Hello, my name is Amy and I'm an alco- .. fuck, wrong group..
Ok, seriously, my names not Amy and if you haven't figured it out by now, I'm a bit of a smart ass. I am also a natural submissive and a virgin to the lifestyle. Ima lay it out on the line for you because I'm still trying to find my feet in all of this.
I have never had any training, I've never had a Dom, and I don't understand what half of the terminology is in the world of kink and fetish.
So why am I here?
I've always known what I was since I was old enough to be with someone. It's every aspect of my life. To severe and conform to the will of someone else is in my blood and I can't fight it. Nor do I want to. I've spent most of my life trying to figure out what it is to be submissive and I've done a pretty crap job of it. So here I am, to learn, make some friends, maybe even (eventually) find the right one that can tame me. But to do that, I guess you need to know a little more about me hmm?
I am 32 and have three children. I am at the moment in a pretty shity relationship, I won't get into it on here, but if you are that curious about it you can always ask me. That being said, I am not always available to Kik or Skype or even talk seeing as he has no clue on just what I am or what I want (not without effort on my half to explain it to him). I will however do my best to keep up and in touch on other devices as I can. No, this relationship I'm in will not last forever. I'm hoping to be free in a few months. But I am a mother first, no matter what. I am also very, very judgemental and insecure of my body. I just had a baby 6 months ago and am still trying to lose the weight that comes with it. And lucky me, while I was in the hospital I contacted a rare virus that left me with numerous scars from my shoulders down. I'm not saying I'm Freddy Krugar or anything, but that with being over weight, yeah.. I'm not happy with my body. But I am a very strong willed female and am working on myself. So off your looking for cheerleader stomach and perfect flesh, move on now.
That being said, here's what I do know of what I like and don't like. I'm still learning, so who knows what I will find out about myself here.
No no's:
Scat
Unreasonable rules
Piss
Vomit
Torture/utter pain
Degrading
Humiliation
Ignoring
Diapers
More please:
Giving up control
Biting and clawing
Reasonable rules
Punishment
Petting
Affection
Collar (when the time is right)
Sensual
Rough
Throat holding (not choking)
Curious:
blind fold
Role play
Bondage
Pet play
Exhibition
Leash in public
Events
Dress up
Being tied up, caressed and loved
Cage
What I want in my partner
Like I said, I'm still learning about myself and just what I like and don't like but I do have an idea of what I'm looking for in a Dom/Master. I need someone who is experienced in untrained subs, patient and loving but firm. I know I'm going to make a lot of mistakes and there will be times when I'm scared to do something. I don't need someone who is going to get mad and demand I follow through with the command. I need gentle coaching and encouragement. Affection is important to this kitten, so if you are about owning a toy that you use and ignore until you need again, I'm not the pet for you. Again, I'm not going to just jump into the first pair of arms that opens to me. I might be new and naive about this world, but I'm not stupid or a push over either. Remember, I've been a single mom for eight years, I know when I'm being manipulated. And I know how to put my foot down when I'm not being treated like I deserve. If your just going to hit me up for pics and rp, bye Felicia. I would eventually like to find the one that I connect with on a preeminent level, and if possible relocate, but I am a package. My kids are young and are my world, above my own happiness. I do want more children if life allows it, but it isn't necessary to be happy. While I am independent, I'm not working at the moment. I am willing to work and pull my weight, but if you prefer me to be a homemaker and take care of you in every aspect of the home, I can do that too. I just want to make you happy if we connect on that level.
If your still reading and interested in talking, please don't be shy. I don't care if your Dom or sub, I love meeting new people and chatting. Tell a joke, vent, rant, whatever. We all need someone to talk to from time to time. If you live near me, maybe you could tell me about some of the scenes I'm missing out on around here. I'd love to catch an event sometime, see the life in person.
Again, I can't stress enough that I am not looking to be claimed right away, so please don't ask. I do want to get to know anyone and everyone I can though. Don't be shy, cause I'm shy enough as it is. I know no one that is into kink so I feel alone in this world of fetish. Help me find my way? Yeah, I'm a but nervous about it too..
