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| I'm not mad, stupid or a fantasist and I need you to be the same.
I've had enough of trying to be in charge of my life. I'm smart, reasonably attractive, reasonably fit. Nothing special, nothing awful about me. I want to give up being in charge. I'm no good at it. To the outside world I'm probably quite successful, not in debt, no great worries, nothing apparently bad at all.
I need an environment where life is simple. Where someone else is making the decisions. Where I do what I'm told regardless of whether I think it's a good idea or not. Where my opinion doesn't count and so I don't have to have one.
I have an amazing capacity for hard work. I'm quite skilled at many things in an amateur sort of way. I'm slow and a perfectionist because I don't know when to stop. I can't make decisions you see.
And I'm obsessed with sex. Permanently horny. Always wanting to play with myself and fantasise. Stops me achieving anything a lot of the time. The only answer seems to be slavery. Submission wouldn't work for me because I'm not submissive at all. I'd promise faithfully I'd not wank and then I'd do it as soon as you were out of sight. Not that I think chastity is the answer though I think a chastity device would be required. I am a sexual being and I could be very good for you but it needs channeling by someone who has their eye on their own satisfaction.
So I'm looking for a space that belongs to, in order of preference, a MF, Mf, fM, F or M and has room for me in it. If there are others already in that space I don't mind so technically MMMM would work provided that I don't have to make decisions about which orders take preference. I would prefer a female presence because I love women but its not essential. I will serve anyone that can be decisive and I will serve them how they want. I don't relish being a sexual plaything but I accept it comes with the package. Not my choice after all. Male or female, giving or receiving, privately, publicly, your friends. I would hope not prostitution but I think my appeal to others would be limited anyway. Yes. I do understand it's not about sex but I feel you should understand I've taken it into consideration. Body modification also, possibly even castration if there's no other way to control my urges. Again hopefully not but understand its a possibility. Pain I don't want but that's not for me to say. Certainly it will make me fall into line quickly and I daresay I could eventually become a tolerable pain slave.
Pretty obviously I'm expecting this to be a long-term thing and by that I mean whole life really. I can't think of much worse than being back here in the free world a lot older, well used and modified with even less chance of finding an owner on the rebound. You see I know this is a long shot even before I say that I'd prefer it to be in a warmer country than this one. I hate being cold but I also hate clothes.
I am not expecting to find anyone quickly if at all. I have to be picky now since there'll be no going back or renegotiating after the coller goes on and the fixing screw has been ground flat.
I am prepared to try or be trialled for sessions or short period if it helps. There would be definite limits for those though.
I wait.
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