Undone
The rapture of your touch enthralls me as you burn the skin you touch with your scornful words, vicious serenades, promises of more to come.
You lay waste to any thought of pride I might have, replacing it with the shame that you fashion and place inside me.
I am spellbound. Utterly captivated by every part of you,
every part that you allow me to see. I want to see it all. I want to see you.
I want...and it does not matter because there is only you and your wants.
There is only this moment and you are here with me.
It is enough. For now.
And then, it is gone again and my soul claws at itself
willing itself to not exist until the pain returns, your pain,
the chosen kind to inflict on me. I want to be the object of
your desire, just a thing, just a girl for you to take all of your
contempt out on, your brand of violence out on, your idea of
sick, twisted love out on until I become what you want to see,
not some dream of me, but me. The one you made. And unmade.
Made to be broken, built back up, broken again, and say the only
words my swollen, bruised mouth can form, "thank you". You are a god
and I could not choose not walk down this road with you. No matter the
pain and abuse, the violence in your eyes, the lust growing into some
heated, hated thing, the punishment with each word, each time your hand
wraps itself around my throat. I am enthralled. I am in love. I am in love with
pain and violence and you are the absolute personification of everything I ever
wanted, needed, and ran away from.
I will crawl upon the altar, all you have to do is whatever you will.
I will clear from my mind everyone and everything I've ever cared for,
and minister only to your depraved, disgusting desires. I will call it love.
The masochistic need in me is greater than any desire I might have for
traditional things. You could brand me and throw me aside, you've already
branded my soul.
You are the addiction, You are the pain. You have the control,
and are the only thing that makes me come undone.