maybe i'm crazy. or, maybe i'm overly idealistic and childish and sophomoric. i want in a partner all of the insecurity and youth and energy of a bratty little kid while at the same time being some one who is level headed and down to earth and understanding, compassionate, and intelligent - maturity against their immature sense of being. does that make sense?
furthermore, how does one go about finding these qualities simultaneously in some one? i've had the excellent fortune of finding a partner with whom we are able to start setting and testing boundaries as well get are hands dirty in kinky interaction. it's been great thus far. but there's a professionalism to it all, a cold distance of mutual adult-sex and while it's exciting, it's almost textbook.
in juxtaposition, my last relationship which carried hints of control and submission and plenty of mental play was more like baby sitting a child old enough to have sex with. i want something down the middle, or am i crazy? i hope i'm not.

so i have this idea - and i often have ideas but don't follow up on them - to put something small together. at the suggestion of a very kind domme on this site i shuffled myself and reestablished a profile on another well recognized bdsm site... (i hope you know the one) now, this is important because it is though there that i hope to begin a very small network.

you see, in south florida, it's difficult to experience the connection many people in find in city life; most of the tri-county area is made up of suburbs and sprawling cities jammed against one another and so there tends to be a lack of organized anything's going on.

this is especially true, i've discovered, in the fetish circuit. yes there is the fetish factory and yes there are a couple of open organizations, but it's been my experience that expenses or cliques tend to get in their way. my solution: to create an open kink organization right here in the heart of southern florida (eastern, of course).

my goals are plain:

1) create an open community where kinksters over the age of 20 can safely communicate, network, play, and learn.

2) create a support system for people who are new to the lifestyle, longing to return, veterans of play, or suffering some dark-flavored withdrawals.

3) host events, educational sessions, and munches for people in the tri-county area.

... three simple goals which i hope to expand. now, i've worked out a little road map which will undoubtedly change as interest arrives. and that's where you, oh random reader, come in. you see, as much as i want to make this a network for people in my area, it's difficult to make stone from sand and so i need some help and support from anyone and everyone who has the time. you can help in a couple of ways.

you can:

simply friend me and keep in contact with fresh ideas or things you've had success with

provide me with lessons or stories or schematics for group activities

become an active member of discussions on the group on that other site (it rhymes with netwife)

show me examples of newsletters, photos of events (that you own), or other media that might be useful

with our powers combined, we can call on captain planet i believe something really good and useful can come from this.

and don't just think me some random kinkster looking for friends, i've had some pretty extensive experience putting together events and advertising and localizing so i feel well prepared to start small.

so don't be afraid to come forth with your ideas and look for us, the south florida kink society, because i'm damned determined to get a strong community started.

until next time,

sylince

(the_sylince : on that other site...)

i always come to this point: online, early in the morning, browsing through profiles and playing that game many of us play (i assume) and then i want to do something while i'm on here. maybe i have something important to say or clever or maybe i have a witty anecdote that's sure to make people visit my profile over and over and score me on an admirer's list!

and here i am, right there, wondering why i let myself come to that point again. i'm not here for the admiration of kinky strangers and their suggestive photos, that's what myspace was for in the first decade of the 2000's. 

so now what? i've considered pouring out my kink-fueled imagination into the vast expanses of the interwebs through the funnel of this domain, but, you know, that only goes so fair and i'm only feeling so self-centered this evening.

but i will say this: i'm rediscovering the pervert in me. and not the "i want to hang around high schools and imagine what all the girls will look like in three years" pervert but the "you know, rape can be a sexy fantasy" or "i like hurting women in a safe, sane, and consensual way" kind of pervert. and for the first time in my life i'm really deciding to act on it in such a way as to make some changes in my lifestyle. i mean, yeah, before there was some kinky sex and some awkward nights when scenes didn't play out right, but these were all here and there and poorly planned and mostly the adolescent fueled sexual encounters of a highly active kid. i'm twenty five, i don't have time to imagine what great, kinky sex and bdsm influenced relationships will be like, it's time to make them happen.

so that's what all this is about, and in saying so, i invite you, the reader, to hit me up with a note or message if you've got something to say about it. preferably something positive or encouraging. i know there are those forums, but they're not something i can moderate, plus, that's not how people where meant to have conversation.

until next time

- sylince