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Greetings to E/everyone, and thanks for taking the time to read my profile!
i've been actively seeking something in the BDSM lifestyle for over 3 years now; mostly it's been stagnant, but the few P/people that have provided me with experience has been invaluable in helping me figure out what i want, and what i need.
i have a voracious appetite for reading as that's my main source of kink related knowledge, though i am sorry to say i rarely have time to sit down and complete a book- in any case, please feel free to suggest titles that could be helpful learning tools to help me expand or grow.
i've been fortunate enough to make several friends off this website, and am always looking to expand my social circle, so please feel free to message me if Y/you're anywhere near San Diego, and would be interested in a platonic friendship. i've changed my photos from the ones i was *trying* to be sexy to more casual ones with my lifestyle friends. Please note Y/you can not use me to get to T/them.
i've been single since January 2007, abstinent since September 2008, and never collared- so please do not think that i am easy, or take it lightly when i say i require a LOT of patience.
i do try to update my journal entries on a semi regular basis, so please scan those for any important updates (if Y/you care to know) as it will be reflected there before this profile section.
Some of the most important things to me in any involvement are trust, communication, and honesty. my ideal situation would be to find a serious long term commitment. i am a serial monogomous when i am involved with someone, and loyal- perhaps to a fault. my few attempts have obviously not worked so well, so friends first to see where it goes is peachy keen.
i do believe i am a switch- but i am focused on trying to fullfill my desire to explore the submissive side before even considering topping someone. i believe it is because of this that i sometimes struggle to submit to Someone.
It's all about the interaction, i do have limits, but the better the situation, the fewer there will be. It's important that although i want and need to be pushed beyond my comfort zone to experience more, i am not broken, because i actually like myself as i am- finding S/someone that not only accepts, but embraces that would be great.
i am fairly open, so please feel free to ask anything that may not be clear enough.
Last but not least, the chat on here does not work for me- i do the yahoo IM thing. i finally have a web cam, and although i don't feel the need to "prove" anything, i can verify i am who and what i claim to be. Also, i do not accept friend requests from people i don't know- it's not a collection to me- i know the friends on my list fairly well ;)
Happy hunting E/everyone!
Love and Lollipops, or sassy lashes -
hugs n kisses ~ Strawberry Gashes
WARNING:
Any institutions using this site or any of its associated sites for studies or projects - You do NOT have my permission to use any of my profile or pictures in any form or forum both current and future. If you have or do, it will be considered a serious violation of my privacy and will be subject to legal ramifications. It is recommended that other members post a similar notice to this.
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Wow, i've been slacking... i guess these journals are an ebb and flow for me.
How's life? Like a routine- i feel like "Every Day Is Exactly The Same" by NIN could be the theme song or sound track for my existence right about now.
Updates- still looking for a decent job, my star friend moved in and is living with me, which is mostly cool. my dad turned the big 5-oh, i tried dating a stupid boy a couple months ago, it was kinda nice, but i felt like i had to try really hard to convince myself to be into it- bad sign from go i suppose. my bird is making great progress in becoming tame, though she still bites sometimes. i go to the gym almost daily, and have lost 43 pounds from my highest point last May. There's probably other stuff, but nothing pertinent comes to mind, so i'll wrap this up- and hopefully not wait another half a year to write again. |
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So there i was- masturbating violently to celebrate the cessation of my wicked hang over when *poof* my hitachi wand made a big crescendo of a buzzing noise, so i pulled it from between my legs to see if i could tell why the noise change, and it popped (i screamed cause it scared me) and it appeared there was a lightening bolt inside the casing... How sad that i've assasinated *another* toy... FUCK MY LIFE. |
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The contest to guess my bird's name is oficially over, so no services will be performed for correctly guessing the name as i believe the word has been leaked :P |
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FML... Seems to be the theme lately... For those of Y/you unaware, FML = Fuck My Life :P
i bought a baby parakeet last week- it's too young to tell the gender yet, but so adorable, and the companionship is lacking as taming has been difficult thus far. Anyone care to guess the name? i will let anyone who guesses correctly (that hasn't already discussed the bird with me) violate me in any way they wish. LOL
Yesterday, the shit hit the fan in my friend's life, and she's moved in with me- so we're somewhat a "package deal" anyone we meet off the puter, the other will likely be right there too. haha!
Last, but not least- i am getting a tattoo on the 1 year anniversary of my great grandmother's death to honor her memory, and am going to Folsom for the first time (yay), so the end of this month will be much improved from missing out on my vacation and potentially losing a friend the beginning of this month :( |
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Wow, i am really on a roll with these journals huh? Well, i am still nearly nocturnal... Being gallbladder-less made me drop like 20 pounds, but i have this horrible habit to binge, and suffer- so i've gained 4 lbs back >.<
my new partner in crime is a delightful slut muffin, and i find myself living vicariously through her- woot woot.
The main thing i wanted to say- in case A/anyone actually reads these journals is that one of my fave things to do is click "browse photos" and i spend some time scrolling through and scoping everyone out... Rarely do i bother viewing profiles, but on occasion if something sparks my curiosity- i obviously must investigate further. F/friends of mine know that i will reach out when i think W/we're a good match, but if i view Y/you and don't write- i likely have no interest, or if i do, am too intimidated to write.
i added a guy to my favorites list this morning... i greatly enjoyed Your profile, but i have no effing clue what to say >.< |
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So i made a new friend off of Craig's List, and we hit it off, so i am *stoked*... Anticipating full corruption of the vanilla ;)
Also, my new partner in crime went to meet another Craig's List person, and he's been a piercer for 9 years... SCORE!
On a side note- what's with a Dom seeming uninterested in a sub's existence, and then a mutual agreement it's over, but then popping up again randomly later? Jeebus i needed the play, but it was a bit of a brain twister.
P.S. i am getting older- 27 now... No thank you's are owed as nobody gave a shit, and pretty much everyone forgot :P |
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i love club Sabbat... it gives me a chance to P/people watch, and always hope i will get drunk enough to have the courage to approach S/someone, or perhaps S/someone approach me and strike up conversation...
Been trying to have fun lately despite the current difficulties in life- yay for the silver lining and stuff.
Also, a side note- so frustrating there's no local P/people to social network with because most P/people hate fat chicks. :( |
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Attention any P/peeps in Michigan!!! i am going on vacation in the Lake Orion area early September... i am looking for any information on the BDSM scene out there- any bars or clubs that are friendly to non local lifestyle peeps would be greatly appreciated! :) |
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i'm just sad. Nothing profound to say, so feel free to skip reading the remainder of this journal entry... i just feel like i should say something. my emptiness consumes me. Recovery sucks. i want a pet for companionship or something. |
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So apparently my new hobby is getting surgery each summer? Last July i had fun with the broken ankle thing, and last week i had severe abdominal pains- after Kaiser Permanente sent me on a bit of a wild goose chase- i had my gallbladder surgically removed on Saturday. Recovery is going to be difficult i imagine, but i am looking forward to feeling better. Cross Y/your fingers that this really isn't a trend, and i wont have another catastrophic health issue mid 2011 :P |
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if Y/you're a liar or effin fake- do me a favor; set yourself on fire, go play hopscotch across some busy freeway, and jump off the bridge on the other side to plummet to your death :) |
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i've been trying so hard to emulate a Pollyanna demeanor, but it's difficult to really *be* happy as of late...
i'm a tough cookie, and i thought if i could survive the hell i went through the second half of 2009, that i could flourish regardless of circumstance...
Just mentally and emotionally beat at present time.
i don't get enough attention to tell Him that i don't get enough attention, but i don't feel demoralized enough to just walk away (nothing is "owed", but i respect Him more than that).
i'm currently contemplating quitting the lifestyle completely- the friends are great, but i can't seem to find a place i belong beyond that.
Have a good night E/everyone! ~ s.g. |
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i got laid off today... Really sucks- it's kinda like a bad break up from a long term relationship... i'd worked there for over three and a half years. just waiting for it to really sink in- guess i gotta figure out a plan B, and quick! Times like this makes me wish i had a sugar daddy (or mamma) to spoil me rotten ;) |
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i am currently fortunate enough to be working with a Dominant, and although i am not collared, out of respect for Him, i request that no male Dominants contact me for involvement beyond platonic at this time. i am still seeking a female to form a deeper involvement with, but am trying to immerse myself in this learning process at present time, and the situation i am in right now remains my priority, please respect him and that. Merci :) |
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Just a few quick things...
1st - i FINALLY got internet hooked up! Yay, and there was much rejoicing. lol
2nd - i am getting over being sickie icky, so glad too, cause i am over this coughing a lung up thing.
3rd - i am wishing for death as i cannot get this song out of my head- it's a mashup some genius made between "Lazy Town" (a kid's show) and a Lil Jon song...
*dances around idiodically with the remix on*
Someone put a gun to my head, and pull the fucking trigger.
UPDATES soon, i *promise*
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i've been struggling a while now... Recently the Dom i was playing with said that W/we need to "take a break". The trust is there, so i really want to believe that's what it is, but i feel kinda like i got dumped and i am potentially living in denial like an idiot.
Just wondering if A/anyone has a similar experience or advice on the matter- i am anxious and despite keeping busy, it's difficult to stay focused, crazy how it eats at me.
Also, my friend warned me of "sub frenzy" where a sub that no longer gets used loses any sort of self control and starts seeking involvement with any and everyone... That's not me, but am wondering if A/anyone would care to share about things of that nature as well.
Happy Mardi Gras E/everyone- show some boobs, get some beads, and have a drink for me! :) |
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Two things:
#1) Hot wax poured in the ass crack? OUCH
#2) i think i am incapable of silently taking a beating- i can control the vocal outburts mostly, but i cry... |
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"Be careful what you wish for" seems to be the recurring theme of my life lately... The Dom i have been working with is wonderful and i am quite upset that i already know it wont work, so no need to congratulate me- just wish me luck in progress as i intend to hold on as long as i can! On a side note; i love and loathe this "zipper" sensation- would love to hear from more experienced slaves and submissives as well as my ongoing search for a female Dominant. Hope E/everyone is having a good weekend! xoxo - s.g. |
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WHILE NORMALLY THE TYPING IN ALL CAPS LOCK IS ANNOYING, i WANT THIS TO BE ATTENTION GRABBING; HEAR YE, HEAR YE! i AM CURRENTLY WORKING WITH A LOCAL DOMINANT AS A SORT OF MENTOR. FOR THIS REASON, i EXPECT TO BE ONLINE LESS FOR A WHILE- TO ALL THE FRIENDS i'VE MADE: KEEP IN TOUCH! BUT i AM NOT SEEKING ANY NEW MALE PROSPECTS AT THIS TIME. LADIES, LADIES, LADIES; HOPEFULLY i WILL EMERGE A BETTER QUALITY SUB, AND FIND ONE OF YA'LL ON my CONTINUED SEARCH AT A LATER DATE ;)
*HUGS AND KISSES* CHEERS TO THE NEW YEAR! |
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Death... It pretty much sucks. i know it's inevitable, but that does not make the pain any easier. my great grandmother passed away 09/25, and it's still like hell for me... She was my whole world, so there's really no consolation that will really help. i know time will help- so spare the lectures, just wanted to speak on it briefly... i'd take physical pain over mental and emotional any day of the week. My great grandma was the shyt, and i am sad i'll never be able to introduce anyone else to her, so nobody will fully realize her awesome-ness... i suppose the finality makes you *think*
Also, on an entirely unrelated side note- i hacked off my hair to donate to Locks for Love (again)... It feels weird, and i am adjusting to going from ass length blonde hair to red hair above my shoulders. Whatcha think?
Well, i hope everyone has a great rest of the weekend, i'm gonna go watch a movie. Ni Ni! |
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So i am a clutz. i had a slip and fall accident on 07/11- sad part is that i was sober, and not wearing stiletto heels or anything. The water puddle on the tile floor won though.
i managed to have talent when i fell- and fractured the inside of my right ankle in two places. i had surgery to put some 3 inch metal screws in my ankle to keep the bones together in the right place.
Odd part is that i was more upset about the doctors making me take my oral piercings out for the surgery than i was when they stabbed me with needles several times to put in the I.V.- which is odd, because needles freak me out.
My check ups have gone well thus far, i am so sick of these crutches, and while i've learned to adjust to the pain, there is no enjoyment in it. Perhaps i am not a masochist, or perhaps it's the wrong kinf of pain...
i should be able to walk in another few weeks, and i am anticipating physical therapy to be similar to hell. Wish me luck!
Another thing i am really sad about is i am not supposed to wear heels for at least a year- big bummer because i <3 shoes!
Once i am back on my feet so to speak, i am going to get my computer up and running, so i will be online more often. :) |
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Wow, so again too much time has gone by since i last wrote anything on here. Things are still crazy busy, and i am thankfully hanging onto my employment (for now- barely). So cross Y/your fingers for me there!
my great grandma who is my *whole world* had a stroke on the 14th, and her recovery has been hard, but things are starting to look up, and i have hope.
i have been super lucky to have met another few ladies from this site: Lady Shy, AmericanBanshee, and kismetstarfire- you're all *awesome* xoxo
i got to check out a dungeon up in L.A. called "Passive Arts" and it was really interesting to observe so many different things going on (too bad i am too shy to *do* anything in public), but i do get kudos for approaching a guy who i correctly identified from this site (PeAcE SoCalSwitch)
i try to go to Sabbat (2nd Sat. each month @ The Flame in Hillcrest) regularly- with my friend CJthetaz05, and have had loads of fun hanging out there- if Y/you ever see me- feel free to introduce Y/yourself :)
Basically all this name dropping is not to impress anyone- just give the example that i am enjoying the company of friends i've made along the way, and say i would like to meet more fun and interesting people :)
i should have my own computer up and running mid July, so i will be on much more frequently after that ;)
i hope E/everyone is having a GREAT summer so far! xoxo ~ s.g. |
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So i am on vacation... Have been having a CrAzY week of ups and downs. It is getting late, so i will make it easier to go over everything like powerpoint :)
- Got a late start, hit traffic really bad through L.A. then got a speeding ticket before almost running out of gas and getting lost.
- Finally met a long time friend from here on Collar Me (Lady Aiedail) who was nice enough to let me stay with her for a week :)
- i am still getting over being sick, so nothing went as accodring to plan, and i missed out a lot of the tourist sight seeing stuff
- i made the drive to Sacramento to see another collar me friend that i'd met previously and we had loads of fun (i love you to pieces chickie)
- ANOTHER collar me friend helped show me a good time, Don Quixote showed me parts of San Francisco, and we drank Absinthe (woot woot)
- i got my industrial pierced, can't wait for my next tatt... Next piercings shout be my nipples
- Went out and bar hopped, to hell with being sick, i am a fuckin' ROCK STAR... Got totally shit faced, and it was AWESOME
- Discovered the awesomeness that is Citadel... And Sabrina Fox was there (I LOVE her). She was naked, and friggin hugged me!
So yeah, vacation is over now, and i get to drive many many miles tomorrow so i can return to my daily grind. i am so glad for all the awesome P/people i've met on here and become friends with... Even if it doesn't turn into an involvement.
~ s.g. |
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Hello again E/everyone! i would first like to apologize to the few wonderful P/people whom i've regretably had to decline beginning a correspondence with... Things are super duper crazy busy lately for me, and i am honestly just busting my ass to try and get through it.
i'd like to give a couple birthday shout outs to my girls Sistinas, and Naughty Dolly on here because i love them both.
i've finally had a chance to read "Screw The Roses, Send Me The Thorns". Great read for any newbie such as myself. i recently bought another BDSM oriented book though i forget the title- i am looking forward to reading it.
Planning my first 3some this weekend- everyone cross your fingers for me!
Last but certainly not least- i would like to thank T.G.I.F. - recently i was lucky enough to be involved in "Camp Perv". The Yosemite area is BEAUTIFUL, and E/everyone was so nice- i had a BLAST!- so THANK YOU to anyone involved that might be reading this.
i do believe i have a crush on Lady Juliet *blushes* and was ecstatic to see first hand firecupping performed- perhaps i will have the chance to experience it myself someday.
i am hoping to get up and running back to normal soon, but no promises-
Until then my friends- enjoy the dirty dittys ;) |
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Hello again E/everyone, it's been a while, and Y/you all may have noticed that i've not been on much at all in quite some time. i promise i am not purposely ignoring A/anyone!
Things have gotten super duper crazy in my life, and the upside is that i am not homeless, but essentially my supposed social life is non existent.
i will be on occasionally, and promise to do my very best to answer those of you that i can, my apologies again for the wait- don't mean to be rude...
On a side note... Why the hell do P/people add you to their circle of friends before even saying "hi". i may have gone over this before, but i don't recall and didn't review other journals. WTF is that all about?
i hope all is well with E/everyone, and look forward to the continued friendships- however slow that progress might be... |
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Here we are with another month almost gone by... *sigh* I suppose it's time to write a little something.
I am deeply heartbroken that what I had been pursuing fell through. I suppose all signs pointed that way, but I was a silly little girl hoping against all odds something would come out of it.
I am no longer under consideration by the Dom I'd longed for and needed, but I am still not particularly interested in talking to dominant males despite my newfound freedom to do so.
I am crazy about my new friend from this website- always crazy fun when we hang out, so I will enjoy that for now and look forward to meeting new people- though it will all likely stay on a strictly platonic level as I do not wish to become involved and remain in the endless cycle of getting hurt.
Nothing else really to talk about. I am going to go have an awesome weekend hanging with friends and drinking excessive amounts of alcohol now. LMAO- goodnight everyone! |
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Ta - da! It's about time for another journal... So sorry for anyone that was hanging on the edge of T/their seat waiting (lol).
Before i had been talking about the books i was reading. Have since finished the trilogy- excellent read, i was hooked. In book 2 "Beauty's Punishment" there was a particular paragraph that resonated with me- i would like to share that now:
my only hope for a deep love, a loss of myself to someone, not merely a loss amid all that strives to break me down and remake me. But a loss to someone who is sublimely cruel, sublimely good at mastering. Someone who might somehow, in the blaze of my suffering, see the depth of submission and love me also.
At this point i should confide i've been losing my faith, hope, and belief in such positive feelings as love and happiness- like i've been dying a slow miserable death inside.
my seeking someone on this website was to break out of my conventional self and explore those depths of me that before i hadn't had the chance or will to attempt. i hadn't thought that i could find anything meaningful in such a situation, but perhaps as i move on through this experience there's more to be found and felt than imagined.
At this time i want to give a shoutout to NaughtyDolly. she is collared already, and i couldn't be happier for her, but as she is local and so much like myself- it's like she is the cheese to my macaroni... The jelly to my peanut butter. *smiles*
The latest book i am starting to read is "Screw the Roses, Send me the Thorns" by Philip Miller and Molly Devon. i'm anticipating that i will learn a lot from it as it seems to be very informational and i'm still a beginner.
Progress with my potential Dom is SLOW moving, but i am excited at the little activity that is occuring lately- everyone keep your fingers crossed for me that things go well!
Until next time my lovelies ~ XoXo ~ s.g.
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So here i am once again, apparently it's been too long since i last wrote as i have a couple requests for a journal. There's a lot going on in my mind, but it seems translation from thought to written word is where i frequently flub up. This must be a quick entry as i have to go get dressed (yes, just imagine i'm sitting here naked after a shower- hair wrapped in a towel as I write this) for dinner with friends.
Previously I was told to read a book, an assignment from my potential Dom you might say. The book is called "The Story Of O" by Pauline Reage. It was really good, definitely recommend it! I was completley rapt by this book, and have since realized i'm insatiable in reading books of this nature.
I'm currently in the third book of the erotic Trilogy by Anne Rice. Book 1 was The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty", book 2 was "Beauty's Punishment", and book 3 is "Beauty's Release".
i have an idea of something to write about a part i read in these books, but as it will likely take a bit of typing and i'm already running late, i will bring this to a close with the promise of a second part to this journal.
On a side note, i've had the pleasure of meeting a truly wonderful friend off of here- her name is NaughtyDolly, and i'm so glad to have her as a friend. Also i'm looking forward to the 10th of next month: i'll be going up to Nor Cal for a concert with BloodRose88- it should be flippin' AWESOME.
XoXo ~ s.g. |
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Hello A/all...
Wow, it's going to take me some time to adjust to this, but it's one of the latest minutias i've noticed on here- of course i'm speaking of the capitilization then slash and lowercase letters at the beginning of any word in reference to Dom(me)s and subs. i'm also trying to refer to myself always in lower case to really ALWAYS think in the sub mindframe. Is his silly of me? Definitely goes against proper english which I usually strive to apply.
Enough of that tangent. i am here to write a journal as i have a certain someone *You know who You are* asking me why i do not write more journals- this is to hopefully appease that request.
my latest inner conflict is the debate between feeling comfortable and taking my time in searching someone to be involved with and just gettng crazy and jumping in. They each have their own advantages and disadvantages:
Taking my time allows me to follow through when i've already established this is what i want, it's tiring, but very rewarding when it works out i imagine. Because of the taking time and patience aspect, Y/you might imagine- things have yet to work out for me. The couple people i've wanted to pursue fell through, and it actually upset me more than i'd imagined anything on here could- silly me for getting so deep? Perhaps i should seek self controlled detachment?
Jut jumping in is not in my character at all in this situation- i'm nervous and surprisingly shy, pressure wouldn't likely usually work, and i imagine i'd frequently back out when it didn't feel okay with me, and i really want to avoid anyone thinking of me as a liar or tease etc etc. The upside of course is potential for more and frequent experiences.
*Sigh* so that would be my dilemma... Has A/anyone else had similar thoughts or feelings? If so please feel free to write me and we could further discuss it and see if anything said nudges me to seek either course of action in a more actively pursuant manner.
Oh yeah, by the way: Happy New Year E/everyone!!! mine was FABULOUS, and i hope all was and is great for A/all out there as well. Till next time...
Love and Lollipops ~ s.g.
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Wow, here we are again, and this time it's almost Christmas... I hadn't written in quite some time, due to not only being busy, but also not knowing really what to say. I was asked just the other day by someone what made me stop... Oddly enough I didn't imagine anyone was really paying attention. So here's a few random things to close out the year.
DO NOT bother sending me chat requests on here- it doesn't work for my computer. I've seen many many other people say this, so perhaps for once it's this site having a problem as opposed to my piece of shit machine.
Recently I started enjoying borwsing the photo gallery... I click on pictures I find interesting and read the full profile- this is purely a random process and doesn't mean anything beyond "I am curious". Please don't be offended by or bothered if I view your profile and write nothing.
YES... Sistinas is my friend- NO we don't do anything sexual with eachother. We're very honest and open and can talk about anything with eachother. There have been, and likely will be more people on this site that have at some point contacted both of us. Out of respect for her- I will not discuss anything but the basics, and i ask that you not come to me for hlp in pursuit of her.
Anyhow, it's the holidays, and I need to go be merry or something. I hope all is well for everyone out there, and cheers to a new year- see ya then! :) |
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Hello once again all...
I just want to make it quite clear that I feel no obligation what so ever to "prove" anything to anyone. I know I am a female, and thats good enough for me.
People that I come in contact with that take it as it is are cool, and we enjoy our communication. Should a meeting ever come up, and both people are into it, that will be the time you can see I'm all woman (if there ever were a doubt).
It's annoying when I explain that I don't have a webcam (must be a liar huh) and can't view other people's webcams (must be a poser). Personally the cam 2 cam thing does nothing for me... Yes it is a way to verify the person you're talking to is who they say they are.
If you lack the trust to invest any time in knowing someone and require cam to cam sessions like Master4aSlave1 does apparently- really cute, he sent me a lame message about being a guy jerking off my tiny cock, then blocked me like a immature child ensuring I couldn't retaliate, not that I care to- we obviously wouldn't get along anyways.
Kudos to my girls that can totally hear where i am coming from :) |
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Perhaps it is time for a disclaimer?
Today I lost contact with someone that had excited me in a new way, and I was very pleased with the aspect of a different experience.
I've made a memo of myself to try and not blow it next time, but I also want it to be known to anyone (I am HOPING everyone reads profiles and journals before contacting someone else) that despite my tendancy to be mature beyond my years- I like to act like a kid frequently, and the whole other side to me is that I am VERY sarcastic, and say all kinds of random jackass remarks.
Now PLEASE, instead of getting offended- bear that in mind, and just ask if I am serious, and I will have no problem trying to make you understand where I am coming from or going with whatever it was I said in question.
For the most part, I don't give a shit what anyone thinks- if I do give a shit, it's because I hold someone in high regards. So rather than fall from grace, and feel like shit (however politely my new ass hole is ripped) that's inevitable.
ALSO want to clarify ONCE AGAIN- age is just a number, I know that- you're as old or young as you feel, blah blah... I don't care if we're just talking, but considering the content of this particular site, I don't care much to discuss the ins and outs of the BDSM lifestyle with guys that are old enough to be my dad or grandpa. THANK YOU! |
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Before I start writing today, I would like to say my heart goes out to everyone affected by these crazy fires, I hope it's all over soon, and wish everyone the best!
I have been thinking a lot lately- everyone alwas says I think too much, so lately it's been particularly bad. I would like to apologize to anyone thats gotten the brunt of my wrath, I'm just a moody bitch I suppose... I'm going through a lot and don't want to take it out on anyone.
I have found the most fabulous people, a man that can hopefully shape me into what he wants and needs, if he ever finds time for me that is... So I am closing down for the male population till I see how that all goes.
And a female whom I adore, but is not only already involved with someone else, but a billion miles away *sigh*.
So I am looking mostly to learn from anyone through interesting conversations, and maybe even perhaps play with a female. I use yahoo for chat, but am rarely online because my internt connection sucks (not in a good way either).
Also, YES, I am *real*... I never thought that would be doubted, but I've had several people ask. I am sorry I can't "prove it" not having a webcam and such, but I'm too broke and it's really like the last thing on my mind currently to fix it, but I do have several pics, and those will have to suffice.
Anyhow, thats just a random train of thought for now, I will try to write these things more frequently, not that I think anyone is paying attention necessarily, but it's good to put yourself out there in case someone does and it forms some sort of connection.
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Hello again to anyone and everyone actually reading this... Just an update.
I am VERY busy with work, I average between 50 and 60 hours a week lately, and my priorities for weekends are definitely friends and family. Sorry people!
The guy that I was all excited about apparently isn't everything I could ask for. Don't get me wrong- still a great guy, and I greatly value the friendship (still hoping to learn stuff from him) but being that he's "almost" all I could want isn't something to settle for, right (Cause as I was reminded- almost only counts in hand grenades and horse shoes).
So the search is on AGAIN... I am I think at this point more interested in females, no offense guys, but men just aren't worth it. So ladies, please- feel free to message me and show me a thing or two, gimmie some hope, and I imagone there's all sorts of ways we could have fun.
I need to get going for now, but I will likely be writing again when I have more time. Hope all is well with everyone- and Happy Hunting! :)
<3 and Lollipops ~ S.G. |
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First off i would like to say thank you to all the people messaging me on here. Whether you are nice and I enjoy reading your letters, or you're an idiot being a jerk and I am amused by your notes- the letters in my inbox are appreciated.
I fortunately and rather quickly found someone on here. It's nothing serious, nor does it rule anything else out... I am just very excited because he's an AWESOME person, and perhaps exactly what I needed.
I had my very first experience of any kind over the weekend, and it was intense. I'll not discuss details out of respect for the other party involved though. I never could have really prepared myself for it, and I do believe I am hooked.
So while I still lack direction in what exactly I am looking for, but I do know for sure now that I want to pursue something in this lifestyle, so I suppose now it's just a matter of figuring that out.
Anyhow, it is getting late, and I am kind of tired. Looking forward to chatting with some of you again, and keep the messages comming- we all enjoy mail, right? I try my best to respond to everyone.
Have a great week everyone!
Kisses and Candy ~ S.G. <3 |
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| Age: 27 |
| San Diego,
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