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I just realized that I haven't written in my journal in a while.
Mistress returned last month from her visit to Europe to visit her daughter and parents. It is nice to have her back. We have been catching up on our cuddling and doing a little Christmas shopping, in addition to catching up on our playing.
Real life, unfortunately has interrupted, not allowing us too much time for that. I lost a close relative this month, and have been extremely busy in my “vanilla” life. I have been battling depression and seasonal-affective a lot as a result. Sometimes it is way better to have a wife than a Mistress. This has been one of those months. Oh, sure, the holiday will get here, and we will get some serious playing in. But I consider myself lucky and blessed this month to have a life partner that gets that I am in pain, and is willing to help me dig myself out.
I love you, my wife and Mistress! |
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Mistress is home - Hurray!
We are actively searching people who are comfortable and creative with ropes to help us set up a scene. Any takers? |
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Mistress is home - Hurray!
We are actively searching people who are comfortable and creative with ropes to help us set up a scene. Any takers? |
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Mistress is home - Hurray!
We are actively searching people who are comfortable and creative with ropes to help us set up a scene. Any takers? |
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Mistress arrives Monday evening. It will be nice to have her home. Thanks to all of you who helped keep me company while she was gone by taking the time to drop me an e-mail. I have saved them all for her to enjoy when she returns. |
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My last weekend without my Mistress. I am so happy she is coming home. I’ve missed her. That sounds trite, I guess. But I do miss her. I miss the warmth of her body as she snuggles up against me on these cold nights. I miss the reassurance of her hugs. I miss the passion of her kisses. I miss our conversation about matters weighty and trivial. I miss my partner, my friend, my lover.
Oh yeah, and she ties my rear up and spanks it pretty good, too!
One week to go. I can make it. |
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Yet more advice please...
Mistress and I would like to practice some outdoor bondage in the Portland area. What is it about it; being outside in the fresh air? being in a new space? the risk of getting caught? Anyway, it sure pushes buttons - for us both! We are looking for a new and creative place to have some fun. Any of you wonderful people have any great ideas? |
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Advise please? I have a CB-2000 chastity device that I would like to wear more often. I work in a field where even the slightest indication of something 'kinky' going on will get you fired. My experience has been that it is pretty easy to see the CB-2000 under clothing in certain circumstances. I am looking for advice for clothing or other things that can help camouflage the cage so that I can wear it full time. Any good advice from wearers or Mistresses would be appreciated! |
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Thought for the day: why doesn’t someone make an affordable male chastity device that can be worn comfortably (and inconspicuously) underneath clothing. Surely a country and can put astronauts on the moon… |
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Here is my new pet peeve. I understand the need of the many Mistresses on CM to demand a picture. We all would like to know who we are talking to. I can't post mine for public reasons, but am always happy to provide it when asked. But after demanding my picture, is it too much to ask for some kind of reply. A simple thanks would be enough. There is a difference between being a submissive and submitting to rudeness. There is little enough civility in the world without our corner of it contributing. |
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Another weekend by myself. Mistress is having a great time with friends and family in Europe while I toil away at the job here. She has me wearing a pair of panties under my clothes for Her every day, and a gag for at least 1/2 hour while I type at the computer. It keeps me thinking about Her, but mostly makes me miss Her more... |
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It’s all about trust, this Bondage thing, isn’t it? I mean, if you listen to the experts, I was imprinted with my interest for this fetish when I was very young – but I don’t remember why. I know that it turns me on to be restrained, and in that restraint give myself up to another. And it is precisely through that trust that former partners have tried to bring me down. You know the type – the “I know you told me about that before, but I really didn’t believe you meant it, you’re sick” – types. I am lucky to be someone now that I trust completely, more than anyone I have ever met before in my life. I wonder if she knows the power she has to hurt me? It is scary to give up that much power to a partner, isn’t it? And wonderful, too. Happy Holloween… |
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Mistress has left the country for a few weeks to visit her family. I miss her already... |
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