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I can't believe I let an IRL sub friend talk me into this. But here I am... I figure, why not?
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First, a little about me:
I am a 34 year old (no 29 forever for me, lol) female, non-smoking, non-drinking, fun loving, virgin woman. I am in a long distant relationship, but I'd still like to find friends.
I am an animal lover first and foremost, but not a psycho conservationist. I like seafood and steak and will squash bugs and spiders in the house. I keep many different kinds of pets, and if you love me, you must love them too! I enjoy bird watching and can identify many birds (and other wildlife) by as little as a song or silhouette. I have in the past, and hope to again in the future, engage in legal wildlife rehabilitation.
I am a Bible Believing Christ Follower, and yet also the most liberal Right Wing Conservative I have ever met. I will stand for what I believe in, but I am not so set in my ways that I can not change, or accept new information. I will never condemn you for your beliefs or choices in life, even though I may not agree with them.
I love to read, write and draw, mostly in animal and fantasy areas.
I dislike spectator sports, and most 'sports' in general, but I am respectful towards others' interest in them.
I am not in the best of physical shape, but I love to be active. I won't be the first to the top of that hiking trail, but I will make it and I will enjoy every step of the journey there.
The primary photo is from a fossil dig I went on a few years ago. I had a BLAST and would do it again in a heartbeat.
I love the mountains and forests and open spaces of the west. I am a small town girl at heart.
Now, a bit about my BDSM side:
I have considered myself asexual for may years. I can be intimate and snuggly, but it will always be on MY terms.
I am protective of what is mine, but not so protective as to be smothering. I will not make every decision for my sub, nor save him from his own bad choices.
I have extremely little hands on experience in the realm of S&M, but I have interest and am willing to learn. I only recently accepted my Domme side, and I am looking for friends and experience and am hoping that my current romantic interest will eventually work out into a life-mate, aka husband who will live with me in a 24/7 real time D/s relationship
I don't yet know for sure what I want, what I am willing to do or what I am not willing to do. I know I never want to do anything that will actually harm my pet.
Bondage interests me, but rope is a complete turn off. Not sure what's up with that. Chains, ribbons, thread, caution tape, Christmas lights... MMMmmmmmm ^^
I am all over the collars. They are a total turn on for me. I LOVE to see a collar on my man. MINE. No one else's. Mine to love, Mine to protect. Just Mine. I made the first (and only) collar I ever used, intend to make more, but would be willing to purchase others depending on the situation.
I am unable to view a sub as anything less than human, so I do not believe I would be a good Domme for a slave. I will always respect your rights to safety, shelter, nutrition, companionship, thinking capability, etc. I will not keep a 'child', or anyone who just wants me to take care of everything for them.
Submission, to me, is a beautiful gift willingly given from one who is perfectly capable of taking care of themselves to another whom they trust and love.
I have only had one prior boyfriend, and he was also my sub. We were in a long distance relationship working towards being together and 24/7. It did not work out, but I learned a lot about myself and what I do and do not want in a submissive or mate.
My current relationship is also long distance. We've been friends for several years and are now testing the waters of something more. So far- so good!
So, coming to that, let me divulge some of those things I discovered:
I prefer a man who is willing to be a beloved, working Pet. While I like the idea of a leash, my pet should not need one. He will be content to follow obediently beside and slightly behind me, unless directed otherwise.
Correction, when needed, I prefer only a glance, but should more be necessary, I will use a sharp word. If further intervention in an unwanted behavior is required, a swift whack with a hand or leash is all I will give. Then the fault will be discussed, privately and calmly. A fitting punishment will be decided upon, and will rarely if ever, involve anything physically painful. BDSM activities are for intimacy and pleasure, not actual punishment.
My pet will be collared and will have a collar for every occasion.
While I would not expect him to be a household slave, my pet would take care of most of the chores - dishes, vacuum, dust, help with laundry, share in animal pet-care (feeding, cage cleaning, etc), yard work (I have a black thumb of death), etc.
My pet may have some eye contact and speech rules - I like eye contact from my pet.
My pet must either be experienced and willing to teach an inexperienced Domme, or be inexperienced and willing to explore with me.
My pet will be my life-mate, my legal husband.
I will expect input from my pet about family decisions, but I will have the final say.
My pet will work to earn money to pay for necessities and desires, as will I.
While my pet does not need to be the best looking guy around (beauty is on the inside), or in the best physical shape (I am not), I do expect good personal hygiene habits.
My pet will be respectful to myself and others at all times, regardless of race, religious or political orientation, etc.
My pet must share my love of animals and the outdoors, and similar interests in other areas are a plus (check out my profile) I expect the freedom to pursue all my hobbies and interests, and I will encourage my pet to pursue theirs as well.
I enjoy a lot of personal space, and my pet will enjoy snuggling- on MY terms. He must not be overly needy and especially not clingy (I DETEST that.) I enjoy having my pet sit at my feet so I can reach down and pet him as I desire.
I do not tolerate topping from the bottom.
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Feel free to send me a note. However, I tend to ignore messages that read like a copy and pasted form letter. I also hold spelling and grammar in high regard. So if you make your first contact short and personal, you're more likely to get a meaningful response from me.
Please feel free to call me Hawke. I am not comfortable with a high level of formality coming from subs that I do not, or hardly know. Until you are mine, we are equals in all other ways.
I hope to hear from you!
~Hawke
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I've kind of been neglecting this account for a while, but since I am now in a relationship, and a little bit more experienced than I was when I started it, it would be good to update things.
So, they're updated.
I am NOT currently looking for a relationship, but I'm always interested in making new friends. |
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Ok, I think I finally got everything working correctly now. Well... mostly. I still can't get the journal to show in any background color other than white. Meh, what ever.
I did another minor update to my profile.
I've been talking to a few of you submissives out there. Don't be shy, feel free to send me a message. I don't bite... at least, not hard.... unless you ask me to... nicely.
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Weird... having a bit of trouble with this thing. It won't let me change the background color of this journal. It says it's green, then when it posts, it's white. Weird....
So I just updated my profile. It's MUCH longer now (silly novelist that I am, lol!) ... and it is also having programming issues. I have NO idea why it makes the first word of each paragraph be a line on its own, and I am too tired to care to fiddle with it any more tonight.
Thanks for looking
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