My dating life has always been something that I’ve not been outspoken about. A motto that I have is that I keep my dating life private, but I ever have a relationship status change then people will be sure to know. Today I’m making a rare entry that will delve a bit into my personal life and my past.

It usually doesn’t take long after I get to know someone for them to ask the infamous question, “Why are you single?”. It happens time and time again when I meet someone new. “You’re not a bad looking guy, Ryan, and you have yourself together. What’s the deal?”

To understand why I’m single requires knowing me on a more personal level and understanding how I’ve lived my adult life. What it ultimately boils down to is that I’ve lived a highly independent life full of freedom.

What I consider to be my adult life basically started when I was 19, almost 20. At the time, I was still living with my parents and saving up money from my first job. I was always great about saving money as a kid growing up – every dime went into the bank. They approached me one day and explained that they were going to sell the house that they were currently living in, located in Maryland Heights, and that they found a new house in Defiance — about 45-60 minutes from anywhere I’ve ever lived, as well as my work. I spent the next week considering my options. I shopped around at nearby apartment complexes and wasn’t very impressed. Then I considered the idea of buying a house because I didn’t like the idea of paying so much in rent and not having control over the space I was living in. It was a very intimidating idea, especially for me being only 20 at the time. I just entered the workforce and got a new job, just got my first car (which was a terrible one), I’d be living paycheck to paycheck, and I’d be living on my own and not within close proximity to my immediate family. But I decided to pull the trigger. I was able to get myself qualified for a mortgage and took all of the money that I had saved from my first job and growing up to use as a down-payment to buy a house.

So there I was. Twenty years old and owning an older, smaller, three bedroom house of my own. Living alone, and coming home to a house with nothing but my few possessions at the time. Thankfully, my first real job was going well. At the time, I was working in customer service and sales was getting promoted pretty rapidly. Eventually I got into management, and started making more money – which eased the financial stress a bit. My life at that time was mostly focused on building up the foundation that I just started building.

After much frustration with my first car, I eventually eased the stress of my vehicle situation by purchasing my first Civic. I was extremely focused on paying it off as rapidly as possible, and I did. Shortly before buying my Civic, I made the decision to shift from my current management position over to an IT support role that had opened up, which is where my true ambitions were. That position changed me as a person and remains the best job I’ve ever had. I enjoyed it so much that I was focused on it, and continued to also be focused on building my overall foundation. Dating was simply not a priority at the time. I had so many distractions, from the job I loved to my house and other projects that I had going on in my life.

The IT position that I obtained also contributed to my independence in more ways than I’d ever realize. With that position, there were periods of time when I’d be gone half of the month, traveling for business. It got to a point where I became a lot more comfortable doing things by myself. My thought process was that I basically had two options; stay in the hotel and be bored, or go out, explore the city, and make the best of it. That is when I became a lot more comfortable traveling by myself, going to restaurants alone, and going to movies by myself – to name a few. When I got comfortable with doing that during business trips, it began to transition into my personal life.

Even today, I will go to a bar or restaurant or catch a movie and be completely happy and confident going alone. And if I want to, meeting new people along the way usually isn’t a problem. Even when it comes to traveling, I am very happy with the trip just going by myself and doing what I want. Just this past year I went to Hawaii by myself and had an amazing time. I did everything that I wanted, met some amazing people, and had complete freedom and independence.

Fast forward to today. I’ve owned my house for more than ten years. Nearly the entire time I’ve lived in it, I’ve lived alone. I’ve traveled – mostly solo – across many parts of the country. I’ve become used to the independence, the freedom, and being focused on my goals and ambitions and desires. When I desire more social aspects in my life, I call my small circle of friends that I have or just go somewhere.

My life has been blessed and I’ve been a fortunate person. I’m happy with where it’s at, with what I’ve achieved, and with what I’m aiming to achieve. As far as my dating life is concerned, more often than not it’s generally as active as I desire it to be. However, when you’re as independent as I am, when you’re truly happy with your life just as it is, and when you don’t feel a need to be with someone, it makes you a lot more selective about who you actually get involved with.

When I am in a relationship, I change quite a bit. She becomes the forefront of my thoughts every day and her priority in my life is right there alongside my career and family. So all this said, I am not against relationships. In fact, if I could change one thing about my life that I don’t have complete control over, it would be to have that awesome woman that is supposed to be in it. But it’s not something I’m willing to rush, and it when it happens then it will happen.

And there’s a personal glimpse into me, never written before.

One of the things I enjoy about this lifestyle is the intensity of the relationships that are developed. When a woman surrenders herself, offers her body, mind, her entire heart.

The intensity of the passion; the kissing, the touching, the sensuality, the absolutely amazing romance, sex, and incredibly naughty kink that comes with it - can be intoxicating and consuming.

Have you ever had the kind of play session where the orgasms fill your entire body with warmth and makes your knees tremble when you stand up? Those are the type that I enjoy giving to my submissive girl, knowing that she will take very good care of me as well.

Below is an example of one of my favorite type of scenes to perform on a partner. The minor details and individual activities are subject to change, of course, but you get the idea.

She'll start off laying on my bed, wrists and ankles bound with leather cuffs. Her arms and legs spread by the cuffs, exposing all that she has. Her eyes will be covered by a blindfold, leaving her helpless and never knowing what's going to happen next or how I'm about to thoroughly enjoy her. Anticipation fills her mind, wondering at every moment what I'm going to do with her next.

My lips will brush against hers, my tongue slipping between them and into her mouth in a long, deep kiss. Slowly, my lips move downwards, forcing her to tilt her neck as my tongue flicks against it, sucking gently and peppering kisses along the length, making her moan with pleasure as she trembles slightly, desiring more.

My hands wander over her body, teasing her and sending shivers through her, all of the way down to her clit, making her moist... My hands caress her breasts as my fingertips roll over her nipples, playing with them and rolling them between my fingertips. My tongue follows, slipping over them and making them hard, soaking them with my saliva as my fingers continue to roll against them. My fingers continue to move downwards, running over her thigh before teasing her clit, rubbing playfully.

After a few moments, helpless moans escape from her lips as she feels a vibrator against her, giving her just enough sensation to leave her begging for more. As it continues to tease her and sends pleasure coursing through her entire body, she feels my hands run through her hair, grasping it and pulling it to move her head. She feels my cock being pressed to her lips before slipping into her mouth, her tongue bathing me. My cock becomes fully erect as her lips run up and down the length thoroughly, making me moan quietly.

Finally, after so much anticipation and build up, the moment comes and she gets what she has been waiting for - she feels me slip between her legs and grasp her body, pulling it towards me as I slide my cock inside of her, slipping in and out repeatedly, her muscles tightening against me as I grasp her body to go deeper, filling her with extreme pleasure...