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| Hello to all of you out there. Due to my great disgust over all the fakes players, I went on a long hiatus from using this site but I am back now. Pictures can be made available upon request but only for those that I believe to be serious in their inquiries have also taken the time to look at my profile interests.
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Okay...
Clearly, if you have been checking back on my journal postings, if you look at the date of this entry & the last, it has been quite a long while since I last looked at my profile or even updated my journal.
However, in my defense as I apologize to the now growing list of admirers that now follow me in my comments, I will say that it has a very busy time for me. Spring has long since come & summer isn't too far off. So, once again I will be melting into a puddle of sweat when the temp hits the high eighties again.
Some of you may be wondering why I have been absent from CS lately. The answer is simple. Aside from being run ragged by the same master that I have been with for more than eight years now, only last year in mid-June, I had a dream come to me as I slept & it was a doozy that inspired me to take of the biggest writing project of my life.
Yes, I am an avid writer. I just love to come up with all sorts of fictional scenarios in which characters go through a life changing experience but this one is more spiritual for me as well as a bit of humor heavily laced with a dose of fantasy.
"What is it about?" you may possibly ask? Well, to sum it all up, I truly believe that I have a guardian angel watching over me though as of late, she has been whispering in my ears to inspire me much the same as a muse & she comes to me quite often when I sit in my sleeping chair to write on my laptop.
The short of it is that I am writing a story entitled "The Clockwork Crystal Tower" & it is a very long involved story that debunks all the mythical lore of this world to place the blame squarely on the shoulders of every disgruntled angel that had a grievance with God after the great war in Heaven.
To that end, those many disgruntled angels took it upon themselves during the early years of Earth to pose as all the many deities & mythical creatures & then they went about misleading all of God's human children into worshiping them & when God finally managed to clean house, the damage was already done.
That is the basic outline but there is a lot more to it since there are so many back stories within the mainframe of the primary story. There is the theme that God has gone from using his throne as his seat of command upon which he would sit to pass judgement upon his transcended children but that aspect has been removed by God himself as he now sits at a grand office desk, always flooded by piles of paperwork that stack up far beyond the furthest known planet & he works at light speed to keep the pile down so that he can also keep his heavenly house in order.
There are so many themes within this story that if you were to read it, you would need a score card just to keep track of all the different aspects of it. Yes, there is magic within the story but then again as I will often write, many of the characters will often say that there isn't any such thing as magic. Yet, for the lack of better word, the word magic itself is the only word that makes sense to use to explain what many of the characters are able to do within the mainframe of the story.
Onward though as I stop myself from boring my small following of readers as I comment about a previous posting within my journal.
On 5/23/2015 at 10:17:24 PM, I wrote on my displeasure of the subject of empty promises as I quoted from the song "Roses & Rainbows"
Funny thing is that I only had two admirer's at the time for the longest time & now that I am finally back today for the first time since the posting after that in June when the heatwave hit, I am very surprised that I have nine.
Okay... I will admit that its nothing to scream for joy about but for me to even have a following when I only had the two for the longest time, that is a accomplishment to me as I look at the bright side of it to see the silver lining behind all this.
Okay... No biggie that it wasn't a snowball effect for what I had to say as I spoke my mind but still, when you live with a very uneducated Master & then you make a comment that causes someone to admire your point of view, that has to mean something, right?
Mind you, this venue is more about meeting &... (AHEM!) ...'hooking up.' but it didn't used to be that way until all the fakes came in to upset the apple cart to the point that no one knows whom is real & whom is just a player.
Mind you, I am still stuck with the same dull, boring, pig headed & very uneducated master who is currently obsesses with the fact that TV nowadays is portraying more black men married to white women though he claims not to be a racist but if he truly wasn't, he would't be siting up to take notice while making lewd comments to the fact.
Me, on the other hand... I can't stress it enough that when I place a hand to your forehead as well as one to your heart at the same time while not saying a word, I am actually saying plenty about you as a person in the fact that your heart & mind are what matter to me & not the color of your skin.
To that end, I will say it three times! I am color blind! I am color blind! I am color blind! When it comes to others, I don't give a damn about the color of your skin. As long as you treat me nice, you will get nothing but nice-nice from me.
However, I will quote from Elvis Presley now as I say, "Treat me nice". If you are going to ask if I am a big fan of his, the answer is no. I just happen to have a broad range of knowledge all stuck within the patchwork frame of my mind & I use it to quote situations where I feel that it is appropriate. So, this moment seemed very appropriate & FYI, my guardian angel was whispering in my ears again when I made this comment so I will send out a big thank you to her for having once again inspired me to make a pop culture reference in the midst of my journal entry.
However, considering the venue I am in, I tend to believe that she is possibly a little mortified for my choice of a internet location to spout on about my many wide beliefs.
So, on that note, I will end this as I say thank you to the nine admirers that took the time to at least click on the admiring option. I would at least hope that you won't be shy in the future to at least send me a coment or two about your thoughts on what I have written so far as well as feeling free to make comments on just about anything but as I said, when you write to me, "treat me nice" ; - ) LOL!
Nuff said,
Peace out,
Sharri
PS: Still on hormones & growing, LOL
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Ok! I know its been a while since I last updated my journal but for those of you that wilt like I do in blazing heat of the day & also because of my hormone therapy, you just have to know that this heat wave has had me so worn out that even if I have a solid night of sleep & thanks to the hormones, I do almost every night, the second I sit down on the couch, I doze off in a matter of minutes. If this humid jungle extreme heatwave doesn't break soon, I swear that I am going to melt into one big puddle of sweat!! |
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Subject:
Empty promises...
First, before I get into heart of this subject, I will now admit that its not just Doms that can mislead a slave by verbally painting a rosy picture of how life will be with said Dom, the same can be said of those that claim to be slaves. In short, it doesn't matter which side of the fence they come from, just that they are the many bad apples in the cart that leave us so disenchanted & often on the verge of loosing hope in finding that one special someone that will meet their needs & expectations.
However, to sum it up in a song, I think that Julie Budd sang it best in the grand finale of the 1981 movie "The Devil & Max Devlin"
The link on youtube > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=olXd7KVQbHQ
And here are the lyrics below.
ROSES AND RAINBOWS
(Carole Bayer Sager / Marvin Hamlisch) Julie Budd
So here I am, alone again.
Not at all like I thought that it would be,
Guess I lost my way,
Seems like yesterday,
Somebody promised me the sunshine,
Somebody promised me the moon,
Somebody told me there'd be roses and rainbows,
I only hope they'll get here soon.
Seems I've been waiting here forever,
Thinking that love would come for free,
Someone's still waiting for those roses and rainbows,
I hope that someone won't be me.
So let go now, you're on your own,
It's okay to be lonely now and then,
Open up your eyes,
You are much too wise,
If someone promises you sunshine....
YOU BETTER KNOW THERE'LL STILL BE RAIN!
If someone says he'll bring you roses and rainbows,
You'd better take a look again.
You'd better find out who you are girl,
Before you run to someone else,
instead of waiting for those roses and rainbows,
You'd better give them to yourself.
Somebody promised me the sunshine,
Somebody promised me the moon,
Somebody told me there'd be roses and rainbows,
And now I know they're coming soon!
And now I'm ready for the sunshine,
And I'm as happy as can be,
And all my days are filled with roses and rainbows,
My life belongs to me!
My life belongs, To me!
Having read this, keep it in mind because the moment someone contacts you & they make many promises right from the start while demanding that you either open your web cam to them or whatever while they also give some lame excuse about their web cam not working, its time to add them to your block list & begin warning others to block them as well.
Nuff said!
Peace out!
Sharri
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Mind you, my philosophy is "To each, their own" but when it comes to Dom switches, I absolutely cannot abide by that rule. The man I live with now, originally told me that he was a Bi-sexual Dom. What he deliberately omitted from our conversations in the interview period, is that he is also a switch. At first, he never asked me to play a Dom role in the bedroom. Then he started doing just that, expecting someone like me to anally penetrate him. Of course, I am not Dom in that respect or any other.
Q:How can a Dom switch expect a total sub/slave to Dom him?
Answer: He/she hasn't any right at all to expect such a thing when the sub has been on hormones a lot & trained to take it, not give it? To all you switches out there, if that is what floats your boat, find another switch but NEVER ask OR ever expect a sub/slave to do the same. Our brains aren't wired that way, especially if we have been trained for anything but that.
Better yet, here is another question
How can someone be a Dom in the lifestyle & be a switch at the same time?
Answer:You can't! To me, Switches are just people that like to play on both sides of the fence & here is the key word that rubs me the wrong way, "Play" Just add three letters & you have the truth of it. Switches like to experience both sides of the fence in the act of ROLE play, something that all true Doms, male & female alike, in this lifestyle do not like. To me, scene play is just something that couples do to spice up their romance.
So, no one can be both a Dom & switch or a sub/slave as well as a switch in this lifestyle.
If any of this makes sense to anyone reading this now, go ahead & send me a simple "BRAVO!" If you have anything further to say, I welcome it also. |
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The following is what should be in my profile but for some reason, Collarspace will not allow me to post it.
Anyhow, here are my contact conditions.
Just the same as the true Doms, I have a list of examples of those that I DO NOT want to contact me.
1) Money scammers, not just from foreign countries but from ANYWHERE! That includes those people that try to get me to use a credit card on a site that pays them for bringing in people supposedly to see their naked bodies!
2) Findoms, (Not necessarily a money scammer since the type always makes it painfully obvious about their intentions but still not someone I want to be a slave to because the person in question, will not care about me, only the size of my wallet.)
3) HIV + (Look elsewhere! I am clean! I am STD FREE & I intend to stay that way because no plastic or SRS surgeon will ever touch me if I become infected!)
4) People who halfheartedly contact me with a one liner. I sincerely despise that sort of person because it shows a glaring lack of intelligence. If all you can say is something like, "Hey! Be my slave." & then end it with that, DO NOT EVEN THINK to contact me! I have learned the hard way that guys & even some women like that, tend to be a whole lot less than serious about committing to a Dom/slave lifestyle. It also shows a possible slacker attitude. If you are like that, how can you expect me to serve you if you obviously do not have any intention of committing to the responsibility of ownership of a slave like me?
5) People who want to include their minor children in the lifestyle as a Dom or a slave. I especially despise that sort of person! Minors should NEVER be included in this lifestyle but sadly, I have run into that sort of person who has asked about that subject which I believe to be the ultimate taboo, a line that I will NEVER cross!
6) Anyone who is into mind games. If all you do, is to BS & use me for some sort of mental torment, look elsewhere!
If you are any of the above, DO NOT contact me. Such persons will be automatically deleted & blocked.
If you are a SERIOUS dominant, be you male or female, it doesn't matter as long as you are completely honest with me, telling me exactly what you expect up front, I will be completely honest with you.
Last but not least, I have finally managed to get my financial affairs back on track enough that I am also back on hormones again. On the matter of my transition, I DO want to transition from M to F but I am not completely certain yet as to IF I want to take that last step (SRS).
More details can be made available if you wish to contact me...
My E-mail is sharrissaerinrolfe@yahoo.com |
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Latest update:
I am back now but I am unable to update my profile. Collarspace seems to be having problems when I press the update button. |
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Are there any true slaves out there just the same as me? If so, I have yet to find you for the sake of pleasing my master. We just recently had a submissive female join us but she is just a sub,not a slave. However, with her now living here, there are only three slots left to fill. So, if you are truly a serious life style slave, now would be a good time to apply. |
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Well?
I guess that there isn't any justice or fairness in this world at all.
Long story made short, Katty turned out to be a fraud & she never showed up even after Master actualy prepaid on a greyhound bus ticket for her.
We got to the cookeville bus terminal at 7 PM & waited for the 7:35 bus & then when she didn't get off that one, we waited for the 8:05.
Once again, we hoped that she would get off but of course, she never did!
That just goes to show that even after all the effort that was put into chatting & screening a very strong possible slave worthy opf being tested by Master, we were both greatly disapointed at the great show of disrespect just by her not showing up.
So to reiterate, we are tired of the wannabe slaves & players that are always claiming to be true slaves but never follow through.
So do not contact us unless you really mean it!!
This lifestyle is very real for us & we take it very seriously
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Update on the head hunt for slaves... :
There have been two strong possibilites for slaves that may have the chance to make it as far as being allowed to come to this polly household on this farm.
The first, Katty - a sissy boi/girl slave, has the Master of the house, very excited. In fact, HE was so positive about her passing his testing phase that he actually offerd to pay her way.
s/he should be here on the 5th of April. i hope so too that s/he makes it to stay here. It is very lonely in this very remote area without a few sisters to keep me company.
If s/he stays, that will mean that there will only be three openings left & with the way times are changing along with the economy, a lot of repressed/ deeply closeted slaves that would normally try to strike it out on their own, will give in to try their chances with my Master.
To that end, if you are a true slave like myself, i strongly urge that you write to Master Dennis through me.
I have a feeling that if you hesitate, you will always be left to wonder for the rest of your life, "What would have my future been like if I had decided to surrender to Master Dennis?"
So to avoid that possibility, write to HIM. Do not hesitate, take the plunge, you have nothing to loose & everything to gain.
That is why Master & i go through all this rigourous testing. The postions into full enslavement are pemanent. There is no escape. YOU WILL become slave property with no rights, no free choice of your own, being allowed only what Master permits to you, 24/7/356.
kissy - kissy!,
sharri - True Slave Heart 
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Well?? So much for Master Wes! As far as I am concerned, he turned out to be a player in my eyes all while falsely acusing me of being the same.
However, that is not the case. I am genuine, very real & only seek to serve a real dom that wants a true slave heart like me.
All I can say now is that i am back again & looking once more.
This time however, I do not want to encounter any players. I have been trying my best to please people that come to me to interview me through Yahoo messenger but so far, no takers. Just a lot of people that want to look at my pictures & video, then masturbate to orgasm & leave me back where I started.
Is it really so hard to find that one true dominant life partner that wants a true 24/7/365 live in slave heart like me?
I certainly hope not because I am not going to give up until I find him or her. I am bisexual after all so the gender of my prospective owner is not important to me.
What is important is that they have a good head on their shoulders, a realistic set of expectations & a gentle loving heart while still being Dominant enough to control every aspect of my life.
Perhaps I am asking too much as one person that had interviewed me, has said to me but I still seek such a person. I hope that I will find that person here because there are no other options open to me right now. |
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The last time I checked, my waiting list of people that are true slave owners, I had been surprised that I was up to fifteen people that want to test me.
That was only a few weeks ago but now, I am surprised to note that since that time, it has more than doubled to thirty.
I know that there are a lot of pretenders out there but WOW! I had no idea that so many interested people would want to check me over to see if I am worthy to be their slave property.
However, right now, the interview & testing phase is still going well with Calcvant so all of you that I have placed on my waiting list, will just have to wait a little while longer.
Sorry! I have to be fair so the current prospective slave owner(s) can have my full undivided attention.
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As always, once in a while a even a submisive slave heart like me, becomes too tired to make a meal. So I went to a diner to eat out today but could not make up my mind. That has been the case more & more often. I am often forced to narrow the choice down to what appeals to me the most & then let a coin flip decide for me.
That is just one example.
There are other things that I am always indicissive about.
When getting up from sleeping, it is usualy a big debate as to if I should put my clothing & shoes on first & then go to the bathroom to freshen up, IE brush hair, teeth, clean & file nails, ECT... OR should I do the bathroom routine first & then put my clothing on???
Decissions decissions decissions! I really hate making choices! I am not really good at taking charge of any situation.
I am more content to listen & do as I am told than to step in & start tossing out orders. I would rather that someone else be biting their nails over a problem while I am doing my obediant best to follow the orders that were given to me. |
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| Age: 35 |
| Spokane,
Washington |
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