I wanted to take a minute to write down a few thoughts and pass them on to anyone who felt them to be worthy enough to read.

I have been on this website for...wow, over 9 years now.

I didnt come here as a newbie, or a poser, or a wannabe. Ive lived this lifestyle for more than 30 years. I felt like I might have something to contribute to those who wanted to learn and grow.

I have tried to conduct myself with honor, dignity and respect. I have always tried to act fairly, and demanded nothing more from others. Ive been a mentor, teacher, protector and Master to more than a few here. When I have made mistakes, and believe me, I have, I have always held myself accountable for those mistakes. Ive not blamed others for mistakes I have made. I have assumed responsibility and accepted the blame for those wrongs. When possible, I have done whatever was in my power to make things better for any damage I have done.

As Owner and Administrator of the Ha'Ja'an Lair, I have taught Gorean philosophies to any and all that wished to learn them,as I understood them to be. I have made that Home a safe haven for any and all to come to. I made it a safe place to be, to chat, to learn and to make friends. I have stood in defense of any and all that entered that Home, preventing them from the abuse and bothering actions of the many trolls and idiots here on CM.

I have been asked by many room owners to help Op their rooms and to assist in running them in ways that encouraged respect and acceptance of others. In this lifestyle, we all have our own kinks. Some are much different than others, but all should be respected. The best part of this lifestyle is that we all accept the kinks of others and support their right to make their own choices. It may not be the choice we would make, but it IS the choice they are entitled to make. That is the attitude Ive tried to pass on to others, and the one Ive stood for Myself. To do less is to be dishonorable.

Ive had more than my share of disagreements with others, but I have always tried to stand on the side that represents acceptance, respect, truth and honor. I think Ive lived up to those standards myself. There are likely a few that would argue that, but, arent there always? In time, many of those I have had issues with have come back to me to apologize and right things. Ive always welcomed them with open arms.

Bad behavior is bad behavior. There is no gray area. Its right or it wrong. Excuses or explanations are just that. It doesnt change anything. Apologies dont come with a "but". One is either sincere in their apology, or one isnt. There are no conditions for that.

We all make mistakes. None of us are above that. The way we respond to those mistakes is how we shape our character. We can either learn from them, and grow, or we can continue to repeat them, and look foolish. An error in judgement can be corrected. Stupid is just stupid. You cant fix stupid.

Ive always thought that an attack on one's character is a serious thing, but that, in time, the facts would come to the surface and the wrong would be righted. Kind of like thinking...the truth shall set you free. I guess I am a little naive in thinking that, but again, I never worried about what others thought. I like the guy I see in the mirror in the morning.

Something has changed my position on that though, and thats what this journal entry is about. Its always been fine with me if someone wanted to attack my character. My record stands for itself. What I wont abide by is when an attack on my character is also launched at the people I care about, simply because they associate with me. You want to come after me, thats fine. I can take that. You come after those I love and care about, thats NOT fine. That makes me angry. That is inexcusable. That is unacceptable. THAT is dishonorable. And that will surely get a response that isnt expected.

I have a limit to what I will tolerate. Its one thing to sit around and poke fun at others. I get that. It takes a shallow and cruel person to do this, but hey, not everyone here is an adult, in spite of their age. Its quite another to provoke an argument, with the help of one or two others, simply to ridicule someone and embarass them, then completely reverse your position, simply to ridicule and embarass another. To do so is childish, immature and juvenile. To do this, while "secretly" plotting with one or two others on who to attack next, and then feign innocence when confronted with indisputable facts as to ones guilt of this....well, thats beyond cruel. It borders on the criminal.

Those that do this, not occasionally, but as a standard practice, seem to forget that those they ridicule and attack are not just names on a screen. They are real, live, living people with real emotions and feelings. The things that are said DO hurt. The pain inflicted IS real. It isnt a game to everyone, and toying with the emotions and feelings of others as if it were an OK thing to do is cruel and harmful. Forgetting that is stupid. Ignoring it is unforgivable.

That being said, to stand by and allow it to continue to happen, and tacitly approve of that behavior makes one as culpable and guilty as if one were doing it themselves.  Sometimes, sitting by and letting bad behavior happen is NOT OK. Sometimes, the right thing to do, is to stand up and say...ENOUGH! STOP THAT! ITS NOT OK!

So....

ENOUGH! STOP THAT! ITS NOT OK!

Sadly, its not permissable to name names here. Sadly, its not alright to bring those guilty of this out into the open. Sadly, one cannot post, for all to see, the written logs of this cruelty. Because of this, those responsible can hide behind this rule and continue to abuse and hurt, and sadly, they will continue to do so, without fear of being exposed for the unscrupulous, meddlesome, cruel, hurtful, dishonorable, useless piles of human flesh that they are.

But, what one CAN do, is provide this information to anyone who wants to read it. One can make available the logs for any who wish to read them. One can expose the lies to anyone who wants to see them. One CAN let the truth out for any and all to see. To do this, all one has to do is make the information available for any and all to read.

Thats what Im doing now.

You want it? Ask.

Ill give it to you. Pages and pages and pages of it.

You come after me? No problem. I have big shoulders. Ive dealt with far worse for far less. Ive been called worse by better. I know a thing or two about honor.

But, when you come after those I love and care for, the gloves come off. You wont be able to find a rock small enough to crawl under, or a crack tiny enough to crawl into to hide from me.

Ill shine the light on you and expose you for the meddlesome, manipulative cunts and asses you are. Once you have proven yourself to be worthy of less respect that I would give a common cockroach I step on, you will get the same treatment.

I dont have to name names here. You know who you are. You know the things you have said. You know the actions you have taken.

Now, everyone else is going to know as well.

Have a great day everyone, and safe travels to all.

SW