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| How do you explain yourself? How do you put something so complex into words?
I will try….
I am bi-sexual. Used to be ashamed of that fact and try to hide it. No more. I am attracted to people. I don’t give a damn what is between your legs. Makes no never mind to me. If there is a connection or mutual attraction that is all that is needed.
I am a switch. Pain has always been a part of my sexuality. Whether I am receiving or delivering pain I am turned on. Control…Whether taking control of someone or giving it away I am turned on.
When the submissive side of my switch personality is starved I tend to lose interest in topping. I don’t know why it happens. It just does. Those who I top on a regular basis understand this about me. Those who don’t understand and can’t accept this about me need to move on. If I am not in the mood to top it will not be enjoyable for either of us, and I just won’t do it.
As a strong person it takes a very strong person to top me. If I can make you stop with nothing more than a whimper or a look, you are not strong enough to top me. I need to be challenged. I need to be pushed (within prearranged limits). I need to fight back. I need to be put in my place. I need to beg and plead. I need directives and instructions. (Consequences must be known and given if they are not followed.) “No” and “please stop” are not safewords to me. They are a challenge to my top.
I take the time to get to know anyone I play with. If you are not interested in communicating and negotiating… Well, just don’t even bother. Don’t waste mine and your time.
I crave a D/s relationship in my life. More of a fantasy I suppose. Don’t think I will ever find someone who is strong enough, or I can trust enough to allow them to fulfill that desire.
I am an extremely private person. I expect my privacy to be respected. My play partners will receive the same level of privacy that I expect from them.
If you want to know anything more just ask. Be prepared, you will get an honest answer.
Please note: I am not interested in online only relationships.
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