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I seek a woman who needs to find out about her body's reaction to pain.  She is curious about these sensations or she needs to experience them because of something she has done.

It must be scary to delve into this, so a slowly/gradually approach is required, not a 'bull at a gate' method.  The thought is to learn to cope, to take more each time, so that what you find harsh now will become easier to bear, with the hope of exceeding these levels given time.  This is a situation we both control, you because you want or deserve it, me because i want a woman to achieve her potential.

Other aspects come into this, notably mutual respect.  It is to be done because you want it.  Every day.  Help out with the mundane stuff, then indulge in your 'development', more and more with the passage of time.

One special person wanted.  It would be rare for me to approach anyone, as this is a profile/life style that would appeal to a very few

My partner has given her full blessing to this.  She used to indulge but ill-health prevents this, but she would like another woman to suffer.  

Both of us can be verified, eventually having a normal conversation on skype so that genuine people can be seen for what they are

There are some women who want pain for its own sake, who wish to explore their physical and sexual reactions to painful stimuli

There are also women who feel they deserve pain, perhaps because of 'what they are' or they feel a need to be punished.

This is a burning need, a nagging ache to fulfil your needs.  Yet a fear that people will not respect you....

For honesty's sake I do have a partner - we have decided that this is a good proposition for us as it enables us to pursue different interests.  She is open-minded.  It is intended that she is not involved in your care, but this is not written in stone.

Initially occasional meetings are envisaged - however, if we all get on, 24/7 lifestyle is possible.

Profile is a work in progress.  If there is anything you think should be on here, or that you would like to know, message me

This is an opportunity for an intelligent woman to indulge her needs fully.  She will be certain of what she wants and happy to discuss ways of achieving that as calmly as talking about the weather.

She will be part of the household and be prepared to help with the house and our dogs.

The best things in life comes to those who wait patiently; if your need is to experience extremes, a slow start with a definite aim to keep pushing levels, activities, endurance will get us there far more satisfactorily, than going at it 'wham bang'.  What we achieve after even a few weeks will exceed the potential of a 'full on' event, mostly because your body will be more 'accepting' of that to which it has been accustomed.

Stimulation and activity must be on a 'Daily'basis rather than a 'when and if' situation.  This must be a need, an obsession, within you.

Once you are confident, exhibitionism is a possibility.  There can be no better ego boost than to know you are the centre of attention, with the potential to 'amaze'.

If you have read this far and would like to discuss this, do feel free to message us.

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Seeking a special female that does not need to be persuaded that she deserves retribution either for misdeeds or in her personality make up.  

I see no female profile that matches this - maybe people are hiding this because they don't want to give a signal to some doms that they are a piece of meat - so I invite anyone interested to contact me initially.

I am not voyeuristic and would not get any thrills from knowing your background.  However, an indication of what has happened would be helpful so I can tailor my response to your situation.

A successful liaison would not be full on at the beginning.  We would have to discuss and agree what you need from this and also provide therapy in other ways than punishment.

An agreed period where we slowly increase levels and achievable 'results' before punishment proper is given will yield an appreciation of mutual trust, a discernible increase in level and duration coupled with an increased ability to endure, a continually evolving diversity of actions that seek to enhance what you seek.

Anything new we introduce gradually, again pushing boundaries in easy steps.

What we do must not cause mental trauma, I seek to relieve those tensions.

To achieve what you want, meetings need to be regular.  We would prefer a lead up to eventual 24/7 but this is for consideration later.

You may have done something about which you have deep regrets that eat at your soul.  You may be domineering in some aspects of your life.  You may have been unaware that a 3rd party was doing something wrong to people for whom you had responsibility and you feel you should suffer for this 'lapse' on your part.

I shall not judge you for what has happened.  That is in the past.  I can identify with the need for you to take punishment.

It has to be consensual.  It has to be something you think about obsessively, perhaps so much so that your day-to-day activities are affected.

It will be me applying what you need, my partner may observe or be there to counsel you with a female take on your situation.

I want someone for whom it will ease her torment of guilt  Or sense of incompleteness.

I cannot emphasise strongly enough the need to start slow and build up.  However, with caring training, it is amazing what increased levels can be taken in a matter of weeks.

Due to the nature of what I advocate, any approach has to come from you.  Please be informative rather than merely say 'Hi'.  Brief is OK, as long as I have some idea of your thoughts and situation.

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We invite applications from females interested in exploring anal eroticism and submission, no matter how way out your thoughts.  This does not appeal to all, so you have to be special and in a 'curious mindset'

Dilation is an obvious starting point.  We would seek to avoid scat etc.  Otherwise all needs and ideas are welcome.

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Have you done something that can never be forgotten?  Perhaps the result is that someone has been permanently and adversely affected by your actions, or negligence, or disloyalty?  Maybe you have behaved within legal limits but taken advantage of this in an immoral way?

You have considered how you might attempt to make things right, but you cannot do this with someone from your social circle.  You can do it by being with someone not involved with the situation.

I would fulfil this need in you without judging you - you will have done that for yourself.  I am there to facilitate this process, starting slowly and at the beginning, but leading inexorably to the high levels of punishment you feel you should receive.

I do have a female partner, whose role would be little involvement in the process but she would advise and suggest where appropriate.

You will, ideally, be so contrite so as to want to suffer each and every day, undergoing training to take more.  You must be open-minded, indeed it helps if you have thought about the darker side of being punished.  This need in you should be ever-powerful and become obsessive.

I emphasise that this would not be an instantly harsh environment but a gradual process.  You would be encouraged to make suggestions and to help with setting up the equipment needed to achieve your aims - that you suffer for your misdeeds.

I seek someone who feels that they need to be punished for adultery/unfaithfulness, neglect, bad parenting - indeed any action that has caused someone else extreme unhappiness.

24/7 is sought but I will, in the interim, consider less frequent meetings.

I seek that you make the initial approach.  Single females only, please.

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An ideal - A woman who seeks pain as a means to prove herself, better herself, thinks about the erotic possibilities and discusses means and enhancements as freely as she would discuss world affairs.  A woman who needs pain to the point of obsession, where, if it is not being had, it affects her whole life, who feels that, by excelling, she is better than the vanilla woman who would regard this as degrading.

A woman who is aroused by doing this, while behind closed curtains, within a few yards of the street, where other people walk so-called freely, while she endures pain, yet it is she who gains freedom by obtaining what she craves.

The scenario could appeal to different women:

• Those who need a temporary release.  She may have a 'powerful' job position, or be married, or need an occasional session
• Those who seek punishment for being as they are, or some major past event
• Those who would like to undergo pain as often as possible, needing a 24/7 situation eventually.
• Those who seek to do this in conjunction with other aspects - religion etc
• The curious, those who wish to find out more about their bodies and their reactions.

We would be equal.  I am there to provide for your need.  My outlook is that I enjoy the reactions to the pain I inflict, the sounds, the pose, the determination, the stoicity with which pain is borne, the affect on erogenous zones, the coping mechanisms and the fact she makes suggestions, asks for more at the time.  I like the fact that, having suffered that pain once, she willingly returns to endure more of the same, maybe at an increased level.

Progress would be recorded, perhaps as a spreadsheet, also used for planning well ahead.  This would be measured in terms of severity, duration and diversity of what events she undergoes.  If the woman likes being 'matter-of-fact' that is fine.

I believe is a slow gradual start, although am open to other proposals, where the sessions progressively become more demanding.

I do encourage women who are interested in making the first contact.