I know My heart and know it well, but I am very conscious of the fact that now that I begin the road to finding a devoted submissive it will be as much of a challenge to find one who will embrace the kind of heart that I have as it is to build the kind of trust needed for them to be able to immerse into the relationship without fear and with confidence.

Having come from a path where I had experience as a submissive myself, I do know what the vulnerability, needs, and hopes are like when wanting a D/s relationship. Even though I have come to realize I am a Dominant, I feel it is a great gift to have gone through that time as it gives Me insight and appreciation for the world of the submissive.

It is a dynamic of counterparts, one where I seek to be the right style of Dominant for the right style of submissive such that the counterparts sync together in great harmony. You cannot have one without the other, it is a dance of two individuals coming together to bring fulfillment and happiness to each other. The depth of openness, the presence of vulnerabilities, the essential nature of trust in a D/s relationship, I believe, make it possible to reach a tremendous state of being.

For the submissive, in the beauty of surrender and the giving of oneself, it can be an incredibly powerful experience that resonates to the core of one's essence. In being taken, the submissive's experience may be so profound that they are left with some possible fears or anxieties, and that's where I, as a Dominant, can put My submissive at ease with reassurance and and the conveyance of the beauty of the gift of surrender. Again, the counterparts harmonizing.

For it is in the surrender, and in the taking, that I can bring forth something new and stronger in the submissive. The dynamic of reciprocity, born out of the power exchange, will be what gives the submissive the wings to soar and the atmosphere to flourish.

I savor that time to come with all My heart.

I plan on writing a lot more about what I will be looking for in a submissive. I will be looking at it from all the areas such as protocol, contracts, and the essence of the relationship. I am giving everything a lot of thought and reflection at the moment, and I am very confident in what I am capable of as a Dominant. I simply have to find a good match for Me.

One of the things that gives Me confidence in this path is the fact that I do understand what it feels like to not be in control. I am not referring to the period of time where I thought I was a submissive type, though that time has given Me a wonderful perspective regarding the needs and wants of a submissive.

Rather, I'm referring to aspects more painful in nature. I know what it is like to feel taken for granted, and to be unappreciated, despite giving something your very best. I know what it feels like to go the extra mile to make someone happy, and then have that overlooked. I know what it is like to have trust breached, and loyalty not reciprocated.

While these involve very painful experiences on My part, I see them as tremendous assets going into My next relationship, in which I desire a devoted submissive. I truly know in My heart that I won't take My submissive for granted, that I will appreciate them on a very deep level, and that I will be grateful when they go the extra mile to make Me happy. Having suffered breach of trust and loyalty, I am poised to show My submissive the most sincere and steadfast levels of trust and loyalty.

Difficult experiences can knock you down, but they can also prepare you. The things that I have been through, as I think about them, put Me in an even better and stronger place to be a Dominant that My submissive can look to and depend upon.

I will draw off some of the worst experiences to deliver the very best in My next relationship. That I know for certain as I enter this new horizon.