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Introduction
It has taken me many years to realise, and finally to admit to myself, that I have a fundamental need to be in control of everything that affects my life. My vanilla marriage of 11 years broke down because I refused to compromise on matters that were important to me, though I didn't see it that way at the time. I soon entered another vanilla relationship - one from which I recently walked away after 7 years because I came to understand it could never fulfil me.
I now face two choices - live alone so that I have total control of my free time, or find a partner who is willing to submit to my will and allow me to control every major aspect of her life. It should be abundantly clear that I have chosen the latter path, but this decision was not taken lightly. I have researched at length D/s relationships, total power exchange, consensual slavery and so forth with a view to making the right decision. I believe that I have done so, but admit to a certain degree of trepidation, for with control comes great responsibility.
About Me
I am 39 years of age, caucasian, 5'9" tall and 170lbs. My complexion is fair, my hair light brown and short, and my eyes a piercing blue. I am softly spoken, somewhat shy and sometimes introverted, which together can give strangers the impression that I'm aloof and even ignorant. I can assure you that neither is the case, as my friends will freely admit. In fact I try to bring out humour in any situation, even when it isn't really appropriate.
I have a masters degree in engineering so I suppose I must be intelligent, though aside from writing it here I never give the fact a second thought. I would class myself as intellectual and I soon tire of idle conversation, unless of course it concerns a subject about which I am passionate.
For relaxation I enjoy all the usual stuff - cinema, dining out, concerts and so on. I very much enjoy seriously long walks in the country, preferably somewhere quite desolate such as Wales or Scotland. I listen to music a great deal and have eclectic tastes - everything from Jimi Hendrix to Chopin, Coldplay to Cole Porter, and Moby to Scott Joplin. The only music I don't much like is grass-roots country, heavy opera and the constant stream of over-produced trash that graces the charts these days. I am a keen photographer who favours landscapes and portraits, though as you will discover I very much enjoy glamour work. I also enjoy foreign travel and discovering new places.
For a living I work as an Internet Consultant for a large company close to my home just outside of Oxford. I thoroughly enjoy my job but it has its disadvantages, such as long days every once in a while and nights away from home. On the upside, I do make a very decent living and it gives me the stability I need to pursue my interests.
Astrologically I am a scorpion. I mention this fact not because I have a great deal of faith in astrology, but for the simple observation that I tend to "click" with fellow water signs - scorpions, cancerians and pisceans. I shouldn't worry if your not as I get on with just about anyone.
Who I Am Seeking
I am looking for a very submissive woman between the ages of 18 and 30 who, like me, is new to the scene and who has preferably not been involved in any sort of serious power exchange relationship.
You must be both slim and attractive, and preferably shorter than 5'8". Many people active in the scene will question this requirement, claiming the real beauty of a submissive lies in her mind. Of course this is true, but I am a perfectionist who is not used to compromise, and I always strive for the best.
A high sex drive with a desire to experiment with new experiences is essential, though I suspect there are few truly submissive women for whom this doesn't intrinsically apply.
You must also be a non-smoker, or at least be prepared to give up under my command.
My final requirement is that you must not have or want children. I have never experienced any paternal desires and I fail to see the attraction of children. I also believe that they can be a distinct disadvantage in a D/s relationship, making certain daily rituals difficult if not impossible to perform.
You will yearn for a dominant who, by taking control of your life, will release you from the burden and anxiety of day-to-day living. Since everything you do will eventually be determined by me you will no longer be culpable for your actions, save that you do not perform your tasks to my satisfaction. In this way, what may seem to be a very restricting relationship will actually be very liberating.
The road to this utopian state will not be easy for either of us. Understanding the lifestyle, as I believe I do, is no guarantee of success in actually living it. We will both make mistakes, get hurt, experience insecurity, rejection, pain and a whole host of other emotions. Plainly speaking, it won't be easy. My hope is that together we will learn and grow, both as individuals and as a couple living this most unusual of lifestyles.
Footnote
I have intentionally avoided discussing specific aspects of the lifestyle for I am a firm believer that one man's meat is another man's poison. Talk of discipline, punishments, bondage, collars and contracts seems completely inappropriate at this stage. We will learn the colour of each other's parachute as the relationship develops. I do not believe a dominant is any weaker for understanding his charge and treating her in the way that she secretly desires.
Thank you for your time.
Scorpious - 18-April-2005.
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