I helped others become successful. *If I manage to pull this off on my own, I may pull out of the lifestyle altogether, because I will never put myself in a position to lose everything to someone else again, after having put in so much work. I'm am TOO OLD to keep starting over. I'd like to live somewhere for longer than 6 months. Is that too much to ask of life?
I wonder how many guys will actually read this before emailing? Those 20% that do get 80% of my attention :)
9/27/2009 10:23:26 PM
The calm hides the turbulence underneath. The only way to 'become' is to be that which you long to be. This moment in the mirror is only a reflection of past action. Each change, each thought, each new movement creates a change in the image, until it is no longer recognizable as what someone glimpsed of you long ago.
May the new image in the mirror be the one you seek in your dreams....
6/4/2009 8:48:31 PM
Second Chance by Shinedown
My eyes are open wide And by the way, I made it Through the day I watched the world outside By the way, I'm leaving out Today
I just saw Hayley's comet, shoo-ting Said ,"Why you always running in place? Even the man in the moon disappeared Somewhere in the stratosphere"
[Chorus] Tell my mother, Tell my father I've done the best I can To make them realize This is my life I hope they understand I'm not angry, I'm just saying... Sometimes goodbye Is a second chance
Please don't cry One tear for me I'm not afraid of What I have to say This is my one and Only voice So listen close, it's Only for today
I just saw Hayley's comet, shoo-ting Said ,"Why you always running in place? Even the man in the moon disappeared Somewhere in the stratosphere"
[Chorus] Tell my mother, Tell my father I've done the best I can To make them realize This is my life I hope they understand I'm not angry, I'm just saying... Sometimes goodbye Is a second chance
Heres my chance This is my chance
Tell my mother, Tell my father I've done the best I can To make them realize This is my life I hope they understand I'm not angry, I'm just saying... Sometimes goodbye Is a second chance
