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	Havent been on in a year or so. Time for a new profile thing. I think at this point i'm mainly looking for friends in the lifestyle and if it develops into something more, than it does. Most of the time i'm a laid back person, I'm still dominant with this personality though. I'm not a huge going out kinda guy, i like to spend my time watching movies or playing games or hanging out with my friends. I'm a very awkward person at first but as i get to know someone i open up. Most of the time you'll get dry wit and sarcasm from me. On a kinkier note i'm very sadistic. I love to cause pain in any form. I delight in sensory deprivation, whipping, scratching, biting, flogging, smacking, pinching, etc. I'm not really looking for a full time slave but if things turned out right i'm not pushing the idea away either. If you want to know more, drop me a line and i'll get back to you.

4/7/2010 2:20:19 PM

Story of my life. I find a woman i would absolutely die for and she strings me along like a puppet. People dont know who they're messing with. I always end up being a stepping stone for them until they find someone else. It's like the love we shared never existed. At least my old friend loves me. Death comes and wipes my tears away when my untouchable heart gets broken. He sits beside me in bed and tells me at least i get the chance. People see him and run. I feel sorry for my old friend so i promised him that when it was my time i would hug him.

4/11/2009 9:40:02 AM

Been in Vegas for 8 days. Dont wanna leave but have to come back to reality at some point. *sigh* Wish i was coming home to someone special though.

3/18/2009 4:22:37 PM

It's 7:15 pm 8 days before my 21st birthday and i feel no excitement. I stare at the knife, quivering as a child would, in my hand. I've seen the knife slash at me thousands upon thousands of times, but i only endure never die, as if god taunts me. The cold steel feels great upon my neck. The teeth bite gently as my eyes close. My breathing gets more rapid and i smile. My old friend death has has placed his hand on the knife but only i can move it. I let the teeth bite a little harder. I can feel the sweet embrace of death driving me mad, beckoning me toward the dark depths of the ultimate unknown. My eyes open and i take the knife away. It's only been 5 minutes. The thoughts of what could have been linger and fade as if they were never there. My friend death tells me things will get better..but they never do. I think he means for him. I put the knife down and stare at the clock. Watching life tick away from me. Thinking of how sweet the embrace of extinction would be.

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haileymiller21

Age: 21

Saint cloud, Minnesota