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I am a polypansexual 33 year old Switch, sub, and pup. i have been in the lifestyle for 17 years, and i am continuing to progress. i have been trained and poorly trained by several Dominants in my past. i am very unique, hard working, considerate and a switch. i am somewhat of a masochist, and would love to coninue to explore my horizons with that. i specialize in flogging, paddling, water sports, and many other things that come to mind.



on the flip side of things, i also enjoy the submission aspect of the lifestyle. i specialize in bootlicking, massages, ass and pussy worship....along with forced bi and cock worship as well. i also enjoy some light humilaition and puppy play i love so much.

i also have done drag before, so feminizations and transitionings have been brought up as well. i am NOT into sissyfication... feminization and sissyfying someone is a bit different from each other.


Speaking of puppy play, i have a 5 year old Husky persona, that is very shy and follows the pack instead of being a leader. he likes to chew, bite, nibble, and bark....alot!!



my limits are listed in the about me section, and please just because your a Dom or Domme, dont try to use brutal force with me... because i will send you a nasty reply, but of course it will be polite in the end.








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4/18/2018 5:26:24 AM
Processing things: Well Goddess came over last night and I basically told her that I needed a few days to process through everything. I feel she is a good fit, but I also feel there is things I need to work on as well. I keep telling her I am a sub, and she insists on saying it's the same thing as a slave. NO ITS NOT!

4/15/2018 4:01:13 PM
Meet and Greet Today: 

Well today it was supposed to be a quiet day, but Goddess called me and reminded me that today was supposed to be a scene day. Well as far as that goes, I ordered Uber, and Goddess and her slave came over. However, things took a major turn again, yet today. Goddess and her slave arrived and i formally introduced Tamicca to them. They seem to get along quiet well... I feel very insulted on somethings, but mainly some of the things are just related into me being in my own head. Some people that think they know how someone reacts, is meant for another specific person, and thats where i need to know in my own mind, that i am safe and yet still guarded. What is it with me, why am i so concerened about titles, and names? Seems to me that i am missing something more that i KNOW i need.... what could it be.... collaring, session, scenes, Lack of being owned in general...? Someone please tell me what i am missing?????

Well after everything calmed down, and the scene of silence was moved into the bedroom, Goddess allowed HYde to come out with Jekyll. they played very well, but Goddess and Tamicca both have concerns about me "bleeding" out of nowhere. seems that my skin tears like paper, when i am on the floor. So anyway, of course when i am in puppy mode... i easily fall into subspace or whenever i am around Goddess, i fall into subspace as well. Goddess brought both jekyll and hyde back to reality and gave me some aftercare by scratching me lightly with her pointy nails. i am a masochist, so i was really needing pain, after 8 years. Goodess gave me strict rules to follow to be nice to Tamicca, and to cuddle with her... and we done just that. Tamicca is catching on very quickly. 

4/13/2018 6:28:37 PM
today was a mixed up kind of an emotion day for me. i really enjoy spending time with Goddess and her hubby and slave. i feel i am having a bit of difficulty being patient. i am seeming to want things like right now. mind you i havent been owned in 8 years. It got so bad today that we had a major disagreement. i have never been able to raise my voice to a Dominant in my life. Well today took the cake, i was literally upset after we had our disagreement. i have set on the phone and cried as much as i cried today. i know i am ready for this, i can taste it in my blood. I WANT TO BE OWNED BADLY, its been 8 years, i am not sure i can even focus without knowing that i am going to be owned anytime soon. Goddess is a very loving and fair Lady, but i just need to know that sometimes its okay to explain things to Her... and then other times its not okay at all... 

4/12/2018 8:40:01 PM
So today, Goddess KittySINN, had called me and asked me what i was doing today... I said i wasnt doing nothing today. So she came over and picked me up and we had a blast, today. I was a bit frustrated today and became rude... which embarrased Goddess. i am having a bit of a problem with patience. Goddess is working on this with me. So today we went to lunch, and i had to get back to my house, so i could be here for when the internet got put in. Afterwards, i tried to relax, and that didnt work, because Goddess's slave came knocking on my door. He came over to build the rest of my things for me, and then, about that time Goddess showed back up. and started having me read the Pre Negotiations of what she believes in. Now i have been saying that i would be a slave for the right Lady, and rightly i have talked to many people on here. She has stated, that i am allowed to have play partners, until the NEGOTIATIONS have been finalized. I also have reached out to Lady K, and she has been down with the weather, but she keeps stating that Goddess KittySINN and i would be a perfect match. i really frustrated that she doesnt want to make calls or connections, so Goddess got on the messenger tonight and confirmed her talk for tomorrow with Lady K.


4/9/2018 12:24:52 PM
So the other day KitttySINN and her hubby, pet and slave came over. I got to talk with him and Her as we waited for our food to arrive. We started asking questions about each other. SHE asked me one question that she literally didn't understand and made me very irritated because I felt she was down playing what I was trying to say :( -- She made it very clear to me that she had a hard time understanding and that she wasn't down playing me. After talking for sometime -- I got to meet Jekyll -- which is her subs persona in a puppy. I got to get used to Jekyll real quick. After a few moments of Jekyll coming out to sniff around and play, Hyde my puppy persona came out and started playing with Jekyll :) This is the short version of our meet because I'm on lunch at work, and I don't wanna be late going back to work :) but this Thursday and Friday will be our first time with all of us together in a scene... Mind you i haven't been in a scene for 8 years or owned either. Also Thursday is where we start with the pre negotiations to get us ready for the negotiaon process :) Goddess KitttySINN is really respectful and understanding and I really adore her and the ground she walks on :) Thank you KitttySINN, for taking a full chance on me :)

4/7/2018 9:44:29 AM
Prior permission: So I have on my profile that I am under consideration by someone. Well now I am potentially under consideration by a local woman as well. Now said Dominants have asked me "does your potential know your seeking other Mistresses". The answer to that is very simple, YES!!! they know what I do and what I'm looking for. One of them have also said that I could even search out play partners as long as there was a vetting process done first since I can't use condoms. So if you think you're gonna get me in trouble by both of them -- well your sadly mistaken. Also know that even as a sub I still have a choice to say no to you be it vetting a play partner or not...I hope that this is all clear now for you all :)

4/6/2018 9:19:53 AM
Twisting turn of events: Well Lady K and I was talking on the phone via texting and I told her that i am under the protection of someone a bit local. Well I had a wild and crazy idea and I came to both of the Dominants about it. I had asked both Lady K and Sinn if they would be interested in doing a Double poly Ownership. Mind you Lady K is in Chicago and Sinn is very local to me. So I asked Sinn if I could have permission to give out her number to Lady K and she agreed. I have met Sinn twice and we click so well together -- I am going to be meeting up with Lady K soon and I do hope that we can click as well. Now this is going to be awesome if I can be owned by two very sophisticated Dominants if they both can click so well together. Bout to clock into work, I'm definitely gonna be reaching out to them on my lunches and breaks :)

4/4/2018 7:41:21 PM
So I have been asked by several Dominants what I'm into and what BDSM means to me. Well I have been in the lifestyle for 16 years and I'm still learning from books, and research and other people's mantras. BDSM is more psychological then anything to me. It's not about the sex or if any at all, or what I can do to up another said submissive or slave, but it gives me gratitude and delight to please and know I'm pleasing someone :) I'm very dominant at work, so it just feels good to loosen up a bit and let go of everything and every care in the world.. Now what am I mostly into: well I'm not going to give you a list of what I'm into, but what I am going to say is that it's not up to me what I'm into because once I am molded into the perfect being from a Dominant, then I will be known by what they seek and want out of my use. I really hopes this helps out to those that think I'm just going to submit to them just because they say there a Dom Lol.... To be continued...

3/30/2018 11:00:58 PM
***updated journal entry coming soon... as I am moving***

3/27/2018 5:17:33 PM
So i have had a very intense and planned out conversation this past week with Lady K. It all started with me telling her about me being mind fucked, and then of course she said that it maybe me in my head. She doesnt play with my mind and isnt a big humiliator, which is a very good thing. So I went to work and was on break, i messaged Lady K, and the first thing that she asked me was how i was feeling today, since i was being very emotional the other day. i had that right though, because i was feeling so lost without her. Now last night, we talked about alot of things... Some of the things that we talked about was that i need to lose more weight, which is no problem for me anyway. We then began talking about personal things such as medical and other things. I asked her if she was a diabetic and asked her what type. She then commences to ask me if i am good at massages, and i told her that i had no complaints from anyone. She asked me more questions, and i answered them. I love how Lady K gets in my business with a different way of doing so ;) She and i are planning to meet sometime when i have vacation time, or earlier if i can help it. I am going to be going out of town to see my bestie, but as always i will be checking in with Lady K as much as possible. 

I really enjoy our conversations that we have, and i wouldnt ever ask to have anyone potentially considering me at this time. I think Lady K thinks she is a failure at times, but i dont see that at all. I cant wait to encourage, and listen and even help Lady K out in her everyday tasks, even if its just to love her and cuddle with her.

3/22/2018 9:41:00 PM
so, i have been seeking out my Dominant on here, and i have came across alot of potentials, and a few more crazies then i would care to speak of. Then i ran across a name on here the other day and began reading her profile. So what did i do, thats right i messaged her and began talking to HER. As we started talking through text and via email on here, She gave me her number, and we began talking more. She advised me to check in with her, as i told her that i would, and i have held my end up so far :-) I really like this WOMAN, OWNER, DOMINANT, and PROTECTOR very much.... thank you Lady for speaking with me :-) 

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Valarie
 
 Age: 21
 Lynn, Massachusetts