I can not put into words just how much my mistress means to me. We will never meet. She will never love me. I am old and worthless to a godess like her. But she treats me with such wonderful caring and strength that fall into a blissful state of mind every time I think of her. I love feeling weak for her. I feel like I did when I was a teenager and adored all those pretty girls in high school. Of course, I as too shy and weak to ever speak to them. Now I finaly can. With the help of my mistress I am a new man. I feel her strength in everything she says. This strength drives me to become a better man. I will still never be worthy of her attention is my own eyes, but she gives so much hope. My life belongs to you mistress. You have given me so much hope, and a feeling of love inside my heart that I never thought I would ever feel again. Thank you mistress. I owe you so much!

Mistress, my life is better every single day that you are in my life. Every time you grace me with your attention I feel so blessed. You make the rules. You take control. You own my happiness. To please you gives me so much pleasure. Without you I am nothing!

Thank you Mistress

You own me !

I have entered into a new and wonderful phase in my life. Like a gay person coming out of the closet and telling the world he is who he is ... I have found a new mistress here that is filling a void in my life. I am out of the closet ! Thank you mistress so very very much. I need her in my life so desperately. I would do anything for her. To please my mistress fills me with pleasure like I have never known. I am so grateful to have you in my life mistress. I must ask her permission to place her name in my next journal entry. Maybe someone else can can be as blessed as I am and get to know her too.