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Hetero Female Submissive, 47,  Lexington, South Carolina
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 Submissive Female


 South Carolina

 5' 4"

 300 lbs






Actively Seeking:

Dominant Male

Switch Male

 Lives For:


 Erotic touch



 Coffee Shops

 Fine Dining


 Musical Theater



 Being Massaged

 Sensory Play


 Horror Movies


 Puzzle Games

 True Crime

 TV Sports



 Conservative Politics

 Libertarian Politics

 Paranormal Phenomena


 1950s Lifestyle


 Show Tunes





 Breast Play



 Local BDSM Community

 Rear End Play


 Hair Pulling


 Massage (Giving)

 Mental Bondage

 Sensation Play


 Canes and Crops


 Curious About:


 Erotic Hypnosis


 Masks (Wearing)

 Outdoor Bondage

 Plastic Wrap Bondage

 Suspension Bondage

 Wax Play


 Eye Contact Restrictions


 Speech Restrictions

 Hard Limits:

 Modern Primitivism



 Accounting Professional

 Administrative Professional

 Computer Expert

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Journal Entries:
6/3/2014 9:06:59 AM

I hear people ask all the time, “What is it you want?” or “What are you looking for?” I always give some half-assed answer, because I really don’t know how to answer the question. Truthfully, it is because I am divided into three parts, all seeking something different. My mind, heart and body all yearn for THE relationship. But if I asked each separate part, I’d get three answers.

My mind would say, “I am looking for intelligence. I need someone who can converse about current events, politics, and other subjects which require thought and reasoning. He would have to be able to think outside the box. He would never just follow the masses blindly. Even if we do not agree, he should be able to hold his own were we to debate. He would push himself and me to learn and grow. He would also have an appreciation for sarcasm and wit, and an ability to laugh at himself. He would accept that I have a very strong mind and use it. I am not a doormat nor will I ever be treated as such again.”

My heart would say, “I yearn to be loved. I mean real love, not the possessive, jealous, conditional love I seem to find all too often. He would be strong, yet tender, always aware that his words have the power to bring me to my knees and destroy me. I need to be able to truly open up instead of holding everything in. My emotions are so stuffed down that it causes physical pain. I want to trust completely. He would also share his feelings with me. There would be no secrets between us. That must flow both ways. The walls around my heart are thick, heavy, from years of lies and abuse. There would be no drama. I have a very strong bond with my children and he would never consider trying to drive a wedge between us.”

My body would say, “I need sex, often. I ache to be used sexually, as often as possible. My sex drive is extremely high. I will not be used by a sadist for I am not a masochist. I like rough sex, to be treated like the slut I was born to be. But I will not consent to being beaten, covered in bruises, or to be pushed too hard. I need someone who is aware and can learn how to read my physical cues. He will know that, while his sexual needs must be met, so must mine if I am to flourish under his control. I am no longer a young lady. I am also obese. He will keep this in mind as I cannot crawl or kneel for long periods. Although I don’t necessarily need it, I desire to be used by others.”

Some people may argue that I don’t sound very submissive. But I believe any real D type understands that there is more to a submissive than her body. I have a deep need to submit, to hand over control. This does not mean I should be treated as a physical shell. While my mind, heart and body have different needs and desires, they are all connected within me.

4/10/2013 8:37:32 PM

I totally blows my mind how someone can go from "I love you" and "will you be mine" to "just friends" in a matter of 24 hours. That is just fucked up and shows the true colors of the person. And people wonder why we cannot trust or believe anyone anymore. They are all so full of shit!

11/22/2012 2:06:13 PM
I meet someone on CM. I spend time getting to know him. Things seem really good. Our kinks match. The dialog is good. There seems to be a real interest on both ends. And then *POOF*.....crickets. He disappears. I attempt contact to no avail. I am left feeling confused. When he reappears, he provides no explanation that makes sense. When I express my feelings, he becomes pissed. So, despite everything, I walk. The worst part is I really miss the man I met in the beginning. And the cycle repeats itself.

11/7/2012 2:25:47 PM

I want someone who is so excited about me that he cannot wait to hear my voice in the morning and wants to hear it again before he goes to sleep. Someone who thinks i am worthy of his attention and longs to be with me. Someone who misses me and isn't afraid to let me know it. Someone who thinks i am so beautiful that he wants to show me off and is proud to have me on his arm. Someone who thinks i'm so sexy that he can't keep his eyes off me.

10/10/2012 11:20:24 AM

10-10-12 It sucks bad enough to work in a cube but to spend the day crying makes it almost unbearable.

9/18/2012 8:20:01 AM

09/18/2012 - To my CollarMe stalker.... Stop making up new IDs and messaging me. No matter how hard you try to pretend you're someone else, I know it's you. You are pathetic and need to get a life!

9/16/2012 1:52:07 PM

09/16/2012 - Really, if you cannot spell, write in complete and coherent sentences, or if you use text speak, please don't message me. It's bad enough when done in your profile narrative, but if it's in a message to me, I won't answer.

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