What I feel is the True Me

The me of now is an ever-changing mask. It is a mask, one that is put on for varying situations. I have many masks, not because I want to deceive others but because of my desire to make as many people as I can happy. There is the outgoing cheerleader mask, the party girl mask, the good religious girl mask, the minx mask, the strong-and-alone-and-I'm fine with it- and happy-independent mask. Each of them may have a part of the true me but it isn't, not fully at least.

The true me is a smiling and kind woman. A reserved, gentle, and nurturing soul with a warm and gentle touch. She is intelligent, graceful, polite, and reserved. She is well dressed and a gracious hostess. She takes pride in her appearance and her Home Stone. She is as much as an open book as she is a mystery. She is a Gorean Free Woman capable of handling her home affairs and the wishes of her Free Companion.

The true me carries herself with Dignity and honor and she holds her head high. She is cultured and easily able to hold a conversation with people of varying upbringings and backgrounds. She is graceful in her mannerisms, words, and actions. She has combined femininity, motherhood, Geisha, Courtesan, Submissive, and wife all into one role.. a free companion.

This is what I am inside. This is the woman I seek to release from inside of me to the woman I am now. This is the woman that will banish the masks and hopefully I'll have her strength one day to do so. To truly have the strength to embrace who I am and no longer have to hide behind masks to fit in. This woman will not need to change who she is to fit in, but simply be who she is and confidant in her place.