I think what is best for me is to find a switch, because simply put, a switch knows both sides of the fence, and would have great understanding of me, as a pure submissive.
Therefore, I can only be a submissive, and never be a dom. I just don't have it in me to be a dom. That's not how I am.

I hope to find a switch who is understanding, and will work with me slowly as I am a novice, only having thought about serving for years and years. Yes, I have thought of it all-----bondage, cock and ball torture, whipping,flogging, being trained in fornt of others, pubic and anal and testacle hair extraction, being done with a strap on dildo, nipple torture,etc.........However, all of this is just fantasy, and I know real time training would be so much different, because when you dream and fantacize, nothing hurts.

I just hope to find someone I can be uninhibited with and not be embaressed as I moan and yell or scream, or whine aloud, when being disciplined etc..