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I want my own Dom/Master 24/7 one day. Been searching a long, long time. Not new to this at all. I want a good man who is a good Dom/Master that has good morals/values yet has it all together, doesn't live with mother and can hold a job, and most of all not already married/committed. I work, have a career, single, divorced, even would like a submissive roommate to help out with this day in times economic living. I'm not a barbie doll size. Don't mind exchanging photos. Not into any phone or cyber bs, games or players. I take submission/servitude seriously. I respect everyones differences, makes the world colorful. I don't get online often. Hard limits: no animals, no kids, no blood, no scat, no golden, and no public humiliation/degradation. Love: crops, floggers, wax, fire, knife, electrical, bondage, anal, some needle play and most sensory deprivation. Hate whips and canes. Anything else I either love it, like it, or willing to try it. I do not live my life online and am not interested in anyone else that does.

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12/5/2012 5:59:15 AM

To the One I belong to (one day):

I don’t know where to begin. I am truly overcome. It’s like someone has tapped into part of me. I don’t want to say or do anything to run you off. I can only be me. That being said, what I’m about to write will probably sound ‘cheesy’ to the majority of the pretenders.

First, I am not perfect. I come to you humbly half-broken. I need and want you to strip me down to that ‘veneer’ thing as you said. I’m half broken. I’d love for you to break down the other half and then build me up from scratch.

My energy is so strong it scares me sometimes. I feel like if I let any of out, I’ll be out of control. I’d love for you to straighten it out. I am a pure and true submissive in heart, mind, body, and soul. If or when you are to break the other half of me, then I know I can be a slave. I only claim submissive because I have yet to find the one to break me.

I know I’m not a Barbie doll. I know you said you could help in that area. That would be great.

If you were to embrace me and make me yours……………I can promise you several things. I would never disrespect you. I would never hurt you. I would never embarrass you. I would always honor you. I would always serve/submit to you heart/mind/body/soul. I would always be honest with you whether it forces me to confront anything that I don’t like. I’d always take care of you physically as well. I would never question you. I want you to shine. I want you, when others are around whether vanilla environment or kinky environment, to admire you. I want others to see your happiness and satisfaction and long for the same thing.

I need to learn more. I need to have structure/rules/protocols. I need to explore more, experience more. I need you help me conquer some fears. Long for someone to take the reign of this worn down donkey and mold me into his Mustang.

I long to know you so well that you don't have to ask for anything. That is what I long for you. I don’t want you to have ask for anything. Yes, I know in the beginning and for a while you will have to
micromanage everything. I just long for you to not have to work so hard for the results of my service/submission. I want to know your breaths, heartbeats, habits, etc. I want to know every inch of your body from head to toe. I want to make sure you aren’t cold or hot or hungry. I want to give my body to you to use as you please. Your satisfaction and happiness is mine.

Sir, you are a honorable man. I am a honorable woman.

My parents never talked to me about sex and anything intimate was taboo. Then the church compounded their example by condemning me to hell for even thinking about such matters. Anything I knew, I learned from school and media. After my divorce many years ago, I vowed then and now I would never settle for anyone unless they were a good Dominant man that enjoyed WAY more than vanilla.

Though I do believe in what the church did teach me…..that men are supposed to be the head of the household and women are to submit. To this day it’s hard to have this discussion with vanilla friends and coworkers. They would/will get offended and I’d end up starting another ERA movement (smile). If I had to label what I believe in, I believe the lifestyle calls it the “50’s household and/or Victorian household”.

I experienced things; mostly good, some bad. I believe I am fairly well rounded and respect everyone’s choices/lifestyles even if I do disagree. I love a big melting pot. It makes it more interesting.

I do not want to change Masters/Doms like the majority I’ve encountered change as often as toilet paper.

You mentioned human touch. Yes, of course we all need it. I need and want more than that. I need to let go. I want to give it all over.

me


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ashendew
 
 Age: 39
 Addison, Illinois