I give up on my quest.

thank you everyone for the info, guidance and for some the arm wrestle in understanding.

Hello,

Well, I have received a lot of advise, some very helpful.

I still have to say I am not interested in hooking up or a relationship. I have one already.

I am still not sure what it is that I need, but, thanks to ongoing guidance, I know where to start.

I am feeling better about myself. And even feeling right about the direction.

Messaging with some very interesting guys, helping me with my desires :) I think I'm glad not to be the depraved perv, I thought I was.

ok was able to get some men to message me. Still not closer to understanding.

Do we all have fantasy's of what we can't have. I feel deprived and sad that I won't have them lived out. Is this the way it is?

Ok day one, I have a feeling this is more of a dating site.

I was hoping to find someone I could ask some questions to help me understand my desires.