Logically I know what I'm asking for is theoretically possible: I want a friend, a teacher, a mentor, and a dom. Someone who is local, gentle, and intelligent. Someone who sees my worth, and is worth my loyalty. I don't want a sugar daddy, someone to cosset or pamper me, nor do I want a one night stand for a torrid affair.

Yet, when I look around me, at the job that's more dead-end than I'm willing to admit, the children that the ex fought for, broke, and left on my door-step, at myself, older, tireder, and less attractive than I've ever been, I can't help but think that, outside the abstract, I've not a lot to recommend me.

Still, I made a promise to a girlfriend that I would post a profile. Perhaps she should have made vetting the content part of the deal.