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Strong, to the world I should always be in control of myself. Strength without breaking. Learn to bend or break beneath the strain.
I need to give up my control. Take my sight, bind me, peal away my walls and my control. Make me tremble and beg. Make it okay. Give me peace and Love. Hold me, let me cry, reassure me once I've shattered for shatter I will.
I will love. I will take care of. Lean on me when the world is too much, I am strong for you because you are strong for me. Let me be your hidden strength.
Understand my misbehavior, I am scared/overwhelmed/don't know how to ask for what I need. Punish me when I need it because it makes me feel safe.
Tell me what you want, I will do my best to give it to you.
I will give all I am. I will never completely lose myself.
"Nothing is weaker than water. Yet against those things which are hard and strong; nothing can surpass it nor stand in its way."
I am, at this moment, only seeking friendship until I can truly figure out who I am and what I want. Please, respect that.
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I am new to this lifestyle, yet I have found I crave the things I am learning about like a fish craves water. It is as though the missing link in my life is there before me if only I'm willing to reach out and take it. I'm scared though. I am used to being in control, have had to fight tooth and nail for the control that I have in my day to day life. I want to run or hide from these wants/needs that I'm experiencing, I'm good at running and hiding.
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| Age: 26 |
| Chico,
California |
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