I've lost 69lbs so far, it's going slow now so am dealing with it. i hope u are all having a great spring. am going to turn 50 in a week. OMG!!!

63lbs so far in the weight loss.

Well i have news for those who know me well. i lost 35lbs.

I want to wish everyone a Happy New Year. god bless

I want to wish everyone i've meet over the years a Merry Christmas to u all and your families.

I want to wish every one i meet on this site a HAPPY HALLOWEEN. be safe  and careful where u go to party. get home safe and in one whole piece. don't over do it with the drinking and drugs.

I hope everyone on CM had a safe and wonderful happy 4th of July, i had a peaceful one with my family.

I want to wish all the fathers on CM a Happy Father's Day!

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Wishing u all a Happy Valentine's Day. hugs and kisses

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HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU HERE ON CM AND TO ALL YOUR FAMILY TOO. MAY THIS YEAR BRING U ALL HAPPINESS, LOVE AND PEACE.

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I want to wish everyone here on CM a Merry Christmas and may joy and happiness come to u, your family and friends. god bless.

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Ok am going to try something here and i hope i get good answers or responses. OK first of all i want to thank all the ppl that are truly have had my back and are real friends. i want to say thank you for believing in me and what am trying to do for myself. ty for positive thoughts and the cheering on. what am about to post here is very serious and i hope i can find true friends that will be willing to help me out. if u have nothing positive to say please don't say anything at all, i can do with out the "FAT JOKES' for those who know me well and for the those who just meet me i hope i can count on u and that i have real friends. I've been trying to lose weight for a very long time but my problems is, not that i eat a lot it's cause i don't eat and my metabolism has slowed down, i already found the hospital and doctor that are going to do surgery on me and i already have all the paper work to take to my primary doctor etc.. but there are 4 things i have to do on my own which are, find a Nutritionist, Psychiatrist, a clinic that perform sleep apnea testing and i have to lose 50lbs before my surgery which is in January. the first 3 i have already the problem is doing the exercises. due to the fact that i suffer from chronic asthma, chronic lower back pain, and chronic arthritis in both knees it's hard for me to go walking or join a gym. so am trying to find anyone who might own a trend mill who might be willing to let me borrow it so i can start losing weight i will pick it up and bring it back once am done, ok mind u there is no favors in return, like sex, or a bj or kissing etc.... a dinner or movie i will do but that is all. thank you all...

well my boy's and i got through this Hurricane Sandy well. it was rough cause we had no lights for 5 days here on the Lower East Side of Manhattan, but they just got back on Friday Nov 2nd at 5pm thank god.

YOU MEN DON'T GET IT. I AM NOT GOING TO RUSH INTO THE FIRST MAN THAT WANTS ME. AM GOING TO TAKE MY TIME AND THAT'S THAT. YOU DON'T LIKE IT THAN MOVE ON TO THE NEXT ONE.

I want some of u "MEN" who chat with me to understand one thing, and get it through your thick skulls. "NONE OF YOU OWN ME YET, UNLESS I AM READY AND IF I PICK YOU" SO DON'T DISRESPECT ME IN ANYWAY OR FORM" Thank You!

I tried to delete this profile but it won't delete.. could it be that some one is trying to tell me something?

I want to wish everyone here on Collarme.com a Happy New Year. be safe and careful and remember don't DRINK AND DRIVE.

I want to wish everyone here on Collarme a very Merry Christmas. be careful and safe. don't Drink and Drive, and remember Christmas is really for the kids. enjoy it with all of your families and friends.

Well am hoping my doctors are coming back from their vacations soon, i want this surgery done already. in the meantime am still dealing with pain all over my body. but am handling it.

Well i hope everyone here is doing well. as for me, am still waiting for my doctors to give me a date for my Gastric Bypass Surgery. but in the mean time i've lost 40lbs on my own. my aches and pains of my bones and back are still bothering me, but i have to keep going and deal with it.

I want to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving for those who do celebrate it. i do, but this year things aren't good, money is tight, so there won't be a Thanksgiving Dinner in my home for my kids and grand kids. which is sad. but at least we will spend it together. and we should give Thanks everyday.

God bless everyone. much love.

Just finished posting new pics of myself and pussy. enjoy

Well its going to be a hard winter for me and my family, but there is a god. Thanksgiving is just 3 weeks away and i won't be able to have Thanksgiving dinner, am going to be having my gastric bypass surgery done the day before Thanksgiving. so am going to be in a lot of pain and eating liquid food, Mmmmm. anyways wish me luck and i can use some prayers too. ty for being patient with me and dealing with my crazy life. love to u all.

Well i had to go to the emergence room Thursday morning. i was told by the doctor that the stomach contractions i was having or better yet still having is due to the gallbladder surgery i had a month ago. that things are going to take a little longer to get better. so i have to take pain and nausea medication to feel better. so if u don't see me online for awhile is cause am trying to recover. later cm.

Question for women that are BBW'S and SUPERSIZEBBW'S... do u think that men who admire us BIG BEAUTIFUL WOMEN really celebrate us cause we are BIG? or do they EMBRACE us cause we have great PERSONALITIES, or BEAUTY? do they really enjoy having us as their FRIENDS, LOVERS, or SOUL MATES? or is it just SEX? we do have more to offer than just SEX...

Well i had posted here not so long ago that i was going to have gastric bypass surgery and my gallbladder surgery. well, i had my gallbladder surgery done on 8/22/11 Monday night at 11:45pm and to let u all know, this pain surgery is worse than having gold-stones. i was discharged on Tuesday late afternoon. so now am home trying to recover.. i can't hardly walk cause the pain is to intense. i have 4 holes that look like bullet holes.. 3 on my belly and on inside my belly button.. that is the one that is hurting the most.. anyways, my boys are helping me out.. i can't do anything around the house not even cook for my kids.. can't lift anything that is 5lbs or more.. so am trying to walk as much as i can so i don't get any stiffness in my bones or muscles.  if u don't see me here is cause am trying to get well. so tty all later,, much love

Am not taken or owned by anyone. fakers fakers fakers... leave me alone. i need a real person to make me his sub... pls don't waste my time.. if u are really into SSBBW'S than that's me and u can chat with me and if we click we can meet up and chat and get to know one another and than maybe, just maybe u can be my Dom/daddy and am your Sub/babygirl...

I want to thank all for being patient with me and for those who i made friends with. the respect and love that u all have given me.. i know i haven't been easy to deal with. but now i am happy and found the man of my life. i love u Master Ben, so for all that know me pls don't be strangers. friends are friends. and i will only be chatting with female subs/slaves.. god bless u all

Am tired to dealing with ppl that are fake, i have been honest with all of u, but it seems that it's not enough. ppl tend to find me fake, i don't know why, like i said, i am  not going to jump with the first person i meet on this site, as for my pictures my daughter took them for me the only i took was the one in the bathroom. i haven't been able to meet some of u in person cause i have my issues that i have to deal with before i can deal with anyone. those who know what is going on with me, i thank you for your support and patience. today was a rough day, i took a test called the halter and it's radiation shock waves on both my arms, and that hurt a lot. it's to check the nerves in my brain and and heart. since am going to have the gastro by pass surgery and my gold stones removed the doctors want to make sure that my heart will be able to handle both surgeries at the same time. on Wednesday am going for the catheter which is a needle going into my groin or arm straight to my heart with a mini camera. am doing this to be more healthy and to see my grand kids grow up.

Am tired of searching for the right person to take me and make me his. i am tired of fake ppl and liars. i do have a busy life, cause my kids come first, but i want that person to be able to understand that am not looking to do this life style 24/7 am looking for a long term relationship, but not to make this life style my world and my need. being submissive for me, means. control me only in the bedroom, to pls my partner and him to pls me too. to have each others back etc... to be loved and cared for. so pls if u aren't into ssbbw and u are only looking to have fun for a while. am not that person.  so don't waste my time.

I just want to wish all the Mother's who are on this site, a Happy Mother's day.

TODAY IS MY 47TH BIRTHDAY. DAMN, 3 MORE YRS FOR 50.

I wanted to let ppl know here on cm who know me in person and on here, that i will not be coming online much, i have personal medical things to take care of before i can deal with this life style. it's "NOT" contagious, but it can kill me if i don't take care of it now. so i will be posting my recovery as it goes along. ty for those who care and have a heart. much love. Marisol

Just to let my friends know. that i was in the hospital since Monday night 2am until friday the 29th am home now resting. ttyl. much love, Marisol

If by any chance for those that know me, and have meet me in person, don't see me online this week, it's cause i am in the hospital. i have been sick for the past 3 weeks with a very bad cold, and my asthma has not gotten any better, so am going to the ER on Monday to make sure it's nothing bad, but if i am admitted. i will contact u all when i get out. ty much love to u all. Marisol

I am wasting my time here.. a lot of u want to meet me, but talk a lot of BS, so am giving up.

I know the right person is out there for me. i want to love and be loved. and taken care of.. am not asking for me much believe me.

Well that's it for me, am done, i had it already, i can't keep doing this, am never able to meet up with anyone and i haven't found the right man. ty all for being patient with me and chatting with me when possible. u were are nice and kind. good luck to many of u. and god bless u all. much love always Marisol

Well am about to give up. i am tired of repeating myself over and over again. READ MY PROFILE PPL. If by the end of this month i don't find my partner for life, i am going to delete my account. Give me a reason to pick you......

Well the New Year is coming, and am praying that Mr. Right comes along.. I know he is out there, so pls come fourth.