Well, that relationship hurt.  Everthing went well with my girlfriend until she broke it off very suddenly. 

I'm definitely too vulnerable in relationships.  But how do you love someone unless you are vulnerable?

A guy friend is showing a lot of interest in me which is nice.  He's a little rougher around the edges than I'm use to.  Too much too fast.  But he seems willing to put up with my desire for slowing down.

I'm thinking of making a switch to men for a while to see if that works better.  I don't know where BDSM will fit in the relationship, maybe just in the bedroom.

Wow!  I haven't been on CM in a long time.

I explored the Chicago LRA club and loved it.  I hope to go back more.

Right now,  I've got a girlfriend who's willing to explore BDSM with me, but I'm definitely driving the boat.  That is, she's a bit reluctant.  We're not physical, just exploring.  I seem to get more out of it than she does.

I'm so happy winter is almost over!

Chicago is the worst in the summer.  My apartment has only a fan but no air conditioning. 

I'm on my own again but happy.  It makes me wonder whether there can be a healthy dom/sub relationship because I felt me and my mistress were both trying.  Our friendship seemed to hit a wall after a while and the play wasn't as fun. 

I'm still interested in the BDSM lifestyle.  I think I have to be more proactive in how I fulfill it. 

There's a super nice guy who lives on my floor.  He's so nice and makes me smile whenever I see him.  Could this be love?

Wow!  Great session with an acquantence I met on CollarMe last night.  I know there are many bad experiences and everyone must be cautious.  This one turned out well.

The biggest factor was that my lady friend wanted to meet in public even before I asked for it.  That was a big help to convince me we had some chemistry and she wasn't going to be a danger to me.

I was tied down and manipulated.  I hit at least three highs.  They were all slow and easy.  But the top was amazing. 

I hope this is a new friend.

The last few months have been some of the best in my life.  It's been fulfilling and empowering serving my Mistress. 

Serving her brings great satisfaction.  It's what I feel I'm made to do.  We're friends most of the time and can easily move between being peers and Dom/Sub.  It's about as good as I could have hoped.

I feel stronger with Mistress.  She's the strong one, but my self esteem is growing with her.  I really needed that after a life of very low self esteem.

Thank you, Mistress!