I know that there is a lot to read, I hope you take the time to read my porfile, as it is one boi trying to be as honest as he can be, and I have and still am thinking a lot about my place within the BDSM lifestyle and want as much as me out there before you contact me, so I'm not watseing your time. I am hopeing to meet like minded people to share good conversions with about the lifestyle, and other interests we may share. So a little about me.... well I am a shy person but pertty layed back. I am quite an honest person not scared to speak my mind when the need arises, as I believe that there can't be a true relationship between two people if there isn't honesty between them whever thats be friendship or something more. I'm not a fan of labels even know I have put a lot onto myself, but it doesn't mean that I fit nicely in a box and nor do I believe do you! So after a lot of though and I mean a lot, I have come to believe that I am a sub and not a slave, as I need closeness from the people I allow to Dommiate me, and I don't think you get that being a slave, know I am fully aware that I could be worng. I have spent a long time in my short life not existing and believeing I was nothing but a worthless parastie on this world. But thing's have changed for me and with each pasting day I do something, maybe its something as small as go for a walk, but with each day I feel myself growing into a stornger person, a person I like, someone that can give a lot/ everything to the right person. I am new to this sence, with my only experience to date in the BDSM community as been an online "relatetionship" and a short but wonderful play, that almost had me believing in outer body experiences. It isnt like it's a new desire, it is something that have been on my mine for a long time, but due to fear and shyness it's taken me this long to do something about it. I'm also willing and wanting to learn all you have to teach and not stop learning, So that I can grow and become not only a better sub but also a better person. My desires go from being made to cross dress to anal abuse and blood letting, and many inbetween. However my main desire is to give myself to someone that understands me and allows me to please them, that will let me give them my heart, body and trust. I have a hard time to trust people so to beable to give someone that fully is a big deal to me and if it is respected I could be yours for a long time (hopefully forever). As im new to this and I'm not fully aware of my limits yet, but I do know a few which are..... Hard limits

Scat
Children
Animals
Drugs Water sports... It's one that has me confused on whever or not I would like....I mean I have a fanstay of someone making me kneel and watching them pee, then making me clean them by licking...But at the same time I don't like the idea of being pee'ed on. Soft limits
Suspension hooks
Nose hooks
Suture play
Urethral play
Branding
Mummification My soft limits are more based on a need to get to know and a turst to evolve between us. I also have a romantic side so why I want to be fully controled I aslo response in turn to being showed love and care. What I want in the long term is to give myself to someone that appreciates that I am a submissive and a human with desires of severing and pleasing them. Someone strong enough to get inside my head and bend it to there own will, while respecting that I'm not a doormat, someone that appreciates that I will drop to my keens in there presence and worship every step they take, and when I do this they will know that it isn't just a willing to serve or out of respect, but also that they have dominated my mind aswell as my body and have earn my love. Someone that isn't afraid teach me a lesson that I wont forget when I've done wrong, in the interest of improving me for myself and there own benefit. Things like age, body shape, sex or gender are meaningless to me, ok thats a little lie as I tend to go for older people, but that being said I nomal find myself wanting to be with someone for many reason's maybe it's there mind, there thirst for knowledge, whever that be for something intellectual or a better understanding of my/someones mind, or they have a passion they follow, or even something like being able to show love. Music is also one of my many loves time to be cliche but without it I would be a mess now, my favoite bands are The Kinks, Amy Lee, Korn, Blue Oyster Cult, Queen, The Smiths, Placebo, IAMX, A7F, Otep, Angelspit and many more inbetween. I have a passion for Art and Photography while I myself isn't very good at any of these, I still get enjoyment from playing around and seeing what I can create. But my real enjoyment is finding something with pain and sorrow and seeing how someone can turn it into something beautiful. Then there is the geeky side of me that loves SicFi, animes and comedies. List could go on forever so I wont bore you with that, but give me something dark with a good story and I'm a happy bunny. While I dont read much, mainly cause I have a hard time keeping my focus when it come's to reading, partly due to a not so good shcool life and dislexia and partly cause I'm lazy when it comes to reading. However I have just began to read Les Onze Mille Verges, and I'm having a hard time putting it down. I may not be the most intelligent person in the world, but i do have my own opinions and veiws on things and enjoy talking about them. If I dont agree with something you have to say or believe in, it dosent mean that I will disrespect or dismiss, infact I welcome difference views, because with them you can learn and evolve your own idea's, and grow as a person. After looking and reading a lot I must say that I have a real want to be canvas for skin stapling.
Anyway thats about it from me anything else you would like to know feel free to ask. Looking forwards to hearing from you and thank for taking the time to read my profile. ~Sorrow~