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I am a natural dominant, always have been. I enjoy a little defiance, but only enough to get my engine revving enough to put the defiant one back down.

I have confidence in myself, & can be a bit on the arrogant side, but in a lovable way.



TPE has always intrigued me, but I think I would have to gradually move into that with someone after geting to know them for a very long time. Alot of my past journals where musings on TPE, but are by no means hard set rules.

Some of the things I have done in the past include some light rope play, rape play, role playing in various ways, and some pain play.

I hope to find someone who compliments my own interests, and am able to grow more with as time goes on, exploring & pushing boundaries, & generally becoming closer over time.

-Vanilla Interests
Role Playing games, warhammer table top miniature war games, sci fi/fantasy/horror novels, horror movies, traveling(when I can actually afford to), being artistic in some fashion, writing, video games(both console & computer but mainly computer) & just being an all around nerdy kinda guy.

I also enjoy but have limited experience with cosplay, but I want to try & do that more.

I have an associates degree in computer graphic design, no children, & work a full time job.

Sad that so many people dont have the basics like a job/car/home of their own these days.

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1/19/2010 2:33:05 AM
So in recent months I have relized that TPE is a nice thought, but to be honest with no practical experience, its no longer a goal.

Just geting to know the BDSM community & learn is my goal these days. I would rather just have a relationship of mutual enjoyment without the stress of limiting myself.

I dont know for certain if I would enjoy a TPE relationship or not, so until I get an idea of what it would be like I should just take things more casually.

10/29/2009 11:09:45 PM
Recent experiences have made me start to think I should branch out & seek submissives & switches as well as slaves.

Though I do desire a TPE relationship one day I know I do not possess the necessary experience for it yet.

It would be nice to find a slave willing to forgive my trips & falls, but I am more realistic then that.

10/8/2009 9:20:30 PM
Was caught in 5 pm traffic the other day & bored, so I took some pics of my shorter hair with the camera phone. I uploaded them just now. Enjoy.

6/1/2009 4:17:03 PM
I would like to state that alot of these journals I am posting with ideas of how I would like to function in a TPE 24/7 are merely that, ideas. I have not tried them out, and upon putting them into practice may find I dont like them.

Just wanted to clarify that.

And also I came up with the simplest difference for me to explain to people, why I prefer to call my slave pet.

A slave sounds too much like a servant that involves no emotional connection to me. Someone to serve me and nothing else.

Now some may like that, but I am inherently a person who craves emotional connection. 

A pet is a loving creature that loves her master, and would do anything to make them happy. And master loves his pet, because taking care of her makes him happy.

That is why I prefer pet to slave.

6/1/2009 6:43:39 AM
So I was having some more thoughts pertaining to TPE.

As I have said before I do want to go for a full TPE 24/7 total control eventually. This wouldn't go right away into these, but this is a part of what I would like.

Financial - Ideally I would like my pet to work at least a part time job. In these modern times the idea of totally supporting her is nice, but not practical. This is not so much to cover bills, though if she did work I would like her to chip in, but so that we may have spending money on our various.......toys......

On the subject of her actual money, depending on the slaves level of commitment to me & trust level, I would like to either open a separate account on my bank account to store her money, or have her have a bank account with a control system set up for her funds.

This has nothing to do with controling key things like car payments, rent, cell phone. That would be cruel. Nor would I use her money in any ways selfish. But lets say pet had been especially defiant & down right mean the past week or 2, well then as a punishment I might lock her access to funds that are beyond necessary amounts.

AKA no spending money. Now this particular part of TPE is a bit wavy in my head at the moment, and I wouldn't  put strain on having it if my pet was very uncomfortable with it. I think it would take alot of trust for my pet to hand over her finances to me, and that would be a showing factor in the relationship I hope.

Then onto the physical body. Obviously as I stated before I would want to have pet have imput on her clothes, but I must admit there are some things I would like to control.

Hair - I prefer long hair on women, various hair colors depending on the pet.

Body - Tattoos and piercings, while prefered & encouraged, are not something I would push on my pet.

Exercise & diet may be adjusted depending on the pets habits before collaring. I prefer pets with a little thickness to their asses, thighs, and lower regions, but there is such a thing as too much of a good thing.

And dont worry, no plastic surgery. I dont like it & would never demand that.

Thats all for now, but I shall post more as I think of them.

5/30/2009 6:08:11 PM
So today a few friends of mine sat down and had a chat about BDSM. These 2 guys are the ones who have gotten me more interested as time goes on in the master/slave relationship.

The subject was my natural dominant/aggressive/intimidating personality. Ever since high school I have carried myself a certain way. With a confidence that has always put others off. Most seem to think I am this evil sadistic asshole.

Which is partially true. I can be that evil sadistic asshole to my enemys. Or to those that would harm my loved ones.

But really I am a very relaxed laid back guy. But this dominant/aggressive/intimidation factor is a part of me. It always has been.

I am somewhat drugged up due to having all my wisdom teeth pulled, so this journal is a bit out there. But to say it flatly, I have learned to accept this fact about myself.

The nature of my personality will always fall into that of a natural dominant.

5/27/2009 10:36:16 AM
Some conclusions I have come to about things I wish to do in a master/slave relationship.

First of all, I dislike using the word slave. So I prefer to use the name pet instead. This also goes with the fact that I have a neko kitty girl fetish as well. (not furry, the only thing involved is the acting like a kitty, the ears, maybe a fake tail)

This also leads to my opinion on punishment. When pet is bad, I wont restrain her, gag her, and spank her/whip her. No.........she most likely would like that.

Instead pet will be forced to get into full neko kitty gear, and go to her cage for a certain amount of time. Pets cage will be positioned in a part of the house that I can stay very active in for the duration, where she can see master but cant get to him. She will only be allowed to make little neko kitty sounds while in her cage.

Pet would also have 2 wardrobes. Her public one, and her private one. We would take a weekend all to ourself, with a few hundred dollars saved up for the roadtrip. We woud go to all the best places to shop for these wardrobes. Pet would choose things she likes, but master has to approve of each & every one of them. This way both master & pet are happy with them.

As for rewards I beleive firmly in giving pet her own free time to do as she wishes.......when she earns it. If pet has been especially good & pleased me, I shall let her have a few hours of free time.

Another reward is to let pet pick her own outfit out for that day. Wether it be from our private collection or public one.

Overall there are alot of things I want to do for my pet. These are just some of the 1st ones. Hopefully when I find her my pet will like them.

5/24/2009 10:43:35 PM
At work at the moment, and I have been trying to analyze my finances. After I get my wisdom teeth pulled this week I believe I shall make a wish list of various "toys" I have seen on extremerestraints.com

Each paycheck I shall put back the money for one item, and then once I have enough money for at least a few of the items I will order them.

Just thinking of ways that I can still save to move & still be able to afford the things I want.

5/24/2009 1:45:06 PM
So here I sit woken up from my afternoon sleep by texting drama. -_-

I would kill to have Lady Gaga in my bed right now. Ohhhhh the things I would do to her. Maybe if I hurry I can fall back asleep & dream about that.

5/23/2009 9:42:14 PM
So it would seem that I ran into my first scammer attempting to get money out of m e.

I reported them & their profile was shortly after deleted.

How frustrating.

5/22/2009 7:37:58 AM
As of late I have been analyzing the various relationships I have had in my past.

The one thing I have come to the conclusion about all of them is that they where all mostly vanilla.

A few of the major relationships I had developed a slight level of kink, but never enough to truly satisfy me.

And the biggest problem was the approach. I am a very dominant man, and also have high standards. I abhor weakness in women when approaching an equal relationship. So much so that I end up not being satisfied by them.

The one exception was a girl I dated years ago in a long distance relationship. This was the closest I even came to a true master/slave relationship.

But she was over 4 hours away, I was in college, and we where both quite poor. Eventually she ended up finding someone closer.

But ever since then I have always wanted something like that.

Heres to hoping collar me can help me find it.

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MistressAva2005
 
 Age: 44
  Arizona