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UPDATE 10/15/07

The property that I had my eye on has sold. I still want to create a home/compound. And I need to clarify a few points.

My intention was never to have the property in my name. Whoever purchases the property will retain ownership. This is not about taking financial advantage of anyone. This is about creating an opportunity to live as we feel in our hearts in a safe structured enviroment.

Additionally, since I first created this profile a dungeon space has opened up in my area that holds parties and classes (some of which I teach). So my original idea has somewhat morphed.

I still would like to house 3-4 slaves/submissives as an extended leather family, and offer extended training opportunities for a few to come and stay for a week or a month. Individuals or couples.

The bay area is horrifically expensive and any property that will have enough land to do private outside play, pony play, and have a pool for my water bondage will probably still be in the 1.5 - 2 million dollar range.

Please only contact me if you are genuinely interested.

The following is my original post from 2005:

I have recently found a property with two homes and an acre of land. I am seeking a submissive/slave who would like to purchase this property and help me turn it into a BDSM compound.

I have been active in the scene for over 20 years and envision this as a BDSM retreat that would offer classes, play parties, extended training opportunities and probably house 3-4 slaves/subs who contribute to our household through labor or financial contribution.

I have worked as a CEO and I am completely capable of running the compound.

I am NOT seeking a partner. I already have one. You will be owned and do as your told. If you have a career you will carry your service to me in your heart during the day. It should color everything you do.

This property is 1.8 Million dollars. Serious inquiries ONLY.

I only need one good match.

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6/6/2011 6:15:17 PM

Who me... a control freak?? not me ;0). 

 

I just scheduled getting sick.  A small cold.  I had a 2 week window open and figured it was a good time to expose my system to a small cold virus.  I believe it is important to be exposed to germs in general to help build your systems immunity... Within reason.  Obviously I'm not talking about the plague or SARS.

 

So I have a small cold.  Could use a slave to make chicken soup and massage me... come to think of it.  I could use a slave to do these things all the time even if I am not sick *smiles*

 

I welcome data/facts on my thinking.  Does it do a body good to have a cold now and then? Do these small exposures make your system more resiliant to colds and flu bugs?  In effect isn't that what flu shots do?  Expose you to an altered version of a particular virus to build resistance?


4/18/2011 9:34:58 AM

4/18/11 - Well my promising prospect did not pan out.  We are not a good fit and it makes me sad.

 My roomate moved out of state to be with his lover and I am on my own again.  Daunting and invigorating.

 I have house guests coming in 3 weeks and want my home and yard spic and span for their arrival.  They are dear friends that have not taken a vacation in 15 years.

 If you are interested in coming over and cleaning and doing yard work in the next 3 weeks you may contact me.  I don't care what you wear so don't ask me.  I will not be chasing you about in heels or yielding a crop.  This is an opportunity to serve ME.  That is your reward... pleasing me, seeing a smile on my face.

 Serious responses only.  I am in San Jose.

 


8/29/2010 12:01:31 PM
Went to my "Gathering".  It was a transformative experience.  Our Tribal leader turned 80 and I created a formal tea in his honor.  It was well received.

More later.

7/8/2010 9:39:02 PM
Well I am in my new home.  The addition is being worked on.

And I ended up with an excellent person to share my home. HE is a marine, electrician, chiropractor and service focused.

I am ready to resurface and seek connection. There is one promising prospect but I am open to meeting others.
 
If you are a service focused slave and sane, please say hello.

4/27/2010 7:20:55 PM
I am compelled to comment on a trend  I am noticing.

It seems many subs are seeking sexual "service" from their Domme.

"My balls are ripe", Ass ready for your strap-on", "I am very good at oral service"

I am unsure how other Domme's look at this.  All I can do is comment for me.

These sound like "Do me queens" to me.  They write about how they are offering themselves up to be used in "xx" fashion.  Really? 

They want a prostitute that will do them the way they want, and not pay for the time.  I wonder if they are truly successful in getting what they want?

Although what we engage in is highly charged with sexual energy.  This is not about sex for me. Activities may take many forms.... not just about "getting done".

I remember a conversation once with a boy about foot massages.  He commented that it is important to come from the head when performing this service.  Not come from the crotch.  HE so nailed it. 

If the service being performed is to be pleasurable for ME, than coming from the head focuses the sub's attention on taking care of me. If he is focused on getting aroused and sucking on my toes then he has lost sight of what I want.  And his energy transmits to me and I just want to go take a shower.

It seems to me that many subs think that providing me the opportunity to use them for sexual service is what "gets me off".  Wow is that off base. 

Don't get me wrong.  I love sex and raunchy fun.  But for me the D/s dynamic is filled with noble intent.  The execution of activities with this concept in mind colors everything you do. This is what fills me with joy and pride of ownership.

If you have a better way to express this I welcome your comments and observations. I am unsure if I am conveying what I want to say.

4/26/2010 10:24:18 AM
Yesterday I attended the last official event held at the local Dungeon.  They are closing their doors.

It was a wonderful event focused on helping those that are new. My friend hostesses this event and did a fantastic job. 

I was teaching rope bonadge and managed to get in a partial suspension and a full suspenion.

Afterwards a group of us went out for dinner. For me there was a true feeling of extended family. I hope that we can sustain a sense of community with the space gone.

I am considering hostessing discussion groups and classes at my new home.  I had heard that the local LGBT center is willing to host classes.  And a local hotel might be available as well. I don't want to step on people's toes so I am going to wait a few weeks to see how things settle than decide if there is a need.


4/20/2010 12:14:36 PM
I welcome those who are transgendered.

I do not enjoy crossdressers.  There is a huge difference.

4/15/2010 3:05:56 AM
happy birthday grandma.

She is celebrating her 100th birthday tomorrow.  I am in LA doing the family thing.

My family knows what I am into.  They don't "understand" it but they respect me as a person and trust my judgement. Kind of interesting because it was definately modeled in my surroundings.

Upon reflection I see that Grandma was definately the Domme and Grandpa was very submissive.  She would dress him in pink pastel shirts, and speak to him in a very humiliating tone. He carried her purse, washed dishes, and often slept in the back bedroom while she had her poodle in bed with her (just sleeping, get your mind out of the gutter *smiles*).

I remember when I was much younger, one time she talked to him in such a way that I called her on it and told her "Don't talk to him that way"  She got a very sheepish grin on her face.  Impish really.  I understand now that I just saw a glimpse of how they "worked" as a couple.  They were both fine with it.

Grandpa passed away 7 years ago at the age of 93.  Just shy of their 75th Wedding Anniversary.

Interesting to have found each other and arrived at a D/s dynamic before the age of computers, negotiation, and RACK.

may you find what you are looking for.....

2/4/2010 3:24:44 PM
The new house is coming along well.  Expensive but well. I have not moved in yet but I am getting close.

Mean time the dog (a sweet pitbull) needed surgery to remove a cancerous tumor.  Estimate was $600 - 1,000.  While she was under in surgery, they biopsyed two other cysts and they were cancerous as well. So that total was about $2,000.  Poor girl looks like Franken Dog.

So I am house bound (at the old house) watching after her.  Making sure she doesn't get too active or fall over from the drugs. I am also sleeping on an air mattress on the floor next to her to comfort her.  Today she is a bit more coherent and I took a much needed shower, made some coffee, and sat down to pet her and watch TV.  I turned on the TV and...the TV is shot.  Just plain won't come on. About 5-7 years old, no warranty.

So not only am I going stir crazy... that's another $2K to replace. Plus the TV I want for the new house is about $4K.

And 2 of my 3 cars are in the shop to the tune of another $2K.

I am not complaining.  I am damn lucky to have the means and time to take care of these things. I know that.  Just going stir crazy today... I forget... did I mention that already ;0)

12/17/2009 9:07:22 PM



I love my tribe
Check this out
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=15r36xZ2ceQ 

Fakir coined the term modern primitive.  And brought the term kaseeka into the community from his background.

These are my homies and I am blessed and proud


12/9/2009 11:43:43 AM

Several boys have asked if I am the one naked and bound in the picture.  REally??  No!  I am the Dominant who orchestrated the scene.


11/17/2009 10:18:14 AM

This week I met two different boys that claimed they wanted to be of service.  They both said they would check their schedules and maybe come help on my project the next day.  Both did not follow through with so much as a phone call ot note to say they could not make it.

What happened to good old fashioned common courtesy.

I am dissapointed. Not surprised, but dissapointed.


10/20/2009 2:49:37 AM

Here is where I am coming from...

By having submissives do some of the work instead of all paid contractors it imbues the home with their energy. We are laying an energy foundation to build on.  I want to create a space that is calming and coaxes out a persons inner-self, where people feel relaxed and safe to be their truest self.

It also affords a sub/slave an opportunity to be a part of creating the space and an opportunity for service.

Obviously recruiting subs also helps in being more cost effective and will allow me to do more with the money I do have.

I own 3 homes and I need to make sure that I can cover expenses and emergencies for all three.


10/17/2009 11:27:39 PM
Out of all the people who have viewed my profile no one has stepped up to offer any help with my new home.

In the last 10 days I have met with 14 contractors (roofers, termite, floor refinishers, air conditioning, and painters).  Hired a gardener to clean up the yard and price out removal of trees so I can build out the kitchen.

I have crawled the attic with a termite inspector and looked for roof leaks after our heavy rain.

Tonight I am home wading through a sea of paperwork figuring out where I want to spend the money I have allocated for this home.

I am amazed that not even one self proclaimed sub or slave even offered to help.  I wonder if there is a sight specifically for Dommes who seek service subs.


10/7/2009 1:27:28 AM

Awesome.  They posted my underwater bondage photo.  DO NOT TRY THIS.  I am uniquiely qualified.  SCUBA instructor, Lifeguard, teach bondage, 1st responder.
I also have several support staff you can't see in the shot. AN several hundred #'s of gear

WOOF!


10/7/2009 1:21:37 AM
Finally!!! I closed on the house today.  I have to tell you... Because I LOVE a good deal.

It is a 3 bed. 1 bath. Single family home in San Jose.

I have been trying to purchase this home or one just like for a year (see earlier post).  The other home I tried to buy last year sold for $280K. The two homes are literally down the street from each other. The one I got was listed in April and I offered their asking price immediately. $250K.  I heard nothing until August and then it was hurry up and close... you have 3 weeks.

Well I was ready.  The banks dragged their feet.  And finally got back to me with a counter offer.  They now wanted $220K.  that's right, not a mistake, not a typo.  So I agreed to their new terms.  As it turned out I had to pay an additional $3K to release the lien from the lenders who own the 2nd for the old owners.  So I was done at $223K.

The house is small but it is a corner lot 7K sq.'  Lots of potential and an unincorporated area so I don't have to jump through city regs to build out if I choose.

I know the majority of the country is suffering on home prices, but the bay area is still very highly priced. Trying to buy a single family home is usally a min. of 350K on foreclosure.  And that's in a sketchy neighborhood. You will need to pay over $500K to buy anything decent in a decent neighborhood.

Seperately I had my eye on a piece of land in the Central Coast area but decided not to buy that. so I am still on the look out for one more great deal before prices start to go up again.

MEanwhile this home needs lots of work.  if you are interested in helping me create a private Oasis and live near San Jose I would welcome some HARD working boys, bois, girls, pets ;)

8/4/2009 12:23:28 AM
Home from Gathering.  What an amazing journey.  It was the best Gathering for me to date.  Did some work in the pool.  Connected with dear friends; made deeper connections.

Had one evening of energy exchange and shamanistic sex.  WOW!!!

I feel relaxed, whole, connected... at peace.

I put on a port and chocolate social.  It was well received.

I am amused that my Tribe elder, who is personally responsible for training probably about 80% or more of the piercers world wide, finds what I do scary *smile*  This is a man who does lateral suspension by flesh hooks... and he finds me scary.  It brings a smile to my face to think about it.

Before the tribe did our ritual day the Elder was addressing the group asked who was doing the ties.  I said I was.  He looked straight at me and asked (in front of everyone) "What kind of tie are you planning on using?"....  Well I felt everyones's eyes on me....  "A double half hitch" I replied.... "Oh that's what I would use"  Whew!

I have done the ties before and I consider it a great honor to do it.  It is crucial that the ties hold as some almost rest their entire body weight on the tie that goes through their hooks.

I also participated in a Native American sweat lodge ceremony.

One member who actually drowned as a child and is terrified of the water trusted me and put the regulator in his mouth and put his head under water. I was honored at his confidence and trust.  He also allowed me to give him a bit of an experience the next day and wholly surrendered and trusted.

I am blessed.  Life is good. 

I am beginning to search in ernest for a slave.  Not a sex toy, not a do me queen... but someone who has heart of service.  Preferably has a job and no mental illness.

7/26/2009 1:42:00 PM
I leave Monday morning for Gathering.  An extended family of friends that gather to play in the sun, and dungeon for 10 days every summer.  We take over a venue and connect. 
This group is significantly comprised of people who are national and international leaders in the BDSM community.  We get to let down our hair(so to speak) and experiment in a safe and loving environment.  I will probably be doing more of my SCUBA bondage YAY!  ooh  ooh I think I'll bring the medical staple gun too. *Doing happy snoopy dance*

Curious... I think I am the only member of the tribe that is not tattooed or pierced. Really... I don't even have pierced ears.

6/1/2009 1:11:31 AM
Update.

Yesterday I went to see the Artistic Luxury exhibit in San Francisco.  It was lovely.  I was completely surprised by the Museum.  I will have to go back again sometime... when my distaste for San Francisco subsides a bit.

You see someone broke into my car last night by smashing the window and they stole my GPS.

They did not take my paramedic jump kit, nor touch the $30 in See's candy (thank goddess). The GPS was mounted on the dash and visible, the other items were hidden by the tinted windows and under the plastic board that creates a barrier so items are not in view.

Last night I was the coordinator and MC of the Pets on Parade portion of the Dog and Pony event in San Francisco. 

So while I was inside the venue, someone was outside deciding that they were entitled to disrupt my life, increase my insurance rates, and further cement my distaste for San Francisco. 

Tomorrow I am suppose to go look at homes in Discovery Bay with a realtor. Now I have to rearrange my schedule because some junkie decided he/she needed a fix.  I have absolutely no patience for people who do not accept personal accountability.

And on top of that the police would not come to take a report.  The dispatcher told me to drive to the station and proceeded to tell me the cross streets where they are located.  I told her I don't know where the streets are and since they stole my GPS... how am I going to find the police station.  She basically told me she had helped me as much as she could.  No they would not dispatch a police car.  And she was going to hang up the phone because she had other calls.

I felt like I had been violated twice!
 
Did I mention how much I loathe that city.  My hats off to those of you who live there.  You are a much heartier breed than me.

Changing subjects...

1.  Thank you to those who took the time and responded with their thoughts about my last post. 

2.  My search for a home has lead me to a new direction.  I am trying to buy a home in San Jose that I will probably use as a rental.  And I think I am going to purchase another home near the water somewhere. I will live in that one. 

I recently started looking at a place called Discovery Bay.  Quaint name, and perhaps misleading.

If you know anything first hand about that community (Discovery Bay) please write to me with the info.

I thought the community was filled with upper class white collar types.  But I keep encountering beer chugging, ski boating types. The house I looked at had a cannibus growing operation in the attic which caused water damage to the ceiling.  One neighbor had their car spray painted.  And another had their car radio stolen when parked in their driveway.

If you know of a beach community along the CA coast that has reasonable home prices please let me know. I am thinking of trying to find a home in a small coastal town somewhere.

My class series SMU has had a small but faithful following.  The students tell me that they have been impacted by attending.  One said she realized she needed to see a therapist, another said she realized  she needs to own all of who she is and stop trying to please other people at her own personal expense.  One Dom said he learned to ask for what he wanted and he did so, and was met with a positive response.

I will be attending Desire in Palm Springs in a couple of weeks.  Probably doing some of my SCUBA bondage stuff while there. I was told that the resort I am staying at has a salt water pool. Looking forward to the Sun and sex!!!

That's all for now.

5/11/2009 1:09:42 AM
Interesting... I had a male contact me.  After he initiated contact he requested another photo.  Mind you he has no photo on his profile and ignored my request to see one of him. 

He is of an opinion that if a Domme has no full body shot it must mean she is ashamed of her body.

I very deliberately did not display myself here. Nor pick a sexy fetish shot.  I don't want endless emails from those who would waste my time.

Do I need to rethink my strategy?

3/7/2009 10:57:07 PM
Well let see...

I will be teaching rope bondage class at IMsL in two weeks.  The play I am in opens the same night.  Sheesh when it rains it pours.

GREAT NEWS!!! I will be teaching SMU course at Edges in Santa Clara CA.  Starting in April.

SMU is a series of 10 classes designed to gives beginners an excellent foundation to build on. There will be homework assignments, vocabulary building, quizes, and practical experimentation with local experts.  if you are interested contact me for further information.

1/20/2009 11:26:03 AM
So to post more on a thread....  I was contacted by someone who is married but obviously does not want his wife to know what he is up to.  Here is what I wrote to him.

"...but you are not honest to your wife.  There is a line to walk about too much information that makes her uncomfortable and withholding information that leaves her totally in the dark. 

You may have convinced yourself that you are not telling her because you are trying to spare her feelings.  What you are doing is manipulating her by taking away her ability to make an informed choice if she is okay with it or not.

because then you may have to end the relationship... which is a very scary thing."

My point is this.  If you are married or have a SO they need to have knowledge of your/our actions.  Otherwise I am not interested in you.  I refuse to live in the dark.  I only live in the light. 

Your partner may not be interested or able to engage in this lifestyle.  That is understandable and does happen.  But I will insist on access to your SO or partner to confirm that they have knowledge.

If this does not work for you we have nothing to discuss.

1/18/2009 8:56:04 PM

I will be teaching a rope workshop at IMsL in March.

And one more thing... I am significantly about honor and integrity.  If you are not being honorable in your actions don't waste my time or yours.


1/14/2009 7:02:40 PM
Update.  I finally heard back from the bank.  They countered my offer.  Their price is good.  I will buy this home but now we need to haggle on the price.

I pushed and finally got a response. In this instance my inability to just wait for things to happen served me well. I tracked down who owns the paper on the home which was no little feat.. especially these days. Banks keep selling mortages to other institutions and some of those have gone under and there is no one to contact. I can't get the contact information on the home owner that is current.  I tracted it through title company's and more.

I finally tracted down the company that owns the paper on the house.  I was met with resistance.  But apparently my energy paid off. I bent the ear of someone who could move my deal forward. An hour later the sellers agent called my agent with a counter offer.

I put my offer in less than 30 days ago.  Some times a short sale will sit for up to 8 months being lost in the quagmire of banks overwhelmed with default loans.

Why am I posting this?  Because I am extremely happy.  And if you are smart enough to read between the lines it tells you volumes about what type of Domme I am *smiles demurely*

Someone wrote to me and asked. "What are you a Domme or a real estate agent" Silly boy.  HE just isn't smart enough to 'get it'

I am doing the Snoopy dance.  Yes Dommes can be silly and joyous too!

1/5/2009 1:19:06 AM
Still waiting to find out about the home, which is currently empty and bank owned.  I stopped by to check it out and it has been further vandalized.  I hope the bank gets back to me soon before it gets burned to the ground.

I started rehearsals today for Camelot.  Performances will be Mid to late March at a lovely theatre in downtown San Jose.

Saw family and friends over the holidays.

Started searching again here on CM. 

I am going to put together an outing to an exhibit in San Francisco for some time in late January.  The exhibit "Artistic Luxury" features Faberge' eggs, Tiffany,  and Lalique (My personal favorite). If you are interested in joining me for this outing please contact me here.


12/18/2008 9:40:04 PM
Update -  I have changed direction.  I saw a cute home on an 8K sq' lot.  I put a bid in on that.  It is a short sale.  House was sold in '07 for 650K. Which I find astounding considering how small it is.

My bid... Are you ready... 200K.  I think I may get the home.  The owner said yes to my terms.  Now we have to see if the bank will sign off on it.

Both owner and agent for the seller live far away and the home is standing unoccupied and forgotten.  They have had no offers and the bank will hopefully want to unload it.

If I decide not to live there in the long run it will make an excellent rental.

Not enough room for slaves to live with me, but an excellent private space for parties and tea parties.  Good street parking YAY!

We will see what happens next.  It is exactly the type of deal I was hoping to find.  If not this one, than perhaps the next.

Stay tuned

12/8/2008 10:05:37 PM
Freaking Out!!!

Okay, so we bid on a home.  It turns out there were 21 other offers in addition to ours.... They awarded it to us.  Supposedly other people offered more but we look great on paper.

I love this home.  4 bed, 3 full baths.  Wood burning fireplace, blonde hard wood floors, granite counters in the kitchen.  And a covered patio area that is 40' x 15' (wired for electricity... playspace potential).

So why am I so nervous?? We bid higher than we really wanted to go.  We totally can afford it and I have numerous back up plans financially.  Our price is about 60K less than appraisal.  So why am I so nervous??  Any constructive feedback I would welcome.

I think we are going to go for it!!!  I will definately be hosting many dinners and parties.  I am very excited.

12/4/2008 2:22:08 AM
It has been a while since I posted, so here is an update.

I have positioned myself to be ready for the home purchasing market to do exactly what it is doing right now.

The time is right and I am shopping for a home.  I currently have two offers out there and hope to get one or the other. 

A third home I had bid on was listed at 318K.  I bid 370K.  I found out later that one person  bid over 545K and he did not get the property.  (The same house sold 3 years ago for 830K.) It fell out of escrow twice. Once 9 months ago for 600K, and again 2 months ago for 530K. It is a large home on a postage stamp lot.  I really want a bigger lot and more privacy.

The bank owned properties are getting snatched up quickly where I live. 

One house I currently have a bid out on had 15 offers.  I am one of five offers still in the running. My bid is more than 100K over their asking price. And it has no furnace.  And the Master bath has no vanity nor sinks.  And there are no appliances in the kitchen.

Most of the bank owned homes available are in bad neighborhoods.  But I did find a couple of gems at a good price. 

Keep your fingers crossed. Either of these homes will allow me entertain the ladies for tea.  One has a converted garage that would make an excellent play room with full bath and small kitchenette. Neither home has the accomodation for a stable.

As an aside...I did see a split level home that had been modified.  Seven bedrooms and three full baths and three kitchens.  I figured I could live upstairs and the slaves could live in the lower level.

Or turn it into a pro Dungeon with each room having a different theme.  But I decided I want a home to live in that is more of a show place so I can entertain.

BTW, for those who read my profile and think I am attempting to dupe someone out of their hard earned cash... this will be my third home.  All purchased by me, and me alone.  I am becoming a regular land baron ;)

I hope to close the deal before the year end and get the tax break.

The house hunting has been exhausting.  At this point my offers are in and now we begin the haggling.  I hate that part!!! 

7/12/2008 10:50:57 AM
Sedusa's Garden last night was excellent.  The energy was great.

The tea service was lovely.  I had fewer servers available but we pulled it together.  It was awesome.  After the clean up was finished I was given a foot rub and I engaged in nice conversation with some ladies and one particular boy that intrigues me...

6/29/2008 4:04:28 AM
Bummer!  I have been corresponding with a young man here on CM.  We have had really pleasant exchanges.  I even found myself eager to see what he had written back.

I never do on line stuff, but one day I was inspired to give him an assignment.  From what he tells me he carried it out to the letter. His experiences to date had been rather limited.  It was nothing over the top... simple, minor pain involved.  I think it scared him.

He tells me he is usually alpha, this was a new experience, new territory. I tried to do follow up with him to process but he beat a hasty retreat.  I have two thoughts.

1.  I must really be scary to have this significant of a response through email only and across continents. ;0)

2.  And this I told him.... This is why many Domme's don't like to play with people who have never played much, if at all. We invest time and emotion to cultivate a repoire, to lay the ground work if you will... and then after a powerful connection/experience some people will tuck tail and run.

I don't fault them.  They are just beginning their exploration and it leaves them feeling very exposed and vulnerable.  Experience has taught me that they will do this preverbial dip the toe in the water routine and run away.  They will do this a few times until they realize that the goal is to cause no harm.  Eventually they learn to become comfortable in their own skin.  Then they relax, drop their shoulders and become eager greedy little pigs.

The first experiences can be incredibly powerful.  And usually, for better or worse, it will create a lasting bond between Domme and sub.  For the bottom I rather think it's like falling in love for the first time. Many times it is one of the most powerful and memorable experiences in their SM journey.

Just my two cents worth.

BTW, the bondage class in San Francisco was very well recieved.

And in two weeks I will be running the tea service at Sedusa's Garden at the Citadel in San Francisco. An evening of Fem Domme energy. The theme this time is County Fair and I think I will have the servers dress up like barn animals.

6/10/2008 4:44:10 PM
Just returned from a weekend retreat with all leather women.  Had a fabulous time.  Learned something new... and I'm hooked... stapling.  At lunch I walked around to the tables saying, "I am looking for a bottom for a 2:00 workshop on stapling." And a lovely woman who is a needle slut volunteered.  It was her first time getting stapled.  We worked really well together, our energy was in sync.  I started on her back moved up to her neck area.  Did the backs of her arms, her pu**y, and also did one on her big toe... The person who was teaching me thought the staple in the toe was just plain mean *evil grin*.

I had a different woman in service to me for Sunday while I prepared to do an Underwater Bondage SCUBA Demo Workshop. It was her first true service experience and she was delightful.  She was wearing a soft pink collar that was a beautiful contrast to her black skin tone.  It just so happened that I had pink rope and fashioned her in a chest harness creating a rose in the back with the extra length. She was wearing purple jewel toned panties and had a scarf to match that she used to tie her long corn rows ontop of her head.  The final touch, I wrapped a pink feather boa around her shoulders.  There were many admirers of her outfit and she got lots of attention and she loved it.  She served me well.  When she was dismissed from service she was tired and elated. It was an excellent first experience for her.

I invited one of the students from my SMU series last year to go with me.  We really enjoyed the time in the car visiting, got along well sharing the same room and the same bed.

On the way home we stopped and had dinner with my father.  I told him about the Sunday girl in service to me.  And he knows about my water SCUBA Bondage stuff so I mentioned that I did a demonstration.

I left out the part about about randomly finger B**ging someone in the pool.  The stapling, and the gang bang with six really hot sexy women.

*She sighs, leans back in her chair as her attention wanders back to the events of the past weekend* "good times, good times" ;o)

Switching Gears - I teach an intermediate bondage class next week in San Francisco for Exiles (A women's group).  The last class I taught for them had 90 women that attended. I love teaching to a large group...but that's a lot of rope to carry.  I provide rope for the class to practice with. For this class I will need a 30' and 50' for each couple to work with.

I just returned the rented SCUBA tanks, the car, and another return errand to Fry's.  I could so use a good foot rub right now. And maybe a nap.

5/21/2008 3:13:09 PM
Venting - I am not seeking to rescue you from yourself or your life.  I seek a whole person who understands that this is where you are meant to be in life.

I met someone on here who seemed to be a good prospect.  As it turns out they wanted to be rescued from digging themselves into a hole.  They also mentioned after a couple of meetings that they were somewhat suicidal. I no longer have any contact with him.

I want to inspire you and lift you up to attain higher levels of satisfaction.  To inspire each other to live up to our full potential. Trying to carry you on my shoulders forever is ... well frankly...my chiropractor is just not that good.

Additionally to vent more.... my former clydesdale has a new girlfriend who perceives me as a threat.  She has insulted me repeatedly on her LJ.  We have never met.

What happened to loyalty?  I took this man and helped him along. I helped him gain personal strength to leave a bad relationship.  I improved his interpersonal communication skills, I got him to go to the gym consistantly and loose weight (both his stated goals), I got him to draw again after 8 years of nothing (again his stated goal), I allowed him to move in rent free while he got on his feet, helped him to find a new place so he could live alone for the first time in his life (age 40). Helped him with the buyout of his condo in dealing with his ex to ensure he didn't get screwed out of money. Helped coordinate the move. 

When we became sexually involved I felt he needed to see a therapist in case I lost objectivity as to his best interest. I found a low cost center for him to see a therapist. The director of the facility took him on personally.  I paid and/or supplimented the cost for his sessions.

And now according to what she posted... I am a manipulative psycho Domme. And apparently he doesn't seem to remember facts nor care. No loyalty at all.

I am a big bad scary Domme who intimidates people.  I am used to all sorts of reactions from the new partners of people I have been involved with. I usually just ignore it.  She is speaking out of fear and insecurity.  However his response... or lack thereof has made me sad, very sad.

There is no more precious gift I can give than that of my mind, heart, time, and dedication.  It is unfaltering.

Isn't there someone out there who is worthy of me?


3/6/2008 8:45:44 PM

There is a band that just blows me away.  You have to see and hear them live to appreciate them.  They are coming to CA later this month. Really worth seeing. They will be in San Diego, San Francisco, Hollywood, Claremont, and Ben Lomond. Asylum Street Spankers.  Go to you tube and view their "Stick Magnetic Ribbons on Your SUV"

On another note, I missed teaching last week.  Became really sick, ended up in ER after 3 days of only ingesting ice chips (it was the only thing I could keep down). But I am on the mend.


2/20/2008 10:48:31 PM
I am gearing up to teach an advanced pony play class next week at The Citadel in San Francisco.  My friend asked me to present with her.  I am very excited.

I think we will be breaking new ground in what we will cover.  Many come to pony play from purely equine interests.  Somewhat anthropomorhic. They would never imagine having sex or beating their pony.   We will be touching on incorporating resistance play, sex, and S&M.  YUM!!!

12/24/2007 3:01:38 PM
For the New Year...

I am seeking the help of all submissives/slaves, Dom/Domme's, and anyone else who does not fall into these catagories... that may read this.

I had an amazing dog that I had to put down about 18 months ago.  I think I am ready to begin a search for a new dog.  I'm talking bio dog, in case anyone needs clarification.

Anyway, I had a red nosed albino pitbull, Taffy.  She was amazing. I could leave steak on a coffee table and she would not touch it.

I want to begin a serach for another red nosed albino pitbill.  Probably a female.  I am well versed in the requirements for such a special dog and I have the doggy dermatolagist bills to prove it.  She had to wear T-shirts and sunscreen just to go outside.  I built shade structures in the backyards of both my homes because she could not be in the sun at all.  Try explaining to a dog that she can't lay in the sun... doesn't work. She was not deaf but I would consider a deaf albino.  I used to work with the deaf community and I am good with sign lanuage as a form of required communication.

I will need to meet the dog to decide if the personality is a good match for me.  I am willing to travel.

Perhaps she has not been born yet.

If you are interested in helping me please begin looking on line, keep your eyes and ears open, tell your vet to keep their eyes and ears open.  Surely there is a girl out there who needs to be spoiled rotten and loved.

I took my girl on a trip with me around the US.  I have pictures of her at Mount Rushmore, Pike's Peak, Niagra Falls, Key West, Sedona, etc.

Most of my slaves and friends say they want to come back as one of my dogs. Before I had to put her down I spent 12K on surgery trying to save her life, but after the surgery and biopsy it turned out she had hermangio sarcoma cancer (in the blood) there is nothing they can do.  It was her time.  God I miss her so.

So there it is, if you are inclined to help that would be great.

12/10/2007 7:53:44 PM
Tonight my pilates class was part of a demo for the college where I take the class.  Most of the demo's were from dance classes.

As I watched I remembered how much joy I used to have performing and dancing.... 25 years ago  I was a professional actress and dancer.... I miss that joy in my life.  I am going to pursue it.  Anyone out there that's local to San Jose, who also wants to have fun with this and experience the joy of dancing together?  You need to have some experience and be able to hold your own on the dance floor.

I did a lot of live theatre so I have a background in Tap, jazz, swing, clogging, and more.... Again step, kick, kick, leap, kick, lunge...

I'm not looking for a perfect dancer I'm looking for someone to find the joy with.... And Fosse, Fosse, hands!

11/25/2007 3:26:40 PM
11/25

I just came up with an idea for a new class.  I am very excited about it.  A class that will focus on providing seamless service and being present.  This class will be aimed at men and women in their 30's and up.  Incorporating mind, body and spirit. I will pitch the idea to the owner of Edges.  And plan to teach it there.  Edges is located in Santa Clara, CA.

I had a great time teaching last week in San Francisco.  There were almost 100 women who attended my class.  As with anything in life sometimes we are good at what we do, at other times we fake it, and sometimes we are spot on.. in a zone.. and excel.  That night I was excellent!  It was fabulous. Teaching really nourishes me and it showed.

I had 4 women who traveled with me for the program.  We were a great team.  After the event we came back to my home for a slumber party.  One women who was going on about how excited she was to share the time with us, and how this was going to be so much more fun than a "lesbian" slumber party.  Well when we got back to my house, she snuggled up on a piece of furniture in my library and she was out cold for the rest of the night.  But it was what she needed and she awoke feeling very relaxed and recharged.  The rest of us stayed up all night until 6:00 a.m. and went to bed as the sun was coming up.

I will be teaching my SMU series for beginners at Edges starting in January.  It is a series of 10 classes that covers basics and touches on many aspects of BDSM.  There is vocabulary assignments, quizzes, practical workshop time, a field trip to a local leather shop that opens only for us on a day that they are normally closed, reading assignments, and we end the series by touching a little on spirituality in your practice.

This time round the classes will be held on Saturdays, late afternoon.  That way students can go to dinner after the class, and if they choose... be around for a play party at the space after dinner.

I have been asked to help my dear friend teach a class on advanced pony play in February at The Citadel in San Francisco.  I am looking forward to that.  Interesting.... I ended the relationship with my Clydesdale and I miss him dearly.  We shared some beautiful intimate moments together.  I miss the way he would crowd me and nuzzle me and almost knock me over. He is very big and strong.

We recently took a motocycle ride to a ranch where they raise Gypsy horses.  We stood side by side at the edge of a ring watching the owner work an all black beautiful stallion.  He had thick fetlocks and a short thick back.

The women said to me, "I can tell you have a love of horses.  Have you ever owned one?"

I replied, "yes, briefly". (My clydesale is very private about all of this).  He did not flinch nor cast a glance my way.

"What type?" she inquired.

"A clydesdale", I responded as I turned to look at him.  Nothing.  Not so much as a sideways glance.

I really miss him as a Clydesdale.  But the time was right to move on.  More so for him really than me.  He would never have left me on his own.

I think it is the owners/Domme's responsibility to cut a bottom loose if it is in the bottom's best interest.  He wants a relationship with a significant other.  We will never be that to each other.  I guided him on his path, got him to stand on his own two feet, and it was time for my fledgling to leave the nest.

.... Did I mention how much I miss him???

10/11/2007 7:03:39 PM
10/11
Well I have almost finished washing the playa dust off of everything from Burning Man.  I had a couple of extrordinary experiences out there.  I work with Emergency services out on the playa as well as running Arachne's Web. Let's just say I was kept busy.  I had an amazing experience with my clydesdale.  Got to flog a friend that can take anything I throw at him.  The people of Arachne's Web worked really well together, it was a good crew.  Now I will catch my breath and schedule a follow up decompression meeting to see if we will have a camp again next year.

I am teaching in San Fancisco next month and I am going to line up my beginner series to start again after the first of the year at Edges.  I usually teach in SO CA in October, but the event has been cancelled.

My life is filled with wonderful experiences, yet I feel that I am missing a crucial element. To share that intimate connection that only exists between Mistress/Master and slave.  I am whole as a person, yet I feel like I own more of who I am when I have that connection with someone who is collared to me.

I had hoped that this upcoming holiday season would be in a new home with my extended leather  family gathered around me.  Perhaps next year.

8/23/2007 11:13:34 PM
8/22/07
I am finishing my prep for Burning Man.  It is a lot of work.  I have a theme camp there.  If any of you are going you can find me at Arachne's Web.  Classes, play parties, pony cart races, and a munch.  We are listed in the Who,What, When, Where Guide.

Had someone lined up to go and be my slave for the time I am out there... A trial run.  He disappeared.  What a disappointment.  I work so hard to ensure that others are taken care of out there and I was really looking forward to having someone there who's main responsibility would be to take care of me.

Anyway I am really excited about the group of people that make up our camp this year.

See ya out there.

7/30/2007 12:08:20 AM
7/29/07
Well I had a fantastic evening the other night.  And I just had to brag... I mean write about it.  Sometimes I am amazed at how my life brings opportunities my way. 

First the lead into my story...  I saw a music video on utube and became infatuated with the lead singer.  I thought... I want to meet him, spend time with him.  Then as it turned out they were coming to San Francisco for a gig.  I sent an email saying hello I'm a local Domme, would you be interested in a personal tour of a local dungeon?  Please bring your wife.  He never responded. But I am tenacious.  As it turned out I ended up sitting in the front row at the concert and when it was over I approached him and said, "did you ever get my email?"  He asked what email?  When I told him what my email said he replied he never got it (spam filter) and Yeah he would be interested.  We exchanged info.  I saw them perform 2 more times that week.  I was invited to party with them back at their hotel and began titilating other members of the band with information and stories.  So now the whole crew was interested.

As it turned out the next night (their one night off) there was a "BDSM tasting" at a local Dungeon space. What that means is that they had several stations set up and you could try something to see how it felt.  No big scene, just a taste.

And the whole band including the sound engineer joined me. The person at the door asked if I brought a baseball team? I replied, "Not a baseball team, a band." 

Each one of them tried something out. Only the lead singer had tried anything before. I was so proud of them for trusting me that they were not in harms way. One guy was suspended completely upside down, another tried needles, another flogging, two tried fire play, one tried electrical play, a couple tried spanking, caning, and I don't remember what else.

When we finished there we went back to my house and partied hard.  I showed them some rope ties, one guy who had been in the navy loved that and can't wait to try it out on his girlfriend.

I made homemade chocolate chip cookies and showed them a video of an underwater bondage scene I did.

I did needles on one guys cock and balls.  They voted him the baddest MF in the band.

I flogged another, one guy got caned.  A good time was had by all.  As they were leaving at 3:30 in the morning the lead singer leaned out the window of the van and shouted, "we love you". 

Well guys I love you too.  What an awesome evening.  I think it may show up as a song on their next album, lol ;0)

Oh yeah, In June I taught at a women's event in Palm Springs and did an underwater boot worship scene.  That was amazing. Perhaps I will write about that another time.

Just got back from 10 days at farie camp. Including the Okeepa ceremony. 

Right now I am gearing up for Burning Man.  I have a BDSM theme camp there.  Only 4 weeks to get everything in place.  I have a potential slave that I met here on CM coming to Burning Man as a trial run.  I take care of the camp and his job will be to take care of me.  Stay tuned.  He may be the one good match I am seeking.

Busy, busy, busy!


2/27/2007 10:59:48 PM
2/28/07 NEED DOGS FOR URBAN IDITAROD   The race has been postponed.  I am surprised that no one from this site was interested in being harnessed to a cart with other dogs and whipped as they pull me through the streets of San Francisco.  What's the matter boys... Too much work?  Too humiliating in public?   I want to run a sled with dogs.  I have 2 dogs already.  You must be in excellent condition.  The course is 4 miles up and down the streets of San Francisco.  There are frequent watering stops at Pubs.  I have an awesome cart that was designed by a clydesdale I work with.  Serious inquires only. You must be in good health, live nearby, and be willing to meet up with me for coffee first. The race will be rescheduled for late March or early April. 

I want this!

Woof!

2/11/2007 6:51:53 PM
2/17/07  Teaching.  This week I began my SMU series of classes at Edges. All who attended decided to sign up for the entire series.  
 
I also taught 2 classes to TGIF this weekend.  The first class was about your SM Identity (becoming fully dimensional).  The second was a basic bondage class.  Both classes were well received.  I was complimented about being an excellent instructor.  I really value the compliment.

One final note.  In the be careful what you ask for, you just might get it catagory...  There is a man that I have been working with over the last year.  I've had my fantasies about him living with me, my partner, on this compound I want to create.  Well a few weeks ago he moved in for a short stay.

My partner feels cared for when I make his lunch to take to work.  So I try to do it daily.  Prior to this new boy moving in I had fantasized that I would be making lunch for both of them... caring for them.    After the boys are in bed each night I would stay up and read, watch TV, whatever.  I make their lunches before I retire to one bedroom or the other.

So the other night I was standing there making their sandwiches and came to the realization there was nothing erotic or fantasy producing about making lunches.

I was amused.

1/27/2007 8:42:03 PM
1/27/07  Anyone can meet me!  I will be teaching a series of classes in San Jose, CA.  If you want to meet me in person than attend.  SMU classes will be held at Edges. Contact edges.biz for further info.  We start in February and go through May.  This series of classes is designed for the beginner.
  There will be lecture, quizzes, vocabulary building, and reading assignments.

12/8/2006 2:35:46 AM
Well I'm back.  Since my last forray onto CM I've had two relationships that have not met my needs.  But they taught me lessons.

I was very discouraged by the caliber, or should I say lack there of, in those responding to my previous exploration onto CM.  I'm hoping this time will be different.

To the point...  I am seeking someone to be in service to me real time only. If service sings to your heart and resonates in your soul than I encourage you to read on.

I don't want to know what you want, be it foot worship, severe punishment, forced feminization (BTW totally not my thing), etc.

If you have a desire to please me, whatever form that takes; if you understand that what you want is of little or no consequence; if you understand that you were brought into this world to serve me, and through that purpose, find contentment.

If the first question that comes to your mind is NOT what does she look like, what type of boots does she have, or how much will I have to give in order to get my agenda items satiated.  Then perhaps we can talk.

I am only seeking real time.  If you wish to respond to me let's start out on the right foot.  Please use proper english grammer and spell check.  Anything less will be construed as disrespectful.  If you can't be bothered to send me a well crafted note than you certainly don't have the time or inclination to serve me the way I expect to be served.

If you pay attention to detail know that very little escapes me and your efforts will be appreciated, that should be reward enough.

Let's see what the winds and Gods bring me, shall we.

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