It seems I'm not all that great at the whole bdsm thing--or life in general most days.  I hate feeling depressed and feeling so absolutely alone.  Sometimes I can bury my emotions, other times I can't get away from them no matter how hard I try.

I feel so down...like I'll never get what I want or find what I'm looking for.

I'm about to just give up on everything.

Gave up on all other social media, and it looks as I might have to give up on this as well.

What I want I seem to be unable to find. 

I long for things I cannot have.

My dreams are faded.

My spirits are broken.

Today I am totally hopeless.

It seems to be so hard to meet real people on this site, but it still won't discourage me from trying.  Tonight I feel like meeting some new people, so if for some reason you've come across my profile then I hope you'll write me a message introducing yourself.  Who knows what good could come from it.