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Hetero Male Switch, 31,  Rockford, Illinois
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I've reached a new chapter in my life right now. It has been a long time since I have been very active on here, but I plan on changing that for a while. Starting with a new profile text and soon some new pictures. I am a spiritualist at heart and i yearn for the great journey of discovery that takes us all deeper within ourselves while connecting us ever more strongly to the world around us. There is such beauty in the world that it sometimes shocks me how easily we can let it just pass us by without stopping to take it in every now and then. People intrigue me, new thoughts, new ideas, the different ways different people connect and communicate. I am not currently looking for a relationship, nor am I really looking for play partners, what I am looking for are kinky, funny, smart, geeky new friends to connect with. "I didn't lose my innocence, I escaped from it." "Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared."











Last Online:


 Male Switch



 6' 0"

 240 lbs






Actively Seeking:

Dominant Transgender

Submissive Transgender

Dominant Female

Submissive Female

Switch Women

A Poly Household

 Lives For:





 Fine Dining

 Going to the Opera


 Renaissance Faires





 Science Fiction


 Liberal Politics



 Alternative Music

 Classical Music

 Heavy Metal Music

 Opera Music

 Punk Rock Music

 Rock Music




 Amusement Parks

 Art Galleries


 Garage Sales


 Arcade Games

 Card Games


 Intellectual Discourse

 Libertarian Politics


 Female Supremacy

 Goth Lifestyle




 Electronica / EDM

 Industrial Music



 Feng Shui




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Journal Entries:
9/8/2011 10:24:21 PM

Life is an ever changing whirlwind of chance encounters and unrealized possibilities.  Sometimes you get presented with possibilities that are just too incredible to give up on, no matter how impossible it may seem to hold on, no matter how long you have to wait to realize the dream laid out in front of you.  Sadly this often ends in a broken heart filled with pain and regret.  Sometimes though, even when it doesn't work out, you can let go before it's too late, and instead of losing heart and losing hope it can help to remind you that wonderful beautiful connections are still out there to be made.  That the world is full of incredible and interesting people, sometimes you just have to give them a chance and get to know the real person behind the profile.  I still believe in true love, that it is something we can find, that we have to work to keep it and fight to protect it, its not guaranteed, but it is out there.  Perhaps I will find it again, perhaps I'll just find fun and friends and kinky adventures.  I won't know until I look.

7/19/2011 11:24:34 PM

Not a lot of people seem to be able to flow with my stream of consciousness.  I have the tendency to go from serious philosophical intensity to light-hearted silliness to extreme distcintive geekiness with little to no warning.  I enjoy the ebb and flow of a good conversation or a good old fashioned discussion.  Perhaps I will never find a counter balance to my spinning wheel of mercurial energy, then again, perhaps its more fun to spin faster!

3/23/2011 11:29:32 PM

The search goes ever onward. 

12/10/2009 1:33:42 PM
Life is measured in years which mean nothing and moments which mean everything.

Sadly not all moments are happy, but even a sad moment can help us grow, help us realize who we are and what we need and want out of life.


11/14/2009 7:42:32 AM
Fun plans out tonight at a local bdsm club with a pretty girl...

11/2/2009 4:43:32 PM
something about the full moon just brings out the wolf in me, an energy in the air that is just palpable and cannot be ignored, so i am off to search for a lamb...

9/10/2009 2:44:06 PM
3 days off in a row and I am sick as a dog.  Such is life.

8/20/2009 12:21:00 PM
Such a chaotic and frenzied flurry of thoughts and emotions flowing through as I've met so many new people since joining this site.  So many questions unanswered and so many answers to questions never asked.  More than ever before I am now positive I chose my name well here, for in this place I find that I am searching, looking long and hard not only at others but at myself, trying to find my Zen, my center, my place in this world.   I am still searching even though I am uncertain as to whether or not such a search is ever meant to end, but even if I never reach the destination it is the journey that is important.

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